How To Say I Love You

There is no doubt that this is the most embarrassing moment in Xiao Jiashu's life.He felt extremely ashamed, as if he had been stripped of his clothes and rushed to the street to march. No, not only the clothes, but also the skin was scraped off, and the blue blood vessels and pulsating muscles were exposed to the sun and will be opened The atrium and unbearable emotions are exposed in the air, painful but unable to escape.

He stood there for a while while covering his chest before going out, and asked in a low voice, "Did Ji see it?"

Lin Leyang, who helped him "shake the wind," shook his head, "He doesn't know, only I can see it. The same-sex relationship is always not accepted by the world, so we dare not be too intimate in front of people. This time the matter is not Blame you, you don’t know, I just don’t want to see you get deeper and deeper. Ji brother treats people very sincerely, and may give you some illusions, please forget them all. You will meet better in the future. people."

Xiao Jiashu took away a few coconuts, leaving a low, unspeakable "I will stay away from him".He was thankful that he had learned to control his emotions while filming "Zerg", and he was also thankful that Ji Ge had never seen anything, otherwise it would only make him more embarrassed.Thinking of myself texting Ji Ge often, and thinking of chasing tropical islands with him, shame was slowly replaced by disgust.

He hated that kind of self, without any shame, no morality, and swayed in front of others like a leapfrog clown, and others might be repulsed, scorned, or even hated him.Not only was he unconscious, he actually had the bold idea to pursue, how ridiculous is it?How sad is it?

He walked all the way to converge the surging emotions, clearly wanting to throw them all away, but finally pressed firmly in the heart.It turns out that a person becomes strong because he presses too much things in the bottom of his heart. They become the foundation stone, which makes the fragile atrium firm and difficult to open again.When the camp was in sight, there was no slight fluctuation in his eyes.

Lin Leyang waited for him to walk away before revealing a bitter smile.He didn't want to do this originally, but he watched the relationship between Ji Ge and Xiao Jiashu become more and more ambiguous. He was anxious and wanted to stop them.

That day he heard Brother Ji's monologue, which was extremely painful, but fully realized.It’s just that Ji Ji shouldn’t add the last sentence. What is called “the little tree in my heart is like my brother”?If he really was with Xiao Jiashu, he would never say such a wishful statement.He is cautious in his words and deeds, and cherishes feathers. If one thing is not convenient to announce to the outside world, he will only be silent, but disdain to lie or mislead.

So you see, he also knows Ji brother very well. In order to cater to him and to gain his approval, he once observed him so carefully.If he came to play the game of "observing words and watching the colors" again, where would he lose to Xiao Jiashu?Ha, it's a pity that all of his thoughts are in the wrong direction. Do the couples need to be careful?No, what they need is care, understanding, giving and tolerance.He has always faced Ji Ge with a humble attitude, but turned his head to rebuke Ji Ge for looking down on him. His cognition has long been blinded by himself.

But it is not too late to realize these mistakes. As long as there is an empty seat next to Ji Ge, he will stick to it forever and drive away all those who try to approach Ji Ge.

Xiao Jiashu is the first, and things are far smoother than he imagined, thanks to Xiao Jiashu for his good family education.Lin Leyang had to admit that Xiao Jiashu's three views were very positive, and his cultivation was not bad. He immediately decided to withdraw, without going back to the roots, and having no stalking.If he is a person with weak moral sense, knowing that he is a third party and does not want to let go, then Lin Leyang can do nothing about him.

Honest people are always easy to be bullied, this is true.

The two walked in the mountains one after the other, there was no communication during the whole process, PD felt very boring, but it did not force the guests to speak.Even if it's a company, there may be cases where they don't look at each other's eyes or even stalk their hands. Hasn't Lin Leyang secretly hacked Xiao Jiashu?The two hadn't dealt with it before, pretending to be friends was against it.

At the same time, Ji Mian was sitting in a daze sitting on a rock by the sea.He really doesn't know how to deal with his relationship with Xiao Jiashu. His age and family background can be skipped, and only one point makes him worry about it. That is the ability to read people's hearts.

He can easily feel the psychological activities of people he loves or dislikes, so he avoids many traps, learns a lot of secrets, and even has no disadvantages in the business field.But at the same time, he is also far away from his family and friends.The human heart is the most complex and uncontrollable thing in the world, and the more in-depth exploration, the more shudder.But Xiao Jiashu is different from everyone. If someone else's heart is a maze, then his heart is a garden, which can let Ji Mian see through at a glance, but feel beautiful.

He is the only one who can let Ji Mian take the initiative to listen to his heart, and is the only one who can let Ji Mian relax completely and even feel happy.His heart is too simple and pure, but because of this, Ji Mian did not dare to touch it easily.

