Actor, Search for Hope

“You don't look so good. Are you okay?”

If you look good, it's strange. Dylan had no choice but to say so, knowing that. It's a obvious question, but I thought I'd have to ask.

“To be honest, it's not okay. Not at all, not at all. ”

The scene from the film through the camera was very typical. He was dressed in black, two men standing in front of the cemetery. And I give and take a few words. If you think about it, Lucy's father had two daughters' funerals in the last few days.

“I'm not sad. This doesn't feel real. So no tears. Maybe it's because they haven't accepted it yet. My wife is down and in the hospital. If I fall, who will guide me to my daughter's death? ”

When I think about it, the funeral process was complicated and there was a lot to take care of. That's what he must have said. The middle-aged man who said that seemed to have become an old man.

To be honest, we've never met Dylan a few times. Dylan was close to Lucy, not her father. I just said hello a few times, that's all. So all that's left is a blurry impression. But in light of that, her father seemed to have grown old. I remember him as young and energetic.

“The last thing I need to do as a father is watch. ”

The thick rainfall that the sky was pouring down turned into a chase, as if it had just happened. Thin sound. Lucy loved rainy days the most. The thin, continuous raindrops remind me of her face.

I wonder what she thought, taking her own life. Dylan thought so at the same time as Chosun. One of the most common questions you can hear every now and then in life. What would you say right before you die to someone? Or do you have a will to leave? Questions like that.

“Thanks, by the way. For keeping me here. ”

I wonder if he gave himself over to a momentary impulse. Unlike himself, who decided to take his own life in a deep and thoughtful way. Sunwoo cautiously assumed that might not be the case. And that's probably Dylan's attitude.

Dylan has no idea, but what triggered Lucy's death was his actions. Dylan was the one who darkened her heart. Not a single word out of the indifferent tone Camus spoke, but Dylan's actions did. Dylan didn't think a gram of Lucy would kill herself because of a dream, and it was buried in her behavior and tone.

I could see the Sun watching from afar. We had a closer look at filming the film than we did at the script. No matter how far they moved, they were closer than anyone in the world.

So much sadder, much sadder. Dylan doesn't know that his actions contributed in part to Lucy's death. Emotions that can't be organized by text. It's sad to say. But that's a shame and a blur to put together.

If there's one thing I regret, it's that her death was never a dream. I don't know what's gonna happen later, but if you only noticed a red flag about her suicide, I thought I could stop it.

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Filming also crossed the central ridge. Sometimes it squeaks, but it's going smoothly. His acting skills were unparalleled, but that was it. As if other actors could not lose, so many NGs were not born. So I was maintaining a moderate schedule that was neither slow nor fast.

But the problem, not the problem, was the greed of goodwill. I knew the ability to keep a distance wouldn't be a problem if I stayed away. But people's greed is endless and they repeat their mistakes. Zhongwoo couldn't win at impulse, so he sneaked closer.

So a little bit. Reality didn't feel real. Sometimes the moment of filming feels more real. And the illusion created such a sensation that I thought it might be a dream or a moment to film while I was painting.

“Are you painting again today? ”

“Lucy?"

The next painting in the past is about despair. This is the moment when I started getting more and more colorful with sketches. The plot paper was filled with strange and unnatural nature. Animals and masks, parts of architecture, etc. Things that could not be harmonized seemed complicated because they gathered together and connected in a curved shape. And the complexity was so twisted that it even seemed cruel.

“No, Sophia. What's going on?”

Sofia's shooting must have ended a while ago. The amount of footage left alone after Lucy's death. And I remember a few days before I finished the remaining quantities.

“I came to say hello. I guess I'm a little busy after today. By the way, you're almost done with the painting. ”

“Yes, maybe if I'm late today, I'll finish it completely by tomorrow. ”

“Isn't Da Vinci really modern, as they say? ”

Sofia laughs as if to mock the Sun Wu. Suddenly, he looked exaggerated, but there was a genuine admiration hidden inside.

“Da Vinci?”

“Yes, the smoke. Songs, songwriting. And pictures. I think there's a lot of philosophy there. I think there's a lot of piano there. Is that what you heard? So I think the Internet calls it modern da Vinci. I think it's possible to say it's a joke. ”

I've seen that sound a few times. Where I was when I was broadcasting the V tube. And how many times have I searched for myself? And from Adele. But every time I did, I listened with one ear and spilled it.

