I Swear I Won’t Bother You Again!
81. Two people who want to be alone
I can tell without checking that my surrounding eyes are full of curiosity. Violet of overwhelming beauty and the sacred rosette, though easy types to attract people together, mean something completely different with the same attention.
I go to the same school building from the middle office, but I've hardly spoken to him. I've exchanged words, and the relationship that we knew existed with each other, but we weren't even acquaintances, shouldn't have changed after yesterday. At least for Violet.
(Yulan distracted me, I totally forgot)
Be more conscious of what follows than face to face with her. Until now, a day cluttered in a corner of my memory until I saw Rosette's face.
For Violet, it happened to that extent.
(But... it's important to her, right?)
Rosette's secret I stumbled upon yesterday.
Though it's a secret that I don't even think Violet cares if she says it without fear of misunderstandings.
For the known side, it should be horrible and unpleasant.
Secrets are weaknesses. The less people are revealing, the more weight it adds. I just keep it, but I feel like I'm cheating.
How frightening it is for others to know the contents of such a substitute. And how anxious is it that the others are greedy ladies without good rumors?
I understood without even thinking about it. I also had empathy. Assuming I was in Rosette's shoes, I would have acted the same way.
"… Shall we change the place a little"
"Ha, yes......! Um, actually, there's something I'd like you to follow."
"Huh...?
To the exact offer, it was now Violet's turn to be more perplexed. Violet just couldn't follow her back without being able to ask her where her behavioral suspicious attitude had just gone and what exactly made her stomp...
× × × ×
Arrived in a place that I recognize and remember using. It's as dim as ever, and I don't even feel signs of people's shadows.
"... here?
That's where yesterday we met and broke up. For Rosette, I'm sure, a paradise where you can spit out important secrets.
"Why..."
I was wondering if you were paying for the salon exactly, but certainly bring it here to tell stories people don't want to hear. Nevertheless, I didn't expect to visit again yesterday today.
Because in one case yesterday, Violet wasn't going to come here anymore.
"It's really unpopular here... and I don't get noticed from around because it's a shadow. And I used to go there, too."
"Yes, it was."
Then I guess it's not so much an unfortunate coincidence that we met that day. I'm sure the two of them were bowling together in the form of coincidences.
"So, uh... Violet, too, is it?"
Rosette stops a little further and slowly looks at Violet. Only the sound of the wind passing between them is clear, and nothing else can be heard.
No voice, no gaze, no one's ideals, no impressions, you can't get here.
"I thought you wanted to be alone... That's why I'm here."
And I thought I'd taken the place. If Rosette finds out she's coming here, I'm sure Violet needs to use this place anymore.
The anticipation was mediocre. Perfectly, as much as I think they read my mind.
I'm sure that's because Rosette thought the same thing. Because I thought if Violet was going to use it, it would be better if she didn't use it anymore.
Because the two people who wanted to be alone could understand so that their feelings were in their hands.
"But... then, Master Rosette..."
"Wow, I know a lot of other places...! Well, the place I prefer is something I don't like much, so it's inevitably unpopular."
Eh heh, the laughing look looks a lot more childish than usual innocent. I'm sure this is the 'rosette' at the root of the rosette, happy or unhappy, knowing the secret Violet most wanted to know but the late defenseless.
It exists only for someone because their heart hardens, they crush, they break - and they suffer.
"... you don't have to use it."
"Huh..."
"Sure, though you're right"
Because I want to be alone, because I want to avoid people, where I found them. I wanted a place where no one's eyes, no expectations, no impressions, no rumors, didn't care.
But I'm sure that's not why I wanted a place where no one else was.
I ran past Rosette, who was not out of sight with confusion, and when I went inside the gazebo, I knew it felt dim. The sun is supposed to be lit equally, but trees just overlap and easily block it.
A lot of people feel depressed. It makes them seem protected. I wanted to get this feeling away from people I didn't understand.
I wanted to be in a place where that thought would not be denied, where I find all the emotions that can be directed at, whether good or evil, annoying.
"Why don't we sit down?"
"Huh... Huh!? Ah... ha, yes...!
What makes her seem adorable when it comes to changing her face is evidence that she has been able to afford to feel less? My head has been full of things since yesterday, and I think I'm going to get flat.
Though the brain may just be shutting down after an unexpected raid from an unexpected place.
Still, good. Only now, just a little more, I want to stay empty and away from reality.
And just for a little while... I can't believe I want to be alone with each other.