I'm still alive

Eden was so huge and had so much influence around it that I sometimes forgot that other shelves existed. On reflection, however, Kim Yeon-kyung and her younger brother, who are now attending school with bright faces, were apparently from different shelves. And when I was in the search team, I remembered reading in the manual that there were shelves that I used to have frequent exchanges with Eden.

However, it was the first time to meet a survivor from another shelter in person. After hearing all the explanations, I jumped up from my seat and shook hands with a middle-aged man in sunglasses. Support and life-saving came so suddenly. There was a small problem communicating, so even though the first meeting creaked, it did not change that this man was a lifesaver who saved our lives.

The name of a middle-aged man who was as hot as he looked was Park Dae-bak. He had such a strong face and name that he still had a distinct memory even now when he wrote the diary. We moved to a nearby building to avoid the strains that might be gathering more, and took a break for a while and ate the warm food they handed over.

While lying on a blanket to recover from accumulated fatigue for a short time, Park Dae-bak, who seemed to be friendly, approached us and talked to us again. Who am I? Who are you people, ideal. With a short greeting, self-introduction followed, and we could see that these were survivors who had built a shelter quite close to Eden.

'You bastards!

'What?'

You asked me for Shelter's name.’

Park Dae-bak who leads the dogs. Shelter names were as strong as their own. I was going to ask him why he named him like that, but he had to keep his mouth shut because of the survivors who took the life of a mutant and came towards this side. Because they looked like wolves and wild dogs living in groups in the wild.

Of course, it was not as bad as the name of a group of slangs. It's just... ...because if Eden is a flower that lives as well as a plant in a greenhouse, they feel like weeds that live firmly against a barren environment. I drank the coffee mix in the cup, quietly watching a group of survivors plodding along. Then Park Dae-bak, who was standing next to me, quietly spoke to me.

'I've got business in Eden too. Do you want to come with me?’

Why are you so friendly? I was wondering about Park Dae-bak, who was approaching without class, but strangely I wasn't in a bad mood. Because Park Dae-bak was friendly to not only me, but also to all the members. Oh, maybe he's just like this. The thought of it gave him a rough idea of his attitude. I nodded quietly because I had no reason to reject his offer.

When the order of movement was issued, a group of about 30 people began to respond vigorously and prepare to move. First of all, they listen to the sound and take care of the monsters that came running and bury them in the snow. And the barricades blocking the road were dismantled and placed in a rear car.

Moving in perfect order like ants, they completed an orderly procession about 10 minutes later, as if they were moving. There were five towed handcarts, full of unknown objects, and a large sack was preventing the contents from leaking. And we were placed in the middle of the herd, treated too kindly.

We were walking a long detour, not a straight route to Eden. Of course, it would take longer to travel, but it was an inevitable choice to avoid mutations that might appear. And it was Park Dae-bak, not me, who took this route.

Is it because I met and led so inexperienced people? Before I set out for Eden, I almost gave a lecture, but the old man quietly stopped me. Sure enough, they were fully aware of not only the battle with the monsters, but also of how to live in the end-of-life world.

I quietly breathed a sigh of relief as I saw Park Dae-bak pioneered a safe path on his own, and moved comfortably in the middle of the crowd, not in the lead for a long time. Meeting a skilled veteran and experienced leader somehow made me feel strange and at ease.

The groups led by Park Dae-bak have all been experienced and rough. But contrary to the image that is not easily accessible, they have sent us exceptionally strong favors. In addition, the young-looking survivors approached us without hesitation and handed us delicious snacks and friendly words. I was embarrassed and accepted a chocolate that a woman carefully gave out.

When I unexpectedly accepted the chocolate, Park Dae-bak, who was walking in front of me, slowed down and came to my side by side. Soon after, he sniffed and said in a slightly ashamed voice.

'It's 'thank you.'

Thank you? What? He treated us so well that at first I thought something was going on. However, there was a reason why the group led by Park Dae-bak sent us a favor, as there was a reason for everything. But I met them for the first time today, and I had no memory of paying debts to these people.

'Why?'

I asked briefly with questions. Then, Park Dae-bak smiled and swallowed his nose again, and soon quietly raised his hand and put his shoulder together. The weight of the heavy arm, which was strengthened by the muscles, was felt through the shoulders. He held my shoulder firmly with his hand and whispered quietly.

'There were more than a few people taken away by those bastards.’

Of course, Eden was not the only victim. The vagrants took a lot of people and killed a lot of them. Although it was only a short period of time, we fought fiercely and....... Only today could I burn that hell.

I turned my head quietly and looked ahead. Because Park Dae-bak, who was looking at me, frowned and swallowed his sorrow. I put chocolate in my pocket that has a strange warmth that I might have hidden in my pocket. A wrapper full of black hand stains;a content melted by warmth. It must be a precious treasure that he would have kept and kept.

Even though it was so small....... the weight was never light.

