The Tutorial Is Too Hard

[Lee Hyung-jin]

I repeated that I had thrown the monster ball up onto the bed and received it.

I was dazed.

He's devastated, he's powerless.

A strong feeling of dehydration was eating away at my whole body.

It's been like this ever since I've been to the competition stage.

It's the feeling of helplessness.

I didn't think I could do anything. I didn't think I had to do anything.

I didn't do this just when I was doing the stage separately with my brother.

Rather, there was motivation after the duel.

It was after I was knocked unconscious, but I decided to live with myself, thinking about my future plans.

Not until the gods were involved in the fighting stages.

After that, I had to run all day.

I didn't even remember the exact moment.

We had to work our asses off just to get away from endless explosions and the heat that was burning the planet's earth.

Nevertheless, I almost died many times.

If I'd reacted really loosely, I would have died in the explosion, not to mention the group I was with.

And the last moment.

When I dug a deep tunnel on the other side of the planet, I felt a strong vibration starting from the ground.

If the gods hadn't sent the group out in time, they would have survived.

I wouldn't have.

At that time, I decided that.

As soon as that pulse gets this far, you're gonna die.

So I pulled out the monster ball that had evacuated the woman named bina.

I can't protect my body, but if I'm in the Monster Ball, maybe I'll live.

The entrance garden for the monster bowl was one person.

At that time, I wasn't worried about binary being addicted to the monster bowl.

You decide to kill the rest of the party and let yourself in.

They could have let me out after I went into the monster ball.

After the explosion, they could have survived and blamed my actions.

Then I thought it was right to kill and enter neatly.

After all the commotion, I came back to my place and had a lot of thoughts.

I felt strange about myself.

Of course I knew I was different.

I was trapped in this crazy hell, and I couldn't help but change.

But I couldn't believe how simple it was for me to try to kill someone else.

I decided to kill people too quickly and simply.

And if the situation didn't end there, so be it.

I would have killed him.

Even if I had gone behind my back and regretted it, that moment would have killed people without any blame for my survival.

I was strange like that.

Like you're not yourself.

I felt skepticism and futility.

I don't know what I'm trying to do to survive.

Am I right to live while hurting other people?

I didn't think about it in the tutorial stage.

I was on the 12th floor, and no one ever showed up onstage.

It was fucking dangerous, but at least I didn't feel guilty about killing the monster.

I was happy that I survived after I was willing to kill them.

But am I okay with killing people like monsters?

No matter how close I was to death.

The most painful thing was that if I ever got back into the same situation, I would try to kill someone again.

Without a worry, I was sure I would make my decision faster than anyone else.

What was bothering me was not just the meeting about myself.

I am not confident that I can make it through the stages of Hell difficulty that will unfold.

I was vaguely scared.

The horror that I felt on the run seemed to be the same in front of the stage.

I was filled with anxiety that if I went in, I would die, not wondering if I could clear the stages above.

[Hojae Lee, 49th Floor: I'm sorry.]

This is the message that came at dawn.

We talked a long story.

In the course of that long story, I didn't say a grudge or disappointment.

I didn't hate him or disappoint him.

I was too bored with fear to have such trivial emotions.

I kept repeating that I was fine like a broken robot.

“It can't be.... ”

I took a big breath.

The chest felt frustrated and feverish, as if it had swallowed a hot lump of iron.

I grabbed the monster ball that I kept throwing and receiving.

That day, the monster ball did its part.

In fact, it was the first time I ever used this monster ball.

This Monster Ball was not purchased from the Shop window, it was given as an additional reward for clearing the stage.

At first I thought, "What rubbish items?"

He would, too, for me to attack the stage alone, this monster ball was useless.

Someone doesn't clear the stage for you because you're in the monster bowl.

Rather, the situation will only become more dangerous while inside the monster ball.

But that day, the monster ball proved its usefulness well.

The binary, which was about to be breathed right away, was out of the monster's bowl and alive before she could begin treatment.

Without the Monster Ball, he would have died on the race stage.

