Faithful to Buddha, Faithful to You

Chapter 80: Separation for Goodbye

I slept a little longer and woke up with a gaze of a tall figure on the bed. "Are you back? What's Luisau looking for? ”

“I let Luthor take the magician apart. ”

I was shocked and my eyes were wide open. The bright sunshine from the window is shining on the tall man. The familiar sharp eyes are measuring me.

“How did you...” I wanted to ask him how he got in, and he didn't ask. There's always a way to do what he wants.

“What is it?” Just about to get up, he leaned over and rubbed the blanket next to me, leaned behind me, and held my waist to help me sit up.

Though he was kind, I really didn't like this physical contact and my face was a little hot. He sat on the edge of the bed, close to me. I was unable to distance myself from him, thinking that he would not do anything to a pregnant woman, so I let go of my worries and looked at him with no fear.

He won't talk for half a day, just look at me. The eagle had a few red lines in its eyes, lined with dark circles, and unknown sorrow flowed from the bottom of its eyes. His eyes stared straight at him, his heart was beaten like a punch, suddenly panicked.

“Little General...”

“Still won't call me Monson?” He bowed his head, sighed in the shadows, and his tone was bitter and silky.

“Monson...” he said, "I don't want to look him in the eye." You put the magician away and come see me alone. I'm sure you have something to say. What's going on? ”

The lip horn was ticked, first with a strong bitter smile, then suddenly his face turned, and he answered the question: “Yao Yao sent the envoy to ask Master Rosh to speak to Chang 'an. Do you know this? ”

I nodded and wondered why he was talking about it.

“Lu Codification means that the magician can exchange money with Yao Yao, and Lu Guang also agrees. But do you know why the magician didn't make it?” His eyes have been wandering in my face and his eyes have glistened. When he was alone with me, he used to refer directly to the names of the Lu people in a despicable tone.

“Didn't Lu Guangguang worry about Rosh's cunning, afraid he would go to Chang 'an to benefit Lu's cold country? ”

He smiled with disdain and snorted: “That's true. However, Lu Guang himself did not say that. ”

Understood. The probe asked him, "Is that you? ”

He nodded and the line appeared fraudulent on his stubborn face: "It was I who told Lusho, and then the fool persuaded his father. ”

“Why are you doing this? ”

'Cause I can't let you go. ”He stood up and walked indoors with his hands behind his back. The sun shines on his straight, wide shoulder, revealing a semi-bright, semi-dark complexion.

“It was my idea, including your return to the palace. Let Lu Shao tell Lu Guang that before countries compete to hire magicians, Lu Guang will proclaim the world, and that Master Rosh has been used by him, in the heart of other Powers. ”

“Monson, what's in it for you? ”

He stopped, stared straight at me and laughed: “I changed my mind, I didn't intend to kill you, but I couldn't let anyone else have you. I can only rest assured that the Lu family is unconscious and puts you in Lu's hands. ”

I sighed bitterly: "You don't have to worry anymore, I don't have a few days...” Let me go, that's the last few days, right?

He approached me slowly and sat next to me again. The air in his eyes faded away and grief flowed. Her chest vibrated slightly, she swallowed her throat and suddenly grabbed my hand: “Do you hate me? ”

I want to make a living, but he's holding me with more force. My struggle was useless in front of him, so I let him go. In his grieving eyes, he smiled lightly: "Tell me, do you want me to hate you? Isn't that what you want? From now on, it will not be possible for me to speak to anyone about the King's art, nor will anyone know your ambitions, preventing you from achieving hegemony. ”

“And yes, save me the daily hesitation to kill you.” He looked up and laughed, but the laughter was so clear.

He laughed for a moment and the corner of his mouth gradually dropped, squeezing my hand so hard that he seemed to want to see me show pain. “It's better for me if you die. A woman like you shouldn't live in this world. ”

His voice trembled slightly, and I endured a wave of strength on my wrist, trying to laugh: "Monson, I don't hate you. Everything counts. It's already been fixed. I don't have time to hate in this world anymore...”

With a loose wrist, he let me go. Staring at my face, my eyes drifted blindly. He shook his head with a bitter smile and whispered: “You don't even hate...”

“Monson, you will build a national business and become the hegemony of the separating party, but not the end of the chaos given by the times.” I told him calmly, "Your life count is long overdue. ”

The scattered eagle eyes refocused and the deep eyes fell on my face for a long time, bitterly chewing out: “Life count...”

Smile and sigh a long sigh: "Life count... you and I meet in this way, life count too...”

