I will eventually become the king of Shura Field

She looks forward to every moment of communication with her mother, and she is extremely resistant to this moment.

Because every time she would not get the result she wanted, she was disappointed every time, and every time she got only almost mandatory orders.

Why does she have to be herself or a child?Why must she be so hateful?

Touma and Sa really hate someone who abandons herself and restrains her with this tone.

So she became more rebellious and resisted accepting any kindness from Dongma Yaozi, and she understood all kindness as hypocrisy.

But even so, she still loves the piano deeply and dreams of becoming a great pianist.

Until the night before, Dong Ma Yaozi's call.

Even if she is not in the country, she still has countless contacts. These contacts are as annoying as bugs and haunt her.

He had obviously refused, and he had clearly stated his attitude.

But she was still so domineering, still so strong, and still forced herself to accept with a tone that couldn't be rejected.

This only fetter, in the end, it became a chain that locked oneself up.

Dongma and Sa were completely disappointed. She thought frustratedly: Why must I live my own life according to her arrangements?

The piano... is just a dead thing, why should I be bound by it?

No, I will not let your expectations come true, I want you to regret it!

Dongma Hesha went to the other extreme: she should not become a pianist. The future she once regarded as her dream is now proof that she has cut off the fetters.

She wanted to prove: I can't exist without a piano, and I can't live without you!

I'm independent enough!I can get rid of everything about you and live freely.

I don't need to hide in your shadow, and I don't need to look forward to any concern from you.

Since you chose to abandon me, I can also choose to abandon you!

This is all the mental journey of Dongma Hesha.

She felt that this was a rational decision she had deliberately made.

But Makoto Jingong simply said: The rebellious psychology has broken through the thousands of excuses she prepared for herself.

She found sadly that even if she chose to give up, she still couldn't get rid of Dongma Yaozi.

Do it yourself, is it really for yourself?Or is it just as he said, just to get her attention?

It's best to let her fly back from abroad, beg herself in a low voice, and promise to perform her duties as a mother.

Is it really...for yourself?

Dongma Hesha bit her red lips, and her pale face became paler.

As Makoto Jingu said, he inadvertently observed the expression on Touma Kazuza's face.

He knows how complicated her relationship with Dongma Yaozi is, and he also knows that this is Dongma's biggest heart disease.

But from an objective point of view, he knows Dongma Yoko's thoughts better than Dongma and Sa, and he also knows who Dongma Yoko is for.

He knew that everything Dongma Yaozi did was for his daughter.

Dongma's family is very wealthy, and Dongma and Yarn have never worried about food and clothing since childhood.

But are these abundant material conditions inherent in the Dongma family?

No, these are the efforts of Dongma Yaozi to give Dongma and yarn.

Dongma Yaozi has been divorced twice, and love has nothing to look forward to for her.

All she has left is family love.

So she devoted all her efforts, just for her daughter to be able to live better, to be able to live the life Hesha wants freely without worrying about firewood, rice, oil and salt.

This is an almost unsolvable problem.

It is too difficult for a single mother to have spiritual foundation on one side and material foundation on the other.

So Dongma Yaozi can only choose the same.

Of course, this also has a lot to do with their personalities.

Dongma Hesha not only inherited Dongma Yaozi's excellent musical talent, but also inherited her early silent and introverted character.

She likes to hold back whatever she has. She has a completely passive character and is extremely bad at taking the initiative.

Yaozi also has her own difficulties. She did not abandon Hesha cruelly, but felt that Hesha should choose a different artistic path.

She knows Hesha too well, knowing that Hesha has followed her as an example since she was young.

But if you continue to develop along this road, Dongma Hesha can at best become the second Dongma Yaozi.

So she is determined to let Hesha experience more things and experience something different from her, so that Hesha can become a different pianist from her.

What she wanted was not a second Dongma Yaozi, but a great pianist better than Dongma Yaozi.

As a mother, she is not excellent, nor is she the best.

She is just an ordinary and ordinary mother.

Like all ordinary and ordinary mothers, she also strives to give all she can to her daughter.

Chapter 156: Reconcile yourself with yourself!

I pierced my own imagination, and the short-term satisfaction finally disappeared.

Dongma and Sa are immersed in the vicious circle of self-denial, and the pale face is pitiful.

Jingu Makoto carefully observed her expression, and saw the painful color flashing across her small face, and immediately said, "Senior Dongma?"

He "disturbed" Dongma and Sa's thinking, and he could be regarded as pulling her back from the quagmire of random thoughts.

She raised her head slightly and looked at Makoto Jingong, but her sluggish gaze proved that she was acting subconsciously.

When someone calls your name, just look back at who it is, just subconsciously.

Makoto Jingu said with concern: "I think everyone will have this kind of disappointment more or less when they were young."

"But these have gradually passed by over time. You don't need to be too entangled in the past. The more stubbornly you think, the more painful you get."

"Looking forward is the most important thing. The past is over."

"And many times, some things are not as complicated as we thought, maybe we think too much."

He knows the complicated relationship between Dongma and Sha and Dongma Yoko.

