Faithful to Buddha, Faithful to You

Chapter 44: What is the Truth?

Rosh stared at the Gillette razor on my hand. That was when I was shopping with my dorm classmates, and they bought it as a gift for my boyfriend, and I bought it with all my heart. Thought I'd never get to see him again in my life. I should have had shaving water or something, but I was afraid of radiation, so I didn't bring it.

Of course he wouldn't use it. I sat him down, covered his chin with hot water dipped in a towel, and when the roots of his beard were soaked, I told him to stay back and slide gently over his chin with a razor. In order to learn this technique, I also specifically taught male researchers at the test site. His eyes looked straight at me, and he printed my reflections in the pool, and some heartbeat accelerated. The skin on his face was particularly greasy, and every time I slipped through it, it made my heart twitch. Afraid that his men won't notice the injury, hurry and clean up for him.

Shaved him, his face was unusually clean and refreshing. He was obsessed with his defamatory fullness and suddenly his stomach screamed uncontroversially. It's been three o'clock in the afternoon, and I haven't eaten anything since last night. It was a little embarrassing, he held his hand and smiled gently: “Let's eat...”

We sit and eat, already cold soup and meat, but full of flavor. I glanced at him while eating. I looked him in the eye and smiled silly. He also had a full smile. Ten years old, the marks on his eyes and forehead were particularly visible under his smile, and he wanted to erase those shallow wrinkles for him. If you don't want to spend another few short months going through his decade, let's get old together this time.

“Does it still hurt?” After eating, he gently touched a whip on my back and asked sadly. I shook my head, and if I didn't take this whip, I'm afraid he wouldn't be able to get out of the knot so quickly. So, it's worth it.

He was blushing. He was bowing his head. “Can you show Rosh? ”

As soon as I was stunned, my face was burning, but I felt a slight strange feeling inside. He hesitated for a moment to see him still staring at me and turning to sit down on the carpet with his legs plated. Lift open your hair and fade your clothes to your waist.

He sat behind me and watched for a while without making a sound. This revealed my skin in front of him, I was more nervous than last night, and I was rushing to put my clothes back on, but he gently blocked me.

His spine slipped through a cold patch of his hand, gently touching the whipped mark. Then, a warm, wet kiss sticks on top, from the tip of the whip to the end, causing my body to tremble.

“Ai Qing...” His kiss sticks behind his ear and his charming voice goes down in his ear, "Rosh won't hurt you again. ”

The air was filled with unclear emotions, my nerves tightened, and my nostrils were sweating.

The door suddenly opened and I was shocked and rushed to put my clothes on. I forgot that this is our cage. Someone will be here any minute. In the midst of frustration, Rosh's shadow swung in front of me.

The man who has been watching us penetrated his head: "Master, General Lu invites you. ”

Lu Guangguang didn't say he wanted to see me, but worried about Rosh, I went with him. Still yesterday's palace, he was surrounded by those unchallenged nephews.

“Master, how was last night? Dogs are the most enjoyable witnessing magicians.” Lu lucidly laughed and looked in a good mood, "What's the point of this man if he can't enjoy a moment of soul destruction and read more Buddha? Without Lu's help, the magician must not taste this. ”

In fact, Lu Guangguang was prepared to say insulting words, but he heard it himself, still as disgusting as eating a fly. I glanced at Rosh, and he looked a little pale, but he didn't say a word. Hold your breath, someone who calls us vulnerable.

Lu Guangguang looked at me a few times: “It seems that the magician still likes the small gentleness of the Han women, just like Lu. Oh, Lu also collects many Han women in Chang 'an's residence. In the future, the magician will have the opportunity to go to Chang 'an, and must send some to the magician. ”

Rosh was still silent, his mouth was tight and his waist bar was straight. Though dressed in secular clothes, the calm appearance of the eyes and the floating temperament of the body make the flaming Lu Guang seem a little short.

