I'm still alive

Ever since that day I haven't had a nightmare. I was being chased in reality and in my dreams. I slowly rose from my seat with the deep afterglow of the nightmare. And I checked out the window one by one with a quiet step. A glimpse of dawn was telling us that the morning was about to come. The surroundings were quiet, and there was no scenery running.

As the darkness cleared completely, structures near the building began to come into sight. There were a lot of shoddy equipment and rides that looked like slides, as if they had made a playground in the forest. After looking into the cute structure for a long time, he soon slowly moved away from the window. I'll look outside when the sun rises completely.

The first person to get up was Kang Soo-ryeon. As soon as she got up, she rubbed her eyes and looked at me, and soon bowed her head slightly to greet me. I looked at him face to face, slightly lowered my head, and turned my eyes to the embarrassment I felt for nothing. Then I shook Chae-yeon up.

Chae-yeon rose without a word of mouth and reached out to me for a hug, and I reached out and held her in my arms. Then I took Chae-yeon and opened the hiking bag. Then he poured all the hot packs he had brought to the bottom and checked the leftover food and water.

Food is mostly biscuits and chocolates. And there was not enough water. I remembered the backpack I left in the public restroom. There was a lot of water because it contained a variety of cans and was obtained from a convenience store where no one was present. And Kang Su-ryeon's camping gear came to mind.

I was scared, but it was too bad to leave my backpack full of food. I'll go near the public restroom today, and if they're not there, I'll bring them. As far as I remember, they had the habit of returning to where they were during the day. I'll pray for it again this time.

I took a bunch of biscuits and chocolates out of my bag and distributed them appropriately to Kang Soo-ryeon and her siblings who had just begun to wake up. And they gave me an adequate amount of water, and they let me get enough water. Chae-yeon was shining her eyes to see if she liked snacks better than cans.

I found Chae-yeon's favorite snack and held it out. Chae-yeon gets it right and starts eating it, but she's lucky to eat it. Chae-yeon ate half of her fillings and soon closed her mouth and stared at me blankly.

I think he's asking, "What about you?" I thought the child was uncomfortable, so I took a bite and chewed it deliciously. The child looks happy when he sees me eating deliciously. I shared a bite of the leftovers with Chaeyeon and finished the meal. And gently put Chae-yeon down on the chair. The time when the sun is up is short. You have to do what you have to do.

I explained today's plan quietly to the party. You need to look around here for now. We need to know where the path down the mountain is, and where exactly this is." And lastly, Chae-yeon suddenly burst into tears and came to me when she said she would bring the goods from the bathroom where we had been.

Surprised by this reaction, I began to wipe Chae-yeon's tears with my sleeves and soothe her. I guess he managed to understand the word "toilet" even when he was out of his mind. The child seemed to have a lot of fear left over there, but I even told a lie that I would not go there and comforted Chae-yeon.

The other party seemed to have a bad feeling about going to the public restroom, but they only looked at each other as if they could not object to me.

I said I would go alone with a deep sigh. Then the party was surprised and dissuaded me. But I cut them off before they misunderstood. The biggest thing I felt as I traveled between mountains and cities was that it was much easier to move alone. You don't have to care about your party, and you don't have to worry about making noise.

However, the only downside is the danger of being alone, but in this situation where they cannot be helped by force, what they need the most is the secrecy they don't know. Even though I said so, Jinsu raised his hand to follow him. Then Lee Hye-in was surprised and stopped her brother.

Of course, I shook my head and refused. When I leave the road, the only man left in this shelter is Lee Jin-soo. Considering yesterday's public restroom situation, Lee Jin-soo should stay here to protect his party. I wanted to stay if I wanted to, but things didn't work out. Jin-su nodded helplessly, and Lee Hye-in sighed relievedly at my words. It's a little cheeky.

I didn't pack my bag because I thought I should be as light as possible. But I packed two chocolate bars in my pocket just in case I got hungry in the middle. And checked the state of the crude window. It seems a little loose from the beginning, but the weather is still fine and compliant.

Wrap it up a few more times with the electric tape I brought, and I stood at the door. The party was looking at me with a worried face, and Chae-yeon's eyes were swollen and looking at me with a blunt face. That face doesn't really go there, does it? I avoided my eyes as if I was asking.

Kang Soo-ryeon hugged Chae-yeon and told me to go safely. I answered her to ask for Chae-yeon, and always asked her to look around, looking at Lee Jin-soo. With a small frame, Lee Jin-soo nodded with a sturdy face.

I opened the door carefully. And looked outside. Then he moved out of the door, told the party to lock the door and closed the door. The sound of the iron door closing hit the ears cold. I took a deep breath and exhaled.

Clench your fists with tension. Then I lowered my posture and took a walk around the shelter. There was no particular terrain. And I didn't feel any sign of it. Then he looked back at the entrance, and walked toward the structure that was in front of him.

