Actor, Search for Hope

Sunwoo was considering the correlation of his nightmares with the story of the bully he had just heard in psychiatry. It flows faster than the word "timed arrow." It's not an arrow, it's a bullet. I woke up and opened my eyes as before, not as quickly as I had evaporated. It's because I was so focused on the time I pressed the keyboard to play the piano that would be in the music program.

“Sunwoo, I know you're tired, but don't fall asleep. ”

And fortunately, with that time, the nightmare of goodwill also decreased in frequency.

Now the ominous moon shadow is almost gone.

The black time I gave every day is now reduced by once or twice a week. Whether it's the drugs you're taking or the willingness of Sun Woo to act. Or both. And in addition to that, there are several factors that work in combination, including the release of sad emotions through the piano.

I changed my mind. I hated it when I heard the word "B" in medicine, but when I thought about it calmly, I had no reason to reject it. I was afraid to look away. I was afraid of the side effects that were too much.

But it's overpaid.

Proper prescription of drugs makes human life richer and healthier. Most problems occur when overused. The same was true of Sunwoo. Drugs that were hard to count. Some of the names of the drugs that were taken until chronic are still remembered.

Starblon, Attiban, Janax, Tritico, etc.

That's why I was still reluctant, but on the contrary, I also had a chance to overcome it. The fact that it was not forced from the surrounding situation, like the last time, came very close.

It's your choice.

If you really use the right amount, there won't be any side effects.

So let's not get too rejected.

Trying to overcome the fear of drugs so prejudiced, he took a step forward.

I still feel reluctant to take the pill, but now I can take it.

“Yes. Can I have the Americano, please? ”

There are two major types of medications prescribed. Sleep inducers and sleeping pills for emergencies. Sleep inducing agents are drugs that inhibit central neuropathy and induce sleep. Simply put, the difference between a sleeping agent and a strength. Therefore, sleeping pills are classified as specialized medicines, requiring a doctor's prescription, and sleep inducers are considered general medicines, which can be purchased easily in a pharmacy without prescription.

Of course, unlike the drugs sold on the market, some more drugs were added to what Sunwoo prescribed. Let's just say the level of control between sleep inducers and sleeping agents. Luckily, I was able to sleep well without going to sleep. But the disadvantage is that the day after taking the medication will be looser.

“It's almost over. Just a little bit.”

Today is a pre-recording day for the XBS Music Program. For music programs by XBS, it was a live broadcast until last year, but recording broadcasts have been underway since the beginning of this year. There are rumors going back to life next year, but we have to see what happens next.

I was relieved because I had half of my expectations and anxiety about Sunwoo being alive. I have no regrets because I heard that the music program that will appear next time is live. This stage gives you a sense of the atmosphere and the overall picture. It's a kind of pre-practice concept.

“But I think it's more empowering today, right? ”

Before you go onstage for recording.

Now Kim Yu-ri is making a face for Sun Woo.

And the feeling was a little different for Sunwoo to feel.

“It's not about empowerment, it's about different ways. It's not like being in front of a camera as an actor and being on stage as an actor. If Sunwoo sang, it would be different from now on. ”

While answering Sunwoo's curiosity, Kim Yu-ri, who was moving restlessly, frowned slightly, said.

“Please let me know if you have any questions. Don't move your mouth. ”

I opened my mouth to say I was sorry, but I just remembered Kim Yu-ri's words. I've been on stage as Kim Su-il, but it's always indirect. That's why I was a little nervous, and unconsciously said things unconsciously and then I lost my mind.

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“Brother, it's been a long time. ”

Before the rehearsal, Noah's appearance in the waiting room set backstage looked a little different from the one I had seen before. Hair styles that were natural, but were replaced with thicker makeup than usual. I noticed Ash Brown hair that was especially toned-down and dyed first.

“Haven't you just met her before? ”

Before fully clothing and make-up for recording.

I saw it in my dry rehearsal this morning.

“Well, it's been a long time. ”

I thought we could just do it by calling it a rehearsal, but I learned that it is quite complicated and careful. What was most interesting was that the rehearsal of music broadcasts usually took place in two stages. Originally it was three stages until dress rehearsal, but it is usually said that one stage has been reduced now due to the advancement of the technology.

The first is dry rehearsal. At this stage, there is no hair or make-up, no costume. This will allow you to discuss with the creator the line-up, microphone settings, lighting and camera positions. It will take 5-10 minutes per team.

