Watashi wa Teki ni Narimasen!

If I noticed, I could see the stone ceiling.

Blinking, I recall being pompous.

Where were you until just before that, and what were you doing? What did you see?

"... eh"

It makes my breathing difficult.

I fought because I needed it. I knew I could only do it, so I wasn't willing to run away.

But all I did was kill a lot of people.

The castle was still safe. Uncle Vayne Borderline could also help. I think we could have defeated the enemy to some extent.

But I can't find the joy of being successful in my heart. I just think I can rest a little after the time I'm desperate for.

Later it resuscitates behind your eyes, the corpses of people, corpses, corpses......

It was everything I was prepared to do. From the beginning, I was going to be actively involved in the war. That's why I became a magician.

"Chiara, did you notice?

I can speak up gently.

There was a man beside him. Turning her back and turning her face to the side, it was Maya, the same Lady Beatrice's maid, who was there.

It's dim in the room, and the only light source is a candle placed on a small table. It won't be just because of that, but Mr. Maya looks tired. Brown hair was also flaky, knitted precisely to the cygnon to keep it out of the way usually.

"... but"

I wonder how many hours I've slept here. Luain still surrounded the castle. What has happened since then?

Is everyone still safe?

Even if you want to ask questions, your voice is dead and you can't put it into words well.

Then Mr. Maya woke up my body and poured water from the crown water bottle I had placed beside me to give me a drink.

... My hands trembled and I drank alone and it was going to spill. I put a lot of work into Mr. Maya.

"How long has it been since then?"

"About three hours. It's night."

"What happened to the Luein army?"

From me, who tried to ask me a lot, Meiya, who received an empty glass and placed it on the table, hugs me all the time.

I wonder what's wrong. Maya slaps me gently on the back, panicking about whether something was even sad to say.

"Fine. Thanks to Chiara for everything. The army of Luain is now a short distance from the castle."

Yeah, what I did helped me right. Loosen your mind starts to loosen up. But it also freezes with the following words.

"The chain of command is in disarray because you took over the enemy general."

"Taken away..."

Perhaps that's who I crushed in the earthly form (the Golem).

I was afraid of what I was trying to do, and I didn't look them in the face. Surrounded by knights, there were people in fine jackets, so maybe even they would pull back without having to hang a bunch of other soldiers in their hands. That's all I was thinking about.

In addition to discussing it, perhaps Mr. Cain, who was with me, watched it. I was also afraid to confirm. In my place.

"Thanks to you, we're all getting a little rest. Master Vayne has returned safely, and with a magician named you, the enemy should not be able to attack us. Thank you so much, Chiara."

Maya, who hugged me again for a long time, left the room saying that she was going to let me know what had happened.

I get blurred.

I could do something that would be appreciated. Even though that's a pleasure, I don't get the sentiment that I'm happy.

I... Aren't you happy?

Doubts come to mind. I'm not sure why I can't even be happy. I just feel tired.

So, even if they knocked on the door, the reply grabbed me by the throat and I couldn't get out. I couldn't keep my face up while I was nagging.

But the other person came into the room even if he didn't respond.

Who is it that walks over silently? It was a long time ago to look up and check.

I wondered if the person sat in the chair where Mr. Maya was, and when he held me in silence, he could no longer ignore me.

On a familiar pale colored military uniform, that smell I remember.

"Fuck..."

"It's okay, you don't have to try to force me to say something. If you don't want to do this,"

Yeah, but Reggie continued with a voice that included laughter.

"I won't let you go if you say you don't like it. You seem to have been very impotent again. [M] I've been waiting for you to wake up trying to harass me for as long as you've reduced my life span."

Reggie says that, but she doesn't stroke her back so gently with harassment. Even though the warmth of your hands creates the illusion that something elaborate melts into the back of your spine.

But to this, I thought it was a feeling I remember somewhere. It was like when I was really little, or long ago, when I was sweet to my mother in my previous life, and it was strange somewhere.

Because of that, when I leaned on Reggie, I grabbed Reggie to squeeze my left hand up.