The first thing they found was an old water pump that pumps water out by human power. I remember seeing it on TV once, and I looked around at the question of why it was here, and I found a sign I found there. The sign read like this. "Children's Cedar."

When I saw the sign and looked around the water pump again, I finally understood. A sunken space and a water pump, which could fit a little into the foot, were connected, apparently a playground where children would dip their feet or touch the water.

Just in case, I grabbed the handle of the water pump and shook it up and down hard. I could feel the water rising with a heavy touch. As I moved so fast that I was sweating out, I heard the sound of air coming out of the pump entrance and the water began to gurgle out.

I wanted to scream for joy, but I couldn't but smiled brightly. Luckily, we solved the drinking water problem that we were most worried about. And with this much water, Chae-yeon, my party and I, who had not been able to wash for a long time, had enough water to wash. When I felt that drinking water and sanitation had been solved at once, I felt that the accumulated fatigue was gone.

I carefully put the handle down and washed my face with water that began to flow, just in case the pump was going to break. I felt small happiness after a long time when cold water touched my face. Chae-yeon and her party also thought of bringing her here to wash up, but soon shook their heads at the thought of having to get there quickly. I grabbed the window that I had put down on one side, wiping the water off my face with my sleeve.

And I took a busy walk, searching my memory. As soon as the sun rose, the road that was so scary when it ran here turned into a peaceful, tranquil walk. There was neither a desolate atmosphere nor a nightmare of anxiety like a space different from that city.

I walked slowly along the road with a sigh of relief. I couldn't remember the exact way to the public restroom, but I was able to get around it with signs and a flashy topography. I listened carefully just in case they could hear their unique sounds. But I couldn't hear anything. When I couldn't hear the sound, I leaned back and crawled along.

Then he approached the public restroom and hid behind a tree. Grabbing a beating heart, he stared at the public restroom for a long time. Just in case, I stared at the entrance of the bathroom. As expected, there were traces of them left at the entrance to the bathroom.

The floor of the entrance was filled with bloodstained footprints, and strangely, the outer walls of the bathroom were also stamped. It was thrilling. Looking closely, most of the walls outside the bathroom were stamped with blood. It was obvious they were looking for us.

I wanted to turn around and run away, but comforted the sight of them nearby. Then he swallowed his saliva and rolled his head. Then I caught the stone next to me. I grabbed the stone and got up slowly and threw it as hard as I could toward the entrance to the bathroom.

The stone was luckily struck by the broken glass door and made a noise with a clink. I swallowed my breath loudly in case the sound was going to be this loud and fell back on my stomach. We waited so long, but they never left the building or flocked here.

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Just in case, I had enough time to watch the public restroom. It felt like 10 more minutes, and they still didn't show up. Confident that they were not here now, I slowly got up from my seat and walked toward the public restroom with my posture down.

The outer wall of the toilet I saw up close was even worse. Countless blood footprints that you don't know how many have headed here. And countless handprints on the outside wall of the bathroom seemed to show their obsession and willingness to kill.

gulped down and wiped the flowing cold sweat with his sleeves. Then he leaned down and slowly approached the door and glanced inside the bathroom. The inside of the bathroom was quiet. He changed his position and came inside the bathroom to confirm that there was no one else.

The first scene that caught my eye was the floor and walls that were in a bloodstained mess. The smell of bitter blood and rotting internal organs pierced the tip of the nose and naturally nauseated. But I tried to keep my mouth shut and looked around the environment.

I couldn't see the corpse of the man I killed. However, I could expect that they had been predatory with their intestines, flesh, and broken bones scattered all over the place. And unfortunately, the tent that the woman had set up was completely destroyed by them.

And from one corner we could see the first bag we had brought. I picked up my bag with a sigh of relief, and opened the inside to check the contents. All the goods were intact without damage. There was a little blood on it, but I took out the bottled water and washed it roughly. The brownish blood stain made me feel uncomfortable.

I looked around more just in case. Then, under the bottom of the sink, we found a revolver held by a mysterious man. I rushed over there and picked up the revolver. The blood was so tangled that I boasted a gruesome visual, but I took out the bottled water, washed it roughly, and held it in my hand.

A clumsy hand motion opened the revolver cylinder. When I grabbed a revolver and shook it off to see if there was any bullet left, the shells fell into my palm. All the shells were left over from the launch. Maybe the bullet the gunman shot was the last live bullet. I put the shells on the sink and packed an empty revolver.

Except for a bloody blanket and a broken tent, I put everything in my bag. I wanted to get out of this disgusting space quickly, so I left the door without looking back. It was as if I had looked into the back of hell for a moment. Disgusting, scary, creepy.

With a stealthy step I began to walk again the way I had come. Then he moved his steps back to the shelter. Perhaps because I witnessed the provocative scene, I had a lot of thoughts throughout the walk. But it was only one shot that surprised me.