If they were together, he worried that he would use mind-reading techniques to manipulate Xiao Jiashu, so that he would slowly become a devil, or in the process arouse Xiao Jiashu's resistance and make him a devil.Love and injury are often only separated by a line, and his special ability makes this bottom line more easily crossed.Sooner or later one day, the beautiful garden will become a ruin, because there is no constant heart, only constant desire.

He could see through everything about Xiao Jiashu, but Xiao Jiashu knew nothing about it, which was obviously unfair.So he would rather look at the garden from a distance than destroy it with his own hands. He was already prepared to live alone.

When he wanted to draw his mind, PD had to whisper to remind him, "Mr. Ji, the bait is hung up, why don't you throw it into the water?"

Ji Mian recovered, and quickly threw the hook made of sewing needle into the water.He knows that he can't catch any fish like this, but that's just to excuse Xiao Jiashu.His feelings came so violently that even the distance between the old and the distant could burn the heart of Ji Guan as a fire.

To get along with him again, Ji Mian didn't know how long he could last, so he had to find a quiet place to stay alone.He had to admit that Xiao Jiashu was his most affectionate appearance from the inside out. It was difficult enough to resist his silly and cute thoughts, not to mention the hot and sincere love.

In his cranky thought, half an hour passed, because few people came to the island, the fish was not vigilant, but there were two hooks, but the volume was not large, so it was used to stew soup to drink.When he brought the fish back to the camp, the other team members also came back and were drinking coconut juice.

"The captain will sit down for a while. Wow, you really caught a fish! We have fish!" Huang Yingxue shouted.

Ji Mian gave her the cleaned fish and gave Xiao Jiashu a subconscious look.He originally thought that the other party would be the first to welcome him, and he turned around silly as usual, with a simple and happy smile.But now he was sitting on the ground, using a dagger to cut a pair of bamboo chopsticks, and never looked up.

This made Ji Meng, who was already mentally prepared, a little surprised, and a little inexplicable heart palpitations.He listened to Xiao Jiashu's words uncontrollably, but heard nothing.He sat there clearly, but had no thought at all, like an empty skin.

Ji Mian's heartstrings tremble slightly, and after sitting down, he asked without worry, "Small tree, are your feet better?"

Xiao Jiashu raised his head and smiled, "Much better. Yu Baixiu helped me wrap the gauze just now."

With a sincere smile and a gentle voice, he seemed to be as usual, but completely different.But what is the difference, Ji Mian said it was unclear for a while.He settled down and commanded, "Let me see again, I have to walk a lot today, I'm afraid you can't hold on."

Xiao Jiashu immediately crossed his legs and waved his hand. "It's really okay. With breakfast, what feet do you see? I'm not afraid of losing my appetite."

The words were as intimate as usual, making Ji Mian's heart loose.He told, "Put your socks thicker, don't be afraid of the heat."

Xiao Jiashu nodded and agreed to continue cutting bamboo chopsticks.

Lin Leyang pulled five bananas and distributed them to his teammates, "Come here, everyone will taste the taste of wild bananas."

Yu Baixiu took a bite with interest, and then the facial features twisted together.Huang Yingxue vomited on the spot and yelled, "Oh my god, is this a banana, is this Ma pepper? Why is it so astringent!"

Ji Mian frowned, but in the end swallowed the banana, astringent and astringent, enough to fill his stomach.He looked at Xiao Jiashu, who was sitting opposite, but found that his expression was very calm. He was nibbling bit by bit, as if he had no taste.He was so familiar with every move, as if he had returned to the state of shooting "Zerg", and turned into a cold machine from the inside out.

Ji Mian frowned fiercely, but the camera wasn't easy to follow.It was only half an hour later, why did the little tree become like this?He has completely got rid of the shadow of the character, and it makes no sense to attack after more than two months.

After eating a simple breakfast, a group of people washed the pots and pans, and set off to find the water source.Xiao Jiashu walked at the end of the team without crutches and a relaxed attitude. From time to time, he would chat with his teammates for a few days and smile, it seemed normal.

But Ji Mian has never been at ease.He could not hear what Xiao Jiashu was thinking. If he closed his eyes, he could hardly feel his presence.So he had to go back to see him frequently, and had to ask him every few minutes if he could, if he could persevere.

Can't hear Xiao Jiashu's voice, he seems to be missing something, always feel unreliable.He completely forgot the original intention of alienating Xiao Jiashu.He was very worried when he could see through each other. When he could not feel it at all, he was nervous and anxious.

"Xiaoshu..." Huang Yingxue had no choice but to turn his head back. "How are you, Xiaoshu, can you persist? I said to the captain, how many times do you have to ask? I am a beautiful little girl. You don't care, Why do you always care about Xiao Jiashu's rough man."

Ji Mian's expression stiffened and said simply, "Let's sit down for a while."

