Faithful to Buddha, Faithful to You

Chapter 39: I Will Wear Dreams Again

I went to the director's office of the History Department to give the owner a form for applying to stay in school. In fact, these forms are just walking through the field.

I heard a conversation outside the window, the boss had guests, and I was hesitant to go in.

History is the poorest department in the school, so the building is also the oldest. The sound insulation of the house, which had been built for more than seventy years, was not very good, and although it was not intentional, the sound of the conversation in it inevitably reached the ears.

“Season, it's really because all the other volunteers have failed, so there's really no way to come to you. So far, she is the only one who has succeeded, and twice.” Why does this sound familiar?

“Lee, stop persuading me, I won't agree. She's so young. You really want her to lose her life for this trial?” This is the boss's voice, it sounds heavy.

“There's no such thing as loss of life, we've improved the machine again...”

“How can you deny that she won't be hurt a little bit? Look how miserable she is this time back. If you hadn't had the conscience to use the best doctors in the country, her hands would have been scrapped!” My heart moves. The boss is talking about me. Hurry up and listen.

“In the old season, we never thought about radiation before. We thought it would be safe if she hadn't been injured this time. In ancient times, if she was careful not to get hurt, it shouldn't be too much of a problem...” I've heard that, this is Professor Lee, the head of the research group.

“Who says it's okay?” The boss interrupted him severely, "that machine, she was exposed to radiation once in the past. And then there was the time to cross the watch, the anti-radiation suit, which was a source of radiation that was hurting her body every moment of every day. ”

“If she stays for a shorter period of time, the damage will be less.” Professor Li is in a hurry, "we don't need her to stay too long this time, just to verify the success of our newly invented time and place positioning function. And when she comes back, we promise to restore her to her body with the best medical equipment. ”

“You new functionalities have not been tested many times before, and people fail before they go to the machine. ”

“This time we have really learned a lot of previous lessons, and we are all confident that we will succeed. ”

“In the old season, you are a historian. Think about it. You can position the time and place in any important era, witness Qin Shihuang's unification of the Chinese culture, verify Tang Taizong's Xuanwu Gate change, and even go to the Founding Fathers' Festival to meet Prime Minister * * * Zhou.” Professor Li's voice is full of visions, "Old Season, we just need an experimenter to help us. ”

“No, there are too many variables in that unknown situation, I can't...”

“I agree.” I pushed the door in and quietly looked at the two amazing scholars in front of me, "but I asked to go to the time and place I had designated. ”

“Okay, okay.” Professor Li nodded excitedly, "Wherever you promised to take part in the experiment, it was up to you to decide what age to go. ”

“How long can my body last over there? ”

Professor Li was a little stunned: “Well, it's hard to say yet, there are no data. But if you come back soon..."

I interrupted him and said, “I'm going to Turtles in 384 BC. ”

The boss looked up and suddenly my eyes got complicated.

Back at the familiar test site, I was busy doing tests, exercising and taking various resistance enhancing drugs. Every day researchers are busy recording data, repeatedly calculating, and just starting in August, it was my fifth crossing.

I took the opportunity to revisit all the information concerning him, as well as the history of the sixteen countries. I hope I can keep this in mind, maybe it will help.

And looking at his data, in some places, the more confused it is. In fact, his record is very vague, even contradictory. Just like when he graduated.

In his death, there were two ways to say this: in the "Herald of the High Monks" by Liang Dynasty monks of the South Dynasty, “began August 20, 11 with pseudo Qin Hong, graduated from Chang 'an, is five years of East Jin Yi Xi", that is, 409 AD. And the monk Zhao, "Master Kumarosh 35796;" Wenyun: “Kumaroshi Temple, seventy years old, April 13th”. Yes, the year of ugliness is fifteen years, 413 BC.

If, according to Monk Zhao, Rosh died in 413 BC in the seventieth year, his period of graduation would have been 344-413 BC. And Huixiang thinks that Rosh died in 409 AD in the sixtieth year, so the year of graduation was 350-409 AD. It is now commonly accepted in academia that monk hits are less likely to be mistaken because monk hits claim to have died more than a decade under the Rosh Gate and the second year after Rosh's death. Therefore, at the Fifth Sino-Japanese Buddhist Academic Conference, both sides discussed and studied only the graduation year of Pumorosh, according to which it was 344 years old and 413 years old.

But I know that Huixiang is right. Lu Guang forced him to break the precept in 384 BC, when Rosh was 35 years old. The prophecy he heard when he was a child was astonishingly accurate and saddened the invisible hand of destiny in the underworld.