Bang

Now I'm writing my diary as if nothing had happened, but I was really shocked at that time. I fell flat on the floor as soon as I heard the gunshot. There was intense fear yesterday that it might have been the aftermath of a gunman's shot in the bathroom.

I swallowed my saliva and waited for a while. The first shot rang and I thought it was quiet for a while, but soon the shots began to ring in a row. I crawled off the side of the hiking trail when I heard the roar of roasted beans.

Then he rolled into the forest, hid himself behind the tree, and focused on the sound. I didn't know earlier because I was surprised, but I recognized that the gunshot wasn't nearby. Only then did I give a sigh of relief, and listened attentively to the sound of the gunshot.

The beating heart sank a little. Then he realized that the gunshot sounded at the bottom of the mountain, at the city's side. I leaned as much as I could and slowly began to climb the mountain in the direction of the city's view. As it was a low mountain, I thought I would see the city if I went up to a certain area.

The gunshot didn't seem to stop the whole time I moved. An ominous thought flashed through my mind. How many of them are going to get together when they hear this? I bit my lips tightly as the waves of light I saw that day brushed before my eyes like a nightmare. I prayed again and again that this aftermath would not come to the mountain.

As I climbed the ground at such a rapid pace, a large rock caught my eye. It wasn't an urgent slope, so I carefully climbed the rock and settled on it. Then some, if not all of the city, came into view.

I feel a terrible thirst from the tension. I took the water out with my eyes fixed and rushed it to my mouth. The chocolate bar, which he brought after half-crazy drinking, was also in his mouth. As the sweetness spread to the tip of the tongue, the nerves, which had become very sharp in tension, gradually subsided.

And I looked at the city with a breath. And began to look for the cause of the shooting. While busily rolling my eyes for a while, looking for the cause, I found the cause of the gunshot quite close to the mountain. I opened my eyes thinly and tried to figure out the situation.

The soldiers entering the field of sight were the size of a squadron. Soldiers are seen shooting repeatedly near a military vehicle seen as a land-based truck. Some of them have already been killed, and some of them have put their heads on the bodies and focused on predation.

Maybe because of the gunshot, all the guys in the city were coming here. The alley was crowded with them, and some of them jumped out of the building. The soldiers overpowered their majority with guns, but they began to crack one by one in increasing numbers.

When they were shot, they ran to the soldiers and bit their necks. From the soundless but floundering gesture, it looks like he's probably screaming. The soldiers were panicked, and the shooting and the confusion were visible.

Now the land truck might have thought of retreating. However, the trucks began to shake and soon red blood spewed from the driver's seat as they flew into the windows before acceleration. The overland truck slowly lost its speed and stopped.

It was a well-prepared dinner for them. The confused soldiers are caught one by one and become sliced meat. By the time the chain of command collapsed and the soldiers began to disperse one by one, they turned away and came down from the rock. It was a scheduled result, but I felt something in my heart was falling apart. I didn't want to see it anymore.

I should go back to where Chae-yeon is waiting. I staggered to the shelter where Chae-yeon was. I thought, walking blankly on the hiking trail. I was looking forward to seeing the soldiers. The expectation that this hell may now be over. I was so disappointed because it was an expectation that I had never had before.

Rescuers? Or did they start a sweep? But the size of the squadron? What's the chain of command? And what are you doing here? Why did he shoot all of a sudden? Don't they know they're coming in when they hear the sound?

Many questions pass by, but nowhere was there a clear answer. I felt a lump in my chest. I wanted to know more. Where the hell are these guys from, and how many are alive now? And where should we head? I had to know more to live.

As I took a hectic walk, I saw a shelter. I approached the shelter in a daze and knocked, and asked for the door to be opened in a low voice. After a while, the door opened carefully and Kang Soo-ryeon caught my eye.

My face turned bright as soon as I checked my face, as soon as I was very wary of it. Then I opened the door as if to hurry in and I came into the shelter with a tottering gait. Only after a little bit of warm air touched my skin, I breathed out my breath, which had been kept in silence.

As soon as I came in, I hugged Chae-yeon in my leg and sat down. The party saw my bad face and asked me what was going on, but I didn't answer. I witnessed the soldiers die. The moment I saw it, I felt miserable, but would the group be different? The party no longer asked if they saw me reluctant to speak.

I came to the shelter a little early, so I took a rest. Jin-su was looking outside Yeonshin, while Yi Hye-in and Kang Su-ryeon were busily moving, sorting and organizing the goods. Perhaps in a safe place, there was a hint of hope in their eyes.

I took out my diary in a corner, reeking my bitter taste. Chae-yeon rushed to me and hugged me as if Kang Soo-ryeon, who only cleans things up, was not fun. I put Chae-yeon on my lap and write a diary. Does Chae-yeon know what I'm writing? I stare into my diary.

Become full of thoughts.

[Chae-yeon has a graffiti on her. Pink and star-shaped characters draw graffiti swallowing my letters. When I asked him what this was, he shook his head, saying he didn't know.]