I Swear I Won’t Bother You Again!
64. Pressure
It is only natural that the closer the test study goes, the closer the production will be. By the time I got used to the road to the terrace I was passing like every day, the first day of the test was approaching the next day.
"... yeah, I think this score will get you to a pretty good place"
"The memorization system doesn't seem to be a problem."
From the two of us who scored a set of questions based on past questions, we received a good color response. I didn't see anything like a mistake when I looked back at it myself, but it's still a third party... and I can feel safe getting inked by the older brilliant people.
"Thank you"
"I'll give this back to you for once, so you should give it back lightly to me for the rest of the day"
The scored answers came back and I ran my eyes and all the questions were correct. Of course this isn't going to come up tomorrow as it is, but it's still the result of bringing it in to build confidence.
"Neither of you will be worried about this"
"Thank you very much."
"This will be my first test for Mary Jun... but I think this minute will end well."
"Thanks to all of you! If I were alone, I wouldn't know what to do and I'd be confused."
After this test study, I was also quite used to Claudia and Mary Jun's two shots. I was inspired by the harp line before, but now I hope it will go well.
Most importantly, the test in front of me is more important to me right now.
(I can't believe you got a full score, albeit a past question)
Apparently, the daily study group played its part. Although I remember taking it once, I don't remember any test problems. It's a good place to fade thanks to a life experience full of too much memory and experience. Thanks to the second time I have increased my understanding of the class, but to that extent. It's too crude to call it cheat.
I slip my gaze into my solved answer and pound it into my brain with a focus on things that took time or I wasn't sure about.
Even when challenged by herself, Mary Jun easily let the chief shine. Naturally, this time, challenged by a complete system, will have great results. As for the novel from my father with it, I'm already bracketing my belly. There's no such thing as being prepared, I just hear it's the usual thing.
But this test can't be tossed elsewhere than my father.
Yulan cared, Claudia helped me.
Violet understands more than anyone how big it is. That's what I would have been surprised to find rarer than Mary Jun, who is lucky enough, than Milania.
Yulan for worrying, getting lost, and still trying to help Violet. Claudia, who disciplined disbelief and grief and helped annoying women.
I have to do everything I can to reward both of them.
"Are you nervous?
"... just a little"
"I knew it. My face is a little tense."
Yulan like that has the same fuzzy and soft grin as usual. The fact that I'm not the original nervous type, but still look calmer than I was in my second year at the High Ministry... I don't even feel like I don't have this standing.
"But... I'm not nervous."
It's not the usual, it's like having a blade stuck in your back, it's like having a heart in someone's hand. A second away, it's completely different from the anxiety that's being stabbed, crushed.
It feels like it's hard to move around, like it's heavy on your back. It's going to crawl now, but that's why it boils, it's exciting.
I'm sure this is pressure. Because I carry so many thoughts, my body is so heavy, though.
"I have to work hard, 'cause I think"
I need someone to help me. I want to respond to someone's power.
Until now, I didn't know. I never thought I'd work hard for anyone.
I don't know if it's expected. Because it has never been done before. He scolded me for not crossing a hurdle he made on his own. I don't even get the point of thinking about whose standards it's made and whose hurdles it's for.
Everything I could push, I thought it was annoying.
Everything pressed, because it was annoying.
The 'For Someone' my father wants from Violet will always consist of leaving Violet behind. I can't praise you for doing it, but if you can't, you're cursed.
Violet can't even let her live for herself.
They're taking my own standing leg, but they tell me to run to someone. Crawl, but tell him to move for someone.
What difference does that make to a slave?
I don't want to be a slave. I don't want to be who I am for someone else.
The thought grew too big, and Violet herself lost sight of herself. And I sinned, and eventually I dropped myself in atonement for the most disgusting 'For Someone'.
I can tell now that it was too ridiculous, too extreme a thought.
People can't live just for someone. But I can't live just for myself.
Simple things, simple things. But until now, I never knew.
Same as I wanted to reward Yulan. The emotion of wanting to show someone's power as a result.
If that's the pressure and it's hanging, there's no more comfortable pressure.
"Oh, well... good luck"
It's like any other HR, just words of support for Violet. Violet doesn't know that Yulan's expression is dark out of sight. I don't even notice the shadow that passed in that eye.
Just plausible, Violet just laughs at Yulan.
"Alas, so is Yulan. We'll work together."
Heh heh, and the pleasantly narrowing of his eyes, his sister's Rin and his obscenity lived together.
Naturally, Violet attracts Yulan. Prepare Yulan's seat for your world. Not realizing how much salvation that could be for Yulan, it could be a joy.
"... yeah, you are"
"Yulan had a full set of questions too, didn't he?
"For once. But it's not like I can take ten percent from the past."
"Of course."
"It would be easier if I could take it"
"That doesn't make any sense for a test."
The two worlds are complete. That's because Violet has a system of acceptance for Yulan. It is a world because it is familiar with childhood, and an achievement in which Yulan embedded himself little by little in Violet's common sense.
So Violet doesn't know.
Only Yulan noticed in the eyes of gold that could be directed at both of them like that.