Desire

Ajin sits on his bed staring out the window. It was almost 3: 00 in the morning. Most sleep was dark outside, but there was a dark light whether the moon was rising or not. Azin, who was watching it for a moment, turns his head.

“I have a question for you. ”

My sweaty body is a little cold. Azin tried to get a blanket, but when the smell of black snow left the blanket on his body, he quit. Instead, he asked the cigarette that was by the bed. He lights a cigarette and flips his moist forehead back.

“Are you... are you okay? I mean, contraception. ”

Now is the time to say it. Every night, the bed just before bedtime. There was no one but Ajin, and this room had no voice but his own words, and by night, the low groaning and the squeaking of the bed were combined. Several times and several times, Raw Snow wanted azine, and Azin wanted her. Whether it was affectionate or not, he was not sure. Some nights they lick each other kindly, and some nights they hug each other like animals without foreskin. The act was the former.

“Now that I'm worrying about cheap topics, ”

The smell of raw snow, which was writhing in the duvet, shifted his gaze. Ajin had nothing to say. Like an animal, like a lover. Regardless of the process, Azin always assessed the inside of the black snow scent. I plunged it deep enough to reach the end and poured it out several times, and enjoyed the feeling of empathy while holding the body of Raw Snow.

“.. because he didn't say much. ”

Ajin slapped the cigarette he was biting from his lips and gave it to Raw Snow. Raw Snow smiled low and took a cigarette from Azin and asked him.

“.. why. Are you worried because you're cheap? You think I'm a baby? ”

Raw snow smells nasty. He shrugged his shoulders without answering. He and Raw Snow are not lovers. Formerly a master, now a master and disciple. The relationship between the two is over. A little deeper, the understanding of each other is intertwined. Raw Snow takes Azin as a disciple to get what she wants, and Azin takes Raw Snow as a master to get what she wants. Taking off immortality, fulfilling wishes. That's all there is to it.

But every night, the smell of Raw Snow wanted pain. Hold them tightly or press them forcefully. Neither of them refused to act. I wanted it and I wanted it, and it was over.

“.. don't worry too much. ”

The scent of Raw Snow said as it breathed smoke. She tucks the blanket in her arms aside, staggering and raising herself up. Her sweaty white moth seemed to glow even in the darkness without light. My hands blocked the cloudy liquid that flowed between my legs, and I smiled at the smell of black snow.

“I wonder if it will or not. Youthful and stilled, but... well. Is it possible for this immortally fixed body to conceive a child? ”

“.. are you sterile? ”

“I don't know. I've never done it. ”

Standing in front of the window, Raw Snow's scent grabs her by the side. By the way, her back that looked big looked so small at this moment.

“I don't have more experience than you think. Before, I mean, before this. I tried it a few times, but I didn't enjoy it very much. At the time, I wasn't free enough to choke on such pleasures. ”

It was a time when I acted to see the end of nothing. I did not pay any attention to such things because of my happiness as a woman. How did you do your first experience? It wasn't because of a man. I thought it was an insult to myself that being a martyr and giving it to another man for the first time. Thanks to her, her first blunt neck took it. Curiosity, that was all. Since I was born as a woman, I thought I knew two people once. As she lost her virginity, she regretted it. Because it wasn't better than I thought.

After a few more tries, I realized that I felt better than I thought, but I wasn't that enthusiastic.

“.. so I don't know. Maybe it's sterility. I've never... done it. ”

Raw Snow said with a bitter smile. Azin rises to her feet, looking at her body reflected in the half-moon light.

“... responsibility. ”

Azin mutters dazed. Have you ever been caught up in something like that? I looked at the distant memories. When I had a family. When he was with someone, not alone. For some reason, he wanted to be a good son. Following my parents' wishes, I became an ordinary son who had no place to live. So I played the usual. He had known from his childhood that he was slightly different from others. I knew it wasn't right. I kept it to myself, played the usual part, and acted only to the extent I could be held accountable. It was the law and the family that bound him.

After losing my family, the pain no longer had to be ordinary. Someone who wished for responsibility disappeared, and the category of responsibility for pain became a little wider. He liked being alone. I never felt uncomfortable being alone, and I was free by myself.

“.. and there's nothing to lose. ”

Approaching the Raw Snow scent, Ajin mutters. I felt a slight tingling of the Raw Snow's shoulders. She turns her head to look at the pain.

“Question.”

Azin opens his mouth. He scratches his wet hair and reaches for his hand. He took the cigarette with the black snow scent and asked.

“What kind of man do you know about me? ”

He asks. He looks at the pain for a moment and smiles bloody.

“You're the only one I know. ”

“That's correct.”

Azin smiles brightly with a cigarette. Smoke was raised by the cigarette that was burned up to the filter.

