I Shaved. Then I Brought a High School Girl Home.

"Sayu ..."

In the room, Sayu crouched in physical education sitting in the same position as before. The shoulders sway vertically at regular intervals.

I'm crying.

"Sayuu, he let me go."

"……Mr.Yoshida"

Sayu slowly looked up and looked at me in a blurry manner. The face is grungy with tears.

"I ... what happened?"

While saying, Sayu again made tears on her cheek. I couldn't stand or stand, walked in front of Sayu and sat down. And she holds the hand of Sa Yu.

Then, Sayu looks down at my hand, and returns with both hands.

"I've done with that person before ..."

My chest was aching. For a moment, I almost imagine it, and immediately counters it in my brain.

"Especially without any discomfort, as usual."

"Sayu"

"Full, full"

"Sayu, it's alright."

"I should have done ..."

Sayuu said and shook his voice. There is a lot of power in the hand that holds my hand.

"When I was about to be done again ... I was scared."

Sayuu dropped his head, sipping his nose and shaking his body.

"Mr. Yoshida ... I wonder if I'm crazy"

I'm suffocated by those words.

"I can't do what I was able to do before ... I don't know what I'm doing, what's going on ..."

"Sayuu ..."

If I noticed, she was holding her.

"Good, that's normal ...!"

"But, but I've come this far all the way, but then, suddenly ..."

"I'm good. I'm scared of scary things. You're not wrong."

"Uhh ..."

As she embraced her, she screamed out of words and cried in her chest.

why.

Why is this happening?

While hugging Sayu, my chest was full of helplessness.

Finally, I was thinking that the values too self-sacrifice implanted in her might have become better.

That was never the case.

No, at least she has changed.

He was able to refuse to be held by a disfavored man. That must not be the wrong feeling.

But I can't affirm those feelings myself.

... There is nothing more like this.

When I bit my lips, it tasted a little irony.

"Okay, Sayu. I refused well.

When I said that, Sayu turned his hand on my back and shook his body.

"But ... because I didn't refuse ... maybe many people might tell me about the past ... and then I'd go to the store manager, be called by the police, and be bothered by Yoshida-san ... Tsu "

"That's good. It's my responsibility to keep you here."

"such a!"

She looked up at me with a messed up face.

I didn't know what I was going to say, but I just didn't want to hear the word.

"I'll ask!"

I was interrupting her words and shouting.

"You think more about yourself ...!"

Sayuu looked up at me as if he was stunned, hiking repeatedly.

"Why do I try to hurt myself so much? I don't think it's always bad to hurt you, but if you don't care for yourself ... nobody is you I can't protect ...! "

I desperately kept tears coming.

I feel like my room is shaking with my voice. The silence after that felt strangely long. There is only the sound of Sa Yun's nose and the sound of the ventilation fan that is left on.

Sayuu stared at my face, let her tears run down her cheeks, and said that she was fishing.

"Why is Yoshida trying to protect me so much?"

Asked, I looked stunned at Sayuu.

"If she becomes inconvenient for you, you have no choice but to kick it out anyway."

Yaguchi's words came to my mind and stirred my thoughts.

"I don't know ..."

When I noticed, I was saying it.

"I don't even know ..."

That's when I look down.

Keep Sayu at home.

I thought it was a give-and-take of compensating for my loneliness and making a escape for Sayu.

But I really didn't like seeing Sayuu hurt.

I don't know why.

I have no idea if this cohabitation is for myself or for Sayu.

The obscured “reality” suddenly strangles me and I don't understand anymore.

When I stayed down, I felt as if my body was suddenly wrapped in warmth.

She realizes she is hugged by Sayu.

"Mr.Yoshida……"

Sayuu said in a whisper.

"……sorry"

"... don't apologize."

"…………Thank you"

“……… You changed after all.”

I don't want to see where I'm holding my tears, I just look down.

Then, even more tightly, Sayu was strongly hugging. Sayu's chest is hitting her face. I thought it was soft.

"... It's Yoshida who changed it."

Sayu said so.

Naturally, I returned words without any particular choice of language.

"I want you to be a normal schoolgirl."

"……Yup"

"I usually go to school, make friends, learn a lot, and grow up."

"……Yup"

"I'm looking at you who can't do that ... it's irresistibly painful.

"…………Yup"

As I pushed Sayu's shoulders, Sayuu weakened her arms and released me.

"I don't know if this is for me or you."

I looked in Sayu's eyes and said,

"I want Sayu to be able to take care of her more .....

After hearing my words, Sayu slightly moistened her eyes and shook her head again and again.

"... Yeah, yeah. I understand."

Sayu still had a crumpled face with tears, but still had a soft smile with a spatula instead of the one prepared.

"I'll do my best,"

I seem to know the way she has walked so far, perhaps not at all.

But still.

The smile she smiles without any decoration was really beautiful.

She sneaked her nose out of surprise. He scrubbed his tears and wiped it with the sleeves of his clothes and exhaled, "Huh!"

"Miso soup!"

"e?"

"Because I cried a lot, let's get a little salty!"

"Oh, oh ..."

With that said, Sayu got up and went to the kitchen.

I was a little relieved while seeing Sayu, who began to draw water into the pot while snorting his nose, still stuffy.

If my arrival was a bit late, she might have been standing by the edge of desperation by now.

At least we could save it.

That alone made me think that it was meaningful to meet Sayu.

However.

I remember the "reality" that I was struck by.

I'm not Sayuu's parent.

Someday I have to return him.

I felt that the vague reality was imminent, making a noise.

Nothing has been resolved.

At least I thought I shouldn't forget it.