Actor, Search for Hope

“I want to hear from you two. I'd like to try a different ending if I made a web movie separately. It's complicated in my head. It's unexpected. ”

So if you think Kim Yun-sik's story is a little strange or uncomfortable right now, it would be transgender, and reluctance to gay code.

“What does it mean if it wasn't meant to be? ”

“In short, because you can change the settings a little bit, and you can play a little bit, and you can make two happy endings. It's good to pursue something realistic as a director. On the other hand, I like chasing fantasies. Maybe there is such a story. ”

So I laughed at the writer, saying he's wrapped his head around it.

“Or I could try to make it even more stuffy, or even more stuffy. ”

Oh, I see.

Could there be such a future?

My chest is sore. After a long time of obsession with observation. Although, last minute, it wasn't that big of an impact. We still have a long way to go. So Chosun was drawn to the impulse.

“If you don't mind. Can't you make it a happy ending? Personally, I'd love to see that story. ”

And after a brief thought.

Sunwoo cautiously told Director Kangjin, but straightforward.

“Well, that may sound arrogant to you. If you're talking about happy endings, you don't have to write a contract, you can just leave. ”

So far, Director Yoo Gangjin has seen many actors. I've spent more than half my life in the movies. That's why I've heard so many noises. Some of the crabs said that this story would be better, and some actors were over the top. Shouldn't this be the right way to play this role? Sometimes it was true, but mostly it was different or wrong.

“Hmm."

If it isn't Lee Sunwoo. Other actors might have seen it with a cheeky voice. Or maybe he's already complaining about his arrogance. But it's also the first time that Sun Woo has told this story. And you're the best. Moreover, Sungwoo's mouth that Yoo Gangjin had seen so far was very heavy and serious.

In the first place, he was a strange actor who wasn't even good at talking about roles. In addition, the atmosphere of the Sun Wu being conveyed seemed desperate. It's like playing that role. But the reason I felt that it wasn't smoke was because his eyes were full of his will.

“I appreciate the offer, but you don't have to lose anything in the contract. These investors have a lot of money. And our grades were good. As positive as possible, no good. That's what Sunwoo said. I'm going to use the happy ending to hold the strand. But it's not completely confirmed. We're still discussing it. I said it's a possibility, but I don't know the outcome. So if it gets canceled, can't you just say something? ”

.

If that's the case.

Will observation happen? Probably, it will happen.

The conditions necessary for the observation to occur were the script, the slate sound, and the camera. Once the conditions were met, the observation was triggered. It doesn't matter what Sunwoo wants.

“Sunwoo, we've arrived at the scene. ”

“Oh, yes. I'll get off.”

Today's filming took place at dawn, so I came prepared really early. Talking about web films or other happy endings made my head complicated but did not interrupt the shoot.

“It's still dawn, so it's cold. Here's a blanket.”

“Thank you.”

Cold air poured out, but it's still complicated in my head. Another possibility story. He probably said it was an illusion because of the nature of Director Yoo Gangjin, but as plainly as possible. And the reality will be enough to take a certain degree. So is that another dimension of the story? Mirrors overlap and they appear numerous times. Is it a Parallel Worlds story somewhere? I don't know the truth, but I hope Sunwoo does. I wrapped a blanket around my shoulder, hoping there was a world with such possibilities.

.

“Reddy, action! ”

Freedom.

It's too common to hear, but it's really noble and hard and rare and it always feels new. The will and desire for freedom is probably one of the topics that can tie most of us together.

However, the meaning contained in those two short letters is too difficult. because the meaning is different for everyone. What kind of word would that be? The word freedom is unique. Most of the controversy is connected to freedom that extends from human values.

Human replication, abortion, euthanasia, homosexuality, sex change, war, politics, etc. We can divide it largely, neutrally and vice versa, but when you start digging, it all means something different.

“How was your painting today? I heard you don't like painting landscapes very much. ”

“I don't like it very much, I don't dislike it. ”

That day.

Since we met on the streets, we've spent quite a lot of time together, and we've gotten to know each other that much.

