Not like it, but love.

is love……

Shen Yuechuan didn't know how he left the bar. On the way back, he had a splitting headache.

If the tortuous life experience is a joke made by God to him, what about Xiao Yunyun's feelings for him?

A bigger joke?

He couldn't understand that he was no longer allowed to lead a normal life. Why couldn't Xiao Yunyun be allowed to love her well and spend her life well?

It's enough to make fun of him, why make Xiao Yunyun fall in love with him?

Looking back from the time to the present, Shen Yuechuan suddenly discovered that as long as he wanted it, he would not only never have it, but it would also affect the people around him.

As a child, he wanted a complete home.But when he was just born, his father died, Su Yunjin suffered from severe depression, and soon he became an orphan.

Now, he wants to have a relationship with Xiao Yunyun like a normal person.However, the blood relationship is like a wall made of steel blocking them, causing them to suffer all the time.

He asked himself if he did not do evil in his life, did he make any mistakes in his previous life?

Back downstairs in the apartment, the driver saw Shen Yuechuan still holding his head, and looked at him worriedly: "Shen Special Assistant, are you okay?"

Shen Yuechuan did not speak, but waved his hand to signal the driver to get out of the car.

The driver was very worried, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Should you contact Mr. Lu?"

He is very clear about the relationship between Shen Yuechuan and Lu Boyan.

He believes that once Shen Yuechuan has an accident, contacting Lu Boyan is the most correct choice.

"No need." Shen Yuechuan raised his head abruptly, and said solemnly, "I'm fine, but I haven't rested well in the past few days, and my head hurts a bit. You can get off work. What happened today...Don't tell Mr. Lu."

The driver didn't think that Shen Yuechuan was uncomfortable. He thought that Shen Yuechuan was just trying to conceal that he had met Qin Han. He nodded and got out of the car.

Shen Yuechuan stayed in the car until the headache relieved, then pushed the car door down and returned to the apartment.

In the apartment, as always, all the household appliances and furniture are neatly arranged, spotlessly clean, and too orderly. On the contrary, it does not look like a home, more like a cold and rigid temporary residence.

Shen Yuechuan suddenly thought of Xiao Yunyun's bachelor apartment, which was much smaller than his.

He has been there several times, and each time it is different from the last time, or there are a few more scented candles, or a few more flowers, or the sofa is replaced with a new cloth cover.

Each time, it looks warmer than the last time, and it is easier for people to feel a sense of belonging.

He asked Xiao Yunyun: "Are you planning to remodel this place?"

"When my cousin asked me to live in, the hard furnishings of the apartment were in place. I was just in charge of the soft furnishings." Xiao Yunyun said with a smile, "Where I live, how do I like to toss it!"

At that time, Shen Yuechuan secretly thought, if one day he successfully abducted Xiao Yunyun to his house, how would she toss this apartment?

Actually, Xiao Yunyun can do whatever she wants, even if she wants to dig a swimming pool in the apartment for a pool party, he will immediately help her contact the construction team without any comments.

As long as Xiao Yunyun stays here to accompany him-to accompany him to sleep, accompany him to wake up, he will not be bored with repeating all his life.

Such a small wish could not be realized.

Now, maybe...

As long as he went to Xiao Yunyun and told her that she was not the only one who had been tortured over the years.

He and Xiao Yunyun will be together immediately.

However, he cannot be so selfish.

Not to mention that they are brothers and sisters, the law does not allow them to be together.

Just considering his current physical condition, he couldn't convince himself to confess to Xiao Yunyun.

Twenty years ago, after his father passed away, Su Yunjin suffered from depression and relied on drugs to survive to this day. Would he make Xiao Yunyun taste the pain again?

Even if his illness can be cured, Xiao Yunyun does not have to endure the pain of losing her lover, and the fact that they are brothers and sisters cannot be changed.

It is conceivable that after being together, they will face many rumors and pointers.

He can give Xiao Yunyun all the love, but he cannot guarantee her happiness.

What's more, Xiao Yunyun works in a hospital. He can't imagine how much rumors and rumors will cause her future career.

The worst result was that he passed away like Jiang Ye, leaving Xiao Yunyun to face everything alone.

In this case, even if he went to hell, he would not forgive himself.

No matter how you look at it, he should not selfishly use Xiao Yunyun's feelings to coax her to be with him. This is not happiness for Xiao Yunyun, but the greatest misfortune in this life.

He should let Xiao Yunyun completely forget him.

After making this decision, Shen Yuechuan only felt that the pain in his head had all been transferred to his heart, stabbing him with pain.

He walked to the balcony, looked at the lights of Wanjia in his sight, and lit a cigarette.

At this time, apart from tobacco and alcohol, nothing can divert his attention.