"Ah, I can finally rest." Huang Yingxue and Yu Baixiu immediately collapsed on the ground.

When Ji Mian walked towards Xiao Jiashu, Xiao Jiashu stood up immediately and smiled, "Brother Ji, I'm fine, you don't have to worry. I'm convenient and convenient, I'll be back soon."

"Don't go far, pay attention to poisonous insects and snakes!" Ji Mian stared at his back away, suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette.Seeing too much, he was worried, but not seeing him, but even more worried. What is this all about?

Lin Leyang handed over the kettle and interrupted his thoughts, "Captain, do you want to drink coconut juice?" Before he set off, he chiseled all the coconuts and poured the coconut juice into the kettle to prevent everyone from getting thirsty on the road.The program team said that if you don’t provide mineral water, you don’t provide it, which is really cruel!

"Thank you, no." Ji Mian glanced at him lightly.

Five minutes later, Xiao Jiashu returned, and everyone continued on the road.Following the footsteps of the animals, they took the lead in finding a pond of water, and a few monkeys fell beside the pond, looking very alert.The staff staying here immediately stepped up to congratulate them on completing the mission and told them to give priority to camping.

For the convenience of life, the two teams naturally moved to live near the water source, and there were two campsites designated by the program team, one on a large open-air stone, exposed to the sun, rain, and rain, without even a sheltered place; The other is in the jungle by the lake, the terrain is sunken, the back is against the rock, and it is very cool.

Ji Mian called the players together and asked, "Which site do we choose?"

Everyone expressed their own opinions, and their inner thoughts popped out like a bombshell, causing Ji Mian to have a headache.But the weird thing is that although Xiao Jiashu is on the surface, his heart is still.His soul seemed to fly away, leaving only a shell.

Ji Mian suddenly took his hand, "Do you think Xiaoshu?"

Xiao Jiashu freed him naturally, went to get the kettle and smiled, "Brother Ji, you decide, you are the captain."

"You don't have any idea?" Ji Mianding looked at him.

"We all listen to the captain." Xiao Jiashu lowered his eyes.

Ji Mian still couldn't knock on his heart. Frustration and anxiety burned his nerves, making his breath slightly unstable. "Then choose the tree-lined land," he said in a deep voice, "the tree-lined distance The pool is closer and cooler, but we have to build the house on the tree."

"Building a house on the tree? How difficult is that!" Yu Baixiu wailed.

"The ground is high on all sides and low in the middle. The rain will pour back when it rains. If you want to wake up and lie in the water, I have no problem. By the way, the surrounding trees are so dense and there are many snakes and insects. Maybe they will Drilling into your clothes..."Ji Mian didn't finish his words, Huang Yingxue interrupted quickly, "When building a tree, you must build a house!"

"Then let's do it now. I saw a few bamboos on the way, which can be used as building materials. Which of you will cut with me?" Ji Mian stared at Xiao Jiashu.

Xiao Jiashu stood up and said, "Let Lin Leyang go, we stay to find the right tree."

Lin Leyang immediately echoed, "OK, I and Ji Ji will go."

"No, you all stay, I am enough alone." Ji Mian took out a multi-purpose engineer shovel from the bag, which he brought specifically, and now comes in handy.He finally understood that Xiao Jiashu was alienating and even avoiding himself, but why?Where did all those dreamy dreams and fiery love go?Was he too tired to produce hallucinations, or did Xiao Jiashu realize that homosexuality is a disease and healed in less than half an hour?

It stands to reason that his initiative to give up is Ji Mian's desire, they can avoid hurting each other, can also avoid those embarrassment and embarrassment.But somehow, Ji Mian was very irritable.He chopped the bamboo hard, trying to vent his full powerlessness.

He didn't realize until now that he had no way to take Xiao Jiashu.Whether the other party enters or retreats, he can only wait.

At the other end, Xiao Jiashu found a huge banyan tree with its branches scattered in all directions, not to mention that building a tree house on it was enough to build a building.He twirled a few branches two or three meters above the ground, and he clapped, saying, "Just build it here, it's not too tall, it's just right."

"I think so. Should we use a lot of nails in the tree building? What should we do if we don't have nails?" Yu Baixiu asked.

"Then rub the rope instead. Let's put up the shelf first, and feel it while building it." Xiao Jiashu paused and continued, "I saw a few surfboards on the beach, which should be marine garbage discarded by others, washed ashore. Here I go. I will pick them up and use them locally."

"Eh, this idea is very good, I'll go with you." Yu Baixiu said with a palm.

"The surfboard is not heavy, I can move it, you put up the shelf first, this is more troublesome." Xiao Jiashu's figure soon disappeared in the jungle, and the two PDs followed him, almost unable to catch up with his pace.He didn't look like a man with a broken foot at all, but he was more energetic than Ji Mian.

