The World Is Overflowing with Monster, I’m Taking a Liking to This Life

Why is this old man here?

Honestly, I didn't want to see anyone tonight.

As for Nishino, who wanted to calm down by herself, I felt watered.

"Can I sit next to you?

"... go ahead"

While I snort, I think Nishino should go home soon in my mind.

Gozokawahara sits on the bench, saying "Yoko".

"So... what's going on, at this late hour?

"That's our line. Nishino, what's wrong with you? It'll be early tomorrow, won't it?

I wanted to go in and tell you not to return the question with a question.

"... nothing. I was just taking a little walk because I caught my eye."

"Phew, take a walk... Complete, complete. Then I'm for the same reason."

……

Irritated.

But he couldn't yell, and Nishino kept looking at the night sky silently.

Gozokawahara sips a tiny cup of canned coffee in his hand and looks up at the night sky in the same way.

"Electricity's available, and it's brighter around here. But it's still dark at night compared to before, after all. But thanks to that, I can see the starry sky better."

……

Sure, the stars you didn't see before, they look good now.

Well, if you don't see Peony's cunt sticking to the invisible wall of the 'Safe Zone' at the edge of your sight, you have no complaints, but it would be wild to stick it in there.

"Nishino-kun, I liked to see the starry sky like this from my childhood. When I grew up and got married, I used to watch it with my wife and daughter."

That said, Gosankawahara gently strokes the ring on his left hand pharmacopoeia.

Speaking of which, you had this wife and child, Nishino still remembered.

Did they find your wife and daughter?

"Looking at the ever-expanding starry sky, I don't care about my little troubles. Whether you fail at work, your wife scolds you, or your daughter hates you, the stars still shine over our heads unchanged. When you look at stars like that, you feel like trying again."

"... that's surprising. I can't believe Goshogawara-san was such a romantic."

"Ha, they often say. But you say people don't look like they do, right? You and Shibata are good examples."

"Me or Shibata...?

"Even so. You and Shibata are defective, but there is a proper" core "on the inside. Fellow thoughts, surprisingly hot blooded, and then the roots are serious. No matter how bad you show it, you know exactly who you are."

"... nothing like that"

"I do. I guarantee it."

It was a strong tone.

The words weighed strangely, and Nishino saw nature and the Goshogawara.

It's a middle-aged face that I can't stand. It's like an old man's face everywhere.

Yet somehow it looked a little different now.

That's why Nishino is disobedient.

"It can't be, that's not true. Where do I see it? Goshokawahara-san, you won't know. What kind of instructions did I give my buddies when I ran away from the high oak at the home center..."

At that time, Nishino gave these instructions to his companions when they were raided by that herd of high oaks and oaks.

He told me to hunt down the evacuees and flee to pieces.

Naturally the majority of the evacuees who did not know what the operation was about were killed and only marginally survived as monsters. Goshogawara is one of the few survivors.

If I knew this fact, there's no way I could throw up those words. That's what I thought, Nishino.

"Of course I knew."

In the words of Goshogawara, Nishino becomes a pussy.

Did you know that? You know, and you still say you said those words to yourself?

"What... so...?

"Why? In that situation, I wouldn't have had a choice but to oh. In fact, we were powerless at that time, helpless in thinking about ourselves. It would have been natural to be cut in that situation. You did your best to protect your people. [M] No one can blame you for that."

……

I wondered how Nishino knew that.

"I'll say it again, Nishino. You are a strong boy. So... let me tell you something."

……

"- Compare yourself to Kudo, and stop humiliating yourself."

"Huh...!?"

To a word poking at the core, Nishino was upset.

How did you know that? I guess that's what it was on my face.

Gozokawahara laughed all the time,

"I still have eyes for people. For once, it was the president. I remembered the faces and personalities of every employee, and it was in my job to realize and improve on what concerns I had and what grievances I had. So I figured it out right away. What's bothering you?"

……

"Do you think he'd be jealous?

Gozokawahara asks.

