Actor, Search for Hope

Looking for a dream in the future, chasing the wings of hope. The days when you thought you could hold something in your hand just by running on a flat rail. When I knew that something meant happiness, I had already had a cruel wind behind me.

“ ……. ”

I woke up screaming without a sound. A few days before the start of winter, the date that was said to be <UNK>. It is still warm because it is literally the weather before the Frost Nymphs play tricks. However, Sunwoo often feels trapped in a world full of snow and ice every time he goes to sleep these days. So I turned up the room temperature to say that it was too much for the stranger to see.

“Whew.”

Take a sigh and drink the water you put out in the living room. The water that had been cold in the warm air that surrounded the whole house had become untouched for a long time. I looked at the clock, and it was a long time before the alarm went off.

An era where you can often find out that you've been suffering from sequelae for a while after playing a role. I thought being so immersed in the aftermath was a little too far from me. Observation is basically an indirect experience. No matter how many emotional waves came, it was not long.

Like a flame on a mountain.

A world as intense as when everything is immortalized, but filled only with ash powder after it burns bright. Observations were basically like that. It was an indirect experience, but it was very tedious, so the moment was firmer than anyone else. However, immediately after that, the remains disappeared.

So he thought that the sequelae of the chattering method act was entirely something else. The results look similar, but the process is completely different.

“Whew.”

I barely swallow up my swear words and take another deep breath. The sequelae in Zombie Flight is taking me a long way out of my mind. Sleep gives you nightmares when bitten by a zombie. "My senses are twisted and I go crazy. 'Maybe it's because I carelessly passed on the word.

How much?

That's the only moment.

A new experience.

New experiences suck.

I don't want to do this.

What's even more annoying is that you think of your past together. When I dreamed of hopeless endless pursuit and my will was broken. I don't know why, but psychiatrist says the remaining unconscious refinement has resurfaced on this one.

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“Humans are really complicated animals. ”

After the shooting of Zombie Flight. Day after day, the nightmare continued. I went to see a psychiatrist not a day, not two days, but a week later, until the full moon.

“You said you remembered the past together, right? ”

“Yes, the days I didn't want are coming. ”

An article that said, "I'm afraid to do anything," after playing the role of a villain. An actor who continues to feel bad because he has to act like an existing person, and the sequelae continues for about half a year. I now know the heart of the person who did such an interview very well. I didn't really want to know.

“I don't want to take the pills. What can I do if I have a nightmare? ”

On the other hand, I felt fortunate. I've learned that if you play a role outside of the human race, you're in immense danger. Fortunately, this was a very short time, so that was it.

“I see. Do you know what kids do these days? ”

Suddenly, it's a strange story. But I seriously thought it would mean something, but I didn't remember anything about Sunwoo. What comes to mind is a very young memory. Words I have experienced in person.

“Isn't it essentially the same? I had it when I was a kid. ”

“I've had some bullying experience. You're the same bully. ”

She makes a light joke and then says, I came to psych because I was curious. I was curious about why I became a bully, so I became interested in the psychology of people, and somehow I came all the way here.

“It's essential. It hasn't changed as you said before or now, but I think it's worse the way it is. ”

A child with a mental illness actually came to visit with his mother because of the bullying problem. I still wondered what this conversation had to do with my nightmare. However, he silently listened to the doctor who preached because he had judged that he was not useless to say anything in a few meetings.

“I was a fifth grader. I raised a loving child at a late age, but I was sure to keep a single etiquette. ”

I didn't study very well, but I never particularly rotted in my parents. He said he was such a good boy. As a parent, how many people don't have cute kids? However, even from a subjective standpoint, he was a good kid who was polite and objective.

“I looked into it separately because I had personal curiosity, and it had a really good reputation. The interviews have stabilized me at home. ”

The problem started with a smartphone. I want you to buy a smartphone to commemorate graduating from elementary school and entering middle school. He said he had all his friends, but he wasn't himself.

A good daughter who, despite the onset of puberty, was never annoyed. Ever since I was a little girl, I don't remember asking her to do anything else. She said she was happy to buy it because she told me what she wanted for the first time.

“But one day, in the room, my daughter was crying, breathing. ”

Her eyes start to empty, wondering what she was thinking. And a moment of silence. Perhaps after postponing the conversation with her ability to feel the atmosphere, her eyes seemed to rush past time.

