Watashi wa Teki ni Narimasen!

"Mr. Chiara, is this... is His Royal Highness here?"

There, Mr. Cain, who caught up late, came from the side of the street.

Although you have found me and asked, how did you answer because I still don't know the circumstances, either? If I was in trouble, Mr. Felix, who was beside Mr. Growl, gave me an explanation.

In the meantime, beside you, Charles, Mr. Aubrey begins to talk about the situation.

"We were in a situation where we couldn't talk without tears..."

Tears in my eyes like I said, Mr. Aubrey.

"The army of Luain, which has attacked Cassia's castle, has gone up to 20,000. Because the fort was dropped, the people under the castle were evacuated first, but in the meantime, your son was to be missed."

Though that was how I got away from the castle one foot away, the Aubrey and the others from then could hardly escape to the neighboring territory either.

In addition to the Luein army, there were Salehard's armies, and even the road to the king's capital was sealed off.

I had no choice but to ask him about the opportunity while lurking in a neighboring town, and he said he was traveling repeatedly with other fugitives to hide you, Charles.

"During the escape, I heard stories of the Baron's neck being exposed and that your eldest daughter, Lady Flora, had been imprisoned and disappeared. My Baron Cassia family only survives, Lord Charles."

I hear Mr. Aubrey, who lost the Lord he was serving, was trying to get to Reggie that he had raised a soldier to move you to a safe place, anyway. Along the way, he was found by a Ruein soldier who was looking for the Baron's son.

Good thing we made it to save them...... really, it's not like the game.

There was no mention of all the barons in the game. It was just occupied and there were only Luein soldiers. I guess that means it was all a kill.

But you survived, Charles. Maybe that's because of the news from Evrard, or maybe it's because Reggie, who ran off like this, was alive.

But I'm the one who made the beginning.

It's good to have more people alive...... Come to think of it, the fort was lightly dropped when I got the news, and the Baron family was just full of letting you survive, Charles.

Doesn't this mean you're in hard mode to attack quite a bit?

It's unexpected that the Luein Army would use such a magician crunch, and I couldn't have expected Salehardo to be on my side.

I don't know if this side can have another country on its side either, but the king hasn't moved that way. They issued an order to assemble soldiers around the kingdom and the Marquis of Shestina, but nothing else has been exchanged.

Reggie is also marching as a prince, but I don't know if other countries will treat Reggie better as a representative of the country, even as they negotiate with other countries instead of kings. Because Reggie can't decide on her own to assign some territory, even if she wants to show the benefit of being on her side. The same goes for negotiating other things.

One wizard, just being added from the beginning, is too hard to overturn......

It was me that bothered me unintentionally, but for now I'll be traveling to the Evrard Army resting place.

"Mr. Chiara, just come here"

Mr. Cain called me in, so I decided to go there honestly. When I saw Reggie, who was still holding hands, he laughed small and let me go.

... I was wondering what you held hands for, but maybe you were trying to keep the dog lead connected to prevent me from fluttering.

If you go to the side, Mr. Cain will be taken lightly.

"I know it's an emergency, but if possible, you wanted to wait for me to storm. 'Cause in case I don't shelter you, I'm in trouble."

"Excuse me."

"Let's come."

Ask Mr. Cain, who tries to put me on a horse, to wait a minute.

"After everyone's gone, there's something I'd like to do to stay..."

"What... oh, I see"

Mr. Cain, who followed with his gaze what I was seeing, convinces me. I glanced at one of the men I caught, and the other Luain soldiers were slaughtered and killed.

Over time, the smell of blood drifts strong. You've gotten used to it a lot, and even if it makes you sick, this wasn't the only time I was going to throw up, but I honestly can't be happy.

At the same time, this intense odor induces the beast. If you let it go, the beast will devour you, but I don't want you to look so unharmed, even as a result of a dispute.

So I wanted to bury it...... the people in the carriage had a hateful glance at the body as the relief that was helped passed. In front of them, it was a long time before they acted to bury them, so they wanted to act after they left.