"Do you really think you want to be like him?

"... Isn't that obvious"

Pompous, Nishino opens his mouth like a spill.

"What a dragon (dragon) you made your companion today in the face of any enemy, with all that strength and all that skill? Is there anything you don't envy about this?

"I don't think so. I don't think so. Because he's..."

"That's what Goshogawara-san can say because he hasn't seen that guy up close!

Nishino shouted, blocking Goshogawara's words.

Like exhaling the depression you've been hoarding.

"If I could show such great activity, I'd think of everyone. I want power like Mr. Kudo! He wants to be like Mr. Kudo! But is that weird?

……

"Even I... I work hard too... But I can't. I can't protect him. It was Ichinose who made him smile, and it was Mr. Kazuto who had the power to protect him. I... what can I do! One thing, I have nothing better to beat that guy! At best, it's the mountain of Sekiyama that sets up the operation and directs his people! Because Fujita and Towada can do many times better! If I were you, I'd have let my people die. There were a lot of occasions! I don't care how much you change me!

"Nishino-san, it's..."

"Yeah, I know! That this is just ugly jealousy, stupid inferiority, and an irresistible eight-win! But I know that! But... but there's nothing you can do! Even if you understand it with your head, your mind won't convince you!

Grabbing his fist, Nishino exposes himself as he is.

It was the 'weakness' that the world had shown others for the first time since this happened.

I want to be strong like Cuzto. I want to stand next to Rokka like him, protect her and fight.

But I can't do that. Because I'm weak. Because I don't have the skills. Because the status is low. Because I don't have the strength. There's nothing I can do about it, tighten his mind.

Somewhere in my heart I think.

- I wonder why it's not me.

That would be what everyone has in their hearts.

If I could do that, if I could do that.

Jealousy, in other words, is a reversal of longing and envy for others.

Because I admire you, because I envy you, because people get jealous.

But Goshogawara stared at Nishino.

"You're Kudo, not you."

That's what I said clearly.

"You are not Kudo Kazuto, Kyoya Nishino. You can't be him, and Kudo can't be you. And no one will take your place."

Still, stare into Nishino's eyes,

"You can't have people replacing someone. A replacement is as good as a company job. No, I guess that's not entirely possible. There are as many business partners as there are that I don't like if it's not that person, and there are people who work with me because that person is there. Whether you admire it or are jealous, no one can be you."

"... So what do you want me to do? Are you telling me to give up?

"Yes."

"Huh..."

Clearly Goshogawara affirmed.

"Kudo, give up trying to be you. You can only be yourself."

"Huh...?

"If you're jealous of Kudo, Kudo, we just have to keep trying not to beat you. So you can recognize yourself. [M] And there are bound to be people who are watching that effort. If you work hard, if you don't give up, the thought will always reach you and everyone else."

"... is it?

"Even so. No, I think it's already arrived."

"Huh?"

"- Nishino-san!

I heard a voice from a short distance away.

When I saw it, I saw Shibata and the rest of his crew running this way out of breath.

"I looked for it. Please don't let me worry if I send you an email."

"Huh...? Oh, oh, I'm sorry."

When Nishino apologized, Shibata and the others gave a heartfelt relief.

"Good for you. If anything happens to Nishino, we can't even regret it."

……

Nishino sees Shibata and the others' faces.

I just wanted to sort out my feelings, and when I was alone, I wondered if I'd let them worry so far, I felt complicated.

"I'm also looking for Rokka and Ichinose, so can you contact them for now? I think Nishino-san should contact you more directly than I do."

"Oh, okay.... Roppo too?

"Isn't that obvious? I mean, the first thing you said to look for Nishino was him, right?

"... right"

To Shibata's words, Nishino regains a little expression.

I emailed him and he got back to me as soon as I could.

Don't make me worry.

Email from the same Roppo as usual.

That felt just a little warm now.

Unexpectedly, my hand rests on my shoulder. Goshogawara, standing next to him, was looking at himself.

