Wife's sexy development journey

Chapter Fifty (Part 2) "Until the night before departure, I couldn't restrain the entanglement and longing in my heart, and called you again, but when the call was connected, I suddenly found out what I should say? Do you love games or me? This question is not necessary. I know you have always loved me. It is only because of my neglect that you are addicted to games. I should be sorry for that."

"Then what should I say? I made the call. I couldn't keep silent. In a hurry, I subconsciously said nonsense. I remember asking if you are still playing games? Right? In fact, I regretted it after I said it. According to the situation at the time, it was clearly a sentence of finding fault and quarreling. Sure enough, your indifferent answer confirmed my concern."

"But although your voice is cold, my heart beats fiercely. The sound and tone are very harsh, but it makes me feel at ease and calms my heart that has been tangled for a few days. It is a kind of It's better than love, and it's like the familiarity and dependence of family. At that moment, I suddenly thought, can one person's heart and body be attached to two people separately?"

"This thought made me stunned. I quickly wanted to leave it behind, but I didn't expect it to sway in front of my eyes like a shadow, making me want to stop. Since I can't forget it, I can only choose temporarily Suppressed in my heart."

"Our phone calls still ended up in unhappiness, but I don't have time to entangle our relationship anymore. I just sit there quietly, suppressing my inner thoughts and emotions. I finally decided to go out for a walk. Going to that person’s city does not mean that I will get into that person’s bed. I just want to change the environment and think about our future."

"So after I sent you another text message, I got into the bed lonely and fell asleep in my wild thoughts."

Hearing this, my face was also full of surprise. This was not a pretense, but a real surprise. Originally, I always thought that Xiaoxin went to A Tao because of the emptiness of her lower body. And go to Qianli to send force.

It turned out that she turned out to blame her for my indulging in games because of her open mind, and she felt that it was her fault, that she would fall for herself and gave birth to the idea of ​​separation of spirit and flesh. .

I have to sigh again for Xiaoxin’s kindness and blame everything on herself. In her mind, she is always a betrayer, a sinner, and even a slut, but I, the culprit, has become The victim in her mind.

Although analyzing from what she knows, her thinking makes sense, but often many people, in order to be alone, don’t mind using some far-fetched excuses to pour dirty water on others to express their purity and nobility. .But Xiaoxin never thought about it this way from beginning to end.

At this moment, Xiaoxin’s image became taller in my eyes, but I looked smaller and smaller. I felt the sting of needles all over my body, and my heart seemed to be held tightly by the strong hand. No matter how happily he throbs, his face is like being repeatedly burned with a soldering iron held up by someone, even his throat is pinched tightly, unable to make a sound or breathe.Fortunately, Xiaoxin, who was obsessed with memories, didn't find me any strange.

"This night, I fell asleep in a daze, then woke up in a muddle, and then I couldn't sleep over and over again until the black sky outside slowly turned white."

"A few hours later, I boarded the plane to the city where that person was. Although I had some psychological preparations in my heart, I never thought that this trip would make me fall into the abyss in one step. ."

"The flight time of dozens of minutes is very short, so short that I haven't adjusted my emotions. I followed the flow of people ignorantly and walked out from a long distance. I saw the man waving his hands. I was slightly taken aback. Although I had guessed that he would come to pick up the plane, I did not tell him which flight I was on. His presence at that time only means that he has been waiting there since the arrival of the last flight. I am somewhat moved by this."

"Watching him walk slowly, my heart is still nervous. He took my luggage, and then silently led the way. I, who is not familiar with my life, can only be silent as well, following behind, Got a taxi."

"The taxi drove directly to the hotel he booked, but I wanted to go out to find it by myself. I didn't agree until he said that he had paid the money and it was close to many attractions. He also asked me why I went there. There, of course I would not tell him about this, saying that I was overwhelmed by the spring heart, and I went to him for physical comfort. Instead, according to the words that I had already thought about, I said that I was let go by my classmates. ."

Regarding this, I had to express contempt for Xiaoxin in my mind while she was talking. She had learned badly, and even knew that she thought about lies in advance, and not only lied to A Tao, but also lied to me. I remember that time I also found a lot of evidence to prove Xiaoxin's remarks. Now think about it, I am really an SB!