Look at Rosh keep quiet, Lu Guangqiang coughed himself a few times: “The magician is in the palace these few days to rest. He should eat what he should, Lu will not harm the magician.” Again pretending to be a concern, "by the way, what is the magician missing now? ”

Rosh bowed slightly, his hands together ten times, and he was not overwhelmed: "Rosh had been away from the temple for a long time, and his heart was filled with memories. General Lu would be grateful if he would let Rosh return to Wang Xin Temple or Sparrow Leaving Temple. ”

“There is no need for the Mage to rush back. Lu has a lot of Buddhist law issues to ask for a teacher. ”

“General Lu's Buddha problem is not solved by Rosh. Nor is it Buddhist, Rosh only knows Buddhist scripture, does not gossip about fate, and prophesies good deeds.” His face was sharp and he replied in an indisputable tone, "Besides, Rosh was a monk from home, ignoring the custom. General Lu's detention of Rosh can only allow Rosh to break the ring. Rosh turns to Buddha's heart, but not General Lu's ability to break it. General Lu's expectations, let alone Roshley's, are not within his grasp, and he hopes that General Lu will soon dispel his thoughts. ”

I wonder if I can understand what he said earlier. When Buddhism first arrived in Nakahara, the Chinese viewed Buddhism as similar to local Taoism and Xuanxue. From the Han Dynasty to the North and South Dynasties, Weiwei's learning prevails. It is also normal for Lu Guang to treat Rosh as a gossip fortune teller. But the rest of his words made me confused. “General Lu Wants”, what does Lu Guang expect? Is forcing him to break the rules, more than just a bet? Don't think about it again, look up at Rosh, give him a look, hope he doesn't provoke Lu Guang.

Lu Guangguo really pissed off, just shouting “good you...” was dragged away by Lu codification. Lu Codification said a few words to Lu Guangyi. Lu Guangyi's face was uncertain. He gasped for half a day and finally calmed down.

“The magician has been tired for a few days. Let's get some rest.” His tone doesn't sound friendly. "Last night, Master Lu won your ex-Uncle and Queen's Palace Beauty. Later, Lu picked out some gorgeous figures and gave them to Master Lu. ”

Rosh glanced at me and bowed again slightly at Lu Guang: “General Lu doesn't have to bother. Roche has practiced for many years and has no need for any other woman.” He paused and added, "and asked General Lu to treat the women well. ”

Lu Guanghaha laughed: “What a pity for a magician.” Looked at me again, "this Turzhan woman was few, and later Lu found a suitable Han woman and sent it to the magician. ”

Ross was blue-faced and no longer answered.

“Rosh, if Lu Guang and his men have won the bet, why continue to imprison you? What does Lu Guang want from you?” Go back to the room we were in, make sure no one can hear us, ask him the question that has been circling in his mind since seeing Lu Guang.

“Ai Qing, do you know about the defeat of the war between Qin and Jin? ”

Of course I know, I'm afraid not many Chinese know about the Battle of the Water. Until the eve of the Battle of Water, Fu Jian was the most successful monarch in the history of the Sixteen Kingdoms. On the frontier, Shiller, who had previously unified the North, could not but exclaim himself; on the qualitative side, he was one of the finest benevolent kings in the many sixteen kingdoms of the tyrannical kingdom, on the policy of the nation, and in the era of "non-my kind, his heart must be different”, his approach did ease the animosity between the peoples. But a battle of water, the original situation of a great former Qin, was completely buried.

This strange war took place the year before my time, in November 383 AD. This is the most disparate war in China's history, with military forces on both sides in comparison: 87: 18. The absurdity of the whole process was unexpected. The winner has neither the certainty nor the ability to tell where the victory is. Losers lose rarely, and the vast former Qinton collapses.