“I kind of like it. ”

“Oh, what is that? ”

She remembers her story indifferently as if it were passing by. She said as if it was nothing, but Kim Yoon-sik's heart jumped. It's nothing special. I haven't seen her in a long time, but she's got a good memory, she's sensitive. Or it could be an unintended, accidental, memorable topic.

“How's your ankle? ”

I heard about it recently and met more often because she stayed home for a while. He was walking in his heels, stumbling around, and then he snapped. I smiled at the jokes, saying that it was a disqualification of the model, but my heart was very sad. I haven't heard much, but I've seen the effort she's made.

“I think I can take the cast off in the next week or so. ”

“Really? Well, um... Is this gonna be okay for dinner? ”

I think the horse is out of the question. Thank goodness. I'm not asking you to get better. I'm just asking you if you'll be okay later. That's what she laughed at.

“Model, you mean? ”

“Well, yeah. ”

I think you'll like it if you feel like it, and I want to say that. So I want to end this relationship before I get hurt, and I want to continue this relationship a little more, a little more. And I fantasize about my ending relationship.

But it's always been a freedom in its own head. Freedom is about absolute self-interest. However, we cannot force others to do so.

Many of the opinions in modern society are widespread by dominating the majority. And it was a cruel oppression for those who thought differently and were a few who lived differently.

It's not wrong, it's just different.

Nowadays, it is common to force opinions, customs, and majority to follow the so-called trends. It's not like I'm exercising my own violence as it feels in the old days. It's multiple trespasses.

But that is, for the most part, right. Freedom must not be coerced or harmed by others. Maybe confessing your heart to her is some kind of violence. I have such concerns. Along with his selfishness that he didn't want her to get hurt. Kim Yun-sik couldn't talk about it.

“I'll see you around 7: 00. You're giving me dinner, right? ”

Kim Yun-sik's position at the symmetry point in the Korean society was sad for Sun Woo, too. Happiness in seeking his identity, but thus gaining it. And more loneliness and loneliness.

Kim Yoon-sik thinks it's happy. Beyond that gap was the desire to love someone. Kim Yun-sik didn't seem to know it now, but it is clearly visible to Sun Woo's eyes. Humans are hard to live alone all the time.

“I'll make it delicious for you. ”

“I look forward to it. Can't we fail like last time? ”

Since we started tracking him alone. At first it was Kim Yoon-sik, who didn't even know who the 'O’ of cooking was, but now it has become a hobby. Skills that I have worked hard to make with money. Trying to make it tasty at a small cost somehow made it quite plausible and yet delicious to cook.

A few days ago.

Late night snacks she made because she was hungry, modeling until late. She smiles brightly as she inadvertently says she'll make something for you. I wish I'd made it better. The problem was a huge failure.

“Well, I was so nervous, I guess. ”

I was embarrassed and chewed on my tongue.

“It's not that I can't eat. ”

It's not tasty, but it doesn't mean it's tasty. However, she laughed quietly.

“Well, if there's a next time. I'll make it really delicious for you. ”

It's just a story from a while ago, but it feels like a distant dream. The conversation I had with her flows through my mind like a wave. And the shimmering aftermath is the memory of that day. Regrets have become deeper. It's no bigger than I thought it would be. If I could go back in time, would I be able to show them a great face?

“I look forward to it.”

It's impossible.

Please, just this once.

How long can it go on, anyway? Not once, but twice, three times, and I want it to continue. But one day, perhaps, in the near future, there will be one last.

“Cut!”

Kim Yun-sik was a transgender, which Sunwoo saw. And I was more distressed about freedom than anyone had ever been. Ever since he began to value himself too much, I've been able to think of others.

It was Kim Yun-sik who was cynical until he found out his identity.

Being in love with myself. I could have loved someone else. It reminds me of a commonly floating horse. One of the conditions for making love with others. Be the person you can love first. A catchphrase that anyone who cannot even love himself should not want to be loved by others, should have seen somewhere.

“See you later? ”

Kim Yoon-sik's memory leads to a faint observation with a cut sound. Maybe it's just because the talk about love that came to Sun Woo who was obsessed with Kim Yun-sik's life still felt vague. Kim Yoon-sik's heart, Sun Woo's heart, and the word "love." The camera stops, but it still looks like her back is in front of her eyes.