Actor, Search for Hope

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Such routine repetition. My daily life with Yoon-sik Kim, which had melted naturally from one moment to the next, brought me happiness. And the fragrance of emotion that becomes clearer over time awakens consciousness.

How am I supposed to define love?

Obtained by maintaining a relatively cold observation phenomenon, unlike at other times, is clearly self-aware. And Sun Wu was looking again at the topic of love. I have seen many forms of love in many roles to date, but it was also the first time I was able to remain calm.

“Welcome. ”

“Excuse me.”

In fact, there are many meanings in the word love. Colors of emotions melted by emotions other than liking. Sometimes reliant, sometimes joyful. Apart from worrying and trusting, sadness and loneliness, etc. Just as there is a saying that affection and hatred are different pieces of paper, there are various forms hidden on the other side of love.

“Smells delicious. What's on the menu today? ”

Such love is instantaneous, instantaneous, instantaneous. It's rare to see in novels or movies. Usually, such feelings overlap and overlap until it creates a vortex of love. Must be repeated.

Those days came to Yoon-sik Kim's daily life and he was building his mind. Her visits were melted down very naturally, like a natural way of saying that time had passed. Like the clock is repeating at some point. In the evening, she comes to Yoon-sik Kim's room. Or Kim Yun-sik came to her house. So, Kim Yoon-sik's heart was shaken after dinner all the time.

“I was building a carbonara. You said you wanted pasta the other day. We're almost there, so wait a minute. ”

“Do you remember? ”

Like a constant flutter of heart. Kim Yoon-sik's memory was full of her, so it was probably a natural result. Like a mathematical formula. The little gesture she does. Small actions. Small changes. Even the words he carelessly uttered.

“Well, somehow. I was thinking about making dinner tonight, and then I suddenly remembered. ”

Kim Yoon-sik deliberately said calmly. So you don't feel any slight burden on her. In fact, I remember very well. like a person living in a world of letters. Tall, tall. She's got everything stacked in letters.

“Thank you very, very much."

“Your welcome."

When I was a kid, I said I lived in America. He said he had a habit of speaking English inadvertently when he was embarrassed or embarrassed by the effects. English is not very good. I still know how to say thank you. As straightforward and natural as possible.

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A bold, everyday description. And it goes entirely from Kim Yun-sik's point of view. There were many things I could see besides what the camera said. Camera capture is spacious, fast. It's just something important. I can't help it for a limited time. However, it was not a waste of sunwoo. There was a daily scenery that flowed in from the observation.

“Excuse me.”

“Welcome. A little early today, isn't it?

“I just can't draw well. I don't know if I can get some rest, but I'm running out of time. So I came to play. But what were you doing? ”

Over time, when the cold season passes.

“Schedule check. It's not always happening. It's my third anniversary. ”

“Is that so?"

I met her a little later, but she had a boyfriend. Like I just said, I've been dating for three years now. I'm starting to wonder what to do when I hear about marriage. If you get married, will you be able to continue living your dream? What we're talking about these days is a hobby. And I've been saving my breath, but it's complicated to hear.

“My boyfriend is too good a problem for me. ”

“You're bragging about that, right? ”

‘If only I didn't know. No, what would you do if you didn't know? ’

Pretend to be the best you can be.

Naturally.

“A., have you been spotted? By the way, does it hurt? ”

“No, just a little bit. Hmm. I'm just not very good at painting these days. So.”

“I feel like I'm the only one who talks all the time. If you have any complaints or concerns, I'd like you to consult me. ”

The distance between the two is quite narrow. She was the one who always seemed to be talking, and Kim Yun-sik was the one who mostly listened. But inside, it's the opposite. It seemed like she hadn't noticed yet. The mood swings in Sunwoo's eyes. It piles up every step of the way. Kim Yoon-sik's mood was too dark compared to her who treated her as a really good friend.

“It's not a hobby, it's a career, it's a business. You can't just have fun. That's just it. ”

“Hmm. Really? ”

But if you have something to say, I want you to feel comfortable telling me. Compared to the first impression she feels really cold when she's wrong, the more she gets to know. I am unnecessarily sensitive to such topics. I just felt moved by my boyfriend's story for a moment. But you never say it out loud.

“Yes, really. ”

Even if I like you.

Can you talk to him?