According to the Jin Shu: Lu Guang “has gained nothing to test his intelligence. See how little teeth are in the year. It's a mortal act. Strong wife with Turtle Queen." Lu Guangguang asked Rosh to marry him because he was young. If Rosh was 41 years old, in those days, he wouldn't be young anyway. Thirty-five years old, the young man said he could barely make it. But did Lu Guangguang really force him to break the precept because he was "short of teeth"? How many unknown extinct stories are hidden behind these short sentences? What happened to what I was going to face?

Covering up thoughts and moods. When I got back to the test site, I couldn't sleep all night. I was looking forward to crossing, returning to him as soon as possible, and I was afraid to go back and see what I didn't want to see. Eleven years. How many things can change in eleven years? How many people can keep their feelings eleven years ago? If it wasn't my only chance to cross, I definitely chose to go back to the moment he rushed back to see me. Probability theory says that if two loved ones wait for each other 80% of the time, then the probability that they can really stick together is 80% X80% = 64%. 64%, which makes me very emotional. But even if it's only a 1% chance, I'm going. Otherwise, staying in the modern world is a walking corpse, because my heart is not here.

I called my parents and they didn't know I was in this trial. I just told them that I was all right, because of a special academic study, that I was going to stay in a secret place for a while, maybe two years, maybe more. In the meantime, I couldn't call them because of work. But please rest assured that I am healthy and safe.

I couldn't help but cry when I hung up on the phone, listening to my parents' worried voice. I am an only daughter, but I can't be filial. I am not a good daughter...

The night before the trial, the boss came to me. We were sitting on the lawn at the test site talking.

“Isn't that Pomorosh? ”

The boss suddenly asked me that, but it made me a little angry.

“How could I not guess if no one else knew?” He sighs, "both your successful crossings met him, again when he was a teenager and a young man. I know all about him. Besides, a young girl sees him. ”

I smiled bitterly, bit my lip, and bowed my head silently.

“You've always been a sensible, intelligent child. How can you be so helpless when you meet feelings? ”

“Teacher Ji, you were young, you loved it too.” I looked up and everything in front of me was soaked in tears, "I rubbed past him just because I was too rational and too worried about history. I regret that every day I come back I regret and hate myself for not being selfish. So I have to go see him. I don't want to worry about history anymore...”

“But what can you change this time?” The boss's voice is helpless, "you should know what happened this year, his wife is Princess Turtles. ”

“I know.” Finally, tears rolled down his cheek into the grass, "and this was the turning point of his fate, and I wanted to walk with him through the toughest part of his life. I always thought he'd wait for me and he'd want me around. But I probably couldn't do anything, and if, as the History says, he already had someone to accompany him, I would silently bless him and come back to my life. ”

The boss sighed heavily, "Now even if I told you not to change history, I'm afraid you wouldn't listen. ”

I bite my lips bitterly and say, "Teacher Ji, do you always warn me not to change history, knowing that I may be the one who drives it forward? ”

The boss silenced for a moment: "Zhang Xi called me. ”

I'm surprised. Ever since I knew I had a chance to come back to him, I broke up with my brother. Actually, I've hardly spent much time alone with him since I promised him. I'm not interested in going to dinner and watching movies. So breaking up is just a formality, it's not like being in a relationship. I didn't expect him to call the boss.

“He wants me to tell you that he'll be here waiting for you to wake up. ”

Bitter smile, the boss must have told him the real reason I agreed to cross again. Wait for me? Waiting for nothingness, not really loving him, how many modern people can do it?

“What if I don't want to wake up? ”

“Girl, remember, even if you get along with him again, it's just a dream in a girl's heart. This is always your home, the life here, the real life that a normal person deserves. ”

The boss looked at me seriously: "The radiation you've accumulated in the past slowly destroys your immune system and you need to come back early for treatment. ”

“Don't be strong, I know it's irrational for a woman to get emotional, but losing her life for love is not a great thing.” He paused and went on to say, "It's great to live in love. ”

“I've asked them to develop the longest life battery, and within two years, you can come back. Though it can be harmful to your body to travel through the watch and radiation jacket with time, you must keep it safe. Maybe in such a mess, these things can save your life. ”

I nodded and stood silently looking at the night sky. You can't even see the stars in summer and night. There's so much pollution in this day and age.

I lay down on the test bench, and the roads around me continuously exited the sealed room. The boss suddenly approached me and whispered in my ear: "Remember, don't do anything stupid. Technology is advancing, and you just have to come back and have another chance to see each other again. ”

He shook my hand: "Be careful, don't get hurt. ”

Look at me again, the boss walked out. Watching his old back, I was a little wet.