Another Arcadia Online

I fell asleep again soon after I remembered.

When I woke up in the morning, I was able to regain my composure. Because it was the usual thing they hated...... My family hates me, too. Probably should have allies. Must be.

It's so hard that if you don't believe that, it's going to really break.

I can hear Konkon and Knock. And it was Mother, Father, and Beautiful Bell who came in.

"What's wrong? What about that, Mizuki school? Dad, is the company okay?

"That's okay. More than that, Misaki. Do you remember anything?

"... yeah. Well, I remember. I'm sorry. I've been bothering you. It would have been easier if he'd been dead."

…………

All three of them shut up.

If I had succeeded in dying then I would have already broken it off. Even Mizuki will be able to accept it because it will really mean her sister who killed herself, and because one annoying disappears, she's going to have less money and less worries.

"I'll try not to bother you by running away from home as soon as possible... Forgive me."

"... sorry"

"Why are you apologizing? I'm the bad one, right? Take the trouble because I'm like this... you didn't have to apologize because your mothers were harder."

"No! Misaki. It's not annoying. Misaki can stay home. I told you before it was up to your parents to bother you."

"... if that's the case"

Anger springs up.

You didn't help me then, but I can't believe you're bothering me now... Even I was determined to leave and not cause trouble.

"Then why didn't you take my side? I said I didn't want to go to school, but there are other hard kids, so I told them to put up with it. I said it was three years of patience because I was bullied."

"... bad"

"You always do, don't you? Mothers have never been on my side before. Even when I fought with Mizuki, I said," Because I'm your sister, "and I took Mizuki's side. I hate to tell the parents who raised me so much... but I don't need a parent. I've never had you on my side, and I hate everything."

I wonder why I say this.

It was coming out of my mouth without stopping what I was thinking with my heart.

- Oh, well.

You must be angry. To the parents, to the beautiful bells. I guess I'm getting angry by what I remember.

"I thought my parents would be on my side. I hated myself, and I'm going to hate Mizuki and the others a little"

"Sorry......! I couldn't get him on my side......!

"I don't want you to apologize. I'm not human enough to apologize and break it off...!

I don't want words of apology. I don't want sincerity.

I wanted credibility. I wanted trust. I wanted someone to hear my words firsthand. I had no choice but to live alone. I had no choice but to carry in the hard or unpleasant by myself.

I think I know why I killed myself.

"... but he was sweet when I didn't remember and I appreciate that. But that's from guilt, isn't it? I want you to stop being so nice with guilt. If you don't like it, I want you to be honest with me."

"You won't!

My father said that out loud.

Tears are spilling out of your father's eyes. I don't think I've ever seen your father cry before.

"Sorry...... Misaki was so proud that she was strong. I was at ease somewhere. I thought Misaki would be able to stand it... That was the mistake. I wasn't being nice with guilt. I just want you to know that."

"... OK, so head up. That's just embarrassing."

I'm a little happy to hear the word that it's not out of guilt.

But... can I trust you? Should I trust you?

"Sister. Be mad at me too... Even me to your sister......!

"... there's nothing to be angry about. Because I've already said it. Because I know that Mizuki was tough. I don't think it's necessary to die."

"... I won't tell you anymore. I don't say die or anything anymore. So... sorry."

Mizuki also bows her head and apologizes.

"Also, that's enough. Because I forgive... Get your head up because you're embarrassed! Because I'm embarrassed to see Maya too!

I had him quit apologizing.