Life, Once Again!

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It was humiliating. It would have been better if it had happened with the floor. The lady in the back. I was shivering because I thought I was humiliated by her. I kicked the trash can standing next to the stop for no reason. I feel a little relieved to see garbage scattered across the street while scattering.

“Hey, asshole! ”

You hear a voice hanging from behind you as you try to go back. He was a man of bad impression. While studying it, you quickly pick up the trash and put it in the trash can.

“I made a mistake. It's a mistake.”

“Really?"

It was a stone that showed an awkward smile to the man who was looking up and down himself. I made all kinds of insults in my heart, but I couldn't express them externally.

This is a bad day. When he arrived at the front door, he frowned and opened the door. I saw my father reading the newspaper, sitting on the couch, trying to take off his rough shoes and go inside. The stone quickly turns around and straightens the nose of the crooked shoe.

“You're here early. ”

“Oh, yes. ”

“The reading room?”

“I'm going to get the reference sheet out of the house. ”

He nodded once. His gaze was still in the newspaper.

“Sook-seok.”

“Yes.”

“I registered for a school. Bye.”

“Yes?”

“It's a Chinese institute. It is now difficult to live on in English alone. English as a base and Chinese as a specialty. ”

“…… that father. ”

It was time to say that the reading room was enough. My father casually folded the newspaper and looked straight at me. An unsatisfactory light shines on the back of the discerning gold molded glasses. The cornerstone immediately shut up.

“You look just like him. ”

Him.

Many people refer to him as a "him." However, there is only one person who calls him "Him." It's you.

“Why? You want to run away with your tribal greetings like him? ”

“Oh, no. ”

“Well, what can I say? ”

“I'll go to the academy. ”

“Yes."

Then I was a staring father. My father folded up the newspaper he had seen and put his hand in his arms and took out his wallet.

“Here, take it. It's the first prize I haven't missed in first grade. ”

My father gave me a card. Black card.

“You'll need money to get along with the smart ones. Then don't let them open their wallets. You do the math. Each and every one of them makes a difference. Friends are the only people who can come into society and make them. A friend in college? That's ridiculous. Everything in there is your competition. It's only after those who have won and won the competition have been promoted to the society that they have achieved and stamped their successes that they meet as friends. Don't waste your time playing nice. If you don't want to be like him. ”

Recent stones received a card with heavy hand gestures. It's a freely available plural card, but why does it look like a chain reaction?

‘But I can't help it. Yeah, this is how you live with yourself. ’

I said hello and stepped back. I came into the room and put down my bag and sighed as I squeezed my chest.

“Fuck.”

It's a fucking day. I think it's him that's making my father feel bad. Had it not been for friction with him, he would have come in from somewhere else, but he was so busy that he came in early.

I grabbed my cell phone while chewing my nails and calming my nerves. I quickly dialed Su-yeon's number and called her. Suyeon postponed the lesson two days ago and has not been contacted since. I expected to see her the next day, but her phone was silent.

-Hello?

“That coach. ”

- Uh, why?

It was Su-yeon who breathed very quickly. The cornerstone rolls its eyes and says.

“When will I get that lesson? ”

Everything was annoying. I thought I'd have to meet Su-yeon to wash this dirty feeling away. She will comfort herself with adult fortuity.

But...

- I'm not taking lessons for a while. You're good at this. Do it yourself.

“Yes? What is that……. ”

- I'm busy. I'm hanging up.

And the phone was disconnected. At the last moment, the old man's voice comes over on his cell phone. Silent cell phone. Bang, the cornerstone smashes the desk with a fist. Then I looked back in anger. You didn't hear your father in the living room, did you? I walked gently and listened to the call. Luckily, you only hear low classical music.

I took a low sigh and sat on the bed. Nothing happened today. Worst day ever.

‘You can't be serious. ’

If my father found out that I was acting like my brother…… then I didn't want to imagine it. Recent stones were still remembered. I slapped my brother on the cheek when he came home from college for a long time. Whenever I think of the red eyes that were bitten with anger and inversion, the stone seemed to stop my heart.