On a stage that could never be cleared and could never be saved, binary was able to come back alive thanks to the monster ball.

I might be able to use this.

The most troubling thing on Hell difficulty is the 17th floor.

If I put myself in this monster bowl and give it to Hojay.

If only we could get across the 17th floor and get upstairs.

Wouldn't I have a much better chance of surviving?

The question is, is this possible?

Dammit, I have to ask Kirikiri about this.

I wish I'd come up with this idea earlier.

Anyway, let's take this and ask my brother.

Just this afternoon, I was supposed to meet with the Deputy Chief of the Vigilante.

I felt a little lighter because I was optimistic.

After I finished preparing for my trip, I left the door and remembered the god who gave me this monster bowl.

She once blamed me for giving her useless items, but now she was really grateful.

Dear God of hope.

[The God of Hope smiles upon you.]

* * *

[Kim Min Hyuk]

The book is strange.

One or two numbers were not missing.

I started from the beginning and calculated it myself, but the results were completely different from the books.

This is not a mistake by the person who wrote the book.

No such messy book can be born without making a mistake.

This is a book written by a human who can't even use my diary properly.

What the hell was the person who wrote this book thinking?

A preschooler who hasn't learned all the rules yet.

Rather, it is likely that the market was distracted and created as a developer.

And it is more likely that the books were not of interest from the beginning.

Whoever wrote this book should be instructed not to leave the paperwork in the future.

After a deep sigh, I raised my hand and pressed against the eye area.

I felt like my cornea would pop out because my eyes were so dark for so long.

You removed the potions from your inventory.

After drinking the HP recovery potion to the wound healing potion, the pain subsides.

I stretched while sitting in a chair and loosened my stiff shoulders and waist.

After stretching, my body became heavier rather than lighter.

I needed a break.

I wanted to drink a bottle of Elixir, but now that the Elixir belonging to the vigilante is gone, the Elixir can't be obtained even if I wanted to.

The vigilantes were struggling.

More people have to do more work, but the number of people who can handle it remains the same.

I needed more support.

In fact, there were many people who wanted to join the vigilantes as clerks.

But the conditions were strict.

I asked Park Jing 'a how to mitigate the condition several times, but she said no.

I even tried to put it up as a meeting agenda, but the majority of members rejected my proposal, just like Park Jing 'a.

All those opposed were members unrelated to office work.

Damn it.

I sighed deeply.

I thought I could sleep tonight, but this damn ledger kept me up all night again.

I thought I wanted to get rid of it all now.

I think about it several times a day.

I wanted to get rid of it all and just enjoy the festival and spend some time with my boyfriend.

Last night, I was scolded for not caring about myself.

He was working with the vigilantes, so he stopped nagging at all to understand the situation.

It was clear that no one else could even understand why he was so busy.

Lying on the chair, I checked the time and got into a pose.

I checked my inventory for pre-stocked items and changed.

There was a place where I had to go and come out before writing a messy book from scratch.

Lee Ho-jae.

A few days after the race started, I had to find the guy who was stuck on the training stage and still not coming out until the end of the race.

The first few days I spent hanging out in the room with Jung and Jing, and the market was also running well. One day, I entered a training stage immediately after participating in the competition stage and did not come out.

At that time, I had to barely convince him to leave the training stage first.

After that, I had to go to him every time.

The taste was bitter.

Unlike before, he showed a more humane appearance and relaxed appearance, and suddenly he returned to his previous life.

When I was out in the open and focused on my growth.

I should have led you into the race stage a little later.

I put on my new clothes and tidied up my parakeet in front of the mirror in the corner.

Before I met him, I was always so concerned about my appearance.

When I meet for a short walk at night, I prepare a few minutes before I leave.

When I met him, I always needed this preparation.

He always watches people.

It wasn't because I was shy.

If you are shy, you don't look at people that closely.

The eye is more of a beast facing the opponent without hesitation than the notice of a herbivore.

I wanted to look a little more relaxed in front of the people's mindset.

I wanted to maintain a comfortable attitude towards a friend, not a superior attitude.

