Wife's sexy development journey
[Wife's Sexy Development Journey Part 2] (18)
Author: I am not a big God 2019/08/23 Word Count: 5254 [Part II, married eighteen articles] [] "The problem What is the problem??"
"Husband, do you still love me?"
"Ah? What and what are you doing? How could I not love you?"
"Then... Then I'll tell you something, you... Don't be angry, okay?"
"What the hell is going on with you? You say, I won't be angry, why would I be angry with you?"
"Husband, I'm sorry, I was ignorant before and did those things that hurt you. Although you forgave me, it is always a mental knot for me. After we got married, I sometimes thank God, To be able to let me meet you, you don’t care about my past, don’t think I’m dirty, you let me out of the haze, in order to live up to your efforts, I have been working hard to forget that experience."
"Didn't those things have passed?"
"Yes, it's all over, we all thought those things were over. But is this really the case?
Anything, from happening to passing away, will definitely leave a trace. I have been prepared for this. I have secretly vowed that no matter what the consequences are, I will bear it, as long as it can make you happy.Maybe I never thought that the sequelae of that incident would happen to you."
"Sequelae? I..."
"Xiao Haozi, I really didn't expect that because of those things, your heart will change, but I understand you, maybe this is what people often say, inner depression will change a person, but I did not expect it to be, This situation not only caused changes in your heart, but also affected your body. When I found out that your body also had a problem, I really didn't want to live."
I felt the warmth in my arm, I guess it was Xiaoxin's tears.
"No...no...it's not to blame you...it's my own problem. Are we saying that we have been working hard? Now that we have seen results? Although there are sometimes minor problems, most of the time , Is it okay? This is really not your cause, so why should you blame yourself?"
"No! You don't need to comfort me. I secretly asked the doctor before. The doctor said that your problem is mainly due to internal reasons. It may be because of lack of self-confidence or stimulation. I have been with you for so many years. Together, what happened to you, I know very well, if it wasn't because of that, what else would have stimulated you so much?"
"I……"
I didn't speak after all. In fact, what the doctor said was correct. It was indeed a psychological reason, but the stimulus I received and the stimulus Xiao Xin thought seemed to be completely different.
"Look, you have also thought about it, these factors have always been there, but you have been lying to yourself, because you love me, loving me, the person who will only bring you pain, so you choose to deceive yourself. Until you I believe it all. In this case, I, the initiator, must stand up and protect you with my love. As long as I can cure your disease, I am willing to do everything I can."
"Didn't you already do it? You have done well. Why should you blame yourself?"
"Well, I did it. I did a good job. I tried my best to play the role I am now. And this effort was not in vain. Your health has improved. I was encouraged by this and I worked harder. Role, until I am a little confused about reality or...acting."
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"I'm a little scared, I can't distinguish between reality or performance. In order to be able to heal you, I want to give you some excitement, so I choose to take the initiative to approach my colleagues in the company, accept their gifts, or acquiesce in getting close to them. , I know you have all these things in your eyes. Not only can this cure your illness, it also satisfies my vanity."
"You really don't have to do this, you sacrificed too much for me."
"No, this sentence should be for me. You sacrificed too much for me. You not only sacrificed your own heart, but also damaged your body. These days, for any man, you will be jealous and angry, but you still In tolerating me, let me vainly experience the satisfaction of being pursued by a man. And all you get is an excuse "to treat you."
"this is not……"
"You... trust me too easily. I know it's because you love me, but now I dare not use this trust anymore. I dare not squander your love anymore."
"You...you mean you have been lying to me?"
"No, I don't. I really want to cure your disease. In order to achieve this goal, I can do anything. But now I am afraid. I seem to have gone too far, just like I said before. Clear reality and performance. After acquiescing to their closeness and pursuit, I seem to be a little...somewhat stuck."
"You...you mean...you take it seriously?"
"...Well, after enjoying the satisfaction of being pursued, I am a little obsessed with the feeling of holding the moon among the stars. I am afraid... I am afraid that if this continues, I will move my true feelings."
"What? How could this be?"
"I...I don't know. During this period of time, I have been reflecting on what caused the current situation. I guess it may be because of freshness or curiosity. The relationship between the two of us is slowly accumulated, no Vigorous, only a long time for love. But now he gives me the feeling, very fresh, very enthusiastic, which makes me unable to resist, but there are some expectations. I know this is the reason for my vanity."
I can clearly hear that Xiaoxin's words have changed from "them" to "he".
"Who is he?"
Xiao Xin's body tightened again.
"Yes... It's Da Yong."