“Don't go public. ”

There was a plan, and if the performance reached the third grade, Jun-min promised to pay. Full tuition support is the first step, and it provides relationship building with top actors as well as audition challenge opportunities. Recent stones saw a vision there. Become the most glamorous star. Money follows, lots of actresses, and popularity.

He didn't really set the course. He has only one goal in life. It was a prosperous success, and my father had the philosophy that the easiest way to succeed was to study.

Even after the brother who rebelled against the philosophy left the house, my father didn't blink. Rather, he advised me that he would crawl in soon. It's been 10 years, and you're still an anonymous actor.

My father's theory was right. Unexpectedly challenging is all. But if the path to success is guaranteed, it will be different.

So when I signed with Joon-min, I thought that this would convince my father. I could almost understand if I showed my father what I had received from Jun-min and told him it was a sign of success. Jun-min is a big hand in the art world. Person who touches various management. I expected my father to be convinced that he would be supportive.

But not now. Right now, I've got nothing. At that time, if he found out that he was playing, he would immediately say, Study at that time. That's the shortcut to success.

Of course, there is no great love for theater. It didn't matter if I succeeded in studying as my father had said. But going that way makes it hard to get a spotlight. Becoming a popular star is better suited to unleashing desire than going to a large corporation with a high salary.

You can still be with a charming woman like Su-yeon. There were parts of this floor that were too much to give up.

‘You can bend down once. ’

Then the floor will be quiet. That's how we can stay a little longer and attack the floor in order to please our subordinates. The fool will self-destruct again. Like a guardian of justice.

“Yes. Let's just wait one more time. That'll do it. ”

The bitch who was hanging out behind the floor and floor. I'll take care of them as a set. When I think about it, she's even more agitated. If I had applied quietly without speaking back, I would have nothing to argue about.

It was time to figure out how to tell the floor tomorrow. I heard a door open. There is no way that a mother who will go to the academy has already returned. I wonder if my dad made me deliver.

As I was wondering, I heard a voice.

“Father! It's been a long time. ”

Bright, cheerful voice. It's my brother. I've got wrinkles on my forehead. I was too beaten to the cheek and kicked out. That pose seemed to be bluffing.

Soon my father's work will explode. Maybe I'll get slapped again. But it was quiet. My father could not bear to look at my brother.

I wonder what's going on.

When I was curious, I heard his voice again.

“Let me introduce you. This is Joon-min Lee, whom I admire and like. You and your father must be on the same page. ”

“Son of a bitch. What is that? ”

“It's okay, sunbae. My father would understand because it's what it looks like. Right?"

The stone opened its eyes. Jun-min. She was surprised. She quietly opened the rest of the door and looked out through the gap.

There was really Jun-min in front of me. Nearby, there was a neatly dressed radish. In his hand was a tomato juice that he liked.

“Who are you?”

My father asked me sternly. He would, too. He's the one you brought.

“I'm Lee Jun-min. I work in the entertainment industry. He did me a favor and came to me with baptism knees. ”

My father looked at Jun-min and offered me a job. Immediately after sitting down, Joon-min took out a piece of paper from the briefcase.

“He was making some strange noises. This contract must be shown to my father. ”

“What is this? ”

“Take a look. ”

I could see my father reading the contract with his glasses up. After reading it for a long time, my father quietly put down his contract.

“You must have suffered a lot because of my bad son. ”

“As you say. It's very troubling to see how unsportsmanlike. ”

The last stone was appalled. My father was smiling. It's so bright. My father took off his glasses and said,

“I'm a man who hates failure. I was born in a gutter, and I sell gum, and I wipe my shoes, and I spend my youth cleaning up garbage from yesterday. At that time, I thought of only one thing: Success. Earning money. ”

My father looks at the contract again. The laughter grows darker.