The pure kindness and gratitude pouring from all sides tickled my heart. I was ashamed that I had no sense of duty, and yet I was embarrassed in front of them expressing their mournful gratitude. I turned my face out of control and caught their eyes staring at us from all sides.

Some people looked so resentful that they did not know what kind of pain they had suffered, while others shed tears at the same time remembering those who left.

The end wasn't just for me. Where I was out of sight, others were fighting fiercely, living their own lives. Each person poured thousands of sad dramas with their own story. I closed my eyes tightly, feeling the intense feeling of flowing water.

It's a world like you....... it's just a really crappy world, and I thought all the Superman stuff was dead.….’

Is it because of Park Dae-bak's words to me? My eyes and heart trembled quietly looking at the sun in the middle of the city. I tried to rationalize that the tremor might have been caused by the cold, but I could never deny it because of the strange feelings that came in like waves. It soothed the worn-out wound. It was like facing the warm sunshine.

'Thank you very much for saving the people.’

As soon as Park Dae-bak finished speaking, all the crowds stopped walking and bowed their heads gently to me. At that moment, Chae-yeon's joyous song passed by my ear. Daddy's Superman, Daddy's Superman, saving everyone. I squeezed the chocolate in my pocket.

* * *

On the way, I suddenly had a question and asked Park Dae-bak.

Are you close to the head of the group?’

I'm sure you said you came to support us at his request, so you must be pretty close, right? But Park Dae-bak, who was asked my question, breathed out a subtle smile. He gave me an answer that was a little off the mark.

'He's a good man.’

He never said he was close. Park Dae-bak looked at Eden's main gate, which was getting closer, and looked at his companions and colleagues around him. And as if to recall the past, he shook his head with a short beard.

'We had an exchange, but we weren't in a relationship to ask for help. Has it been a week or so? The guy who used to be hard was bending in from the beginning. There's a bunch of crazy guys going into their homes......... please help me.'

Those madmen are us. Although he spoke confidently, he seemed very anxious to the head of the group, but the anxiety he felt and the newly created rat hole saved us and produced good results. However, Park Dae-bak continued as if it was not the end.

"Of course I said crazy. Why would we go into hell when our atmosphere is so messy? But when I hung up on the radio, I wondered what kind of crazy person he was. So I watched it from far away. Who you guys are......... what on earth were you going to do?’

Park Dae-bak hits my back with that thick hand. And said with a smile that he had no regrets.

'And all I could think about was saving you guys.’

Without the Park Dae-bak group, we might have had to bury our bones there that day. However, as God, who is mocking the human world, throws mercy on us, the good deeds, which were wearing the mask of gain, flew like a boomerang and saved us. Oh, all I could think of was that I was really lucky this time.

When I checked my watch, it was passing 5 p.m. We were fortunate to have been able to reach Eden before sunset, and the Park Dae-bak herd followed us as if it were natural. Did he say he had business in Eden? Maybe he's here to meet his side of the people we rescued. I asked if there was anything I could do to help, but Park Dae-bak shook his head and told him to rest.

I said get the radio out and open the front door. Then came the answer of an unusually grim guard, and soon Eden's front door began to open with a heavy sound. What appeared when the door opened was a feast for the wounded.

'Here! Here!'

Also among the injured, Kim Chul, who was a doctor, was playing hard to get-together, was very active. There were more than a dozen injured people inside the main gate, and they were receiving emergency treatment inside a makeshift tent to see if they were not even able to transport them to the hospital.

But due to the lack of medical staff and shelter, most of them were left with painfully frowned faces. Probably... ...a combat team injured in this fight.

The first thing to move was the kind-hearted Yong-pal brothers. The Yong-pal brothers stamped their feet looking at the bleeding and eventually lifted the wounded up and began to carry them to the tent. Soon after, starting with the Yongpal brothers, Kim Hye-jung and Kang were busy transporting the injured.

They were standing opposite us. But our party was moving to help them without any hesitation. The old man, who was quietly watching the scene, followed the group with a subtle smile as he thought he was ashamed of his hesitating appearance.

'See you later.’

I said to Park Dae-bak with a dejected but relieved smile. Now... ...it's beginning to feel real that this fight is finally over. Park Dae-bak, who saw me trying to follow the group with a relieved smile, asked me in a voice that he didn't understand a little.

'Are those bastards combatants? Why are you helping me? You said you didn't get along well.'

That's right. We're not getting along well. Kim Yun-sik, who led the combat team today, and other senior members of the combat team are planning to make a life-or-death decision as soon as they meet. But I didn't mean to let them die, turning a blind eye to those people who were ordered by them.

Some were forced to do so for profit, and others were forced to do so because of orders.Zee, at least they were the ones who did what others didn't want to do. Someone's father, someone's son, or someone's member. The more I think about the dying......... it occurred to them that they had to live.

I felt my narrow mind grow slowly. No, maybe it's proof that I'm human and alive. I took a deep breath and swallowed up the fresh air, spitting out the rotten water and feeling a warm body temperature in the cold air.

I'm still alive.