"After that, I stayed in the hotel arranged by A Tao, but I still gave him the money so that he couldn't make him feel that I owed him. He also behaved very well that day, which made me feel more or less relieved. . I am also full of longing for future play."-"The next morning, I originally wanted to go out and go shopping directly, but as soon as I got downstairs, I saw him. He should have been there a long time ago. He walked out blindly, and he followed. At that time, his attitude was very sincere, and he even said directly and frankly that he would not act excessively. In addition, I was not familiar with him personally. He got into his car with such a half-push."

"The first two days of playing, I was a little tired, but I was quite happy. He was still a promised person. In these two days, he really took me around and played the role of commentary frequently, telling me about every scenic spot. The story. The most important thing is that there is no non-discriminatory action."

"The first night he sent me back to the hotel downstairs and drove away. The next day we had dinner together, and then he went straight back. He never made an excuse to go upstairs, and of course I would not invite he."

"But this situation changed on the third day. Because A Tao was very disciplined and gentleman in the first two days. Coupled with our frequent contact during those two days, my inner desires began to resurface, so I The guard against him also slowly faded. That night when he offered to drink some alcohol to relieve fatigue, I actually agreed in a daze."

"You know how much I drink. I feel dizzy if I don't drink much. He didn't force it. After seeing me saying that I can't drink anymore, he didn't persuade me to drink anymore. In fact, I drank too much at the time, but I still insisted. , Showing a sober look. We got up and left the hotel and walked to the hotel, but not long after we left the hotel, I felt dizzy and my head was a little stupefied."

"In the confusion, my only feeling is that I walked from a dark place to a bright place, and then a dark road, and then in front of me it was pitch black, but fortunately, that piece soon The darkness disappeared and was replaced by an orange light. Later I realized that it was a hotel room light, which he turned on."

"The sudden change of light made me awake a little bit in a daze. I also realized that I had returned to the hotel room. But why is there an extra person in my room? I couldn't help shaking in a panic. He turned his head to make his brain more awake, and then looked intently. He was standing in the small corridor of the room, looking at me and smiling."

"That's a very shallow smile. If in the bright spring, it would be a very charming smile, but I don't know why, when I saw it in that situation, I felt that it was full of lust, and I also became nervous."

"I had to quickly ask him to leave, but at this time, he removed the gentleman's mask he had kept for the past few days, and began to make excuses for staying, and even mentioned many details of that month many times. ."

"This makes me more nervous, I want to let him go even more eagerly, but what he said, like a drill, went directly from my cochlea, into the depths of my brain, and awakened me. Those memories that are easy to bury, those humiliating memories, those unbearable times. Although disgusting, I have to admit that he did arouse my desires."

"Just when I was obsessed with memories, he suddenly rushed over and kissed me. I didn't adjust my emotions in time and pulled myself back to reality. Instead, I kissed him inexplicably. At that time, I was like a traveler who had been without water in the desert for many days and saw the water again, regardless of frantic demand."

"I have forgotten how long we kissed. It was just a vague feeling. I have a big hand holding my chest. I like my soft breasts, which are constantly changing into various shapes during the hard rubbing. The pleasure of squeezing hard is more crazy to me than touching it myself."

"Fortunately, this sudden violent offensive made me sober again. I hate why I am so slutty, shamelessly kiss a man who is not my boyfriend in a hotel room, I was still playing with my breasts, although in the previous month, he had touched almost every inch of my skin countless times. I was a little bit irritated and pushed him away."

"After that, I had no self-confidence, so I ran into the toilet and sat on the toilet very regretful. I hated myself for being unsatisfactory, hated for shame, hated for shamelessness. In a few words of his, I fell into once again. The trap of desire. However, remorse returns to remorse, and my underlying manifestation is indeed still leaving an obscene liquid outward."

"Sitting there with my head in my arms, I cried. It's weird, how can I still have a face to cry? Isn't all of this my own? I could already stay away from the demon, but I just made a bad I came here like a door. I could have lived my life again happily, but I didn't know the shame to go all the way to pursue the beast that would ruin my life at any time."

"Tears ran across my cheeks, but they couldn't wash my dirty soul and body. A bitch who has been dominated and controlled by desire, even pretending to be reserved ridiculously, I suddenly wanted to see my face. , To see how I can interpret the hypocritical appearance."-"I slowly stood up, turned around and looked at myself in the mirror, although I only painted light makeup, but under the erosion of tears, At this time, it was totally unrecognizable, but I didn’t mind it at the time. I stared straight at myself in the mirror, as if my eyes could go through the fuzzy and chaotic makeup and look directly at the hidden faces behind. . My gaze changed from confused to concentrated, then sharp, and finally angry."

