I, for a moment only, doubted my ears.
We can't be friends.
Yes, I heard it from Mr. Ligret's mouth.
It gets dark in front of you and you can't understand everything.
My brain shakes like a fluttering, ragged, ragged foot.
That was about a shocking word for me.
But - soon, I was convinced.
That's right. Because that's who I am.
For a long time, it has been so since previous life. I hurt people without knowing it, and I feel like we're getting along on our own.
Get on with it, just me. Friendly.
It reminds me of a previous life.
When I was in high school, I was going to have two teams from my class at a softball tournament for school events.
One is a team full of men who are good at sports.
The other is a team full of boys who don't like sports.
I was on a team of people who didn't like it.
We had a lot of practice, rented ground for lunch break and played softball with everyone on the team.
I had so much fun. And everyone on the team thought so.
But it wasn't, actually.
He was forced by me to fit in and practice reluctantly.
Hit him all the time with a flirty swing, ridiculed by a class girl.
I'm not satisfied with the defense, and I rarely get the fly out.
I was disgusted by that situation.
I - I enjoyed being able to play softball with everyone, and that was just it, without anyone thinking about how it felt, was rampant.
They forced me to go out with the practice and keep exposing people to what they didn't want to see.
I'm sure this time, too.
I probably did what Mr. Ligret hated...... so, he must have hated me.
I can hear Mr. Ligret saying something.
But it didn't come to my mind until what I was talking about.
Above all... I'm sad, really sad, and I don't want to be here.
It's painful. I won't hang up.
I feel so sorry to be at Mr. Ligret's side.
When I realized, I had zeroed my tears.
"- Farri!?
Mr. Ligret will raise his voice to his surprise.
But I'm, I'm sorry about even that, and I'm filled with the desire to get away quickly.
"I'm sorry, Mr. Ligret!
I, stand up and make a mistake.
"I, I didn't realize... you did something, didn't you? It's my fault. But I don't know what's wrong. Me, me... Huh!
"Duh, what's wrong Fari!? Calm down a little!
Mr. Ligret cares.
But even that's painful, and I pull myself aside to escape.
"I'm sorry! But I really, really wanted to... but I'm sorry! Me, you couldn't! Never again, I won't get close. Sorry, goodbye!
I, at the end of the day, leave only that and escape.
I turned my back on Mr. Ligret and ran out of the break room.