"Look, there's a lot of people out there looking at you, right? By the way, it was Shibata who told you about the home center, wasn't it?

"He...?

"I guess it was after fleeing the home center and rendezvous. That's when he told me. Sit down and apologize. But he didn't blame you for a word. We all have a responsibility. So next time it's on him, please don't blame me."

……

I didn't know. I can't believe he did that.

"I told you. Your thoughts have arrived properly."

"... right. You couldn't even see that easy, could you? I..."

"Hmm? What's going on, Mr. Nishino?

"No, it's nothing. Let's go back to our house."

"Ugly."

As he walks, Nishino looks up at the night sky again.

"... I can only be myself,"

Whether you admire it or are jealous, you can't be anyone but yourself.

It's not like the problem has been solved. I didn't organize my feelings.

I'm sure this inferiority and jealousy will continue to annoy me.

- But we still have to keep moving forward.

Then let's scratch. To be myself standing next to him at all.

Let's move on. so that we can get a little closer to that guy's strength.

"... oh, let's do it"

With a mean grin, Nishino walks.

There was no more shadow on that face.

And - he never noticed that the 'shadow' at his feet trembled just a little.

After sending Nishino to base, Goshogawara was again coming to the park at night.

Sit back on the bench and sigh looking up at the night sky by yourself again.

"Oh, boy, you've got it figured out."

He had a mostly cornered look when he came back to City Hall, but that would be fine by now.

"Kudo, so do you, Nishino, because you're probably underestimating yourself. We need to make sure we understand how much our people need us..."

I say I know who I am best, but surprisingly, I don't.

especially when it comes to evaluations from others.

"I still felt like I was hiding something... but that would be fine"

While we were talking, I was wondering if Goshogawara still had something to hide from Nishino. But if that looks like it, I'm sure we'll get over it. Gozokawahara believes so.

"But a little... you lied to him..."

That's what he says. He takes a notebook from his nostalgia. Lots and quite a few years into it. That was the daily journal he wore indispensably every day.

Ever since this happened in the world, and long before that, he's been in the habit of keeping a diary.

Parallax and turn the page appropriately.

"... my daughter gave me a gift on September 3rd. A black handkerchief. He proudly told me that he had saved and bought Okotsuki. Apparently the thanks are good for the new model of the smartphone. This is going to be a medium high purchase."

Turn the page.

"... October 4th. Today is my anniversary with my wife. Until my wife pitied me, I completely forgot about that. My wife frightened me and my daughter was very angry with me. I'm going to have a hard time figuring out how to get the two of us in the mood tomorrow..."

Turn the page.

"... My wife asked me to shop on December 3rd. They tell me to hurry up and buy it, and when I do my shopping and go back, they put all the big cakes and my favorites on the table. Seeing that, I finally realized that today was my birthday. Even if I forget, this is how my wife and daughter remind me. They realized it was a very happy thing."

Turn, turn, turn the page.

There were family memories, his' memory 'spelled out.

"- You look really happy, I am at this time..."

That was some other HR-like line.

No, actually, you're right.

- Because Gozokawahara 'doesn't remember anything' about his wife and daughter.

His memories he told Nishino just showed him by looking at his diary and still speaking like his own. In fact, I still can't remember my wife and daughter's face. He can't remember what it looked like, what it was his voice, what it smelled like, its warmth, everything.

"Trent, or..."

My daughter attended high school in "Neighboring Town". And my wife, too, was anxious to let her daughter live alone, persuading him to rent an apartment and live with her.

Neighboring town - yes, in the town where Peony appeared.

Those eaten by Trent lose their existence.

I mean, his wife, his daughter...

"You have to work hard, so do I."

I miss the diary, and he gets up.

He glanced at the ring on his left pharmacopoeia finger with his finger and grabbed the black handkerchief that had gone into his pocket.

"... I can't even grieve. I'm sorry about my wife and daughter."

And the night dawns.

Peonie strategy, that first day was about to begin.