Chapter 171
Heather
"I don’t know how your visions work," Cosette said. "The fey teach that the future is changeable, but it’s possible that all paths lead to that church for you. We might all die fighting." She shrugged, almost oddly unconcerned, but that we had to mean she was including herself.
That was something, at least. "We all have some choices to make. I believe those choices will determine whether what you saw comes to pass."
Choices? I groaned in frustration. I needed something clearer. More definite. What good were these stupid visions if they didn’t help?
"They are helping you, Heather." Brent squatted down beside me. "You know what to look for. When we reach that moment, you’ll either change it or you won’t."
I wanted to wring his neck. "And you’re okay with dying? Getting your head sliced off?"
"No! I don’t want that at all. I have plans. Dreams. For us." He reached up to cradle my cheek and I leaned into his touch, trying to breathe in some of his calm. "I can only move forward, armed with this knowledge. We’re going to do everything we can to make sure the worst doesn’t happen. And if it does..."
I let out a slow breath. "If it does?"
"We’ll be together. In this life and the next." He pulled me down until our foreheads touched. "You’re stuck with me. No matter what."
"Can you guys move the snuggling elsewhere?" Cosette gave a wide yawn. "If we’re done, I’m going back to sleep."
"You okay?" He asked as he leaned away from me.
"No. I’m terrified."
"You probably should be," Cosette’s dark tone turned my head, but I couldn’t snap back when I saw the soft concern in her eyes. "Fear’s a great motivator. It might be exactly what you need to keep that vision from happening."
She sounded sincere enough, but I could never tell if she actually liked me or she was just twisting us all around for her own amusement.
"One more thing before I go. Any chance the fey will join the fight against Luciana? If we don’t beat her, she’s going to be a problem for everyone." I still couldn’t decide whether telling her about the guy in the vision would help or hurt my case.
"I’d love to say yes, but it’s been made extremely clear to me that it’s not my call." Cosette gripped her wrist so hard her knuckles cracked. "For now I’ll report what you’ve seen and we’ll both have to hope it’s enough to get the fey off the sidelines."
The knowledge that the fey existed was so new to me that I couldn’t even try to comprehend what kind of pressure was on Cosette. But I appreciated that she was trying to help in her way. Whatever that was. "Thank—"
"Don’t. If you thank me, you owe me, and I don’t want that temptation any more than you want to be bound to me."
I pressed my lips together for a second. Cosette was saying I couldn’t trust her? But she still warned me about it.
The more I learned about her, the more confused I was. "Got it," I said, even though I didn’t really get it. Or her.
"Now get out of my room." She sat on the bed so hard the mattress shook. "And don’t come knocking again before lunch."
"Sorry about that." I stood and tugged Brent toward the door.
Cosette mumbled something that wasn’t in English as she slipped on an eye mask. She was already under her covers when I shut the door. Apparently the fey took their beauty sleep seriously.
I’d wanted her to have some better news for us. As it was...
"Whatever happens, we’ll get through it. One way or another."
That was what bothered me—the other way. I didn’t like it. Not one bit.
It lit a fire in me. I had to figure out a way to stop Luciana. I had to be able to fight her. I had to be stronger. Much stronger. "Let’s go back to the gym."
"You don’t have to go back, cherie. You’re exhausted already."
Cosette was right. Fear was a great motivator. "I do. I can do this. But I need your help."
"I’d do anything for you."
I knew he would. Just like I’d do anything for him. If that meant eating mat every day until I was ready for the fight with Luciana, then game on.
Four days later, I was hanging by a thread. There hadn’t been any more attacks on the school since Raphael had been bitten by zombie Daniel. That should’ve been a good thing, but I knew it wasn’t. Luciana was building up power. Maybe saving up for the church but I had a feeling we’d see her before then.
Waiting for something to happen was killing me. It was like slow torture.
Adrian had only gotten to Costa Rica before he had to stop. Raphael was too unstable to go farther. All I could do was hope that Claudia would find a way to save her brother while I spent my days training with Brent and my nights trying to anticipate Luciana’s next move.
Sleep was at a premium. I knew I should be resting while I could—it was somewhere past midnight—but I just couldn’t. Maybe when Brent got back, I could relax a little. Even convince him to not set the alarm. We’d been sleeping maybe three or four hours a night, and I could barely manage that much.