"What did he do to you?"
"He just sent me flowers every day, and then he would often come next to me to chat with me, and sometimes he would tell me some pornographic jokes. Although sometimes he would teach me some things about work, but more often , He always leads the topic to other places. The nonsense chats are very attractive to listen to. Sometimes he will talk about his experiences, which are very fresh and interesting."
Xiaoxin's voice is not loud, but she can tell from her tone that she has relaxed. It is obvious that she is a little obsessed when she thinks of the person who broke into her heart.I finally understand why Xiaoxin chose Dayong instead of Xiao Guo.Little boys like Xiao Guo are still walking the campus route, boiling frogs in warm water, but he didn't expect that the water was still hot and the frogs had already jumped out.
The reason why the most this kind of route does not work is because I have already walked.My love experience with Xiaoxin is this kind of unknowingly accumulating feelings and then making progress. What makes Xiao Guo different from me is that he tried to create this feeling, but he didn’t know. Xiaoxin already had resistance.
There is nothing new in Dayong's way, but it is in Xiaoxin's arms. The main reason is that Xiaoxin has not experienced it. Because she came with me prematurely, she has not had the experience of being madly pursued.
In addition, we just graduated and stayed at home for so long because of her mother's affairs. It can be said that she is full of curiosity about the outside world, which is also an important factor in her promise to work.
Of course, Xiaoxin has also had the experience of traveling and going abroad, but the number is extremely limited, and there are even those experiences that are unbearable to look back, so this can be omitted.Therefore, for Dayong who could have been said to return, such a "innocent and ignorant" beautiful girl wanted to capture it, it is simply a breeze.I guess, had it not been for me, Xiaoxin might have been taken down by Dayong.
"So you mean, you like him a little bit?"
"No, no, I'm just...just interested in him."
"Interested? Just interested?"
"I... I don't know, maybe... maybe I like it a little? I'm not sure, but because of this, I dare not continue, because I'm not sure what is the state of my feelings for him now, I'm afraid , I’m afraid that if this continues, I will really...like him. I admit that I am vain and shameless, but I know I’m wrong. I want to know when I’m lost. That’s all."
"I don't want to hurt anyone anymore."
Xiao Xin's last sentence is not clear enough, but she is very firm.
I finally understand why she behaves so abnormally recently. It turns out that she has reached this bifurcation, which coincides with my previous estimation, but because of her abnormality, I am confused and think it is because of her abnormality. There was a gap between Dayong and her, but fortunately, we finally got the word out today because of a blunder.
This stage is an important node of the entire plan. If it can proceed smoothly, then the follow-up will be smooth. If it cannot be surpassed, there will be no follow-up.
So if those moths didn’t show up before, even if Xiaoxin didn’t say anything, I would find a chance to talk to her, but now the opportunity is good. I just borrowed the donkey to explain everything clearly and look at this important insurance Can it be locked smoothly?
There was only a moment to think, but I didn't speak immediately.As far as my current position is concerned, it would seem false if I respond immediately, so silence is the most suitable state for me.
Xiaoxin obviously also knew what she said, the amount of information was too large, and I needed to digest it, so she didn't say anything again.In this way, the two of us were naked and lying on the bed silently. For a while, the air in the room seemed to have condensed.
After a long silence, I adjusted my mood and sighed softly.
I don't know if the sudden voice frightened Xiaoxin, or if she finally had a result, she began to tense, and Xiaoxin's body trembled slightly.
I ignored Xiao Xin's reaction, and with both hands, I pulled Xiao Xin's body over and faced me.
Xiao Xin's expression was a little nervous, and her eyes looked at me with a little bewilderment.
"Do you love me?"
My eyes stared at Xiao Xin closely, with serious eyes.
"I love you."
Xiaoxin's eyes slowly became staring from helpless, and then full of affection.
"This is enough."
My eyes became pampering, and then one hand slid up from her smooth back to the back of her head, and then slightly hardened her head into my chest.
"I know that you still love me deeply. We grew up together, and our understanding of each other surpassed our understanding of ourselves. Although many things have happened before, all of this has really passed. Please don't blame yourself anymore."
"Actually, it is me who really should blame myself. Those things happened were not your fault. I also have to bear a lot of responsibility. It was my negligence towards you and my incompetence that caused the things. Occurrence and development. It's all because I haven't done well enough, so you can't get the happiness and satisfaction you deserve."
