What Should I Do If I was Forced to Marry the Elf Queen

She just has no choice.

Because from the moment when the vision caused by her birth was detected by the Celestial Division, she was still in her infancy, and her future life had been decided by a group of big people who had never met.

She is destined to become a saint.

This is the arrangement of the gods and the will of the church, and it can never be changed by Catherine's own will.

In the imperceptible upbringing of the seminary, Catherine herself gradually accepted this "destined" fate.

Until... Not long ago, Catherine experienced and witnessed the worlds completely different from the books in the Doinchi Empire.

For the first time, she had doubts about the creed she once believed firmly.

Because outside the magnificent sacred capital, she has seen too many sufferings and injustices... and also seen too many things that are enough to shock people.

This caused her to have some rebellious thoughts more than once.

If the world suffers so much, then instead of patience, why not have fun in time?

If there is so much fate, then instead of obeying, why not fight for change?

If the happiness of mortals can depend on their own efforts and struggles..... Then, why must it be entrusted to the illusory kingdom of heaven to be able to redeem all suffering?

Therefore...Catherine looked forward to happiness and the future.

She hopes that one day, she can be loved by others like an ordinary girl...

But for Catherine, who is a saint, even such a small wish is ultimately extravagant and out of reach.

You know..... In order to forge the power of "religious saints", the church has paid more than a small amount of resources.And Catherine had to hurt others because of this in order to complete the plan of the superiors.

So in the end... Catherine gained incomparable power in accordance with the "spiritual expectations" and became a glorious saint.

However, the price she paid was endless loneliness.

The former companions turned against each other and left her.

Those mean, critical, and eccentric theology professors and grandmothers, instead, had wrinkled old faces and smiles that were flattering to disgusting.

On the other hand, the "servants of God" who were close to her were greeted and flattered on the surface.Secretly coveted and resented her status and glory.

For all this ugly, the girl is so weak and at a loss what to do.

Although she has the power to surpass most people.

So Catherine chose to escape.

Regardless of people's persuasion, she volunteered to work in an ordinary choir and stopped practicing.The intention is to use a simple and monotonous life to suppress the pain in the heart.

However, the more painful a person's heart is, the more hope he will look forward to.

Catherine finally found the light in the endless darkness—the young man named Lindentu.

But...Unfortunately, this light is not entirely yours.

Because behind the young man named Lindentu, there were several more dazzling figures.

Whether it was the cold and tyrannical Empress Frost, the proud Crusader marshal... or the girl named Aisha, they were all so dazzling.Enough to knock Catherine completely unable to look up.

So...even though I am so desperate for warmth and hope.

Catherine could only choose restraint, and chose restraint to leave the boy.

Because there is no place for him to stand beside him.

Not an inch.

"In this case, please take care of Miss Catherine... I and Aisha will leave first..."

Still a little uneasy and nodded to himself, the boy slowly walked towards the two girls.

"Um... it's okay, please take care of Mr. Lindentu."

After saying this, Catherine suddenly felt like crying.

70. The Sound of Silent Room

After that, Catherine had forgotten how she left that street.She doesn't even remember how she came to this abandoned church in a remote city.

He just pushed open the dusty wooden door unconsciously, and hurriedly closed it.

She enclosed herself in the dim and shabby space, completely isolated from the outside world.

In fact, she was unable to think about more things at this moment.

Whether it was the task assigned by the cardinal, the choir's clear rules, or the hunting of the fighting nun, the possible inquiry of the priest... Catherine didn't care.

At this moment, she just wanted to be quiet.

In this empty environment, wantonly vent the emotions that he has lost control.

Unconsciously touching the uneven wall with her fingers, Catherine muttered to herself:

"My merciful lord...has I done something wrong?"

As he said, two lines of tears flowed from a pair of beautiful eyes.

"Woo...oooo...oooo..."

The nun sobbed and walked hard on the wall in the room full of debris.

Because... what happened today is too cruel to her, and too unbelievable!

"Bitch! You shameless bitch!"

Before the registration point of the monastery, the former companions had hatred eyes and acrid sarcasm, as if echoing in Catherine's mind again and again, constantly torturing her spirit and will.

Finally, the girl who couldn't bear it started to cry to herself:

"Sorry! I'm really sorry...I didn't mean it...I...I didn't mean it!"

Holding on to the uneven wall, the girl lowered her head, her chest undulating violently.

"Sorry... Mr. Lindentu! I'm really sorry...I shouldn't lie to you...I shouldn't lie to you!"