The shitty thing was that I couldn’t do anything else. Fixing the pack bonds had stopped most of the arguing among the alphas in residence, but now they all agreed we should stay put. Brent said the Cazadores were watching the compound from a safe distance, just in case Luciana made her move, but that left me and most everyone else sitting around, waiting for whatever Luciana threw at us next.
So in the meantime, I was doing the best I could to prepare.
The more I dug into the pile of books surrounding my bed, the more I realized there was no way in hell I was going to be ready. There was too much to know. Too much that these books didn’t talk about. Anxiety had my shoulders in one giant knot. I tilted my head to the side, and my neck gave a satisfying snap
If something didn’t change soon, I was going to take action and it would probably be insane. The ideas I’d come up with tonight were scaring even me. And I could almost swear I felt magic in the air... But maybe I was just being paranoid.
A knock at my door pulled me from my books. I bit my lip as I waited to see if whoever it was would go away. I was in no shape to entertain. And if it was another Were coming by to ask me what I’d come up with, I’d lose it.
The knock came again.
Screw it. "Come in."
"Hey," Serena said. "How are you doing?"
Why wasn’t she just coming in? We were suitemates. We’d passed the whole knock-before-entering thing weeks ago. "I’m... I have no idea how I am. How are you?" Ever since Leslie left, she’d been distant. I’d planned on giving her until tomorrow to deal, and then I was going to talk to her about it. But she’d just beat me to it.
She wrung her hands together and looked anywhere in the room except at me. "I feel like I should apologize again."
"Why?" She had nothing to be sorry for. Not in the slightest. "You already apologized, and you didn’t need to in the first place. It’s totally fine."
"No. It’s not fine. I..." She licked her lips and let out a sigh. "I was wrong. About Leslie. You kept telling me that something was up with her, and I kept thinking it was just because she was jealous of you and Brent. I—I didn’t think she was capable of defecting from our pack. But I was rude to you when you tried to bring it up and I should’ve listened to you."
I scooted to the end of my bed and stood slowly. "Seriously. There’s nothing to apologize for. I thought it was all about Brent at first, too, but after what happened with you... It wasn’t right. The way she was acting. She was straight up nasty."
"I know. I saw it, but I kept making excuses. Seeing her leaving with the others was a rude awakening."
"Are you okay?"
She shrugged. "Doesn’t it feel like these past few weeks have been nuts?"
"Past few weeks? Try past few months. My life has taken a serious turn for the crazy ever since I got to Texas."
"No kidding, right?" She scrunched up her nose for a second.
With that, I knew that everything was going to be okay. At least with us. "For sure."
"So what now?"
I turned back to my bed, surveying the mess all over it. The white sheets were barely visible under the books and notes. I’d surrounded myself with every resource I had, determined to find some sort of magic spell to make all this go away. So far, I’d come up with nil.
I pulled my hair into a messy knot at the nape of my neck. "I have no idea. I’m trying to figure out how to counter Luciana, but without knowing what she’s up to...." I’d been thinking of doing something totally batshit the past couple of days. Maybe it was because Claudia had brought up the idea, but now, I couldn’t get it out of my head.
Or maybe it was all the waiting around. But whatever it was, I couldn’t do this anymore. I had to do something. "I have an idea. Something Claudia said on the phone the other day... But it’s super dangerous—I mean it’s stupid dangerous—and Brent is going to freak out... But I mean—I’m not getting anywhere here."
"Oh, boy." She crossed her arms. "What kind of crazy idea is in your head now?"
I braced myself for her to flip, and then spit the words out. "Believe me. This is the last place that I want to go. Really. But Claudia said that there could be something in Luciana’s craft room and if we go—"
"What!" Serena screeched.
And there it was.
"Have you completely lost your mind? No! Under no circumstances will you ever be going back there. Not only is it incredibly dangerous and stupid, but you’re right—Brent would freak out." Her eyes flared from glass blue to electric. "You weren’t here when he lost it last time. You weren’t holding him down to get sedated. You didn’t help drag him off to the feral cages. And you certainly didn’t watch him throwing himself against the door over and over and over, trying to escape and get you back. And you didn’t see yourself when you came back here. Broken." She poked my breastbone hard enough to knock me back. "So, no. That’s not fucking happening. Not on my watch."
All of a sudden, my room got much more crowded, as Xander, Donovan, and Brent burst through the door.
Shit. She must’ve told Donovan on me.