There is Room for Rebirth in the 1950’s

Lin Lishan unconsciously sat down with Mother Zhang, looked at the daughter in front of him, moved to Zhou Jiao's side, looked at her expression, and moved to the side of Zhang's mother. I watched her move forward without speaking, and looked at her son Zhang Guoqing.

Zhang Guoqing shook his head slightly, seeing his mother expecting him eagerly.It is not easy for him to come forward. He also needs to see how Zhou Jiao thinks. Some things are not based on a few letters or a few sentences to draw conclusions. Many feelings depend on fate and cannot be forced.He respects his lover's attitude and loves her not easy.Both Zhou Jiao suffered from childhood and suffered all kinds of grievances. The love of her parents is a luxury for her.At the beginning of her previous life, she was not discouraged with her parents, and she was discouraged later.Fatherly love and motherly love are too hard for her to get. She often says that she belongs to her parents and her six relatives are unreliable.

Lin Lishan plucked up the courage, stretched out her trembling hands and gently stroked her daughter’s skinny palms. A drop of tears dripped on it. She took a hard breath and looked up at her. She looked at her sallow complexion, enduring distress and tears. I asked her softly: "Jiaojiao, mom Jiaojiao, you are so old, and my mom didn't come to see you, making you feel wronged. I'm sorry for you. It's all bad for mom. Mom shouldn't give birth to you. Let you have a mother like no one. Mom shouldn't. If your dad sees you like this, it would feel so distressed. What face do I have to see your dad? Jiaojiao, you must hate mom in your heart, right?

It’s all because my mother is not good. I didn’t take good care of you and caused you to suffer so much at a young age. How could they treat my daughter this way?They all say you are good, is that good?How can they treat you like this?I blame my mother for being stupid. I blame my mother for not coming to see you. If my mother came to see you, they wouldn't dare.My Jiaojiao, my mother is sorry for you and shouldn't listen to your grandpa. They are neither human nor human in their old Zhou family.You just hate your mother, and your mother doesn't blame you. It's all bad for mother, it's my mother's fault, it's all my fault.Why do you want to find your dad? Why do you want to find him? Even the only daughter cannot survive.Why don't I want to come to see you? Even if it's just a glance, it's better than seeing it with my own eyes. It won't make you so hard."After speaking, Lin Lishan lowered her head and howled.

Zhou Jiao sighed, would she dare to hate it? The tears almost flooded the hall.I don't know how his dad had died when it was reported. It's no wonder that he couldn't raise her.Just this cautiously and expecting Ai Ai didn't know she thought she was a daughter.

Zhou Jiao patted Lin Lishan lightly, took the handkerchief handed by Zhang Guoqing, wiped her face, watched her lowered her head, still crying, and sighed. Her mother was too straightforward and her feelings were again. Rich, with many tears, I'm really afraid of her sadness and feelings, the difference.I'm even more afraid that she doesn't understand it, and thinks it wrong, "Don't cry first, listen to me carefully, now I really haven't complained about you, even I haven't hated you before, let alone now. You except Didn’t come to see me, I lacked food, or lacked me to wear? You gave birth to me, raised me, and I will still hate you, then who am I? The suffering I have suffered, the sin I have suffered, It was not caused by you. Maybe you would say that it was better not to allow Zhou's family to raise it. But things are already like this. I am married and even have children. Let's think about it better.

Speaking of complaining about you, when I was young, I complained about you before the age of ten. At Zhou's family, they all said that you don’t want me because I killed my father. Even my grandparents didn’t refute it. I blamed you. .In the days without a mother, I don’t care about what to eat or wear, but I see other mothers guarding me and acting like a baby to my heart’s content. I blamed you. At that time I really missed you, even if I didn’t eat or wear clothes by your side also.Even if you hate me and kill my dad, I will be obedient, even if you hit me, I will obey you and not annoy you, because I have no family, you are the only dearest in the world, and I am gone. Dad, there is only mom.I want to wait until I grow up, get older, and learn more, then I can go to you and tell you that I can support myself, and I don’t need you to send money to support me. I just want to be with you.

