What is the experience of becoming a vampire

The first thing was that the kindergarten had to conduct thematic courses. Xia Libing's parents bought her a goldfish.

The night before, Lao Xia’s father was also very happy to explain the body and physiological structure of goldfish to his studious daughter through the information he found.

Unexpectedly, when I got up the next morning, I saw that goldfish was dismembered by Xiao Lao Xia, and the tool was actually the paper knife in his study.

Seeing the goldfish that was cut open, the small internal organs neatly arranged on a piece of kitchen absorbent paper, and the daughter who was carefully observing the structure of the fish, he was completely stupid.

When Lao Xia's mother got up, she was also shocked and asked her daughter why she did this.

But the answer was "want to see."

After that, Xiao Lao Xia also used different tools to dissect many small animals at different times and on different occasions. If you buy fresh ingredients at home, she will find opportunities to dismember them if you don’t pay attention. .

Xiao Lao Xia, who just went to kindergarten, did not show the slightest irritability or crazy emotions, but was consistent and plain and rational, as if she was not dismantling a life, but a toy that was no different from a doll or a plastic model. This kind of performance made her parents feel more afraid.

No matter whether Lao Xia's parents reasoned in a low voice or yelled with anger, there was no way to stop Xiao Lao Xia from doing things that seemed very cruel and terrifying to them.

Even Lao Xia's father, who has always been gentle and gentle, slapped his daughter once unbearable.

Although he regretted the fight and cried with his daughter in his arms, Xiao Lao Xia still showed nothing, neither crying nor showing the slightest expression of fear. After he let go, he ran to the mirror. , Look sideways and observe the redness on your face.

Lao Xia's father couldn't help thinking, would she suddenly cut her cheek with a knife to see why it was red and swollen?

After that, Lao Xia's parents dared not let their daughter go to kindergarten anymore, took them by their side and watched her at home.

But not long after, a friend of Lao Xia's father brought the child to play at home. The child accidentally fell and his knee was scratched.

After seeing this scene, Xiao Lao Xia ran back to the house. Xia mother, who had been paying attention to her daughter, immediately followed, only to find that Xiao Lao Xia took the one from her dressing box that she did not know when she hid it. small scissors.

Mother Xia quickly stopped her daughter, grabbed the small scissors, and asked her what she was going to do, but the answer was a bit chilling: "I want to see his knees."

So after one night of discussion, Lao Xia's parents decided to continue taking her to "seeking a doctor."

Although they still love their daughter very much, they do not want her daughter to become a "monster" that may be very cruel and threaten others in the future.In particular, the super-high IQ displayed by her daughter will multiply this threat.

But just like the last time, I saw various experts and did various inspections and tests, but I couldn't determine what the problem was.

Lao Xia's brain structure is normal and functions normally. The nine neurotransmitters, including serotonin, γ-aminobutamine, norepinephrine, and dopamine, are also normal.

She also has no obvious symptoms of autism or other known symptoms of mental or psychological related diseases, and cannot be diagnosed. Therefore, various institutions, hospitals, experts, and doctors have only proposed some conservative "treatment plans." It didn't work, and it made Lao Xia's parents feel unreliable.

Then, through relationships, Lao Xia’s father found a doctor Li who had just returned from abroad and was the main editor of these medical records.She has a wealth of work experience and theoretical knowledge. After spending a month with Xiao Lao Xia, she proposed a set of treatment plans.

Through FMRI (functional magnetic resonance imaging) and other related brain function tests, Dr. Li discovered that although Lao Xia's brain has no obvious damage or defects, it does have some unique rules when the brain is active.

Lao Xia's brain neural network may be slightly different from ordinary people in the way it works. This difference leads to her unique way of thinking.

Lao Xia can feel the pain normally, but she has a strong tolerance for pain. Normal people will subconsciously retract their hands when they are stuck with a needle, look at the place where they are stuck, and even scream, although Lao Xia will stop. , But the first reaction is to look at what she pierced, and then observe the piercing situation. Although she can feel the pain, the pain does not make her feel afraid and obvious rejection.

Standing on a high place, she is also not afraid, not nervous, and even attempts to throw other things or jump down by herself, just to see what happens.