He knew Leonardo da Vinci as a great man. I don't know because I haven't experienced it, but it is a genuine genius unlike myself, just by looking at the facts recorded. I was an artist, I was a scientist, I was an engineer, I was a casualty, sculpture, architecture, mathematics, music, etc. He has shown talents in almost every field.

“That's the chief. a century, or, in a way, one of humanity's greatest geniuses. I'm nothing compared to him. ”

Rather, it's a borrowed gift. Familiarized with observation. Choonwoo had almost been arrogant for a while. Observation, after all, is his ability. I mean, you could call it genius. But I knew that wasn't the case.

Over time, he was able to see that there were some limitations to the talent gained through observation. And I'm realizing it again through the painting I'm painting. No matter how hard you try, catching up with Kim Yoon-sik is still just an agent. To put it more bluntly, there was a huge difference between talent and effort.

The painting is also quite a handful compared to the "Hope Seen in Despair" drawn with Kim Yun-sik Han Chang. I don't know if it's hard to feel the difference in levels, but if you look closely at the person who has expertise in the painting, it's a difference that will quickly become apparent.

“But are you really just here to say hello? I think you have something to say. ”

Perhaps we can follow a certain point if we are immersed in the person very deeply and closely through observation. I think I can do better than I do now. But it's something you have to throw away for a while now. Or better. But Seonwoo didn't want to.

Maintaining yourself is the most important thing. It will be fine if there is a strong self at the center of it, no matter how much it is affected. I felt instinctively and consciously that I had to stay with observation for a long time.

“Well, um... ”

Through her ability to feel the atmosphere, she felt something different from Sofia's feelings and asked straightforward. After all, she hated spinning the horse. But somehow, I was still hesitating today.

“Oh, really. I'm just gonna be honest. Sent from my agency. Get to know Sunwoo a little. ”

Chong-woo silences as he tries to say Moore. It's because Sofia didn't have to tell me why.

“We played together, and now we want you to pick up a song. ”

Then she told me to be a singer and an actress. He's not a musical major, but he's a well-respected singer. He said it was quite popular. It feels like rain was still popular in the United States.

It was not a sagradal issue in a short period of time. And also the story of Adele and Sunwoo. So if someone gets a song from Sunwoo, they will be able to leave the good and bad of the song and get a good promotion effect. Like Adele, stories are wrapped up, even if it's not a dramatic encounter.

“Ah-ha-ha, sorry. I don't like this deliberate approach. It's the floor you should be on if you need it. But I've never been more honest. I think Sunwoo knows everything. So it wasn't easy to lie, and I didn't want to lie. ”

Her appearance of purposefully exaggerating laughter and making excuses is not bad. Otherwise, I was asked to make a song at LU if possible. You said it was just a matter of time.

I also knew this was an opportunity to take a seat in the United States in the future. Knowledge that can be gained from the public. and promotional effects. Records that were unintended but, consequently, obtained from the billboard. But over time, the epilepsy will start to wear off.

So there were a few songs prepared in advance. A song that doesn't exist in this world, but exists in another world. And that's the kind of song that was popular. But that's why I didn't want to give the song to anyone. Songs that wouldn't have appeared in the world where Sunwoo lived if it weren't for Sunwoo anyway. But technically, stealing wasn't wrong.

‘At least to the person who fits the song. ’

It feels like rain is a coincidence. The song that was written now was intended not to be subtracted or punched. So, to be honest, I was stabbed in the conscience. I don't know anyone in the world right now, but I know myself.

It's a copy of a song written by someone in another world. Perhaps if they come into the world, they will know it as a song made by Sunwoo and will stand up. You said you were a genius, and a lot of wealth and honor will follow.

“May I offer you a song? ”

“Yes?”

Someone might say something. What did it do? You said you were selfish. If you don't speak for yourself, you won't know anyone, and it's a complete secret. Even if I say it, who will believe me?

Some kind of genius joke. Or maybe he'll say he's a nerd. If Sunwoo is really serious, he will consult a psychiatrist. Seonwoo knew that too. But it's because of your conscience that you're hurting something.

Immanuel Kant (1724 ~ 1804) states that the conscience of man's internal justice is conscience. . Therefore, There, they can accuse each other or make excuses about their own thoughts. "Therefore, the conscience is the inner conscience of morality.

“There are a few songs that I wrote that I don't have to do. ”

An excuse that would not have appeared in this world if it weren't for you. But it is inherently a sin of stealing others' minds. But it is self-rationalization that it did not harm anyone in this world or in that world. Within Sunwoo, the courthouse workshop was endless.