He shook his head and crossed the side. When he turned his eyes to me again, the sorrow in his eyes gradually faded away and he pondered for a moment and asked calmly: "What more do you wish for? ”

“Monson, the magician wanted to dig a cave in the mountains of the heavens and build the Great Buddha Temple, but was stopped by Lu Guang. You may help the magician fulfill this wish by entering the aunt at a later date? ”

“Okay, I promise.” He nodded earnestly, "After I became a monarch, I hired a magician as my teacher and raised my country to serve Buddha. ”

He was just about to say thank you, and suddenly he said, “Any other wishes? ”

And I thought about it, and I said, "I hope you treat the people well, and that there will be no more human suffering in Liangzhou. There is also Confucianism, so that talented Han people can settle in the northwest. ”

“Okay, I'll do all of this.” He nodded and approached me, his eagle eyes circling in my face, "Anything else you want to say to me? ”

Think of Rosh, who waited alone for 16 years after I left, with a sour nose. Stabilize your emotions and look at Monson: “After I leave, don't be a difficult magician. With your relationship with Lusho, let him at least have some freedom. ”

“Well, on my aunt's day, I'll do my best to help the magician.” Closer again, half a foot from me, lower your voice, "what else? Anything else you want to tell me? ”

I turned my head away and heard the expectations in his voice, and I said, "What do you want me to say? ”

He shook his head halfway. Sitting on his right body, he grinned bitterly: “Nothing...”

He stood up and slowly walked towards the door, pulling the door open. In summer, Jiaoyang was like a fire, staining the backs of the fire red. Footsteps stuck at the door without turning back. A gloomy sigh in the dry, hot air:

“Aiqing, go well...”

My nose is sore. Monson wouldn't know I was leaving this time and space, and he thought I was close to dying. The phrase "go well” is his last blessing to me. Live or die? I should never have had the chance to see him again when I came back, just as I would never see Fursati again. Despite my constant caution, he didn't really do anything to hurt me. I should be grateful to him. After all, he's been helping me his way. So I looked at his tall back and I said, "Thank you, Monson..."

Rosh helped me put on my radiation jacket, took the time to cross the watch, and put a big bag on my back. One pile, one piece, meticulous and patient. I didn't think I'd ever need it again, but now I need to save my life and my baby's life with these connections to the 21st century. In trance, Rosh wrapped a thick cotton coat around my stomach to prevent harm to my baby when I landed.

His nostrils seeped out fine sweat beads, and as he bowed down, he was seen wet on his back as well. The monk's coat sticks to it and outlines the lean back line.

I sweat myself when I wear cotton coats. He helped me wipe the sweat beads off my forehead, held my head and said softly, "Before you left, Rosh didn't give you a farewell. This time, Rosh finally sent you away. ”

His nose was sore and he was about to cry. He kissed me in the eye and he would kiss the tears out of him: "Don't cry. Bad for the baby. ”

Touched the Adeles silk around my neck, wrapped my right hand around my hand and touched his wedding ring. Today, he deliberately took the ring off his neck and wore it on his left hand unnamed finger. At this moment, hanging from his chest are those worn old Buddha beads.

She held me in her arms and smiled and said, "We are separated for goodbye. So you and I don't want to cry. You're just going back to your mother's house, and Rosh is going to send you away with a smile. ”

Nod your head and smile hard. Hopefully for sixteen years, he remembered me with the most beautiful smile.

“Rosh, you have time to translate the Buddhist Scriptures, don't conflict with the Lu people. Prophecies and latitudes, I know you don't give a shit. However, in order to survive better, sometimes it is necessary to give in. ”

I have told him everything that will happen in the future. The Book of Jin documents his divine powers, what a windswept prophecy of war, inferring from the strangeness of a female pig giving birth to a three-bodied pig that Lu Codification will be usurped, and so on. He always shook his head when he heard it, but was no longer as ostracized as before.

Take a note of two years of intermittent recording: "Here is my study log. There are historical events that have taken place and will take place in sixteen countries, as well as a narrative of my mood. ”

Turn over the notebook, and my mom and dad's picture is stuck in it: “When I'm gone, you can look at my notes and photos if you want to. I hadn't thought about leaving this note before, so I used to write a simplified word a thousand years later. You have to read from left to right, not top to bottom. I made a comparison table over the last few days, and the time was too tight, I'm afraid, to complete it. You don't necessarily understand what I'm writing...”

“It's okay. Rosh will read it carefully. Familiarize yourself with the words of your time and the writing habits of that time.” He took it solemnly, smiling up, "Rosh couldn't read it at the moment, but there were sixteen years to watch it slowly. When you get back, ask what you don't understand..."

Looking at his face, he was still trying to smile. Light grey eyes glittered, and my figure grew hazy in the vapor.

