Two as One Princesses

86. God, Happiness and Choice

"From now on, they don't have a job like Master Fiyanamia or King Spirit for now,"

"So you can live the way you've always lived?

'That's why I stop going, too. There's already a little bit of God mixed up, but they're getting closer and closer to God. Sounds like you're gonna be a pillar of God in the end.'

"Ain't that gonna be God?

Ciel tilts her neck.

It wouldn't be realistic to be told all of a sudden that I would be God, and honestly, I don't care about me.

"I don't care if I become a god, so let's leave it for once.

I'll keep explaining, but when half of my magic is replaced by divine power, they step on God's side.

It was said to be a maximum of 10 years before we got there. '

"So what's the problem?"

"As I approach God, Ciel is also pulled to become God."

A generation of great battles. I managed to put it into words with that much intent, but Ciel has a face that says she doesn't really know.

If I had a body, I would have been nervous enough to rip my heart apart, but apparently that tension would last for a while.

"What happens when I approach God?

'Right. Approaching God somewhat, you will be able to hear the Spirit or interact with the Spirit'

"That's lovely."

"Then they become immortal at the stage of stepping to God's side, gradually making it unnecessary to eat or sleep or harder to die.

The problem must be irreversible. Once you set foot on God's side, you can't go back to people. '

Saying so far doesn't change Ciel's expression as serious as it is.

I don't think there's anything that Ciel doesn't understand, but is it hard to feel?

So to say the next word might be a little dastardly.

"I need to disappear in order to keep Syel from becoming a god..."

"Then you don't have to think about it. Ain't never gonna disappear."

blocked in the middle of words.

Rin's voice certainly feels Siel's strength.

Honestly, I was horrified. Because I was going to accept that even if it was going to disappear, but I still miss breaking up with Ciel.

But don't be relieved here. Because it's not a good thing to make decisions with momentum.

'Think about it. You're not gonna be a person anymore, are you?

I want you to choose the important choices more carefully. When I asked him that, Ciel's cheeks swelled.

He's mumbling and letting his mouth hang. Thankfully, he pissed me off.

"I wonder if Ayn is the one who thinks about it properly. I told you, didn't I? If Ain't gone, I'm gonna be looking for Ain all the time, right? You're gonna look for him till he dies?

You don't think I'm lying, do you?

'I don't think so, but it may be too late when you want to be a person'

"That's with Ayn even if he disappears. Even if you want to see Ein, if Ein disappears, it's too late.

Besides, even if you're a god, there's Ain, there's Spirit, there's Fi, right?

I have everything I need. Do you understand?

"Yes...... ok"

Ciel's sword curtain pushed me and I nodded.

Isn't this the first time Ciel's pissed me off? I feel like yesterday was the first time I yelled, but not at all then. If people were around, they'd be surprised which one was an adult.

If my heart was depressed that there was no majesty or snagginess, Ciel asked in a quiet voice.

"Hey, Einsel. I wonder if Ein hates me?

'No, I love it. Otherwise, I've been in a (...) O (...)

"Me too, you love Ein?

So I choose Ayn no matter what. Then why don't you?

'No.... no'

I'm very happy with Syel's words. I'm happy, but somehow I get caught up.

Master Fiyanamia said we could stay together all the time.

I'm sure Ciel now seriously thinks it's okay to be a god.

I guess I don't have an obsession with being a person.

Then how can I get caught up?

I wonder what is not (...) cheap (...).

How did you know I had to break up with Ciel?

For Ciel to become independent?

- No.

Because you need to be separated?

- No.

Oh, I see. Because I thought if I didn't have independence, if I couldn't leave my children/parents, I wouldn't be happy (...) to be (...)?

Yes, I am anxious because I am happy (...) with Ciel (...) and I am anxious.

If it had been a little younger for me to die, I would have said that I would make Ciel happy in any difficulty. If I was a high school student or so, I would feel like I could speak Australian with unsubstantiated confidence. Because I don't see reality.

But I do not consider myself a fine adult, but I am not so much a child that I do not know how hard it is to bear a man's life.

Besides, when you become a god, yes, the end won't come. It weighs differently again than life, which has only been around for decades.

"Are you catching something?

'I... I do not want to leave Ciel.

But I'm not sure I'll keep Ciel happy. I'm anxious if you let Ciel go out with me and make me unhappy. "

Ah. I threw a weak sound at Ciel.

But I thought I had to say it right. You can't tell me "I'll be absolutely happy" irresponsibly here. Even if I could, "I will continue to protect you" at best.

To my words Ciel leans her neck and thinks of something.

"Hey Ain. I like Ayn. I like how Ain laughs at me, I like how he sings, and I like how he looks like he's having fun.

