Watashi wa Teki ni Narimasen!

I slept all day.

When I woke up, my body was weak, and I was burned everywhere with a spark emanating from Reggie, so I was bandaged in many places on my arm.

"Even though I was before my dowry..." moaned the servant's aunt, who was a replacement paramedic for nursing, but Maya told me, "That's a medal that saved the prince". Depending on the recipient, I felt that the reaction was different.

With this kind of arm, the clothes seem to have burned and become a very unusable substitute. That's why Maya told me, "I'm making something different from Master Beatrice right now."

Master Horace told me that he was using too much power, and I was bitterly complained, "After being unscrupulous..."

Still, I don't regret doing everything I can for Reggie. He seemed to know I was thinking that, and the master was sighing.

"Well, I knew you were obsessed with that prince. Still, I'm pretty sure it was only one or eight. Just remember this. The next time I do the same thing, one of your arms or so will be sand. Remember, the person who sees it can be crushed for blame."

"... Yes"

This word worked.

I was flying out of my head when I tried to help Reggie, but I got obsessed and kept using my magic for you, if you even collapsed to your own body... I'm sure Reggie blames herself more than anyone else.

"So, what about Reggie?

"I'm alive so far. But a man without qualities was affected by the stone of the covenant. It's like being deprived of everything in your health to maintain your body. You're still in a coma.

With qualities, Reggie wouldn't have had to suffer this far. But if I did, it would be very bad.

Absolutely, Reggie would have tried to be a magician herself.

That's how you must hold me back on Evrar territory and make me wait until the war is over. Because I want to, too, so I can understand what Reggie would want to do.

In the end, Reggie woke up two days later.

I guess I was called right after the doctor's diagnosis because, from a magical point of view, I want you to see if Reggie's condition is okay.

In front of the room stood a knight Reggie with a sandy hair named Felix.

As Felix opens the door, I see the sleeping area and the knight Growl standing beside it.

"The doctor says it's no longer a problem. And let me tell you something first."

Rarely, Mr. Growl wants to talk to me. Will you be angry about the fact that you have sheltered me?

"May His Royal Highness speak of every lost world, never mind. His Royal Highness sheltered His Majesty the Sorcerer because no one assumed a special event like poison arrows or this one, either because of the thought of the power of war or because of the idea that we should help your lady. In the meantime, we thank you, Lord Mage, for all your efforts to save Your Highness."

I'm done talking to you. Mr. Growl leaves the room. I was still leaning on my neck when Reggie and I were left alone by the sound of the door closing exactly.

What do you mean every time you get lost?

And to say you're leaving until Mr. Growl, does Reggie want to talk?

If you're wondering, Reggie, who was lying on the bunk but still awake, says, "I'm sorry Growl said something weird".

It had some cheeks, but Reggie's excellence had not been compromised. I guess my body is still hard. Reggie, who only pointed her face at this one, smiled as usual.

"Are you better than that, Chiara?

"Yeah, I'm fine. How's Reggie feeling?

"... right. I don't think that's a problem."

I decided to make sure of his condition for now.

Hold Reggie's left hand in such a way that the force that was out on the bedding is difficult to get into, and gently check that the magic in him is in no condition.... Yeah, it doesn't seem like a problem.

"Looks fine. Good."

I figured if I didn't check, I'd be very relieved because I don't know if it was good my way.

I relaxed and tried to let go of my hand, but Reggie grips back and pulls back.

"But I heard you crossed a rather dangerous bridge to keep me alive, too. If there's a second time, you shouldn't try to help me this time."

Reggie says with a gentle look and voice.

"I can't do that... Reggie is my benefactor, and not everyone's flag."

The general is Reggie, reclaiming a country that is being invaded by Ruain. It's about morale when Reggie is gone, and I doubt the other nobles will be willing to cooperate. So in a game where Alan was the protagonist, it must have taken some time to rebuild his power and collect it. At the time of the game's departure, the king's capital had already fallen.

"Indeed, as it is, Evrard could be attacked and ravaged again in the near future. But it doesn't have to be me."

"Eh, say what..."

"You must know.... because in the story you know, I didn't exist."

I take my breath.

story. Reggie did say that.

But I didn't tell Reggie about the game. I just told him I had a dream that Reggie and the others might die. Yet.

"... Wentworth told me. He said he had memories of when he lived as a different person before you were reborn. He didn't vaguely predict events in his dreams, he knew there could be such a muscular future. In that case, it also means Alan is the one who fights Ruein. Then... even if I wasn't here, the country would be protected?

I could not reply.

Because what Reggie said was true.