His nose was sour and he pressed down his bitter pain, clamping his hands: “The year before you went to Chang 'an, the aunt's famine was even worse than this one, and the city's population almost lost 89 out of 10. These are the numbers of lives that cannot be recovered. When you can't save people, be sure to keep yourself safe. Because your mission cannot be accomplished until Changan. ”

Less than six months after Lu Guang's death, Lu Xiao killed Lu Shao. Lu Hong also wanted to be a king, so he argued with Lu, and the defeat was killed by Lu Codification. Two years later, Lu Chao killed Lu Codification and helped his own brother Lu Lung take over. Less than six months later, Lu Lung surrendered to Yao Xing under the siege of famine and Monson. Three years after Lu Guangguang's death, Lu's sons only cared about Neighbourhood, and Liangzhou Laohong was everywhere. The people did not talk about life, which was worse than Lu Guangguang's time. I couldn't get through this mess with him. With these in mind, the car ran over me and the pain was unbearable.

“Irene!” He covered my mouth gently and shook his head slightly, “Rosh was no longer the wizard of Turts. I know how to get along with the superior and how to be ideal for indulgence. Don't worry about me, in 16 years, Rosh can stand it...”

I nodded and thought I was about to cry again. I sucked my nose and said, “Also, remember to eat on time, don't pick. Hot water is used to burn feet every night so that frostbite does not recur in the winter. Wipe more ginger chips on your hands. You sleep so vigilantly that you always have trouble sleeping. Remember to drink some goat's milk before bed when I'm away, if you have any conditions. Don't take too long to read at night, otherwise your vision will be damaged. I don't want to bring you myopia glasses when I get back...”

I whispered that I couldn't help but admonish everything. He just nodded gently, wiped my forehead with a pad, and wiped the sweat beads off me. Finally, I said that I was tired, and there seemed to be a lot to say, but I didn't know how to go on, staring at him in a daze.

“Are we done?” Knock on my head, say it as a relaxed tone, "then it's Rosh's turn to tell you. No one will look after you when you get back. Don't stay up late. Don't sleep. Don't stop talking when you see something you like to eat, don't forget...”

“All right, I know.” I spit my tongue at him and looked at the cotton coat on his stomach bitterly, "you go on, I'm going to sweat. ”

He stunned and looked at me in the stomach, sneaking his head around to wipe the corners of his eyes, holding me tight: “I must remember, it is most important to keep yourself. The second is the child...”

“Don't worry, my time technology is very advanced, I will definitely have a baby...”

“Aiqing...” He sighed and put his hands on my slightly raised stomach, his eyes dimmed. “Sorry, Rosh can't raise our children with you, you have to work hard alone...”

“The baby will know that it has the best dad in the world.” He swallowed his voice and lifted his right hand and raised an onion arm bead. At noon, the sun passes through the diamond window and brightens up the room. On the crystal clear agate, the words of the seven Qing shows glittered with "No less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than no less than

“I'll leave this bead for the baby in the future...”

He nodded and raised his right hand to reveal the beads that belonged to him. He closed his deep eyes, raised his neck like a swan, and let two lines of tears slide down his clear face...

The long, long kiss finally came to an end, and his clear sandalwood aroma lingered between his lips. He slowly let go of me and put gloves and head gloves on me. I spin the button, the green light flashes, and I start remembering seconds. It's only been a minute, watching the clock tickle, telling myself, don't cry, I'm leaving with a smile. Though he couldn't see with the hood, he must have felt it.

He faced me and slowly retreated towards the door. My eyes were always wrapped around me, endlessly distracted. Return to the door and hold the door. The intense outside light spilled on him, the brown red monk's coat turned yellow, and the bare half arm reflected a wheat halo. He took a deep breath and looked at it again, as if to frame it in his brain.

I nodded and smiled for half a minute and he was still staring at me.

“Rosh, close the door.” My voice is trembling the same way, "remember not to look at that light for a while. Make sure there is no more foreign light in the house before coming in..."

I can't remember how many times this was a ding-tao. I can't get my eyes off him, this is the last time...

The door finally closed. The stopwatch shows that there are less than ten seconds left...

“Rosh, wait for me...”

“Hmmm...” The sound pulled a heavy nose through the door and the silk drifted in.

Nearly two years later, I felt the flip of Tengyun driving fog again. In the moment of emptying, I heard him shout: "My wife, live well...”

Did I cry? I don't remember, in the time and space transition, being unconscious, just subconsciously covering the abdomen. Baby, you have to survive...

There was a chaotic footsteps in his ears and he opened his eyes painstakingly, blurring his gaze at several people wearing white coats. I was put on a stretcher, and the person who pulled me around recognized me as researcher Nie. Before I went into a coma, all I knew was to say one more thing: “Save my child...”