When me and Mr. Cain were a little away, they moved the carriage and the Cassian people ahead, as Reggie guessed it.

Where Reggie and a few knights remained, I turned the soil I had accumulated into a hill into a doll about twice the height of a man to carry the body to the edge of the road and cover it with soil. When he finished dismantling the earthly shape on top of it to the finish, Mr. Cain put him on horseback.

Seeing that, Reggie and the others started walking their horses.

Reggie, Mr. Cain asks as he moves on to follow the line.

"Why are you… obsessed with the burial of the enemy?

I think you've been asked something similar before by Mr. Cain.

I used hygiene as a reason then, but I guess that's a weak reason this time. It's not like many people have died in distant places. They must have thought I was done with the beast eating me.

Reggie and I are a little distant.

So I turned around a little bit and said to Mr. Cain.

"I'm... scared to get used to people dying and killing."

"Shouldn't we get used to it?

I guess Cain, who gave it back, worried me if I found it hard. But I shake my head to the side.

"I think it's because I have memories of a previous life. Because there's an ethic that I cultivated in that distant world that I shouldn't kill to protect myself... and I can't stand it."

It turns into the feeling of a heavy stone being dropped on your heart as soon as you have your enemies in front of you.

"That doesn't protect the people you care about. So I want to fight trying not to think about it. But I'm going to get used to myself taking people's lives, and that's scary too"

"Don't you want to get used to it? It'll be easier."

Mr. Cain has the look that he doesn't understand.

"Besides, you're hurting the people you want to protect... don't you think I hate you"

Uncle Vayne was wounded. Mrs. Beatrice was also in danger. And yet, I wonder if I ever hate my enemies.

I guess Mr. Cain has hated his family ever since he was murdered by the Luein army. I think it's natural for everyone living in this world to think that way.

Maybe if I got into that situation in my previous life, I'd no longer have the hesitation to hate and kill, too.

After the siege, I tried to think so. But I can't forget my last life.

"Previous life is previous life. I know it's easier to think now. But if you think it's none of your business to be alive right now like that... you'll have to tell me that the memories of my old family that have always supported me are irrelevant."

I didn't have a decent family. So all this time, I kept my previous life family in that position in my memory.

Close your eyes and I'll remember. My hand, which can be stretched straight without any fear, and my free love, which answers it.

If I deny that, I feel helplessly lonely and afraid that I won't even know where I'm standing.

You're shaping me now because I'm a family from a previous life.

The family is in a place that will never be harmed. Maybe that's why they want to be people with the moral values they wanted.

"I don't want to forget. So I, I can't throw away my old way of thinking either. I'm sure... Mr. Cain might not understand. But it's also true that I want to protect everyone. That's why I want to bury it in order to fight the fear of thinking like me in my previous life. Because if I can mourn a dead man, I feel like it's a redemption I've killed."

That, too, is a solitary action that only satisfies my feelings. Still, I can't help but.

I explained it to Mr. Cain with all my energy, but would you have understood?

I was anxious, but Mr. Cain, who listened to me, gave me a contemplative look somewhere, just one word.

"Really?"

And I just snapped, and I shut up.

It may have been difficult for you to understand after all.

I thought about it myself, over and over again, but I'm not sure I know it all. This is probably why the idea of previous life is so stained that it is carved unconsciously, though.

The horse, which proceeded side-by-side, quickly approached the place where the Evrard army was staying for a break.

Coming that far, Mr. Cain finally opens his mouth.

"... I probably won't hesitate to protect you. You won't hesitate to kill someone for that. If you think it's going to be a later scourge, even the opponent you can do by capturing may kill you. Would you hate me like that?

"No, because I know what Mr. Cain did to protect me. I understand that Cain and the others think so just because I'm being grabbed by memory."

Answering, Mr. Cain took a small breath, "That's fine," he said.

In Mr. Cain, I'm guessing you got some kind of answer.

On the other hand, I think again.

In the end, I live in a different world than I did in my previous life. One day if you don't get caught up in the thinking of those in this world, you'll be worried about yourself somewhere different from your surroundings and confused from them as well.

Will one day... be acceptable?