The Tutorial Is Too Hard

[I know your plan.]

I narrowed my breath and exhaled long.

I didn't want to see it shake.

No matter how much God reads my mind.

I didn't expect to mention the conversation I had with the god of slowness in her temple.

All God could read was my deep surface, and I knew, of course, what had happened in the other gods' temple would not be known.

There was a reason why the god of slowness cared for words at the end.

The laughter of the god of hope tickles my ear again.

It wasn't a big smile or a loud voice.

The sound of questionable sarcasm drags all my attention away.

“What do you mean? ”

Why don't you ask me about your plan? Sorrowful.]

“Are you disappointed?”

[Yes, I'm disappointed. Why didn't you ask me about your plan?]

What a bummer.

I can't believe I'm so disappointed in that.

[Tell me.]

There were two reasons.

First of all, I didn't have to ask another god because I had to answer some questions by myself.

The second one.

“I didn't think you'd approve of my plan. ”

For what reason?]

“The hope you interpret is the most powerful restraint in the world. It was nice to meet you, given the control of the system, but I didn't think you'd mind. ”

As long as I've been watching, I can now tell the gods apart to some degree.

I heard laughter in my ears again.

[Hope I interpreted. You're being rude. I am the hope.]

I didn't think so.

It was just a personal interpretation of God in front of me.

[What matters is not what you think, you rude and stupid human being.]

“No, all that matters is what I think. Like you're cutting out hope in your own way. ”

I stopped laughing in my ears.

Even the sound that I did not recognize disappeared, a world of perfect silence unfolded.

[I have something to tell you.]

“I heard everything I wanted to hear. We are now going to move on to the next stage. Please let me go. ”

With my words, a portal appeared beneath my feet.

I didn't know the portal would appear on my own free will, even if God didn't send it.

I stand on the cold portal and try to move outside, but the god of hope mutters.

[Are you running away?]

“ ……. ”

You stand on the portal and remain silent for a moment.

The laughter of the lost god of hope circles in my ears again.

[Funny, you can't avoid it. It's so fun.It's too bizarre to judge a human mind.]

“Tell me. ”

[Now you're even giving orders to God.]

The existence of the god of hope changed.

Overwhelming presence that filled this space with such a fragile presence as a wingworm compared to a huge space.

I couldn't stop it from taking over my body.

Even try to stop it.

I was already in the room.

It was I who stood before God that became a fly.

[Yes, as anxious as you were, I wanted to play you. I wanted to give fishing line to you swimming in despair deeper than anyone else when the time came. But you didn't seem too keen on catching it when you died. Rejecting hope in desperation. How fascinating. I was able to understand you a little better than the other gods.]

The power revealed by the god of hope was formidable.

The sound of flying flies humming now sounds as if a giant monster is putting its teeth in my ear and growling.

[How does this moment feel to be pressured by my power? Aren't you happy? Aren't you excited that the walls you have to climb are so high?]

The growling god of hope continued.

[Of course I know about your goals. Every god in our vaccine knows that. I have to ask, is your goal really for Lizard Man? Tell me the truth, isn't it self-satisfying after all? If you want to save that Lizard Man, be an apostle of the slow god now. Go out there and build an overwhelming public record and trade it for the vaccine. It won't take long. Three hundred years.]

I could hear and understand the word of the god of hope.

“… that's what you wanted me to say. ”

[Yes. I was going to throw hope at you first, who was too used to lying in despair. There's nothing more harmful to deep sea fish than strong light.]

It was clear what God was after.

It didn't matter if I wasn't convinced right now.

What God wants is to plant a gap in his heart.

When I'm tired and want to give up everything someday, I tempt myself to whisper that there is a path other than this one.

[Once upon a time. But I do now. That you won't be easily shaken. It was in your nature that the god of slowness spoke. A firefly that wants to be a firefly. To you, despair was not darkness, but light.]

The aura of the god that felt ferocious now felt as warm as the sun.

The god of hope whispered with heat that seemed to melt away.

[Let me tell you a story that the god of slowness couldn't.]

[The poor Goblins and Lizard Men aren't the only ones trapped in the system, as you might think. As gods, we are bound by the constraints of the system.]

[And there are also gods who want to throw it away. You know what kind of gods they are.]

[Don't be anxious, go ahead. The most powerful gods in the vaccine will support your will.]

* * *

I cleared my mind for a moment.

“I don't understand. ”

[What?]