“My theory is that it's important to make money no matter what people say. Life is trash without money. ”

“You're right. ”

“I've had some success. In that mud place, I stuck the letters with charcoal, studied until the end of the first fountain pen that I received was impossible to use, and I came up here. For me, studying is the easiest path I've ever been on. So I was angry when he said he was acting. He's not a bad guy. I had to study, I had to succeed a few times, but I didn't listen. ”

“It's been the Great Wall ever since. ”

“Yes, he did. I still remember the day I ran out of this house. He opened his eyes and said he would succeed in acting. That made me feel like my life was being denied. It was absurd. Was that easy? No, I think living as an art in this country, this land, has to be accompanied by incredible luck and probability. Isn't that right?"

“You're right. ”

“So I waited for him to come in with his tail down. I believed that I would come in and study. But 10 years later, they didn't crawl in. ”

Then my brother smiled and said.

“Twelve years, to be exact. I'm thirty now. ”

“Are you that old already? ”

“Of course, Father. He looks just like his father, so there are wrinkles in his arms as well. ”

The unimaginable joke came and went. It would have been Birack Castle if it had been my father before, but I was laughing at that joke. Joon-min's in front of you? No, he's not like that.

“Twelve years. You've been fussing about your success. ”

“What do you think? This guy's had a pretty good life, too, right? Well, money isn't everything, but it's an indicator. ”

“You're right. You don't usually get one of these at 30. It's definitely a success to my standards. Success.”

My father pushed the paper. The paper was taken by my brother and put in his arms.

“I'll be going then. ”

My brother got up from his seat. Joon-min was a little embarrassed and asked.

“Are you leaving already? ”

“Yes, Father, may I go? ”

He replied with his glasses on again. The laughter was after it disappeared one day.

“Go. I don't want to see you. ”

“Even if it's not cheap, I have a harvest today. ”

My brother turned around smiling. At that time, I hid in my room and looked at the living room and met my eyes. He shrugged his shoulders once and went out in his shoes.

“Please take care of him from now on. ”

After my brother left, my father bowed his head to Jun-min. Your father bowed? The stone was shocked to the point of being stunned.

“You don't have to ask. He's been on his own since he was a kid. ”

“I see. Clearly, he's very independent. I took care of it. So I hated it even more. It was my baby trying to get out of my arms. ”

“But aren't you proud to see you grow up? ”

“Any parent would hate to see their child doing well. But my stomach aches because I succeeded on my own terms. because it's completely out of the product. ”

“A man misses his father only after he leaves. I pushed him to go alone again today, but he said he couldn't because he was so ashamed. ”

“Haha. The one who drove a stake through his father's heart is now ashamed. He's a jerk, really. ”

“Maybe it's because you look a lot like someone. ”

“You mean like me? ”

“Where did that temper of yours go through those hard times by yourself? He knew there was a stable path. It just didn't seem like much fun. ”

Joon-min got up from his seat. My father also got up from his seat.

“Here's your business card. Have a drink later on when it's time. I feel like it will work somehow. ”

“This is the first time someone who works in the arts has put a business card in my wallet. ”

“That's an honor. ”

The two of them smiled like long keepers and went to the front door together. The stone slams shut, trembling. It shouldn't have been like this. It was something that the brother should not accept from his father first.

“Oh, by the way, your second son. ”

I heard the voice of Jun-min faintly. At that moment, the cornerstone felt like lightning hit my head.

“Quartz?”

“Yes.”

“How can you... ”

“Haven't you heard? because it's touching me and I'm getting a performance chart. ”

“Aha. I see. ”

“If you have time later, I'd like you to come to the theater and hold hands with the rich. This is going to be a good time. ”

“Very well. I'll take my time. ”

“Of course.”

I heard the door close. The stone shivers and rises to grip the door hook. At that moment, the door opened wide. There was a father standing outside the door with colder eyes than ever before.

“You lied. ”

“I, I, that father. ”

“Your brother may have lied to me, but he didn't. ”

“Father! Father! ”

The cornerstone kneels. My father came quietly into the room. Then slowly pushed the door shut.

“I need to talk to you. ”

Heave-ho. The door is closed.

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