Life, Once Again!

Beige colored schools. Seongjae took a look at the calibration and went inside the school. I tried to wait for the manager's brother, but I was embarrassed to stand on the field. As I entered the foyer, I saw people going up and down the hallway. Everyone was looking tired. People walking slowly with towels around their necks and toothbrushes on their mouths. It seemed to be an obstacle blocking the corridor, so it was time to put a smile on the wall.

“Mr. Seong Jae? ”

A short-haired woman approaches. I smiled as if I knew him.

“Hello."

“You're here early for the afternoon shoot. ”

“I got off early because I didn't have an appointment. I'd love to see the set. ”

“Is that so?"

She looked around, saying, "Wait a minute. The woman next to the casting director. He was a person who worked with each of the actor managers to manage actors.

“Can you come over here, please? ”

I followed the woman into an empty classroom. Sitting in a chair for a moment, a woman comes in with her manager's brother.

“Come with me, you're going alone. ”

“I'm sorry, brother. Why are you standing alone when people are staring at you in the playground? ”

I smiled at Donghwan and looked at the woman.

“Eat this first. Must have been hard coming from a long way. ”

The woman handed the canned beverage to Seongjae and Dongwon. It was a grape-flavored drink. I had a sip and had a little chat. I am looking forward to acting, there are many people I like around me, the reality is much better, etc. It was when I was talking about it. There was a man who came into the classroom. He was a middle-aged man with a big belly, and he knew he was a director.

“Greetings, Director. ”

“Ah, yes. Ahn Sung-jae?”

“Yes, I'm Ahn Sung-jae, the new actress. ”

“Yes, yes. Was the shoot today?”

“Yes, it is. ”

“I'll see you in the afternoon, then. I'm looking forward to it. And he's definitely handsome. It's gonna be popular with girls. ”

He was a floating director who shook hands. He smiled, but he smiled bitterly. Unlike the fact that the director came to see the singular actor himself and expected, he didn't seem interested. Jaejae knew that the representative had invested quite a lot of money in the film. Without the TTO sign, would I be able to greet the director like this? It was impossible. Normally, it was just passing through without a name or a face.

“It's been filming since 7 pm. Until then, you can go free. Actors are gathering on the second floor. Call me if you feel uncomfortable. I'll be going, then. ”

The woman got up from her seat. I sat down to thank him for guiding me.

“Hey, I think I'm looking forward to betting on you. This is how the director came to see me. ”

“I don't think so, brother. ”

“Really?"

He's not expecting me, he's thanking me for the money he invested. I endured this horse as much as I could. Dong Woong, the manager, was a good person, but he lacked the ability to read people's feelings a little. Other members agreed that it was frustrating to have a conversation.

“You're tired. I've got a blanket here, so keep your eyes peeled. ”

“I'm fine. Coffee will cheer you up in no time. ”

The face of my brother who said that was exhausted. Seongjae put a blanket on the floor of the classroom and forced Dongdong to lie down.

“If the person who drives at dawn can survive with coffee, why do I need sleep? Go to sleep. I'll wake you up if I have to. ”

My brother who said he was fine fell down in a minute. I stood guard for a while and came out of the hallway. It's my dream cinema, but I'm not as happy as I thought.

‘You knew. This is how it's gonna be. ’

There were three responses from people in the hallway. A stranger who doesn't recognize and just passes by, who recognizes and greets, who recognizes and casts a strange gaze. There were overwhelmingly many third classes. The eyes of the people were prickly all over. I smiled and greeted him when I met him, but there was also a man who kicked my tongue when I turned around. Tsk, I wanted to follow that sound, but all I could do was smile.

Don't discriminate here. I can't tell you not to look at me like that. I don't even have the right to say that. Idol is being used in the drama, but his reputation is on the ground. In such situations, I thought it was cowardly and uncomfortable to ask for recognition as a horse and not be recognized as a skill.

I wanted to be recognized by the people in the field by demonstrating my skills in addition to what the public liked. I wanted to break the prejudice that Idol's acting skills were a mess and let people know that some actors were headed to Idol because they needed to.

"I'm an advertising face now, but I can prove that's not my limit. ’

He took a short breath and clenched his fist. This behavior was a kind of ritual for the geniuses. I put aside my anxiety and smiled comfortably. We shouldn't just wait. Images are created by the mover.

I went straight up to the second floor. I greeted everyone I met while moving. One of the things that was used as a rule for broadcasting was to say hello. There is no need to be ashamed of greeting your successor. Rather, pleasant hafing is created and can impress the latter as well. So you have to say hello.

The staff who want to shake your hand, the people who want you to sign for them, only go up to the second floor. Unlike the busy first floor, the second floor was definitely quiet. I heard voices from a classroom a little distance away. A quiet voice intersects with a raised voice. As soon as I heard it, I realized that it was script-reading.

I carefully opened the door to the classroom where I heard the sound of words. Inside, the actors who had seen the ceremony sat comfortably.

“Y-you……. ”

The white-haired actor narrowed his eyes and opened his mouth. Seongjae politely put his hands together and greeted the actors.

“I'm actress Ahn Sung-jae. I came to say hello.”

Greetings made the classroom quiet. He smiled tremblingly. The air was heavy.