When he picked up a few surfboards and climbed halfway up the mountain, he suddenly fell silently and was rushed to the infirmary by two PDs.

In order to ensure the personal safety of the guests, the program team stepped on the island a few months ago, and also built a simple small building to store equipment and place personnel.There is also a medical office, and the equipment is very complete.The guests don't have cell phones, but PD wears headsets and can contact each other at any time.

They soon received the news of Xiao Jiashu fainting and informed the guests.

An hour later, Xiao Jiashu opened his eyes and had no time to figure out where he was. He heard a hoarse voice ringing in his ear, "You are awake."

He turned his head and saw that Brother Ji was sitting by the hospital bed, his face somber, his eyes dark, a cigarette in his hand, a lot of cigarette butts were thrown on the ground, but there was no smell in the house, and an exhaust vent was above his head. Rotating fast, making a creaking noise, the window opposite opened wide, and the rolling sea could be seen.

"The gauze on your feet is loose, and they are all loose," he took a breath, and his tone was low. "The blisters on his feet are all broken, and there is a lot of blood, don't you feel it?"

Xiao Jiashu looked at him blankly for a while, and seemed to be analysing his words. After about half a minute, he sat up and looked at his tightly wrapped feet. "I really didn't feel it. What's wrong with me?" His soul Has been separated from the flesh.

Ji Mian threw a half-smoked cigarette on the ground, stomped it hard, and said dumbly, "You don't feel the broken foot, do you feel the knife cutting the meat? Do you think you are a robot? Xiao Jiashu, tell me your mind What are you thinking about?"

When he asked this, even he felt ironic.As long as he tries to like or hate a person, he can see through their minds.But now, no matter how he tried to tap Xiao Jiashu's heart, he could not hear a bit of echo.It was not like a person sitting in front of him, but a deep sea.It was not until this time that he understood why there is a disease of "deep sea phobia" in the world, because "undetectable" is the greatest fear. The ocean is there, so close to humans, but humans know about it Not one tenth of the moon.

Its depth is no different from the abyss, just as Xiao Jiashu was close to him, but he could not guess his mind.

If before this, Xiao Jiashu did not accept him without reservation, he might not feel how.But after experiencing such warm and meticulous care and true passion, he could not face the cold person in front of him.

"Brother Ji, I didn't think about anything. Am I sick?" Xiao Jiashu didn't feel the pain until then, and took a breath.

In this breath, Ji Mian's anxiety and anger were blown away.He used a communicator to call the doctor and gritted his teeth. "The gauze on your feet spread out, the blisters were worn out, and there were several muddy waters on the road. The wound infection caused inflammation and caused a high fever. We must send you to the nearest Big hospital treatment."

"Then I have to come back to record the rest of the show?" Xiao Jiashu stared at his fingernails.

"If you are hurt like this, what else can you shoot? You can't walk without ten days and a half month." Ji Mian wiped her face helpless. "After the injury stabilizes, I will send someone to send you home. Huang Meixuan is waiting for you at the hospital. Open, take care of yourself."

He paused and sighed, "Don't be so careless, okay?"

Xiao Jiashu nodded, "Well... never again..."

The last four words drilled into Ji Mian's eardrum, which made him palpitate inexplicably. He was about to ask. The accompanying doctor came in and helped the patient to do a round of examination to make sure that his health was not bad. Get on the helicopter.

Xiao Jiashu was held in the cabin by Ji Mian, his head bowed all the way, and he said nothing else.As the plane slowly took off, he waved to Huang Yingxue, to Yu Baixiu, and to Shi Tingheng. Then he lay back on the hospital bed, turned on his mobile phone, and deleted all the contents of Ji Guan from his circle of friends.There are too many people paying attention on Weibo, he did not dare to move, but when he turned to one of the photos, he suddenly burst into tears.

This is another group photo, filmed in the "Apostle" crew six months ago.Brother Ji embraced Lin Leyang in one hand and a mobile phone in the other, with a warm smile.He said that this was a newcomer he personally fought and signed. Please take care of me.No wonder he always went in and out with Lin Leyang. No wonder he sent the best resources to him and stood up to safeguard him at a critical moment. They turned out to be couples.

Xiao Jiashu moved his fingertips slightly and gave a compliment to this photo. He said silently in his heart: Goodbye to my heartlessness...

Ji Mian stared at the distant helicopter, inexplicably.Lin Leyang stood behind him, breathing a sigh of relief long and relieved.Xiao Jiashu handled it better than he thought, but told him that he and Ji were just a couple, and he was so miserable that he took the initiative to leave.I really hope that he will not come again in the next issue, so that he can be completely at ease.

Just then, Ji Mian, who looked up at the sky, suddenly turned to look at Lin Leyang, his face gloomy and terrible.