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In such everyday life. Sometimes I felt the urge to confess and throw away all the common sense created by others. If it had been an ancient era, I would have thought without the context of Iran. Love is a universal human emotion, but different forms arise from cultural differences over time and time.

For example, homosexuality was universal during Plato's time in ancient Greece. Even the homosexuality of students and teachers was considered a perfectly normal era of love. Women were perceived as inferior beings. Mental satisfaction resulting from homosexuality among men has been perceived to be much greater than heterosexual love.

“Like this?"

“Yes, that's it. Just a moment.”

Kim Yun-sik vaguely thought that homosexuality was common in ancient times. That's why I thought that. But Sunwoo knew. that the homosexuality code that I had looked at at at at that time was different from what I wanted.

In those days, homosexuality usually meant spiritual love. And in sharing homosexuality, for example, it should not have been physically aroused in a loving situation. If they were not excited, they felt valued each other. On the other hand, if they felt the physical impulse, they felt ashamed.

“I'm going to rest for a while. I sat there for a long time, and my back hurts a little. ”

“Whatever it takes.”

Even if we met in the Greek age, it would have been difficult to achieve the form of love that Yoon-sik Kim wished for. No, this era would be more realistic. Kim Yun-sik has a special relationship with her. I wanted to share a physical relationship, if you don't mind.

Kim Yoon-sik seemed like an accident to that extent, but that's what Sun Woo saw. Kim Yun-sik might know it if he looks at the bear. Anyway, it's useless, and it has this crazy idea and this wind. I was obsessed with her.

“Cut!”

Instead, Kim Yun-sik's heart seems to be on the outside right now. If only I could stay as best friends. Could it have been a happier future? Logic, probability, universally speaking. People's emotions are their own. Where does Yoon-sik Kim's soul mate go? Unlike the original possibility. Is there another possibility? These two make love to each other. It would be nice to see a future like that somewhere.

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What I'm looking at is everyday scenarios that didn't appear in the script. And it will be because it is the last shot of "Transgender, Yun-sik Kim". Ten years later in the drama now, the future has faintly flowed into the consciousness of sunwoo with a 'cut’ sound.

She and Kim Yun-sik, who were so close, became closer and further apart over time. It's like that's what people do. We were as close as we got. He said that as the distance became distant, he had been unable to contact him or her for years.

“Well done.”

“Let's wrap it up. Let's keep it tidy. ”

Ordinary filming grounds might sound cheerful, but they remained quiet as usual. It was because he cared about his friends until the end. I knew that, so I lowered my head and shouted loudly with a half-deceased ritual.

“Well done! Well done, everyone! ”

“Wow!"

And then there's the noise. Your hands are busy moving, but you can see everyone's bright smile. It's a pleasure and a sense of accomplishment. Relief that it ended well, etc. It's a laughter flower with multiple emotions working in combination.

“Well done. ”

“You've done a great job. ”

At that time, even Director Yoo Kangjin, who had always kept his face calm, couldn't hide much. There's still some time left until the actual end of the broadcast, but the actual shooting is over today. And it was one flag on a long journey in the life of Director Kangjin. It was about half the story about his daughter.

“And here's the good news! before the public announcement, which I think you're wondering about. Web filming of" Transgender, Kim Yun-sik "has been confirmed. So we're done filming for the day, but the movie's about to start! ”

And everyone was more busy laughing at the voice of Yoo Kangjin's director who shouted. They are saying something like it's a secret, but it was told to all the staff not long ago. The official announcement is confirmed informally, even if it is a transfer, and the corresponding contract must be filled out separately. I had no choice but to inform him about the other procedure. Just by scheduling.

“But once the drama is over, the movie shoot is next week. We'll get back to you tomorrow with more details. First of all, I'm shooting today! ”

One of the first people to learn about it was Zhao Wu. So I was even more curious. What Sunwoo could see after 10 years of drama was an invitation that came out one day. One day I was disconnected because I couldn't connect. The news I could receive was a mobile invitation. And in the wedding photo, there was another man who was not the one who was so envious of Kim Yoon-sik at the time.

“Are you going too, Sunwoo? ”

“Sure, don't worry. You can't be in this position. ”

Then another 10 years.

From a web movie.

And it's clear that there will be two happy days in the world that are drawn there. And then you'll have two happy endings. What does the process of the story look like? Alone in the drama. And staring alone, hurting alone, suffering alone. I forgot to finish it alone. However, at the end of the invitation, Yoon-sik Kim was sad to see her.