Lu Guang's march to the west was in the new month of 383 BC, early in the year of the Battle of the Water. He called along the way, first conquering the turtles and then attacking them in 384. In fact, Xizheng was very controversial in the Fu Jian dynasty. Many ministers considered it inappropriate to travel with the labour division, and were irrational to disperse the troops of the Jin dynasty. But too smoothly, Fu insisted on building Qin Huang Hanwu's achievements, and thought his strength was enough to deal with the Jin Dynasty. Without this Western monument, you can think of Lu Guangguang as a general, and he will definitely participate in the Battle of Shui, then there will be no Lu Guang's establishment in at least sixteen countries.

But what does this war have to do with Chinese history, with Turtles and Rosh, far from the sky?

“Lu Guangguang has known the fall of the Lord of Qin. Now, Qin is in turmoil, the Yan people are returning to the country, and the Yan people are rebellious. The owner of the country is no longer capable of rebellion.” His eyes were burning and he held my hand, "Ai Qing, you said Qin was in need of a war season right now. Why did Lu Guang take his horses with him and stay in Turtles for so long? ”

With a little thought, I made it clear: “He wants to cut the western realm on its own. ”

During the sixteen kingdoms, but every little bit of strength wanted to cut the alleged king. Lu Guangyi's bravery is not comparable to Shihler's. He can't catch up with Yao Yiu by talking about rape and fraud. His strategy is worse than Mu Yongju's. Without the Battle of the Watermelon, he would never dare to be dissident under Fu Jian's control. However, now that he is in such a remote place, Fu Jian has been scorched by four rebellions, and Lu Guang's idea of self-reliance is normal. Emperor Tianguo is far away, the small western powers are weak, he is here to dominate, nobody can control him.

He bowed his head: "Exactly. Lu Guangwolf's ambition, Qin's chief sealed ranger, General Ansi, and western school captain were unable to satisfy his expanding selfishness. ”

“I'd rather be a chicken head than a cow queen.” I'm emotional.

Reminds me of a true joke of Nanyan of the Sixteen Kingdoms: a man named Wang Shi assembled tens of thousands of people in Taishan, calling himself Emperor Taiping, calling his father Emperor Tai, and his brothers General Tsengdong and General Tsengxi, who set up a hundred officials. Nanyan's army beat him, and when he was killed, someone asked him, "Where are your father and brother?” He said, "His Majesty the Tai Wang took refuge outside and was killed by the rebels.” His wife said angrily, "That's why you're here. Why aren't you awake?” He replied, "Queen, where has there been an undefeated home since ancient times, an indestructible nation? If I collapse, I will collapse. I will not change the national code! ”

Is that ridiculous? For one hundred and thirty years, the sixteen countries have only officially inherited the national symbol. In fact, there are more than sixteen countries, the total size of the forest, the size and size of the forest, as many as twenty and thirty. Even though Wang Shishi was a fool, he revealed that period, but anyone who was a little powerful thought. The Emperor would rather have a face than a face? Anyway, there is no home, no kingdom of immortality, the emperor's seat, first of all, let alone Lu Guang in the corner of the army?

But what does that have to do with Rosh's imprisonment?

Seeing the confusion in my eyes, he went on to say, "Lu Guang has always been an outsider, and the army is only 70,000 people. Shining a local royalty, how can it last? ”

All of a sudden, it's a relationship between regime and religion! Lu Guangguang is going to stand on his feet for a long time, only to suppress by force, his army of 70,000, such a large area of western China, dozens of small oasis countries, can not control at all. Therefore, in the western part of the country, where the Buddhist atmosphere is rich, it is necessary to rely on the power of religion to obtain his authenticity. And Rosh, the representative of Western theocracy. If Rosh openly recognizes the legitimacy of Lu Guang's regime, it must be recognized not only by Turtles, but by hundreds of thousands of people throughout the West. Then he would not need force alone to cut off the western realm.