It doesn't have to be Reggie to be the flag. Because Alan also has the right to inherit the throne, although it will be somewhat of a struggle. All you have to do is get ahead of him like he did in the game.

But he's alive. Why are you saying that? I wanted to say, but I don't have much to say.

Still, what I wanted to say was on my face, Reggie goes on.

"I'm not abandoning myself. Instead, I'm a little... relieved. I don't have to run anymore, like they told me."

His calm expression remains unchanged. But that serenity makes my heart waver. He seems like someone who has decided not to run anymore, and he's scared and can't even hammer.

"Ever since I was a little girl... death has been close to me"

Reggie won't shut up though.

"At first I didn't want to die instinctively. That's why I abandoned my mother. I pretended to like my grandfather only on the upper side. I acted like a child with no interest in the throne. Tease everything while pretending you didn't notice anything. But it was really a hassle, and when I wished it was over... I met with you."

"I'm here to pick Alan up at church school... time?

Pretending to be a squire, Reggie was mixed up in a line picking up Alan.

"I guess I was guessing you were feeling depressed. Aunt Beatrice sent me to pick up Alan if it was going to be a distraction to me, but I don't suppose you'd have thought I would have followed you for a chance to observe the roads anymore."

"Running away... it's not like a prince can do that"

Even I didn't know the world, and I thought it would be tough trying to live alone, and I chose to be hired at Alan's with Reggie's suggestion. Could Reggie, who has emerged further than that, imitate such a thing?

"I didn't think about life. If you leave the royal palace alone, someone will surely come and kill me."

"Then kill yourself..."

To me crushed, Reggie affirms, "Yes, I am."

"If it's going to be over, that's still good. So when I saw you sneak in trying to escape, it felt like you were doing what you wanted to do instead."

So Reggie was kind from the start.

To me as a stranger, even Alan and Mr. Cain showed difficulty at first, but only Reggie accepted me so much because I was trying to do what I couldn't.

"Unlike me, I'm powerless, I can't do anything, and I don't cry out there like a normal girl when I know I've been served drugs. Anyway, try to move on to live... When I looked at you, I also finally realized that I was tired of being thankful."

So I thought I'd try to save me, Reggie said. I thought if I saw someone saved, I would want to help myself.

So Reggie distracted herself from me.

"Like you, I thought if I lived for someone too, it would be a little less painful. But you won't even let me protect you. [M] I wasn't sure what to do. I wonder if I should lock you up. I can think of any way to make it impossible to fly. I've thought about doing it a little bit."

... I heard some awesome scary words, but they did say it before. Were you seriously going to lock me up...... I thought you were joking.

"But Reggie didn't run it, did he?"

When I became a magician, Reggie didn't interfere with my decision to join the fight.

"You're the one who ultimately decides your life."

Reggie answered without getting lost.

"You and I have always been dictated by other people's decisions. I don't want to take any more decisions from you when you decide to make your own choices."

So, go on.

"It's my choice if I can't help you. So Chiara, you should respect that."

"Oh no..."

I can't believe I shouldn't help you.

To help myself, I went for a mage to help Reggie and Uncle Borderline, and now I've decided in my heart to fight even if I'm afraid to kill him. If the reason is missing...... I'm not going to know what to do and I feel like I've been thrown into the dark where I can't see underneath my feet.

"Though I knew I should have led the army.... If you don't have to be there, prioritizing your safety over mine will be more important to Alan and his team's victory."

"There won't be anything you don't need!

I accidentally climbed out towards Reggie and laid my hands on the sleeping table.

"You shouldn't all want Reggie to die! Why would you say that!?

"Right...... I thought you and Alan would say that. But in fact, it's better for you to survive than for me to survive without many allies dying. And if you die, my chances of dying will increase dramatically."

In exchange for your own death, are you going to kill your allies?

I felt my heart freeze when I perceived what they said in the dark.

I don't want to kill you anymore. I don't want you to kill me. I tried to separate such a grid by burying it as much as I could and at least respecting my enemies. But the allies, I don't think that's all.

Reggie told me to push me into trouble.

"If you still can't nod, I have no choice but to command you as a prince. I know in itself that the mage who serves tries to protect the Lord. Let's forgive him to some extent. But you are too precious as a force of war. My knights will give you priority in case. [M] I've already told Wentworth my priorities."

Everyone can't disobey the prince's orders. Even if they do their best for the prince, if Chiara could be sacrificed, they would be bounced from there.

I can't even help Reggie.

Because you became a magician? But if I don't become a magician, I can't do anything.

Chiara, who was thoroughly rejected, had no choice but to remain on her way.

"... ok"

I had no choice but to answer that, but I kept thinking that Chiara couldn't do anything about it, wandering around in her head.