Although she can use language normally and understand the meaning of other people's words, she cannot perceive other people's emotions, and she does not have normal people's emotions and lacks empathy.

Looking at the PDF, the case data pictures and the judgments made by Doctor Li, which were obviously scanned from paper documents, Xiang Kun combined with the relevant books he had read before to understand.

The human brain has 80 billion nerve cells, and each nerve cell is connected to about 7,000 nerve cells to form a huge, complex and powerful neural network. Human brain activities such as memory, thinking, calculation, etc. need to rely on They are done, and the generation of emotions is no exception.

Each nerve cell is like an electronic device, such as a computer, mobile phone, etc., with different functions.

Some are only 2 to 4 nanometers apart, and they can transmit electrical signals directly through electrical synapses, just like two devices are directly connected, and the speed is very fast.

And some are 20-40 nanometers apart, which requires neurotransmitters to transmit signals.

Just like U disk and mobile hard disk, the amount of neurotransmitter is the size of the mobile memory. The larger the capacity, the more files can be transferred.

When the USB flash drive (neurotransmitter) filled with files is inserted into the USB interface (receptor) on the target device, the target device will begin to interpret the above files and start working according to the system preset software. Electronic devices on other networks transmit information and let them start to work.

Many mental or psychological diseases, including depression, autism, schizophrenia, etc., are related to the production and transmission of neurotransmitters.

Either the U disk does not have enough storage space, or there are too few USB ports, reading problems, or the electronic device itself is faulty.

But Lao Xia’s situation is different from these. It is very likely that there are many "electronic devices" in Lao Xia's brain neural network. The systems and application software above are different from those of ordinary people. The same information files are entered and run. Different results.

So Lao Xia has a very high IQ, strong learning ability, athletic ability, reaction speed, and sense of balance, but the price is barriers to emotions and emotions.

In simple words: Lao Xia's brain circuits are different from ordinary people.

The doctor Li observed Xiao Lao Xia for half a month, and after obtaining the consent of Lao Xia's parents, he began to use her method to "treat" Lao Xia.

Her method is very radical and simple. It is to starve Lao Xia until she perceives her instinctive fear, and use this as an entry point to influence her other behaviors and let her understand what other things she must not do. How do other people feel when doing something.

Doctor Li was very accurate. For Xiao Lao Xia at that time, hunger and appetite were indeed the best interfaces for her to cut into other perceptions.

Seeing this, Xiang Kun finally understood what was going on in the airtight room when he first perceived Lao Xia’s dream, and why Lao Xia had such a "starved ghost reincarnation" way of eating in the dream. .

She was indeed hungry, and when she was very young, she was very hungry and dying.

But this method did make her understand a lot of information.

One of the prerequisites for Dr. Li's use of this method is the super high IQ shown by Xiao Lao Xia. Although it is still very small, there are no obstacles to communication in many things.

After Dr. Li used hunger to let her know how she feels about pain and the fear of death, she helped her recognize her own differences bit by bit, and let her realize how to integrate into society and other people.

Later, with the help of Dr. Li, Lao Xia did not delay going to school. From elementary school, she seemed to be no different from a "normal person".

Except that he is not very talkative, he always stares at others with wide eyes, and his expression is a little stupid, showing no abnormalities.

She began to learn and imitate other people's behaviors and expressions, and tried to connect external performance with their true intentions to help herself understand other people's emotions.

Xiang Kun also knew why Lao Xia had to study psychiatry and psychology, and why he had to be transferred to the Third Hospital of Shitong.

The former is naturally to "treat" herself, or to allow herself to adapt to a normal life, while the latter is because she knows that there are several cases in the Third Hospital of Erythronium, and some of them are similar to her when she was a child.She wants to see if she can find a case like hers, and then find a way to get and perceive normal emotions.

However, during this time, she has confirmed that the several cases here are not the same as her situation.

Of course, these contents were not the contents of Lao Xia's own medical records, but she marked them up, and even included the basic symptoms of those cases.

Obviously, Lao Xia made this document specifically to let him understand his situation.