I didn't want him to see me struggling and sometimes anxious.

That's what he wanted too.

Unlike what he does, he is quite lonely.

I wouldn't trust anyone on the Korean server, but I did.

He was very, very far from normal, but he liked to have a more casual conversation and a more comfortable relationship.

I'm trying to fit into that relationship.

It was never easy to mix a mean joke with a comforting attitude and a opponent who could kill a hundred or a thousand people at will.

I was uncomfortable, but had to pretend to be comfortable and treat him.

Occasionally, I thought, "Why don't we strengthen the vigilante's hierarchy and sit at the head because he is authoritative and arrogant?"

Of course, the vigilantes or the Korean servers would have been a mess, but at least it would have been much more convenient to treat him.

Knock, knock.

Knock.

I retreated in front of the mirror and headed for the door.

The only person who could knock on my room was the guest.

A vigilante would rather just knock on my visit and waste my time than send a message.

And there was only one guest scheduled for today.

When I opened the door, I saw Lee Hyung-jin standing in front of the room.

“How, right away? ”

“Yes, of course. ”

I got up and left the room with Lee Hyung-jin.

Outside the room, there were vigilantes working with desks.

There was also Park Junga.

She tries to assign you a separate room, since you're the director, but she hates being left alone in a cramped room.

I tried to work in the same space as the Gekko people.

I knew that such behavior was uncomfortable for the people below.

Park Jung-ah, who was reviewing something, raised her head.

“I'm going out for a while. ”

Park said he knew, nodding his head and turning his gaze back to the desk.

I didn't say exactly where I was going, or would get in the way of work.

I left the Vigilante headquarters, being escorted by people.

Every one of the people I encountered asked me where I was going and it took me a while to get out.

In fact, the words "escort" were hidden in a greeting, "Where are you going after work?"

Shit, am I a working machine?

They really are family.

You walk down a quiet street from the headquarters.

It was time for everyone to go to sleep, so I didn't see anyone wandering the streets.

Lee Hyung-jin just walked quietly.

He was always this quiet.

I remember him as a more chatty friend.

I don't even know if I have any concerns.

Walking down the street reminds me of the old days.

When I first started vigilantes and started this.

I was amazed even when I looked back now.

It began with the vigilantes' willingness to beat and kill all the criminals and reserve criminals.

Plus, he's like, "Oh, yeah. ’The vigilantes formed a vigilante.

Although he also contributed to the vigilante effort, the vigilante was objectively enriched to become another criminal group at the time.

For a while after the formation, it was the same.

I came all the way here to try to stop it somehow and say I have to purify it a little.

After walking a little, I arrived in front of the square.

I left a narrow alley and entered a large square.

I felt like I was going to worship at a temple or shrine or get to know someone higher than I was on my way to meet a friend.

My feet became heavy with tension.

“Are you all right?"

Damn it.

Tee Nana?

“No, it's not okay. ”

It can't be okay.

I've been working my ass off.

If there was any way I could finish this damn race sooner, I wanted to sell my soul and find out.

“You remember John Overton? ”

I asked Lee Hyung-jin.

He nods.

It happened a few days ago. Of course you remember.

“Did he cause any trouble in the contest stage? ”

“Competition stage? ”

“Yes. I got a report from Joon-suk, but I was wondering if there was anything missing. ”

Lee Hyun-jin drove the portal with a look of not knowing what he was talking about.

After a while, we were moved from the middle of the square into the burning forest.

“What, what is this? ”

Why are all the stages of the rainforest still burning?

I was thinking about going out again and sending a message, but I saw In-young walking out of the fire.

* * *

[Lee Ho-jae]

As soon as Min Hyuk came, he frowned at me.

Today, I started asking whether they had come to complain or not.

“No, why would you rip off a healthy American challenger's arm? We're the only servers in America with a good vibe right now, and we had to ruin it. ”

... I was wrong, but I was rebellious because I shot him like this.