But he cannot show that he knows.

Therefore, his method of comfort is also as vague as possible.

Hearing this, Dongma and Sae pressed the corners of their mouths tightly, trying to conceal their emotions.

She also recovered, and quickly denied: "You think too much, I just think about the song."

Jingu Makoto smiled, without breaking, and said softly, "That's good."

Dongma and Sha looked up at him again, feeling a little complicated.

She knew that her clumsy acting skills could not be hidden from him, otherwise he would not have to say these comforting words on purpose.

While he was amazed by his keen observation, Dongma Kazuya also felt a little gentle.

It is not difficult to capture the key information from some words, but after capturing the key information, it is handled carefully, and try not to touch the taboo of the topic.

Neither embarrassing the person, nor questioning, at the same time trying to comfort others euphemistically.

There are not many people who can master this skill.

Otherwise, there won't be so many idiots who don't know good or bad, don't understand emotional intelligence, and have no brains.

"You... what about you now?"

Dongma and Sa asked in a low voice.

"Ok?"

"That's... the personal experience you just said... are you still... still the same?"

Obviously this topic can be skipped, and he didn't hold on.

But Dongma and Sa felt that she met someone who had the same experience as her, and a strange emotion faintly developed.

Although the relationship between the two is not close, there are some things that can't be said to acquaintances, but they can be said easily to people in ordinary relationships or even strangers.

This kind of psychology should refer to the confession in theology.

Ignoring the mysterious things of guilt and innocence, I believe that people still like to talk to people compared to tree holes.

Of course, the premise is that the person you are looking for must be trustworthy and tight-lipped.

It's better not to know it yet, so that it won't affect your life after speaking.

Therefore, Makoto Jingong now gave Dongma and Sae the illusion that he shouldn't be able to speak out, and he didn't plan to talk to him, so he was curious about how he viewed this encounter and even how to solve it.

Makoto Jingu shook his head slightly and said softly, "It used to be, but it's not anymore."

"Why?" Dongma and Sa asked curiously.

"Ha, there is no reason, at a certain moment, I suddenly understood some things, just what I just said, some things are not as complicated as we thought."

"So I mustered up the courage to tell him all the dissatisfaction hidden in my heart."

"So I found out that he didn't want to accompany me. He also wanted to be like other fathers. He could take me everywhere to play and leave his mark on my growth."

"It's just that his duties are not allowed, and his time is not allowed. He works all the time every day for more people."

"It's not that he doesn't love me, he just doesn't know how to express it. For example, one time on my birthday, he didn't give me a gift. I felt very depressed at the time."

"But after talking with him, I learned that he deliberately took time off that day and went out to the department store to help me pick an afternoon gift."

"As a result, because he didn't know what I liked, and he was afraid that I really didn't like what he bought, he wasted an afternoon in vain. In the end he just ordered a big cake for me. I didn't know it was him until my birthday was over Ordered."

"Why didn't you say it? Yeah, it sounds simple. Just ask me if I like it, right?"

"But as a man, I think I can understand his thoughts, such as myself. Until now, it is difficult for me to say to my mother I love you. Maybe this is the difference between Eastern culture and Western culture. I am always silent. Love."

"So, after a good talk with him, I'm relieved."

"It's really not as complicated as I thought, and as I grow up, I also know how heavy a man's shoulders are."

"Ordinary men have only one family responsibility throughout their lives, but my father is not an ordinary man, so he has many responsibilities."

"I think I still have to be proud of him."

Jingu Makoto paused, staring at Dongma and Sa's face, and said seriously: "I think the so-called growth is to reconcile with yourself."

"Sometimes we only see the shortcomings of others, but ignore our own shortcomings, just like me and my father. This misunderstanding is caused not only by my father's bad words, but also because of my own hypocrisy and because of my lack of courage. Because I am afraid of being looked down upon by my father."

"There is no hurdle that can't be overcome. No matter how evil people are, they have a soft side, and no matter how good people are, they have a fierce side. Don't just look at the surface, but also know the real reason behind it."

"It's like playing a piano. If you can become a pianist just by looking at the notes and playing the black and white keys mechanically, I don't know how many people can become pianists in this world."

"Pianists are called artists because they not only see the notes on the surface, but also know what emotions these notes carry. They use their understanding and methods to reinterpret such emotions and even add new ones. Emotions go in."

His comforting method is already extremely euphemistic, but it is equally powerful, and directly hits the sensitive and fragile hearts of Dongma and Sana.

From the family relationship to the piano performance, and even to the person himself, everything seems to be tailor-made for Dongma and Sasha.

She is afraid of expression emotionally, which leads to a lack of emotional resonance in piano performance.

The superb skill still cannot hide her clumsy emotional expression.

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ps: This month’s update is over. I looked at the word count and it was about 190,000 to 200,000.It’s also considered a lot of updates. I will officially have a million words next month, oh oh oh, I hope the big bookshelf will keep me alive.

Chapter 157: Love cannot be hidden!

Her face became paler than before.

Obviously, Makoto Jingu's remarks caused her psychological impact not small.