Two-dimensional evil contract

After all, whether it is for a concubine who is favored or out of favor, as an emperor's woman, she understands that once she enters the imperial city, she is as deep as the sea, and she will miss the mirror lake lotus in this life.Entering the palace is not easy, and leaving the palace is even more difficult.

Since it is difficult to get out of the palace wall whether it is grace or cold reception, the only difference is just how good life and some limited freedom are.It seems that being demoted to the cold palace is not too unbearable.

However, the truth is not so.

Otherwise, why would there be a saying that sings the horror of Leng Gong and the bloody wailing of Leng Gong: "I would rather be a concubine woman than a concubine Leng."

For all reasons, even if it is a consolation woman, it is only a one-day physical destruction, but once you enter the cold palace, it is a lifetime destruction from the body, mind and soul.

At least Qin Yu has a deep understanding of the twisted, gloomy, cold, and despicable behaviors, phenomena and rumors in Leng Gong.

For more than two years, as a young eunuch in the cold palace of the Panlong imperial harem, he knew or pretended to know what he should understand and what he should not understand.It is precisely because he understands that it also made him understand: empathy for things in the world is never equal to personal experience.

Therefore, in many cases, although it is really difficult for him to understand and adapt to some self-willing and depraved people and some twisted and cruel things, he also understands to some extent that what these people do has their own difficulties or pleasures. ; And these emotions or desires or purposes hidden under the surface of the absurd and distorted behavior of human nature are precisely what Qin Yu himself did not understand and understand at his age.Therefore, many times, when encountering or encountering such things, although he often feels indignant and ashamed, he has also learned to walk away coldly. After encountering more and hearing more, he is now able to Numb ignored.

"It's all to live, and it's just to live, it's not easy. In this twisted hell." Qin Yu could only comfort and forgive himself like this from time to time.As for the bloody behavior and bloodliness of stopping, fighting, and helping when he first came here, although in reality, only two years have passed, but in his heart, in his In my memory, it seems that in this pale rebellion that is destined to have no victor, in front of the naked reality, it has already cooled and weathered for thousands of years, and the true heart has long been dusted.

At the age of sixteen, if you are outside, even an ordinary mortal man should have reached the age of talking about marriage; many things must be learned to understand and think. .Especially in this cold palace, which is harsher and stricter than the backyard of the palace, even if it is just to survive better, he has also learned how to deal with many things and phenomena. What kind of stance should we take to deal with.

If the whole world is a world of individual cannibalism, Qin Yu's understanding and definition of Leng Gong is that this is the distortion of personal torture and destruction.

Here is the abyss of despair where there is really no hope.

In Qin Yu's view, there are some people who, if they can summon a little courage to commit suicide, they will be liberated and even enter heaven.And self-resulting death is the only way to escape from cruel hell here...