I finally grew up to 10 years old. For me, the Zhou family couldn't stand it any longer. Apart from thinking about you, I could see through their mouths.I have learned a lot of skills by myself. I secretly learned, learned to see a doctor, and learned to embroider. These are all skills for making money. I think I can go to you. I put my face down and every day I wonder how grandpa promises me to call you.When the call is finally connected, I will be very excited. I feel that I am really good and I will see you soon. But you refused on the phone. You said that you can’t take care of me. Let me wait. Be obedient in your hometown, you must come back to pick me up.Listening to your cold voice, refusing me to come and look for you, my heart was chilled, my whole body was numb, I bit my fingers tightly, and understood a truth, I can only protect myself, I really have no relatives.

I have received your letter for six full years, and I haven't even opened it.They are wearing new clothes and trousers. I know these are all your money, but I don't care. I just want to learn something quickly, grow up quickly, and leave Zhou's house quickly.After waiting for two years, I have read a lot, and I have come into contact with the society. If I understand a lot, I will calculate the year and month. I was born for 40 years. It will be the darkness before dawn. It is excusable to keep me in my hometown. But when I am ten years old, it's just liberation. Will you give up me when you refuse me to go back, or is there something unspeakable?But if it were me, I would do everything possible to see my children, even if the world is holding a knife.But I can't get results.

Hate it?No hate, I don't like to complain or hate others, it will make myself too tired.I told myself that it’s fine to be alone. You don’t need to be sad or worry about others. When you become an adult, you can live as you want. No one cares about me. I love myself and no one cares about me. I cherish myself.After a few years of this, I got married, married, and you didn't show up. I didn't have much expectation. I just wanted to live and live well.

When I heard the voice of the fifth brother in the delivery room, I thought of my dad, thought of you, and I thought you gave birth to me in what mood?Why don't you care about your only daughter after you have experienced the pain of having a child? Even if you meet and take a look, it is better than sending something.

Thinking of the money sent every month every year, I heard that you never remarried but I was a child.But why don't you come to see me?Even if I met once, even my grandmother's Lin family didn't see anyone, so my dad always has one or two friends, and I have never seen it.These are usually not paid attention, but it is very abnormal for careful consideration.Later, I opened the well-preserved letters. Those thirty letters that I had not opened in six or seven years, maybe I couldn’t understand many things when I was ten, but now I can see that you have been looking for my dad. Looking at each of the different mailing addresses and looking at the dates, I think I just went to your side and couldn't wander around with you. I felt better.For me, even if you never put me at ease, but you love my dad, that's enough.If you really remarry, no matter the reason, betrayal is betrayal.You can guard my dad, I feel much better.

Qian'er Xiaowu went to report to his grandparents and found that there were a lot of things wrong, so he forced to return to the addresses of several people in the Lin family and planned to send back some special products as a gift. By the way, he also told them not to send anything in the future.Some unpleasant things happened during the period, so I took back a few empty envelopes from the Lin family.When he came back, we were analysing and pondering, we knew that before, grandpa and others kept telling me that you abandon me were somewhat hidden.After knowing some of the truth, I have been feeling angry in my heart for the past two days, and it came out today, and I am not angry anymore.

Don’t cry, I really didn’t hate you. Not only did you give birth to me, I also survived on the money you sent me every month. You didn’t come to me, didn’t you keep looking for my dad?So don't be sad, I really don't blame you, I can understand that my dad is too important to you, and finding him has become your only obsession."

Before she finished speaking, Lin Lishan hugged her tightly, crying silently, touching the top of her daughter's hair.For a while, I didn't know how to talk about my heartache.

Tears fell on Zhou Jiao's neck. Zhou Jiao's heart was tight and tight, which made her feel painful. Deep down in her heart, she still looked forward to maternal love, otherwise, where did her sorrow and joy come from? It.Whether it's her or the original Zhou Jiao, she should choose to forgive. She hopes that her dad will have a home waiting for him when he comes back. She believes in her instincts, and her mother also has her in her heart.