I Swear I Won’t Bother You Again!

Smell of ink, scratching noise on the tip of the pen, shadow of stacked paper. In a space where the air seems to have stopped rather than quiet. Repeat the same work carelessly. Sometimes the voice you hear is less than a solitary roar, and there is no conversation. Just the two of us, doing each job at such a distance that we can't even confirm our expressions.

Who used to think and be thought of.

And now... what exactly is the relationship between Violet and Claudia today?

× × × ×

Time is after school. Claudia happened to find Violet, who remained on campus in an effort to increase her return time as usual, completing the situation now.

Claudia gets to her desk seat as chairman, and Violet immerses herself in paperwork using a sofa and table that she is supposed to use for the reception. Milania, who is supposed to be there, has been removed from her seat for another job, and other members have yet to decide. They are getting used to turning it around as early as possible, but situations where the amount of time and work is disproportionate to the number of people are not familiar and manageable.

So Violet, who was invited to help several times, admitted that she had no particular problems, and she managed to figure out a way to clear up her job for today. Claudia's face staring at the bundle of paper with a wrinkle between her eyebrows from earlier had the color of fatigue engraved in color.

"Dear Claudia, let's take a short break."

"Are you tired? Call someone..."

"Not me, Lady Claudia."

I look at Violet just a little bit and stand up blocking Claudia's words, who reached for Bell. Claudia is more likely to be crushed by an enormous workload than just herself who needs a break in this setting.

Because of his character, he seems to think of taking a break before he finishes his job, but in tired conditions it is difficult even to judge things correctly. Sometimes it's better to look at another object and look away once rather than face it down.

"As it is now, it is inefficient to take time to review it later. I was wondering if I should get some sleep once I calmed down."

I asked for a warm drink and a sweet dish that I could pick with one hand to serve outside the door, and I looked back to Claudia, who seemed to have had a long time to understand what had been said. With his eyes wide open, Violet's behavior and remarks surprised him.

The look on Yulan's face seemed very similar when he couldn't cope with the rash and went defenseless.

(… to Yulan, or)

The truth is that Yulan resembles Claudia, something too trivial in common that no one must have noticed.

I'm sure I never would have found anyone in Claudia before. On the other hand, it would have been looking for Claudia, the fragment in Yulan, overlapping and causing her to think. You know better than anyone how stupid and pointless it is to lay someone over you and look for a shadow.

I look everywhere. Whoever you are, you remind me. Because it's burning, because it's rooted and it won't leave. The love heart that normally exists in me is always warm and feverish, and my eyes, ears, nose, and all five senses wait for the person.

When I was thinking of Claudia, Violet's heart was going to burn and collapse even now. Think of your ambition and greed too strong as love, and oil it if it's burning but it's still not enough. Until you burn this body down, believe me, before you burn it down, there's a happy ending to love.

"... a little, rest"

Claudia, who seems to have noticed, lifted her heavy hips to the tee time set to be carried. I sink into the couch across from where Violet was sitting until just now and distract my gaze a little creepy. He's always grand, responsible and proud to be a prince, but unexpectedly he's like a child.

…………

Mouth the warm cup, then exhale slowly. I'm sure he was more tired than he was aware, if he lost his shoulder strength, it would be somewhat better. Violet safely moistened her throat between brows softer than earlier.

I've only dreamed of having a peaceful tea time with him before. I can't believe how much I should have wanted it to get out of my throat, but the scenery is changing so much that I actually see it on the day I welcome it. In Violet, who was obsessed with his love with him, he was never seen. Run wild without looking around and crush all the possibilities.

What changed, Violet. The person in front of you is the same as before. The way you hold your heart, abandon all kinds of greed and hope that you can be a shadow in the period of a year. I guess this change is the result of my own mistakes.

If so, even Violet that day would have had the possibility of having a day like this.

Now, I can see. I finally felt accepted that I was desperate to come out of sight and that I didn't want to remember the time. When we realized how we felt about Yulan, we noticed the invisible people together.

Dear Claudia,

"Hmm...?

"Sorry for all the inconvenience."

Put the cup down, then slowly lower your head. I should have sincerely apologized sooner, given my previous work, but until today, Violet couldn't face her sins properly.

I'm sure I still don't think I'm the only one who's bad. I can't deny that you feel like a victim who only knew how to do it. I'm sure I still feel sorry for myself, and I just remembered to give up on an environment that still doesn't change. At the time I was born in that house, I would not have a legitimate reflection on my former sins. In the corner of my heart, 'It's your fault' keeps smoking the lingering fire.

But I think Claudia's actions against him are Violet's sins.

In those days, Claudia as she was conceived, there was no downfall. Naturally rejecting unacceptable thoughts, Violet's actions are only a shady evil ascension. Annoying that whatever excuse you paste to hit an unrelated third party for Violet being scratched, for being in a hard background and environment.

I missed my eyes, pretended to give up and didn't want to recognise my ugly parts. Even as a sinner, I didn't want to think that I was the kind of person who said I wasn't bad. I didn't want anyone, myself, to know that it was all around me that I invited Violet to that cell, that I just sinned as a result - that I felt that way and couldn't reflect correctly.

No one can blame you for not saying anything. Because only Violet knows those days, and Claudia doesn't remember the sins of real Violet.

Still, what I wanted to say was just self-satisfaction. It's not for Claudia, it's just an apology for yourself. We have to finish it right, and we have to face it. Otherwise, I can't go on being left in that cell.

In a world where you live and die alone, you can no longer live. I can't give up, get flushed, just wait for it to end, I'm not satisfied. Because someone who wants to take my hand, someone who wants to be with me, doesn't have to be rewarded, just someone who wants to be allowed to live with my thoughts.

I decided to put the curtain down on my first love who went down a path where no one would be happy.