“What? What was that all about? There must be a good reason, right? So me and Junga can make up excuses. ”

“There is a reason. ”

“That should be a good reason. Helpful at the negotiation table. ”

I'm sorry, but that's not the reason.

I grabbed John Overton's left arm and pulled it out.

This forest themed stage is the stage I've been using as a training ground since I entered and exited the contest stage.

I was training to recall and use the amazing senses that I had been able to control the flames of the visions, not my powers, to my will that day.

I was still working on my training yesterday.

Burning trees and poor squirrels.

Then John Overton visited my training stage.

This madman came to me drunk and drunk.

I was furious without knowing it because I heard the words, "I can't do it," and "I'm going to die."

So I grabbed his arm and pulled it out.

“This madness……. ”

Kim Min-hyuk wrapped around my face.

I'm sorry this happened.

“Please explain……. ”

“It was for John. ”

Min-hyuk Kim looked at me with a frantic look, but this was the truth.

That was all I could do for John, who was crying half-heartedly.

Challengers on Hell difficulty are the ones most exposed to danger and death than anyone else.

Of course it is.

Compared to other difficulties, there is a big difference in risk.

But that didn't mean that the challenger on Hell had become dull and confused by death and suffering.

Rather, challengers on Hell difficulty other than me focus on avoiding extreme attacks and respond sensitively to pain.

All of the survivors of Hell's difficulty were challengers.

Not many challengers have survived, of course.

On the Hell difficulty level, if you cannot avoid an attack once, you will face a crisis of death immediately when you misjudge in battle.

You can't just punch through with force.

It turns out that challengers in Hell difficulty tend to take care of themselves exceptionally.

In addition, their long time of danger and their experience of escaping death make them even more cowardly.

The longer you're exposed to death, the longer you're chased by it, the more afraid you are of death.

In fact, there are those who are not afraid of death, but hel must know how to overcome death as well as the challengers.

You can barely clear the stage while avoiding all hazards for all time.

Eventually, there will come a moment when you have to face the danger and pierce it forward.

“… that's all I understood. Then why did you pull out your arm? ”

“You've never pulled your arm out, have you? ”

In my words, Min Hyuk nodded tremblingly.

I knew it.

The sensation of being pulled out of the arm, especially when the left arm is pulled out, is quite distinct.

When I lie in bed trying to force myself to sleep, it reminds me of that feeling.

“When your left arm is torn out, it spills like crazy through that slice. When you feel the blood gushing from your veins, your senses go up. ”

“… up? ”

“I feel a heartbeat. Continuing with the senses emanating from the death of the left arm, right next to you. That feeling is just... ”

When.

When my left arm was first severed.

It was on the sixth floor.

You slashed your shoulder holding a shield against the Skeleton Knight.

Unlike a regular Skeleton Soldier with a rusty knife, the Skeleton Knight had a pretty sharp blade.

My shoulder was cut off in one fell swoop.

I felt that feeling for the first time.

“You can feel death most clearly and calmly. ”

“... which is why I pulled John Overton's arm out. ”

“You can tell by the taste of death. ”

“What.”

“It's nothing more than I thought. There's nothing quite like repairing a rotten state of mind. ”

What Kim Min-hyuk kept saying with a bored expression, but if it was a problem in the United States, I could accept that I would solve it myself.

I don't know if Kim Min-hyuk nagged me in the first place wanting me to clean up my own shit.

“But what are you? ”

I saw Lee Hyung-jin who came with Kim Min-hyuk holding a ball for the first time in his hand.

Lee Hyung-jin was surprised and hid the ball backwards.

“Oh, it's nothing. ”

Lee Hyung-jin put the sphere in his inventory.

I think he was trying to give it to me.

I shouldn't have asked.

* * *

Lee Hyung-jin asked if it was okay to look around while I and Kim Min-hyuk were talking.

I didn't have anything to say, so I told him to.

You'll see nothing but cut trees and burned trees and broken trees and uprooted trees and trees anyway.

Oh, there's a lot of dead animals down there.

“Here you go. Taming scrolls and rings. You can put your name on the contract and agree to it. ”

Kim Min-hyuk gave me a scroll and a ring.