Xiao Yunyun, who was in the same area with Shen Yuechuan, didn't realize that her greatest secret had been leaked. She read and reviewed until 12 o'clock, and the sleeping pills she had taken half an hour ago had already taken effect. She was trapped in an airtight atmosphere. Surrounded by intention, fell asleep shortly after falling on the bed.

At 7 o'clock the next day, Xiao Yunyun woke up on time, ate some breakfast casually after washing, got on the crowded subway and went to the hospital.

He can take a taxi, but occasionally squeezing in the morning rush subway like canned sardines makes her soberly aware that there are many things more important than love.

Such as survival.

There are so many people living well without love. She can't spoil herself because she can't be with Shen Yuechuan.

This kind of motivation is effective, and Xiao Yunyun's life is restored day by day.

She thought she was finally over, and when she was about to give up sleeping pills, she unexpectedly received a news that could crush her soul--

This morning, as usual, she came out of the elevator carrying a bag, feeling that there are many problems in life.

For example, what to eat at noon, squeeze the subway or take a taxi to go to work?

"beauty!"

A familiar voice came without warning, Xiao Yunyun subconsciously followed the prestige, and it was Qin Han.

She was taken aback: "Why are you here?"

At this point, shouldn't Young Master Qin Xiao be on the way to the company? How could he be here?

Qin Han leaned on a 7-figure sports car, smiling suave and charmingly: "I'll pick you up to work."

Xiao Yunyun walked over and was about to tease Qin Han, when she heard Qin Han continue to say: "By the way, let me tell you something."

"...What's the news? Xiao Yunyun suddenly felt that the news was the point, and suppressed the rapid heartbeat," go ahead."

"You have to be mentally prepared." Qin Han said, "This is not good news."

"..."

Qin Han hesitated again and again, and finally said: "Shen Yuechuan has a girlfriend."

He knew that this news would bring a big blow to Xiao Yunyun.

But this is a fact, Xiao Yunyun has to face it sooner or later, it is better to know earlier than later.

Xiao Yunyun could understand every word Qin Han said. After the words were put together into a fluent sentence, it was like someone slammed her soul, and her heart sank...

It's not disappointment, it's not disappointment, but... I feel like my heart will never beat again.

At this moment, Xiao Yunyun was clearly standing in the center of the city, but she felt that she had been thrown into the barren Great Northern Wilderness. The cold wind and rain roared in, surrounded her heavily, and the monster opened its blood bowl to swallow her...

As if a century had passed, Xiao Yunyun finally found her voice and asked hardly: "When did it happen?"

"Just a few days." Qin Han said, "I confirmed it yesterday and it's true."

Xiao Yunyun said "Oh", trying to make herself seem indifferent, but her red eyes betrayed her emotions.

"I'll tell you in advance, lest you meet by chance and you are overwhelmed." After a pause, Qin Han asked, "How about, can I still go to work? Do you need me to ask for leave?"

"...No." Xiao Yunyun closed her eyes vigorously, and forced her tears back, "If I don't go to work, I will think more."

Qin Han agreed with Xiao Yunyun's words.

No matter how emotionally she fails, Xiao Yunyun is a good doctor with due diligence professionally, but going to work can divert her attention.

Qin Han pulled the car door: "Then get in the car, I'll take you there."

"Thank you."

Xiao Yunyun sat in the co-driver's seat and mechanically fastened her seat belt. The pain was unbearable like a needle stick in her heart.

She was afraid that she would cry, so she closed her eyes.

She warned herself, don't think, don't think.

However, reason can't control thoughts at all.

What kind of girl is Shen Yuechuan's new girlfriend?

He said that he wanted to settle down. Will this girl really be Shen Yuechuan's last girlfriend and then become Shen Yuechuan's wife?

The expensive and eye-catching sports car drove hard in the morning rush hour. While waiting for the red light, Shen Yuechuan glanced at Xiao Yunyun and said, "Don't think about it."

Xiao Yunyun shook her head: "If Shen Yuechuan wants to get married, I can't accept it."

Qin Han hesitated and asked tentatively: "If he really loves that girl, does that girl really like him?"

He thought Xiao Yunyun would say, so she would be relieved, at least Shen Yuechuan got married because of love, and at least a good girl will take care of him in the future.

He thought that Xiao Yunyun would at least maintain this kind of reason.

However, Xiao Yunyun's reaction was completely beyond his expectation——

"I know I should bless him." Xiao Yunyun laughed bitterly, "But, I don't think I can do it."

Qin Han: "..." Wipe!

Xiao Yunyun really couldn't do it, because she really liked Shen Yuechuan.

She wants to be with Shen Yuechuan, to hug him, to kiss him, to do all the intimate things with him, to stay with him for a lifetime.

But now, the person who wants to do these things with Shen Yuechuan has become another girl.

Why do you ask her to send blessings sincerely?

Qin Han couldn't help sighing, "You are really sincere. But what can you do without blessing? On the day of Shen Yuechuan's wedding, can you still grab the marriage?"