Someone coughs unsightly. He tightened his lips and took care of his face. It is a more direct expression than the staff. I expected that I would not be nervous because I had already been there several times, but I always missed out on my expectations. I've been shaking like I'm auditioning. I was afraid that the actors sitting there would look at me with hostile eyes, and I dropped my gaze to the ground.

He filmed three dramas. From unnamed extras to gravity. There are a lot of idols in the drama, and that's why the perception of idols in the scene is not bad either. It's not exactly good, but it doesn't do that. It's because symbiotic relationships have become clear. Based on the fact that the audience rate of the drama using idols jumped by 5 percent, PDs' idol feeding has now become a practice. In the morning drama that housewives like, they even made a meaningless character and put an idol in it.

"That's different."

Drama and cinema. The context of actors acting to create works is the same, but there are invisible barriers in both worlds. Top class actors don't shoot dramas. It's one of the words floating on the floor. It's an expression of the pride of a movie actor.

I felt different from the ignore I had at the drama. The slate is a sanctuary, to say the least, where Idol has yet to enter. Now that Idol has come to such a place, what will the actors think?

Moreover, the film has a lot of attention and support, but the content alone does not get into the mainstream, in a way it is more like an independent film. While it's funny to overlook independent films with free ideas and fresh materials independent of capital to these massively supported films, it will be difficult to mark these films as commercial films that give up the excitement and reveal only the dark side of society.

It would be reasonable to say that Idol would come in and claim a spot in such a movie. Jaejae's face was burning. I have long been disappointed in the public and have abandoned the public's illusion, but I have not abandoned my respect for the actors who are playing in the field.

Those who sit here have not chosen the easy path, but have lived only by looking at the smoke. Even if they look at themselves faintly, they are willing to accept it.

“Are you coming from Seoul? ”

The voice is old and graceful, yet strong in words. The crowd I visited last time to say hello with my company's team leader was smiling abundantly.

“Yes, yes. ”

“You must be tired. Um, can we take a break, too? ”

The crowd slowly stood up and said. The actors holding the script nodded.

“Did I mention the Saint-Germain? ”

“Yes, this is Ahn Sung-jae. ”

“How are you? I could use a little air. ”

The crowd stepped out of the classroom with their backs. Seongjae bowed to the rest of the actors in the classroom and followed the crowd. After going down the stairs and arriving on the first floor, many of the staff there greeted the crowd. The amazing thing was that the public recognized each of the staff and called out their names. Yesterday he was not cold, or he ate, and yesterday he was moved by the fact that the first child had a fever and was exchanging the same kind words. The image of an actor who had only been drawn as an ideal existed in front of his eyes.

I came out to the playground holding the coffee staff had given me.

“It used to be a national school for children, but they closed it because there were no children in the village. ”

I shook my head and chased after the crowd. Sports grounds, mountain views behind the school, and quiet town vibes. In a quiet voice, the crowd told me such things. At first I wondered why I was saying this, but soon I just listened without thinking.

He raised his head as he stepped away. There was a big tree in front of my eyes. The tree was gluing its buttocks to the shade.

“Have a seat.”

“Yes.”

I sat down next to the door nervous. The wind blew. The playground with no one else felt a bit lonely, but I couldn't spare enough time to continue feeling that way for a long time. There's a presidential boat sitting right next to it. Can you look away from the landscape?

“Isn't it hard to smile like that? ”

“Yes? ”

“This, this. ”

The audience pointed to his mouth. Jaejae only recalled the thin smile he was making. Like a stiff arrow in my hand, I smiled at my mouth. The smile that was built by itself was close to the masks of the singers. A smile is made at some point without being conscious. It's a professional disease of Idol that should be well seen by fans.

“Learning doesn't lie. It's really fun to smile. Crying makes you really sad. So let go of the smile you're trying to put on your face. I'm not ashamed. ”

It was a strong beating of the heart. My mouth twitches. It was awkward and hard to try to get a smile that was always made. I looked so clumsy. It's been a while since I've made a face like this in front of people.

“Now I'm human. It was uncomfortable from the first moment I saw her. People who want to play the truth can't put lies on their faces from the meadow. ”

“…… Sorry. ”

“How hard is it? ”

“Yes?”

“That idol or something. Are you having a hard time?”

“No, it's not. ”

“Tell me honestly. I mean, it's so hard to smoke. Sometimes I want to run away because it's hard. Yesterday, I was sweating. I'm not crazy. I cried and laughed and got angry. It doesn't make sense that it's not hard. ”

I was looking at it with a bold eye. He could not tell lies to his eyes.

“I'm used to it…… losing. Hard. Hard. It's hard, but it's okay to be loved that much. ”

“Here we go again. ”

“Yes?”

I stared at the crowd with blank eyes.

“Here, here. It's a habit. Day. ”

The audience pointed to the mouth. He unconsciously raised his hand to touch the mouthpiece. A smile is raised. You are stunned as if you were guilty. It was already filtered out once that I told the truth. Are you used to trying to cover your mouth so you won't even notice it? Seongjae lowers his head. I was sorry for something.

At that moment, a thick hand rests on your neck.

“Take a walk around the mountain with me. ”

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My mouth is done, but it's still open.

I'm afraid that Spring Fall will be gone forever.

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Completion;

Pharynx