"I don't think there's anything I can do about you choosing to be a magician."

Reggie mouths at her fingertips as she tells her like she's talking to herself.

A soft feeling, felt at the tip of your index finger. Uh, so I jumped my shoulder.

"The reinforcements I have arranged will arrive early and the morning after tomorrow. I couldn't even read that Ruein was supposed to be wary of his troubles, pushing Salehardo off hard enough to impersonate the army. Everything… my lack of readings has invited me"

He was gently bitten at the fingertips to represent remorse as he lined up his words pale.

"... Huh!?

I'm confused by the tingly sweet pain without understanding why I would do that.

"Um, Reggie."

Now my lips touched the center of my palm. I breathed in the tickle.

Wait, wait!? What do you mean, this?

Me and Reggie are friends, right? But your friends don't grab their fingers or stick their lips together!? It would be strange if men did that to each other, which means that even men and women friends don't do it to each other.

That's when I remembered that I had a hug yesterday, before the meeting.

I want you to understand. I was wondering why you didn't understand, and I didn't know how I could make Reggie nod - that I was too close.

My confusion, Reggie keeps talking.

"I know where I helped Uncle Vain. But after that, I want you to think a little more about protecting yourself. You knew I was here. Then you should have told me to help Uncle Borderline. Why didn't you rely on me...... I guess I don't depend so much."

Reggie mouthed softly on the inside of her wrist.

"Do it"

My back is tight.

"No...?

My face peeking into me is sad, and I accidentally drink the word stop.

"Huh! I don't like it, I'm scared"

"Did you hate me?

"I can't believe I hate you... I can't be you. Maybe for the rest of my life."

Wherever I look in my heart, I don't feel like I hate Reggie. I'm just confused.

If they made me another stranger, it would be a hell of a disgust.

"I wonder why you would say that. I'm just beginning to wonder if you're going to hate me more just to hug me and make me feel better."

"Why do you want me to hate you so much?

"Because I don't want you to be impotent, but you never seem to pass it on. If Wentworth hadn't followed you, you would have done it alone, wouldn't you? Then you'll be thrown out of the Luainian army on the way..."

I unintentionally imagine the words Reggie speaks when she walks away from me.

It was a possible story.

If Mr. Wentworth hadn't supported me, I would have been desperate to grab onto the shoulder of a running Earthling (Golem) and would have been unable to use magic along the way. Then if only the sorcerer who killed so many of his companions had fallen there alone.

I just get stabbed with a thousand swords and a thousand spears, I don't know if I can do it.

Reggie continued with the look on my bloody face that she finally figured it out.

"You seem too unconscious. Even soldiers don't know what will happen, but girls are thrown out on their own in enemy land... and in places where we can't help them right away either. I also thought about how I could stop making myself so crude."

Surely Reggie was right, it was reckless behavior.

That's why I thought the sermon might begin...

From the top of the blanket, but to Reggie, who grabbed my leg, Chiara just a little bit too.

"What!?

I thought you'd understand if I begged you to come this far.

As I said, Reggie just blanketed her toes and tried to pull herself back so she could get her face close to the A side, hey, no way there!? Are you going to do something like a hand?

"Do it, no, if not! A prince wouldn't do that!

Lick your shoes! Why would a prince Reggie try something like that!

"But you won't listen to me for a normal favor..."

I almost lost my powers unexpectedly to Reggie, who tends to lay her eyes down sadly, but no!

"Sorry! You really think I was bad, so I'm not gonna imitate you like that. Ahhh!

They pull my legs and scream. But Reggie, with his face up as he attempted, points out with a callous look.

"When you break out, you'll see the blanket, the legs, right?

"If Reggie let me go, I'll fix the problem!

If you scream desperately, Reggie laughs when she dulls.

"Then if you say this to me, I'll stop." Now I need you to help me out properly. "

"Wow, okay. Now I say help me out properly..."

I finally got my hands off my feet, and I did what Reggie said, breathing on my shoulders.

He was probably pretty angry, but Reggie's educational guidance...... wow scary.

That made me feel like I was going against it, too.