“It's been less than a day. ”

“It's been a long time. And time is a subjective concept, right? ”

The second is camera rehearsal. Camera rehearsal is a rehearsal that takes place with all the preparation, including the hair, just like broadcasting, and the camera actually spins. Since the queue is dedicated to the main broadcast, it will take about 5-15 minutes per team. Pre-recording is usually done shortly after the camera rehearsal.

“Let's just say it's been a while for me, too. ”

“It's been a long time. What do you want me to do? ”

I was able to exchange unseemly words with a naturally weak smile because it had been conveyed that Noah truly felt that way, not empty words. Before, Noah would have felt burdened with a look of open greeting like this. No, it was the same now, but it was a lot sluggish.

“Isn't Cody pretty today, by the way? because it's rare to wear it completely white up and down onstage. ”

Lenses are in color with a combination of brown and green. Skin was a tonne brighter with a nude tone, and lip color made the overall impression more vivid as a peach family. That impression came closer because Cody was white on it. The clothing that reminded me of the winter itself as if it were a snow fairy.

“Weren't you tired of wearing white robes in Time Attack? ”

“You may be wrong about your gown, but you're very wrong about it. ”

The Sun Wu's Cody to fit Noah is also entirely white.

I was aiming for the funnel, so it was natural.

“Is that wrong, not something else? ”

“Of course. No, the white robe is right, so it's not entirely wrong. ”

I heard Kang Tae-hyun's voice while saying hello in the waiting room and talking more poetic than the first time.

“Sunwoo, it's Noah time. ”

Looks like the stage is ready.

“Shall we?”

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The moment I got onstage.

I heard thunder-like screams in the book. Earlier in the morning, when I was rehearsing my dry, the stage was completely empty. The voices shout the name of Noah and Sunwoo blend together.

Apparently, he said there were a few guards. I don't remember the exact numbers, but I don't think there were that many. Seeing people gathering so densely in these parts, it looks like a lot of them.

“Hello, everyone. ”

Unlike Sun Woo, who was making a big face, Noah greets the staff and opens his mouth in a familiar manner.

“Let's shout for sunflower fans! ”

A shout is heard that is smaller than what was heard at the beginning, but still does not make much difference. The atmosphere is conveyed with almost one-hearted heat. Something difficult is echoing in the heart of Sunwoo.

“You can't lose to your fans, right? ”

A loud shout of joy pouring out at the same time.

Said he was cheering from a fan club.

These are the people that Orloth gathered for himself.

I heard it with one ear, but I felt sorry for nothing.

The cheer that so many people send to themselves with one mind. Is it because I've never seen anything like this before? Or is it the ability to feel the atmosphere? I feel so eager to have a good time.

“Brother, here. ”

I wanted to say something, but there was no microphone set for Sunwoo separately. I wasn't singing, I was playing the piano. After noticing the situation like a ghost, Noah handed over the microphone he was holding.

“How do you do?"

Celebrities feel happy from the cheerfulness of their fans. Sunwoo seemed to be able to understand the words in a bright voice towards him. I didn't believe it until a while ago. The form of happiness that Sun Woo drew came from love.

The word fan club itself was prejudiced. I thought that the love of fans was an illusion. Celebrities are professions that give and take feelings with their fans, and they create fantasies and make them happy. And the money that comes from it is the price of joy for fans. So I thought it was meaningless and empty.

“Today I'm here as an actor, not an actor. I want to sincerely thank all the fans who have come to cheer me on. ”

But even so.

Even if it's pointless.

Just a minute.

Even if it is a passing moment.

But I'm happy.

“Ah, Mike, can you hear me? ”

I knew there were different forms of happiness.

Maybe half of them still understood it in letters.

Though Noah's heart was not completely convinced that he had found happiness through popularity, I think I know now. Therefore, I am quite ashamed of the Mongol sky that pretended to look for happiness from popularity.

Even if there is no addition.

Obviously, there is a piece of happiness here in this moment.

Here he is, delighted by the cheerfulness of the fans.

“Yay! Here we go! ”

There were many forms of love.

There were many forms of happiness.

Everyone finds happiness in his own way. "As Paul Gauguin (1848-1903) said, looking for someone he loved.

There must be different ways to find happiness.

Happiness found through popularity and fans may not be the same as happiness derived from love.

But it's not wrong.

So reach out and reach for the wings of faint and faint hope.

Different shapes.

It means something different.

Someone may accuse you of being immature and deformed,

There was definitely a section of happiness that Sunwoo was desperately looking for.

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