"Suddenly, I involuntarily raised my hand and drew it on my face. At the same time, I told myself, "You deserve it, you found it yourself. You are a bastard, a bastard in a pure coat. No matter how you pretend, you can't conceal your inner sensuality." At that moment, I hated myself more than ever. I slapped my face with a dozen slaps, but didn't feel the pain at all, but felt that the beating was still light. "

"I slapped myself crazily, and my brain became even crazier. At that time, another voice appeared in my mind, which was in sharp contrast to the previous voice that blamed myself. "I'm not licentious, I just figured it out. Relax, this is not my fault. I have tried very hard to recover all the faults. Today's unbearableness is the effect of alcohol, and I cannot be completely blamed.""

"The two voices reprimanded each other, and I also stopped the movement in my hands, because now the pain in my brain has overshadowed the pain caused by the slap. I was swaying between the two voices, and I felt my head as big as a fight. I tried hard to find the truth in the two arguments, but slowly felt as if I had been inclined to the latter. Later, I carefully recalled that that kind of tendency was not actually identification, but an excuse for myself."

"When people are faced with choices, they tend to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages. For me at that time, putting all my faults on alcohol can avoid the fact that I am lustful, and at least make myself feel better. Some, no more slapped masochistic attacks."

"As thinking human beings are like this. After choosing a tendency, they often ignore how unreliable the argument is, but find a lot of evidence to prove this argument from their own hearts. I was the same at that time. After confirming that everything tonight was the fault of alcohol, I began to look for various reasons to excuse myself in my heart until I truly believed in all this. This may be the starting point for my repeated mistakes."

"It's not my fault, it's alcohol! It's alcohol that made me fall into confusion, let me relax my vigilance, and also fueled my desires. Even now, the confusion in my head is the best proof. Therefore, I quickly turned on the faucet and washed a few faces fiercely. When the palm of my hand touched my cheek, the pain that followed made me sober, but only a little. Obviously, the effect of washing my face was in vain."

"How can that be more effective? That person is outside. The only space I can move around is the small area of ​​the bathroom. After looking around, I had to focus on the shower head. Until that moment I'm still deceiving myself and looking for excuses for my debauchery, thinking that it is purely because of the effects of alcohol that I have made myself behave so unbearably, and trying to avoid the fact of my debauchery."

"Think of a way, as if I have found a way out, I can't wait to stand under the shower, open the faucet forcefully, let the water drip happily on my clothes, and then slowly penetrate into my skin, washing mine. Body. At that time, I was immersed in a dead end where I could get out of it as soon as possible. I completely forgot that I didn't lock the door when I just came in. This should be my second mistake."

"When the water dampened my body, my drunkenness really dissipated a lot, and the brain slowly calmed down? I feel complacent that the point of view I chose is extremely correct. Now that the brain has regained consciousness, should I? Thinking about how to drive that person away for a while?"

"That person was outside at this time. What was he doing? I remember the first time he raped me in the bathroom. The experience reminded me now, and I felt suffocated. Then he used photos and videos to intimidate me. I played with me for another month. Those unbearable images kept appearing. I suddenly realized that my body was wet again, and the secreted liquid had melted into the water and covered my lower body."

"Although I am very reluctant to admit it, my current desire is so high that it is really burning.

Thinking of facing that person for a while, I don't know what else he has prepared to deal with me. I can't help but start to hate the lust of my body again. Of course, in my subconscious, the body is the body and the mind is the mind."

"With such a lustful body, as long as that person uses a few tricks, I am afraid I will only be obediently obedient. What should I do? The long-term suppressed desire is now like a dynamite bag, long-term compression and refinement will make it more and more Danger, continuing will only make it more pure, and it seems to have been glued to my body, it cannot be removed, and it follows the shadow."

"With the impact of the current, my mind became clearer. Since it cannot be removed, in order to prevent the outsiders from succeeding, then I only need to ignite him in advance, and when the desires drift away with the wind, even if he has a thousand more With a tricky plan, I can also keep everything calm."

(to be continued)