“I don't know why you're doing this to me. ”

[Do you want to know?]

“Yes.”

Suddenly, I laughed as if the god of hope had fun returning to the shape of a wingworm that showed his existence once again.

[In the meantime, you want to know the essence. Excellent behavior, always focused on excellence. Yeah, I'll tell you. And since it doesn't arouse your curiosity, there's nothing you can do about it.]

[You know the gods' interest in you is disappearing. We have determined that your temper is a struggle. And I knew you'd set an incredibly difficult and dangerous goal, and you weren't willing to give it up. That's why they gave you up.]

They decided it was a moth that was going to burn and fall.

The God of Hope added.

[Not an incorrect analysis. In fact, you think your goal is impossible, don't you? That's why he targeted it. If it had been a goal I could have worked hard to achieve for years, I wouldn't have had it in the first place. Life will be meaningless after you accomplish that. It also means that life before achievement is meaningless.]

[The gods think your goals are futile. Just like you. An impossible target for mortals. And it's true. Problem is.]

[You have continued to achieve impossible goals.]

[I know a lot about humans. I have seen how weak and easy the human body and mind are. I've seen what they crave in the past. As a human being, I understand how harsh the mountains you've climbed have been to Humans.]

[Because there are challengers on other dimensions of Hell difficulty, the gods didn't think much of you. The gods who support you don't really think you can achieve your goals. I think you're more likely to fail. I'm just thinking about you a little more seriously. It's weak, but it's a possibility.]

The god of hope, who finished the long explanation, was finally sentenced.

[Now go.]

At the next moment, my body was moved from the temple of the god of hope to the field of Kirikiri.

Kirikiri screams before his eyes adjust to the sudden light.

“Hao Jae-ae!”

* * *

I bought you a cake to get rid of today's annoying curry, and then I cleared my mind a distance away.

I'm not sure what the god of hope really wants yet.

But I needed to sort out the information he had thrown at me.

First, the god of hope informed me that several gods have opposed the control of the system and will sincerely support my march.

Apparently, he wants me to be optimistic about the fact that I can be helped by God.

Optimism is an obstacle enough to get in the way of my future journey.

I looked at Kirikiri's face.

I was eating his cake, but I was looking at my gut.

I don't know if the cake goes in your mouth or through your nose.

Through conversations with the god of hope, we have made it clear that the gods are also subject to substantial constraints by the system.

Kirikiri is now completely distracted from the cake and staring at me.

Most gods may think that one day I will give up or compromise my goals.

But there are gods who continue to react to my march and support it.

As the gods of hope have said, what they want is also out of control of the system.

They want me to make a variable for him.

“Isn't that right?"

Kirikiri grins and picks up the cake plate again as if nothing had happened.

Seeing that, I moved on to the next one.

The following was information about the Holy Land.

It was not something I would ask Kirikiri right now, nor any information I could use.

I just remembered what the god of hope said.

Next, I wondered how the gods could read my thoughts.

At first, the god of hope knew the slow god and the conversation I had with him.

“That's because he's not an apostle of another god. Challengers haven't been assigned yet, and the gods of the vaccine can all keep an eye on the prize. ”

“Yes, I know that, but it's weird to be able to watch what happened in the other gods' temple. ”

“The way the gods watch the challengers is not to watch the space in the tutorial. We share his vision and his thoughts through a handset that exists for the challenger. ”

There was an error in my perception.

I thought the gods were watching the challengers as they were watching on CCTV, but in reality it's more like peering at thoughts and gazes through a first-person screen.

There's only one last clue left.

I knew the gods could read my thoughts.

I find it frustrating, I like it, and I reverse it.

And I also knew that the scope of mind reading was only a deep surface of my mind.

But I had mistaken the extent to which the gods could read my thoughts.

Through repeated conversations with the gods, I could see that all they knew was the outer surface of my thoughts.

The reason I was mistaken was Kirikiri.

I've been thinking about her, so there's a discrepancy in perception.

Kirikiri is reading my thoughts more deeply than any other gods.

The difference was obvious.

“Hee hee.”

“It's not a compliment. ”

It is not yet clear whether she is a manager or for other reasons.

Even if you ask, the information value will be insufficient.

“Correct!”

One way or another, I knew for sure.

The gods cannot fully read the minds I intend to hide.

I know I'm challenging an invisible end.

But I'm not a fanatic who wants to throw himself into a meaningless challenge and oxidize.

I am definitely challenging it to achieve my goals.