When I Returned From Another World I Was A Silver Haired Shrine Maiden

Dinner that evening, when I first came down to the living room, I discovered that there was something in the table that caught my eye.

"Mother, what is this..."

I ask my mother, who washes in the kitchen with a pulled face.

"It's red rice. It's not normal for a family to celebrate when the first period is here."

Speaking of which, I feel like I remember eating red rice even when I was Yuna.

At the time, I was still in elementary school and didn't know what it meant, so I only thought red rice was unusual... but I still have the impression that Yuna would have been shy if she did it.

"…… it's a celebration, but a first period is a celebration?

It just seems annoying to me.

"That's right. The fact that my period has arrived means that I have been given a child. Congratulations."

"Well, um... I have absolutely no intention of having a baby."

I can't imagine having a baby. It's disgusting just to think that a man will hold you above all else.

I want to be a girl if I'm going to Yi... will this be a lesbian?

"That's fine now. It's only natural that you can't think about having a baby at Alice's age. But the day may come when you like a man and you want to have his baby, Alice?

That was a casual word, but there was something ticklish coming to my chest.

I can't think of making love to a man because I'm a man.

However, Alicia's body has changed her food and clothing preferences considerably.

So I get anxious when people tell me that my mind might like a man by taming my body ahead of me.

I can deny it now. But five years from now, ten years from now, I don't know if I'll be able to deny it the same way.

It feels like it's being rebuilt from the inside of your body before you know it.

I'm not me anymore, and I want to scream out of fear like that.

"…… Are you okay? You don't look well."

"... sounds a little uncomfortable... you're sitting down and resting till everyone gets here"

"Oh, yeah. It's only my first day. I can't do it."

My mother seemed to think that my illness was due to menstrual symptoms.

I don't remember much of what happened after that.

My stomach hurts so bad. I feel sick for wandering around in my head, too.

I didn't have an appetite, but I didn't want to let go of my mother's feelings that she would celebrate, and I tried my best to eat just a little bit.

- Then I put it all back without being able to contain the nausea.

"Mr. Ikto, I'm going to try to cut your mental tone today."

Alicia declares to me that she's lying in bed.

'Oh, you're all right today, aren't you? … I don't want to be in this situation.'

"When I make the day I cut and the day I don't, I'm aware of when Ikto did it, so the..."

Alicia tells me in a spicy way. Is that true too? You don't want to know the status of someone else's solo activities.

Besides, I don't think I need to be forced to get in tune until I'm in such a bad shape...

When I thought of it that way, I heard Alicia's worried voice.

"Why don't you talk to your family about what Ikto is worried about right now?

"Hey, why...?

'I know, that's about it. Simply because of your period, I don't think your body is going to be this hard... Mr. Ikto is hard, isn't he?'

But I can't admit it. My troubles are caused by being a woman. Because if Alicia finds out about it, she'll feel responsible.

As I looked down and pressed silently, I found Alicia sighing.

"Mr. Ikto's meanness. I've never spared a body more than I have now. I could hug you if I had a body... '

Alicia said with a slightly obstinate tone.

'I'm already out of tune, aren't I? Sometimes I think it's easier to talk without me... so I'm glad I can say good morning tomorrow with a smile on my face.'

'... sorry. Good night, Alicia.'

"Good night, Mr. Ikto."