Catherine almost screamed, and desperately apologized to the boy who stood up and defended herself.

Because she knows...she is not as innocent as she seems...

Although all the tragedies that have happened are not out of my own wishes.

But it is undeniable that my own really hurt them and hurt my closest partner.So that they destroyed their dreams with their own hands, and even turned against each other!

Every time she thinks of the unbearable scenes, the girl feels like her heart is pierced by thousands of steel needles!

"You bitch... if it wasn't for your waywardness! How could an old man live in a small monastery!"

At this time, Mother Oriya's hideous and wrinkled face appeared in front of Catherine like a nightmare!

"Uuuuu... Teacher Oria... Teacher Oria, I... I didn't mean it... I just don't want to do that! I don't want to hurt anyone!"

The girl shouted hoarsely towards the non-existent phantom, whimpering!

I want to express what I think deeply in my heart.

Although, Catherine also knew very well that this cocooned old mother had never really cared about herself-not even once.

But in the most helpless years, she deceived herself and others, wishing to take Mother Oriya’s hypocritical smile and her pretentious language as her care and sincerity for herself in order to soothe her wounded soul. .

Although... the result of doing this still scarred her in the end.

But if time comes again, Catherine feels that she will still choose that way.

Because at the time, she had almost nothing.

In the dark night, cold, lonely and helpless, longing for a bit of warmth.

Even if you know that the temperature of the flame may burn yourself, it will fly to the light like a moth without hesitation...

Therefore, Mother Oriya did not hesitate to order the fighting nun to shoot herself and Lindentu and his daughter.

Catherine's heart was as painful as a tear.

Because even no matter how hypocritical it is, no matter how utilitarian it is.

That is also the teacher who has spent many years with himself day and night, and raised himself up!

However, she hated herself that way, and ordered her to be killed ruthlessly like that...It's like the relationship between teachers and students for so many years has never existed!

When she thought of this, Catherine felt that her whole world was about to be torn apart.

"Mr. Lindento.....Mr. Lindento...sure enough...sure enough...am I a sinful person?"

Catherine squatted on the ground, lowered her head, and kept reciting the young man's name silently.

Although...in the eyes of outsiders, perhaps the relationship between himself and the boy named Lindentu is just a nodding acquaintance.

But only Catherine knew in her heart that the encounter with that boy was the first redemption for herself!

Because whether it is a kind-hearted saint or a simple ignorant nun... it is all just a mask of hypocrisy that Catherine wove for herself in order to escape the guilt of the past.

They were all to cover up the atonement that he had betrayed his companions, and even more to respond to the mechanical reaction of others' expectations for the role of "saint".

All this is not from the sincerity... It's just that she had to make such a choice alone.

But... the young man rescued her desperately when they first met.

It is not because of profit, nor is it out of hypocrisy.

It's just because of instinct...

For this, Catherine had no doubt.

Because, behind the boy, there are thousands of people who escaped from the prison of the devil.

They were all saved because of the youth's fighting!

In the eyes of a teenager, he is just like them, all people in need of help, and there is not much difference.

At least... Catherine thought so.

Even if she knew that she was not a special existence in that young man's heart.

The girl still stubbornly believed that the boy named Lindentu was a selfless person.

Just like in the legend, the liberator Linden Wan, who always stands on the side of the weak, is a hero who is willing to sacrifice himself and dedicate to her people!

The facts also proved this.

Even though, his own tracking and misunderstanding bothered Lindentu.

But when he was in trouble, the boy still stepped forward without hesitation.

Even if he caused such a big trouble, he didn't show the slightest regret.

"Mr. Lindentu...you...you are too cunning! Too cunning!"

There was a bitter smile on Catherine's tear-soaked face.

"Why do you...why be so good to me...why be so gentle to me?"

The girl did not finish her words, but she was indeed so real, and so eagerly for the light and heat that radiated from that young man.

At the same time.... also deeply resent and fear!

The tenderness resenting the young man is not entirely his own.

Fearing... After that young man left, he would plunge into endless darkness again.

But... But... I am a saint who serves the Father!

Regardless of identity or reality, there is an unfathomable estrangement from the young man close at hand.

Not only that... the side of the teenager was also accompanied by other girls.

Their figures are so dazzling, that Catherine feels ashamed of herself!

"My Virgin...My benevolent mother...what should I do? What should I do?"

Kneeling before the dilapidated statue of the Virgin, the girl prayed in tears.

But at this moment, a seductive voice sounded silently in the empty and confined prayer room:

"Oh... my poor boy~ It seems that you are troubled?"