“Rosh, he's not too big an army, he wants to cut himself off, so ask for help with you. But you don't want to give in to him, you don't want to admit it in your own way, do you? ”

He showed praise in his eyes and held my shoulder down with a low head: "You're the only one who really knows Rosh best. He wanted Rosh to claim that he was the incarnation of Kansai Bodhisattva and to come and save the people of the West. ”

I shook my head. But ambitious people who want to usurp the throne always like to make the so-called Xiang Rui, like to claim to be a goddess. It's just that he can't do it on his own. He needs help from the Mistress. Lu Guangguang may not know that Rosh is not Buddha Tucheng, a geranium monk of the Shille Rock tiger era, and will not succumb to power with ghost magic. Nor is he Xuan Xuan, who will not praise the royal family, intentionally close to the emperor. Noble of origin, famous since childhood, he took for granted the recognition of those in power, I'm afraid he never thought that politics could take precedence over divine power.

“You refused, so he couldn't imagine, forcing you to break the precept to blackmail you. ”

He nodded and blushed: “He doesn't know, I'd rather break the ring than use it for him. If he is not a foreigner, if he is Ming Jun, it is good for the people, and Rosh naturally recognizes it. But he was brutal and obscene, only selfish and never profitable to the people. If Rosh succumbs, it will harm more than a hundred thousand Turtles and even hundreds of thousands of people in the West. ”

“Irene, you know, he pitted 20,000 demobilized Hu soldiers.” Sorrow gathered between his eyebrows, and he squeezed his hands in anger, "Murder on the battlefield was already a sin, and the pit slaughtered the surrendered. Twenty thousand lives were lost to him. How can a man like this be a Buddha's son if he will not live forever? ”

During the period of the Five Hundreds and Sixteen, pit killings became the most important means of countering the downsizing of soldiers after almost every war. The number of killings is often tens of thousands of people. Because of the wars of the sixteen, the vast majority took place among peoples. “None of our kind, their hearts must be different”, pit killings can greatly damage each other's energy and prevent possible future interracial insurgencies. The worst pit was in Jong-yin, and North Wei buried 50,000 Yuan to surrender. Until the second year, the old hero Murongdu, the handsome soldier, avenged him, cried with the sergeant before joining the mass graves, spit out blood, ended his seventy years of legendary career, and ended the strength of Yan.

Previously on History, no matter what kind of shush, I couldn't keep up with the fear of dying in the mass graves yesterday. When those numbers turned into a bloody corpse, it became clear that the words in the history books were so tragic in reality. After yesterday, I've made up my mind to stay out of it. If I had the ability to stop any tragedy, I wouldn't care about changing history. There was a rolling wave in my heart, and I looked at the quiet and clean man in front of me. This is the first time I've seen Rosh so determined and strong that he won't give in to the rulers. My lover, who I admire most today.

Squeeze his hand and greet him with a brilliant smile: "Don't forget, I'll always be there for you no matter what you decide. ”

And he held me back: “Before you showed up, Rosh was not afraid of anything. I even thought that if I pushed him too hard, I would bite myself..."

“No!” Cover his mouth in a hurry, "don't say that. I will protect you...”

With a gentle smile on his face, he took my hand down and put it in his warm hand: "But when you get back, Rosh doesn't think about it anymore. ”

“Remember the Menzi you told me about? ‘So the heavens will be sent down upon the Sins, and they will suffer their hearts and minds, and their bones will be hungry, and their bodies will be exhausted, and their deeds will be disrupted. Therefore, they will be patient, and they will not be able to benefit them.’ These hardships are but the Buddha's test of Rosh. If you have ambitions, how can you defeat a warrior? ”

“But Lu Guang may not only force you to break the precept, but he will also force you to defeat in more cruel ways.” In the history books, Lu Guangguang made him ride an evil bull horse, and saw that he had done all he could. These are just a small part of what has been documented, real humiliation, perhaps even worse.

“I'm not afraid.” He caressed my face slightly, sighed slightly, but hesitated. “But it will bitter you...”

“Rosh, don't worry about me. I can take care of myself. ”

We clasped against each other and held hands tight. The rest of the sunset falls through the skylight, creating a golden silhouette. I showed him the most beautiful smile, no matter how rough the road was, I must be there for you as long as you chose.