Obviously, the scroll contained the necessary orders and contract details.

I couldn't read Min Hyuk, but I could read him.

If I close the deal and put on the ring, it's over.

It was easy.

“Queek!”

The frog, who was silent beside him, screams.

The frog saw me wanting to sign right away.

“You follow me very well, frog. I've been told that, but it's actually quite surprising. ”

“Yes, it's a female. ”

He replied without saying much, but Kim Min-hyuk's reaction was strange.

I breathed heavily and became stiff.

“What, what, what does that mean? ”

What did you mean by that?

I decided to explain before there was a bigger misunderstanding.

“I'm usually eaten by amphibians and reptiles. ”

I was easily attracted to the frog or lizard head of a similar human being.

If you ask me what that face looks like, it's my face.

I'm not a reptile or amphibian, so I don't know.

“Crazy. Demibeasts like to hear your name. Look at this guy. He's got a lot of defense. ”

I chatted with Min Hyuk for a while.

“Oh, and I think we need to find some more ways to fix Ego Sword. Repair itself is not difficult, but Ego Sod is a bit tricky. ”

That's what Kim Min-hyuk said.

“But there won't be any way. If you don't feel right, you can ask your manager later. Whatever it is, it's not going to save it. ”

I was relieved by what Kim Min-hyuk said.

Apparently the father and father were the same.

The father and wife were flying around wild crabs.

I wanted to make the annoying flying fly stop being a nuisance, but I couldn't say anything because it was so excited.

“Cute what the sword does. ”

“Cute, you wouldn't say that if you could hear him playing with his seeds. ”

“What are they saying? ”

I asked him as if he was curious.

I tried to explain, but I kept my mouth shut.

I didn't want to hurt his mental health by telling him.

“The gods I spoke to you about last time, they say it's bad to get too involved with them, but you can't get too involved. ”

“That's right."

“At that time, I was going to ask which god is best associated with. ”

Min-hyuk Kim said that he heard a lot from rankers on hard difficulty.

Obviously, being an apostle, getting attention and getting skill rewards was a positive factor.

Which god would be most beneficial?

I couldn't teach you the unknown god, so I had to answer only among the gods I had experienced a lot.

“God of Duel and God of Nature. ”

I explained in detail to Min Hyuk Kim asking why.

“It is clear what the challenger wants, and the gods can fulfill what the challenger wants. Hope is not particularly dangerous, and most of all, related skills or strength will benefit the challenger. ”

The god that I could think of immediately was the god of duel and nature.

“What about the God of Adventure? I had the most opinions. ”

Probably the most opinionated.

Looks like the best.

Seems like the best thing to do.

“Best to rule it out as much as possible. God of Adventure likes to accomplish things through adversity, so it might be helpful, but the process of overcoming adversity will be a problem. ”

[The god of adventure is disappointed.]

“Interpersonal relationships with others will also be a problem. The most peculiar thing about God of Adventure is that he hopes to have a deep relationship with others around him and understand them. The gods are quite unique when it comes to the way they treat humans. ”

“Isn't that great? ”

“No. The god of adventure cares about the process, but the process is for the outcome. God tolerates a relatively wrong process for the right result. Come on, you know what? Sacrifice cows for the greater good. He's a god who takes that for granted and thinks he's right. It is not just ignoring and burying the few sacrificed at the same time, but rather a god who wants to get closer and understand them and be troubled and miserable and move on. ”

“Mmmm... ”

It seemed like an explanation that didn't reach Kim Min-hyuk.

“To put it in a bad way, God wants to walk the path of the Thorn Field physically and mentally. Don't be fooled by messages like that. Oh, well, not only the gods of adventure, but the gods that ultimately aim for self-completion. ”

[The god of adventure is disappointed.]

Why should I be disappointed?

From the other challengers' point of view, the god of adventure is the worst.

[The God of Adventure is bewildered.]

“Oh, and if there's a God-awful, associated challenger of hope, tell him to sever his relationship immediately. That was really bad. ”