After reading the PDF file, he put the tablet back in his bag, and Xiang Kun flipped through the soft leather notebook. It was obvious that some of the pages were old, and even the material was different from the latter, obviously from other notebooks. Remove and rebind.

In the previous part, Lao Xia summarized the behavior model guidelines.

Looking at the changes in the handwriting and the degree of fading of the ink, it can be speculated that she should have made these summaries from a long time ago, maybe in junior high school or even earlier.

The first rule of behavior model is:

"keep smiling."

But the second point is: "Smiles need to be adjusted according to the details of each person's five senses to be natural."

The third is still related to smiles: "Different smiles need to be applied in different scenarios."

It seems that they are supplements based on the effect after actual application.

Xiang Kun immediately remembered the scene when she was picking up Lao Xia at the train station in Tongshi Town, and the weird smile she showed to the college student who struck up directly scared people.

He couldn't help but add this smile to the little old Xia in the photo previously seen on the PDF file. He felt extremely happy and couldn't help grinning silently.

However, after feeling the gaze of Lao Xia next to him, Xiang Kun hurriedly closed his smile and continued to flip through the soft leather book.

Article 35: "When you are uncertain, observe more and speak less."

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Article 113: "What people say is different from their true intentions, and they must be judged based on expressions and behavior habits."

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Article 422: "Sometimes it is humorous to poke the pain in the face and say unfriendly words."

Article 423: "The previous one needs to be used according to the relationship, otherwise conflicts will occur."

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Article 489: "Occasional verbal attacks on familiar people are a sign of closeness. (Note: Only Yang Zhener currently meets the conditions)"

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Article 706: "When chatting on WeChat or QQ, sometimes emoticons are more suitable for expression than words."

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The last one is nine hundred and seventy-two:

"In order to gain the trust of others, you can take the initiative to express your trust. In order to get the secrets of others, you can first hand over your own secrets. (Note: For Xiang Kun)"

Xiang Kun couldn't help laughing again, then turned around and said, "How did you sum up this criterion?"

Xia Libing said: "Practice."

Xiang Kun thought he had finished reading it, and was about to get the file bag, but found that there was still content at the back of the book, so he turned the book over. Sure enough, he found that it was turned from the back to the front with dense content.

And these contents are all related to him, they are all the judgments and guesses that Lao Xia summed up and obtained from various observations on him.

From guesses about his physical fitness, eating habits, and behavior patterns, to possible trends in various time periods, and the true intentions of various behaviors, the gifts include writing with lyrics, black circle graffiti, chopsticks, coins, etc. The analysis and usage speculation of the items are already six to seven points close to the truth.

Xiang Kun knew that Lao Xia had guessed many of these things, but there were many more, even he was a little surprised that Lao Xia could know.

I have to say that Lao Xia's observation and insight really surprised Xiang Kun.Of course, this is also related to his lack of defense against Lao Xia.

Among them, what surprised him most was that when Lao Xia first came into contact with the "lucky coin" sent to Kun by Xiang Kun in Nana's room in Tongshizhen, he had already noticed the peculiarity of the coin.

Normally, according to Xiang Kun’s previous inferences, other people should have contact with his “super-connected objects” or “affect objects”. In addition to his approval, the first thing is to trust him enough and be willing to believe that. The special of coins.

When he gave Lao Xia a black circle for graffiti, Lao Xia had already obtained his main consciousness and had a "network access permit."

But at that time, when Lao Xia first noticed the possibility of the "hyperlink" coin, she didn't even know that it was given to Nana by Xiang Kun, but after knowing this, she thought about it carefully, and After comparing with other coins, I became more sure that my perception was not an illusion.

From this, Xiang Kun speculated that there should be a certain overlap between his "super-connected things" and "affecting things", and Lao Xia's way of cognition and thinking about things.

After closing the soft leather notebook, Xiang Kun opened the file bag again.

There is no other information in it. It is loaded with Lao Xia’s own medical record files. The medical record related content in the PDF is scanned above, but these are also copied or photographed and printed, not the originals. She didn't get these directly from that Doctor Li.

Collected the medical records, Xiang Kun took the black soft leather notebook and placed it on his knees. He pondered for a while before slowly saying, "My situation, it's actually quite simple..."