“Oh, I'm sorry. Anyway, at the end of dozens of conversations, he said he heard the following. ”

Maybe the environment has changed. Or was there a problem with the daughter that the parents didn't know about? It is said that the way it is nowadays is much different from the way it used to be at a young age.

“Very clever. ”

It seems peaceful on the surface. But there is a new type of bullying these days. Using a smartphone is one of them. And it's not easy to get hold of evidence, and it's not hard to get into trouble.

“Kata, Teka, Catok Prison, etc. It has a way of doing things. ”

How to exclude yourself from Cata Messenger.

The way you harass a message with a bunch of tequila.

Keep inviting Catok Prison to keep you from leaving the chat room.

Invite them to a bomb room and repeat the process of leaving the room as a group.

“There was a really clever way. And then I was amazed. ”

I know I shouldn't have thought of it this way, but there was a really quick way to think of it. A sigh came from somewhere deep in my heart.

“Funny thing was the cause of the bullying. This is exactly the same as it used to be. ”

The rumor that followed the child with the father and mother was called the "Single Mother's Child." Even though it turned out that what was funny was not true, it was not a big deal for the bullies.

In addition, the disseminator was difficult to find, and the spread of rumors that had already spread was difficult to stop. Even though it turned out not to be true, the rumors were still being mentioned. And that led to ridicule and violence.

“What was really more amusing was that there was absolutely no way for adults to solve the situation. ”

You can't force a smartphone to confiscate it, and the smart kids said that they were friends with a child being bullied in reality, not virtual space. If we don't look really closely, we don't leave evidence that's hard to spot. And the bigger problem is that if you intervene incorrectly on the outside, you can develop into a bigger distraction.

“Eventually, I moved to a farther place and transferred. Luckily, she's doing well without being bullied. ”

Something I've been sidetracked by relatives. Kim Su-il experienced bullying at school. It may not seem like a big deal to some people, but it's a big deal to me.

“Lucky me. ”

“Right?"

Even though the problem could not be solved in that place, the child was able to take away the pain through the way of Jeong Jeong Transfer. And like Kim Su-il's mother, her mother grew tired of living with a sigh in her heart. The mother died feeling sorry for her child indefinitely even before she died. And the child's distress that I realized through the late diary. I was fortunate that such a tragedy did not occur.

“But what does that have to do with my nightmares? ”

“There's no point in me saying the right answer. You can find it yourself. ”

It is a phenomenon that is emerging as a serious social problem but cannot be completely eliminated. The bitter happy ending was that there was a girl who was bullied, that the intrinsic way was unchanged, but bullied in various ways along with the advancement of technology, and that girl got off the bully by going to transfer.

“I have no idea, but I'll try. So what do we do now? ”

“I'll prescribe a mild medication today. It's really light, so don't say no. Take a few days and hang up if you want. ”

About.

When I felt an instinctive objection and tried to say something to Sunwoo, she was speechless.

“Take it even if you don't eat it. You have to take your medication when it's really hard to resist. If I'm wrong, I'm in big trouble. ”

I don't eat it, but just in case.

At this point, the bear thought and nodded.

“I hate to say it, but I get it. ”

“I was just about to improve my depression.... I won't ask you not to act, because you're learning, but I want you to be more careful when choosing roles. No, you have to be careful. ”

Based on our secret visits and talks, there are many aspects of the act of sunwoo that can help improve depression, but it can be dangerous like this.

“I don't think you've ever said that before, but I'm pretty sure this is the case. Smoke is Sunwoo's double-edged sword. When it comes to depression, so choose carefully. ”

The child's innocence is sometimes dazzling, but sometimes too cruel.

“And you did a really good job of putting up your hobbies on the piano. If you're uncomfortable, play an instrument. By the way, you said that song was written by Sunwoo. ”

I have just returned to the lightweight subject as if counseling were over. This was always the way I talked to him. I don't think I'm a psychiatrist in empty words. He is a person who has meaning even in small words. And it didn't offer the perfect solution to depression, but it didn't help at all. So we focus on her conversation.

“Yes, somehow. ”

What does that have to do with the story of the bully and the nightmare? I have no idea. Can you hear the right answer when you get to the next psychiatrist? The hospital I didn't want to come to might be as good as my eyes next time.