But I also like to see Ayn in trouble. I like that you're shy, and you're angry for me. "

'Yes... what is it?

"But you know what, I don't want to see Ayn in real trouble, and I don't want to see Ayn grieving, either?

Uh, I'm glad Ein wants to make me happy, and that's all I'm happy about, but maybe it's impossible for Ein to say that makes me happy. "

'What do you mean?

Ciel, who talks so hard, is cute, but doesn't understand well that he doesn't get the guidelines.

"Me and Ayn are different things. Even if Ein gets in trouble, I'm happy to see Ein in trouble. Ain't Ain't never known that before, has he?

And I don't know what makes me happy. I'm sure if I saw Ain's uninformed side again, I'd be happy or sad.

Likewise, I don't know how to be happy.

So I guess I feel happy on my own.

I'm sure Ein feels happy on his own in Ein, too?

Still, I don't know how I'm gonna be happy, but at least I know what Ein needs.

What about Ein? Could you possibly need me for Ein's happiness?

Surely I saw me in trouble with Ciel, and I did not know that I was pleased. It's kind of pretty awkward.

Nevertheless, do I need Ciel for my happiness...?

If it was before I met Ciel, I can't think of happiness without Ciel now that I've met him, although I can't answer it as necessary.

Instead, I came into this world, and lived because I was bewitched by Shiel.

"Required…"

"Then you'll be fine. Ein doesn't have to make me happy.

We'll always be happy together, on our own. "

Ciel laughs. Like flowers blossomed, like the sun.

I think it's kind of like a proposal, and I laugh, too.

Yeah, but right. Isn't Ciel and my relationship talking about independence, parental separation, or something like that? Isn't that what you said anymore?

I intend to continue to protect Ciel and do what I can to make Ciel happy, but that is because I want to see Ciel happy.

Probably the same for Ciel.

I guess that's good to say.

Each other's presence is natural, they need each other's presence, they want to make each other happy, they just feel happy to have each other.

It feels like it's going to sink into a bottomless swamp after a long time, but I hope you're still happy.

We are interdependent. But that's not a negative relationship. At least I think so.

"So Ayn. You can't just disappear anymore, can you?

"Okay."

"Is this the end of the story?

Ciel told me and I remembered.

I was not restating my relationship with Ciel now, but rather talking about what would happen to us.

But I think I told you what I need to talk to you about right away.

Because the main purpose was a matter of change for Ciel in becoming God.

Oh, but with that said, there was one more thing I should have told you earlier.

'There's only one more thing I need to talk to you about right away'

"What could it be?

"They say the supreme god will only fulfill one Ciel favor. It doesn't mean anything, apparently. '

"You'll do me a favor, won't you?

"Whether it's possible or impossible to do so, they're going to give down the trust"

Even though there are restrictions, I think it's okay if it's something unscrupulous because the Supreme God says it will come true immediately.

But often, resurrection of the dead, immortality and world conquest seem impossible.

It might seem difficult to want to be a nobleman.

If I were you, I'd say what I'd do, and if I was thinking about it, I'd say that Syel decided what he'd do.

I want Ayn's body.

"Is it my body?

"Because I want to make contact with Ein. I don't think Ein should be able to do it, but what do you think?

"In the meantime, I'll wait for the commissioning"

Yeah. It's amazing waiting for a shrine. I don't think it would come if I waited for a shrine.

[It is possible if only for one day in the mansion of Fiyanamia]

"Ooh......"

"Is that the one you're trusting?

'You heard Ciel, too. I think it probably is.

It's my first time, too, so I can't say it's absolute. '

"You only have one day... well, I can't help it"

"Is this good for Ciel?

"Is there anything else? I mean, it would have been much better if I could, but you couldn't, could you?

"If Ciel is good, I'll be fine"

It's Ciel's wish, though I'm not willing to talk.

Instead, Ciel really has a look that she just doesn't take for granted.

I had no idea what it would say to me.

With that said, the wind that the Supreme God knew Siel's wishes, but was it predictable?

I mean, there's a limit to preparing my body.

Something like this, I feel like I could go in there if I prepared something homunculus.

Uh... but isn't it enough performance to withstand the power of God?

That's going to make it technically pretty difficult. I mean, I feel like it's a "artificial no god no OO" project, like Homunculus with God's power.

"If you say so, since when do you count for a day?"

"Right. From now on, I'm going to have a little trouble. Maybe tomorrow?"

'I think you're probably hearing this conversation, so I was wondering if you'd consider it'

"Well, I have to tell Fi too.

Because you can make contact with Ein, you have to stay out of the way as long as you can. "

'I don't think I'll be disturbed...'

Though I do not know if my words were heard, Ciel flew out of the room with momentum.