Another Arcadia Online
Misaki's Heart
"Don't you really die!
That's what Mizuki told me.
They say Mizuki is also the sister of a suicide at school. It bothered me. That's what's bothering me.
"You're not even dead, but you're lettering me up like that! I wish it had been true!
That's what Mizuki said.
I made up my mind then. No, no, no. I want to do what I can because I'm your sister. If it's for Mizuki, I thought I'd die for you.
From there, my will was stiff. Write down the suicide note and leave it on your desk. And when I come, I quietly tell him to straddle the bike and go over the bridge.
When I stood on the bridge, the wind blew hard. It's like a pull and a momentum to stop.
I looked down directly. River water increased by heavy rain yesterday. It looks cold.
"Bye bye."
That's how I threw myself out.
I remember.
The time now was three o'clock. The footage from the suicide came through clearly as a dream. And I remembered everything. Reason for the second suicide. Because Mizuki wanted it......
I laughed bitterly. No, it's probably better than a bitter laugh, like a mockery of myself until now, when I didn't realize I was hated.
Yes, there was no such thing as friendship between me and Mizuki. I was just assuming that was a good thing about amnesia.
How stupid.
I'm sure the only reason the beauty bell is so gentle right now is because of guilt. I hate it for real.
"Honestly...... stupid"
I'm ashamed of myself for living even though I didn't realize you hated me.
"Well, there's no choice. I caused trouble because I killed myself, and I didn't die a second time in the first place, so either way I bothered you."
Was Gatai's good brother who was only here for a walk by chance at that time helping me?
If you hadn't helped me, I'd have succeeded by now. Oh, I wish I had succeeded. That way I don't have to feel this miserable.
Again, I wanted to die - I hoped.
The wish doesn't reach anyone, it just disappears into the void.
Anger doesn't make me wonder. Because Mizuki is a bothered person and nothing is wrong with her. It will be common among sisters to think that they will die, and it is not a matter of concern. Instead, it's my fault for taking it seriously.
I can't apologize enough for apologizing.
"True, I'm miserable...... I wonder if I really have an ally. Nobody's going to believe Mizuki's like this."
No Maya, no Mano, no pearls, no lichens.
Is it a bluff I was watching that everyone seemed friendly? Is it a fantasy that the ruthless moon showed? Was I being danced on a fantasy song?
... Oh, I really don't like myself anymore.