"Knowing the reason, it made me more painful. I worked hard to find a solution. During that time, I was frantically searching for various materials on the Internet in order to solve the problem completely, but nothing was achieved. I didn't get anything until I read those articles. I know, this is not a special case. This kind of situation is everywhere on the Internet. This is the normal physiological needs of people, especially women. It is the most painful punishment that cannot be met."
"So I started to blame myself. What's the use of a man who can’t satisfy his own woman? Therefore, I became obsessed with those plots, and slowly I realized that I was not good enough."
"This is a heavy blow to me. I have thought of many ways but I can't do anything. And the impact of this is that I am even more unable to satisfy you. This is a vicious circle, but I am powerless. Then you go to work, I Suddenly I realized that when those people approach you, I will react slightly, but this is so abnormal, I even want to slap myself, how can I be excited because my wife is close to others?"
"Every time I see you chatting together, my heart is sour, but I know that you are to help me heal my illness. With this setting, I slowly accepted your closeness to them. , Even when you read the card that Dayong gave you happily and excitedly talked about Xiao Guo's care for you, I would be happy because of your joyful mood."
"Actually, I didn’t have sexual desire because I saw you being ambiguous with them, but because I saw that you were happy, my mood would also change very well. Only in this way would I forget those negative emotions and restore the previous ones. status."
"Slowly, I also want to open up. As a man, you must first make money to support your family, and I can guarantee that you will have nothing to worry about. The second is to make your own women happy. I firmly believe that I can do it. The last is to My beloved is happy, but I am powerless, so I think since I can’t do it, then I should let someone who can do it.”
At this point in my words, I only slightly relaxed the strength of my arm. In fact, Xiaoxin tried to break free of my restraint several times before, and raised her head to talk to me, but I tried to stop it slightly because I didn’t want to talk about the previous topic. She argued, after all, those were irrelevant. I was just describing my previous mental journey to her. Of course, these were all told to her, and I would never say the details.
But at this time, it's time for her to make a decision. I think it's better to face-to-face.
"Old...husband, what do you mean... is..."
Xiao Xin raised her head, her face full of horror.
"Don't worry, I'm not talking about divorce. I mean, since you feel good about Dayong, you will feel happy when you come into contact with him, so why not continue?"
"But... But if I continue, I'm afraid... I'm afraid I will like him."
"Are you unhappy to work, chat, and hang out with people you like?"
"I...but...but I am your wife."
"This doesn't affect each other, right? You are my wife, you love me, and I love you, but I want you to be happy, then you are with the person you like, you get happiness, and I will be because of you Happy and happy, isn't this the best of both worlds?"
"How is this possible? How can I love you and still like others?"
"What's the problem with this? I have already said, as long as you are happy, I am willing to do anything, as long as you still love me, as long as you still think of our home, nothing will break us apart, won't it? This may improve my current situation better."
"But...but..."
When I mentioned my illness, Xiao Xin's attitude really hesitated.
"This matter is actually a lot of benefits for us. First of all, you can get the care of two people, which is just in line with my expectation of making you happy and happy. Secondly, I can get effective treatment because of this. Later life will also have more advantages than disadvantages."
"Are you... are you serious?"
"Hey, I was actually frightened when I had this idea at first. But when I saw that you were so happy with them, I hesitated. I can see that you are very unhappy these days, but I don't know. Why, I've been thinking about it for a long time, but I still don't know the reason. It wasn't until you just talked about you and Dayong, that I suddenly realized that it was my burden that made you so unhappy."
"No...no...it's me..."
"No, that's just your own thoughts, but it's not the truth. As the so-called bystander knows, I have seen everything. I don't blame you, but rather happy, because when you recall the things between you, you are very serious Devotion. From that moment on, I firmly believed in this idea. I want to make you happy. I want you to experience the things you like and get close to the people you like."
"But, but this..."
"It's nothing. Didn't you say it yourself? You like his novel experience very much, like his nonsense, and you will be delighted with the flowers he sent. Isn't this just like the performance of a person? ?"
"But... those likes are not the same as those likes!"
"How do you know the difference? Like is like, how can there be a difference. You feel different, just because there is me in the middle, and if you abandon me, what's the difference?"
"No... I won't abandon you."
"Yeah, isn't that all right? We won't be separated, we still love each other, but when we love each other, I want you to experience other life, like other people who love you Together, to feel a different kind of happiness."
"But...this...how is this possible?"
"What's impossible? We are in the company now, aren't we just two ordinary colleagues? Then you have a lover in the company, what's the problem?"
"But how could I become a lover with him?"
"He pursues you, and you promised him, don't you become a lover?"
"But I am your wife?"
"Who knows that?"
"what……"
(to be continued)