Back at the house, a flat-handed hit flew.
Suddenly, I couldn't react.
I rub my hot cheeks, and she - turns to Yu.
"How can you not say anything to me!
Her anger echoes through the house.
She blamed me with an angry voice as she devoured her teeth.
Lynne and Karen don't say anything, but only their gaze stares at me.
"That's a greeting. Nothing. I came back alive."
"That's not the problem! I can't believe I'm going to war on my own......!
……
"Lazareth!"
... I didn't get it.
Why is she so exaggerated?
Is it that upsetting that I went to war?
"Lazareth, next time you go to battlefield on your own is a dangerous imitation, don't do it! Next time you do it, you're gonna hate it! Nice!"
"... oh"
That being said, she goes back to the back of the house.
I guess I said what I wanted to say.
But now Lynne opened her mouth for a replacement.
"Yu is sweet, isn't he? That's about it."
"Lynne?"
"... ha. How could such a fool be called a 'wise man'?"
"... ugh!
I wandered into the word sage that came out of her mouth.
But she didn't show any reaction like this.
"I heard it from a guy named Graham. With explanations of where you are."
"... so, what?
"I'm fine. But..."
She sighed after acting like she was squirming her head with her right hand.
"Let him hit me for a second or so."
With that said, she releases her hand from her head and slaps her fist straight into my cheek.
All of a sudden, I couldn't take the reception either, all I could do was stick with my shin and touch my beaten left cheek with my hand.
"Yeah, I kind of figured out what you were like. You used to be the enemy of the Wise Men's Law, and you came from the Wise Men's Law."
……
"But now the guy standing in front of me here is just 'Lazareth'. Undisputed, it belongs to our family."
"Family...?
"You have a situation, too. Oh, you know what I mean. Even I forgive you for hiding. But..."
Once she stops talking, she pulls Karen, who was nearby, and turns to me.
"If you make my little one cry, you won't forgive me for as much temehe?
When I saw it, I noticed that Karen's eyes were slightly red.
... Could this be.
"... cried, did you give it to me?
"You know what? Besides, I'm not the one to talk to right now, you're the little one."
"Karen......?
I turn to Karen.
... and sluggishly, slowly shook his head vertically.
"Damn, why do I have to go out with such a jerk? Ha, try it."
That's all she says, she goes up the stairs and back to her room.
After I saw it through, I turned my gaze to Karen again.
"... Karen"
"... ugh."
When Karen breathes, she slaps me in the chest with her little fist.
That fist sank into the coat I was wearing, along with the sound of no power, pompous.
"Is Karen angry?
"I'm angry. But... so I can get it done for you."
"... right"
Now I've been beaten up by all the people in this house.
I don't know, I felt more painful than the wounds I received on the battlefield.
"... worried, did"
"... Worried?
"I'm going to lose your friend... because I don't want to anymore"
"Your friend? … well, your friend"
... with friends, will you call me?
Besides, did you worry me?
"... sorry"
I've never spoken that word in this place before.
I didn't know what it meant to do that until earlier, but now I know clearly.
"Mm-hmm. Fine."
I have her cool voice.
Everyone worried about me.
The battlefield is where life exchanges take place.
Even me, if Nicolai hadn't come, maybe he would have been executed today.
... Somewhere, maybe there wasn't enough of a sense of crisis.
No, you're not. It wasn't enough of a crisis. I didn't mean to survive.
"... Lasalles"
"Hmm?"
She calls my name.
When I saw it, she was grabbing my arm.
That, too, is pretty strong.
"... what"
"I won't let go. You can't go anywhere by yourself anymore."
……
... a long time ago.
Did I do something to her?
I don't think they've done anything like that.
"... thanks"
Something falls out of my mouth.
The words were completely out of my consciousness.
"Huh?"
"Oh, no. It's nothing."
As I look around, my face gets hot.
... What is that now? I don't know why.
Did he do it again?
But he doesn't know about this kid.
... Am I about to change?
……
I didn't care, I couldn't throw it.
'Cause that's...
... because I myself have been wishing for a long time somewhere.
But I've already taken a lot of lives.
It's too late.
Everything, it's too late.
So......
"... it doesn't matter. Really, it's no big deal."
"Lasalles?"
"Sorry, just let me sleep a little. I didn't even sleep yesterday."
That's what I say, and I gently pay for her hand, which was grabbing me.
Would he have... taken this hand?
That made me feel lonely somewhere.
Up the stairs and back to my room.
There was a world as murderous as ever with nothing but sunset plugs, beds and desks, and flower making.
When I lack my coat on my desk, it sinks straight into bed.
"... if only I'd realized how I felt a day earlier"
I can't change anymore.
Don't change.
All I have left in this world is a seat of a righteous madman.
I must not be saved.
……
... would I have been so weak?
Only once, someone would have just forgiven me, and that would have been enough, to ask for salvation?
I fell asleep and met nearby. I grabbed the increase in the vase, and I shrugged.
To the people I killed... some girls, like Yu and the others.
... Oh, let's admit it. I didn't feel anything.
I didn't want to feel anything.
"... Gu, ugh"
As soon as I understand it, my chest gets painful.
I wasn't ready to die.
I was just afraid to live and bear that sin.
I close my eyes.
... When I wake up, I want to laugh at Zahr and the Cyans again.
I just hoped that was all.
―――
He... Mentila tells them both.
"It's okay. He's not dyed of darkness from the heart."
The expression of relief returns to the two of us.
But I don't intend to loosen my expression to Mentila, but it remains a harsh expression.
"...... but if you let it go like this, I'm sure it will taste bad. So there's no time."
Mentila sat in a chair lit by the moonlight plugging into the room and turned to both of them.
"In my position as a brave man, I will spare you my cooperation. But depending on what you do, you might kill him."
Both of them nod with a ready look.
"Naturally, I will try to avoid that happening. And maybe your actions will divide the fate of the world."
Mentila laughs when she makes them nervous.
However, it may have been counterproductive because it was too much of a mess later.
... but it wasn't a joke to him.
Mentila was convinced that their actions, words and deeds would determine the future of his… 'Lazareth'.