“As Master said, I am that man. Regardless of whether that world is a game or a reality, I do whatever's good for me. If I am not constrained from stopping my behavior, I must do so. If killing is easy and quick, killing and betraying is the same thing. When dealing with others, we lie and act without being serious. ”

Reality is no different. I used to be, and now I don't have to, so I don't have to leave the house.

“Do you hate me for that? ”

Azin smiled and asked. He said that without saying anything for a moment, he looked at the pain and sighed low.

“.. not a whore enough to hug someone you don't like. ”

Raw Snow looked down and replied. Azin reaches out and grabs the Raw Snow shoulder. With such strong power, the Raw Snow's shoulders were so thin that they were tight in one hand.

“When I first saw it, I was going to use my master. ”

The cigarette fire burns to the end, blinking faintly. Azin clenches his fist as he drops it to the ground.

“NPC anyway. Regardless of Magony, there's nothing you can't do if you just call me Lord. It was the same if I changed into a master and a pupil. The title changed, but he didn't ask me for anything. So I was better. ”

I didn't say anything about the smell of Raw Snow. She claps her mouth shut and stares at him, and his gaze gives him a bloody smile.

“But that world wasn't a game. Other realities, frankly, I'm not sure what the difference is. The master who thought it was NPC wasn't NPC, and he's with me in this reality. I...

Azin vomited heavily.

“I was a little confused. God, I honestly can't get a handle on a big scale like that. But he's right in front of me, and he's in my hands like this. It changed a little bit there. ”

“... what are you trying to say? ”

“Well, it's an embarrassing self-confession. The immortal master cannot die, and I cannot use him. It's not NPC, it's reality. Besides...”

“Are you afraid I'll kill you after you've done nothing? ”

The smell of Raw Snow came from a sharp voice. Asin winks at the question and smiles in relief.

“Well, maybe. ”

“Son of a..."

“Shh.”

I pulled on the smell of raw snow to spit on it and the pain was exhausting. The shoulders of Raw Snow tremble at the sound of a crooked voice in my nearest ear.

“When I'm with Master, I feel a bit strange. ”

Cough. Azin grips the shoulder of the Raw Snow scent.

“You know, without thinking about acting, you get emotions, you know. I don't know why.”

The scent of Raw Snow lifts its head and looks at Azin. Seeing the black snow-smelling eyes that were blinking in surprise, Ajin smiled deeply.

“.. I don't think I'm going to use it anymore. That's all.”

Azin released the scent of Raw Snow. It was the first time he had said this, so he turned around scratching his head without saying a word.

“.. if I have to take responsibility, I will take responsibility. ”

“.. you..”

As I watched the pain entering the bed, I blinked at the smell of raw snow. She follows Huddak Azin into bed, and shakes his already lying shoulder.

“Hey, what's up? If you're going to tell me, just do it...! ”

“I've said my piece. So, let's sleep. ”

Azin grunts and turns away. In response, the smell of Raw Snow puffed his cheeks, and he raised his finger and stabbed Azin.

“Are you ashamed of yourself? ”

“Let's get some sleep.”

Azin grunts as he turns around. The scent of Raw Snow giggled by itself and dragged the duvet over her body.

“Keep her warm and you'll catch a cold. ”

She smiles brightly as she squirms in the ear of her back pain. Then I lay down looking at Ajin's back. Sleeping with someone else's back has never happened before in the world where she lived. But I didn't feel bad.

My heart was a little pounding. I stared at Azin's back, smiling at the smell of raw snow. He said exactly what, no. What I wanted to say was so confusing that I couldn't accept it well, but I felt in many ways that the pain had changed more than when I first saw it. The change was, in the end, limited to black snow.

‘Neither do I. ’

The scent of Raw Snow reached out and hugged his back. As she hugs him, he twists a little, but she squeezes his arm tight. Azin is unable to resist as she exerts her strength. Similarly, in the game, the body of Ajin in in reality is fragrant enough to burst with a hint of raw snow. The power of Raw Snow is too strong, rather than a weak pain.

“Thank you for saying that. ”

Leaning against his back, he muttered the scent of Raw Snow. I always knew this side had changed a little. I wonder if I've been lonely for 20 years by myself. Or is it because it's the first time it's been treated this way? The smell of Raw Snow reminded me of the past. Hundreds of thousands, sitting on a giant palace pedestal. Every place she could see was underwater, and when they met, everyone hit their heads on the ground and shouted their allegiance. It was her world, her world as an owner. All but her were parts of the world that were not equal to her. In that world, she was alone in the end.

‘.. it can't be that bad. ’

How about now? The smell of Raw Snow flashes and sees pain. He lets out an even breath, whether he's already asleep. The scent of Raw Snow gives way to Ajin with a bloody smile. There's nothing to think about. I like it now. That's all. Raw Snow's scent closed my eyes.

I don't know how long I can do this, but...

I press down on my anxiety when I think about it. I didn't want to think about it, and it was too far away. It's good enough now. It's okay. The scent of Raw Snow empowered my closed eyes, thinking like an engraving.