I Swear I Won’t Bother You Again!
117. You gave it to me.
Laughing alone, sometimes pretending to be angry. In the calm air, Yuran's mouth dropped slightly. Trouble, confusion, and unstable gaze.
"What's wrong?
The cup, wrapped in both hands, was put back into the saucer and leaned half towards Yuran.
It seems that Yuran thought of Violet who was fully prepared to listen, and once tied tightly, his loose lips spilled the word slipperily.
"Um... I was just about to take a break, but... my sister came."
"Eh...."
"Why don't you test and study with me?"
I lost my words when I was stabbed unexpectedly. From what I've heard, they didn't have the durability to catch the shock. I didn't imagine Mary Jun and Yulan getting close in the first place... no, I didn't want to imagine. With his astonishing expression, Violet's brain, solidified like ice, overflowed with unpleasant imaginations that he had been avoiding until now, like cutting a weir.
The first step in being aware of your feelings. In the words of Mary Jun, Violet knew the lust behind her heart. On the contrary, it took so much damage.
I feel a stronger sense of urgency than that day. The palm of my grip was moist and my throat, which was supposed to have been moist until now, didn't move as well as it should have been, but I also felt good about it. Otherwise, I would have screamed on my own. I don't like it. Don't go near him. It was a place where I ran away driven by unspeakable fear.
"So, uh... test question, I'll borrow from someone else, so lend Vio's share to your sister."
"Yeah, but from now on."
"If you have a test problem, you can do it alone. Maybe she doesn't have a helper like that."
"What about Yuran? I wonder if they've decided who to rent it to anymore."
"Ahahah... well, I'll figure it out."
That being said, I'm sure it won't be that easy to find. This way of asking past questions is not recommended in the first place, and most people who don't know junior students will throw it away or lose it sooner. And those who have them often already have someone to lend them. In the first place, the percentage of the problem paper from a year ago that can be stored in a clean state is quite low.
"But then you can go with Mary Jun."
"─ ─ Are you sure?
Giggled, his eyes were too serious and his words clogged. Even though Yuran, who was sensitive to shaking his shoulders, couldn't have noticed.
I don't forgive deception, but I'm never afraid because this person has always protected me. Is it because you have enough trust to say that Yuran will never hurt himself?
"I didn't want to."
"Eh...."
"Vio-chan... I thought I missed Claudia so much."
The kid who dropped his shoulders and found out about the prank laughed slightly bitterly as if he were waiting to be angry.
I knew Yuran was uncomfortable with Claudia. Still, thank you for moving for yourself, and I don't know how to return that kindness. I understood that I put up with it, worried about it, and had a lot of conflicting feelings.
I thought I didn't like it, I thought I was lonely, and I could not imagine that Violet himself, not Claudia, had caused him to feel painful until I heard from him. It's arrogant to be synonymous with a long time of understanding.
And even with that feeling ─ ─ I'm even more glad you acted for yourself. Arrogant and ugly.
If this is what makes your heart beat faster and faster, it's quite a cash thing. Until now, my feet were about to collapse and I couldn't breathe.
"Me too..."
"Yeah."
"I don't think so either..."
When you jump into an open door, all you need is the courage to expose yourself. It's much more important than being ashamed, scared, and so on. He gently hits his gavel and nods one by one to the true zero. Because I know it has arrived properly. Even if you don't raise your voice, you'll take it seriously.
"I feel lonely, I think, and I don't feel comfortable... even I want to study with Yuran"
Every time I said one word, it seemed like emotions were shaped in me, not someone. Even if you think about this, you'll notice. Isn't this the very desire for exclusivity that scared me so much? At the time, I thought something like that was nasty, envious, and similar. The first envy that triggered me to go to jail was obsession - much softer jealousy than at that time.
"But I hate Yuran even more. That's why I won't lend it to Mary Jun, and I won't stop you two from studying together."
The fact that you are not convinced is obvious from your expression, but you say the opposite in your mouth. It is not strong, of course it is not accepted, but it is a little different from patience. That's the same as when Yuran asked Claudia.
I want to make the best choice for this person. Free love is not a big story, but I think these little piles will lead to big stories one day.
"So, if Yulan is good... after the test, I want to talk a lot."
I want to hide the heat on my cheeks, but I want to talk to you face to face. At the end of the temptation, the slightly divergent gaze stopped slightly below Yuran's eyes. I often laughed and thought it was a type that easily appeared on my face, but when I looked around my mouth from my nose, it seemed that Yuran often talked with his eyes. Because I can't predict what kind of emotions I felt just with my tied lips.
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"Um... I don't think so."
"No, not at all..."
Yuran, who says nothing, is worried that I have gone too far. I ran too far to my own desires, and a strange sweat conveyed to my back with shame. With a vision that tends to lean down on pressed emotions, the contours of Yuran are slightly distracted.
I saw my ears dyed bright red from the gap between my cheeks and my hair.
"I'm sorry, I just want you to stop looking at me."
A big hand tries to hide his face. Still, it is not enough to cover the dyed eyes and ears, and it seems that the glossy eyes are moist.
Instead of the usual tough man with a lovely atmosphere, just the lovely figure inspired the desire for asylum. My face looks a little too strong, but it seems like it was stubborn when I was little. Although he is a man in love, I realize that he is also a disciple who has been together for a long time.
Fufu
"... don't laugh, I'm surprised too. I didn't expect you to say that."
"I'm sorry to surprise you. But it's the truth, isn't it?
"I know, Vio, I can't do such social resignations.... well, until now you were illuminated."
It's unusual for Yuran to turn red, so I blew it up.
I can't hear you. Forget it.
"It's so cute."
"I'm not happy."
"Fufu, I'm sorry."
"I don't have a heart. Next time I laugh, I'll make you eat this chocolate."
"If you do that, I'll make you eat cookies too."
"That's not going to punish me."
A happy space with shoulders down and laughing voices.
Until the time of my drop-out, they were surrounded by the soft air.