Life, Once Again!

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The mountain was surprisingly rugged. Just looking at the gentle ridge extending behind the school, I missed my guess. Rough, nocturnal road that doesn't reach people's feet. If you followed me with your shoes on, you'd be exhausted in no time.

“Mountains taste like this. ”

Seeing the back of the gateway going up the crooked mountain path, Seongjae sticks out his tongue. At 70 years old, his steps were stronger than his young self. Like a mountain man who had conquered countless mountains, the crowd stepped steadily to the top of the sky. He gripped his teeth and chased after them. I don't want to be left behind. My breath rises to the end of my jaw, but I take a step back. The quality was different from running a treadmill. I feel like I'm pressing up the mountain path all over my body.

“When I got here, I came up here once and I fell in love. ”

“Yes, you are. ”

“How hard is it? ”

“Oh, no. ”

I stole his forehead with the back of my hand.

“Try a little harder. I'll see you soon. ”

This place is slippery, so be careful, and the crowd points to the roots of the tree. He took off his checkered shirt. I felt a little energized as the sweat that flowed like rain washed away by the wind.

At some point, the question of why I had to come up here disappeared. I just walked away. Looking at the back of the door. After going up for about 10 more minutes, I strangely calmed my breath and started noticing the surrounding landscape. Borat flowers bloomed to the left and to the right. How long have I been in this place? He glances back. A colorful flower blossomed a long way down. I was fascinated by the way that I passed by and there were so many flowers that I could see, but I couldn't see them, so I just walked.

“Here we are. ”

I turned my head to the voice. There's a crowd up there gesturing to welcome you. After that, I vomited my breath and moved toward the top.

He was the one who soon stood next to the crowd.

Unlike the mountain path where the tall trees were covering the sky, the top of the mountain was not like the mountain. Thanks to this, my vision became wider. I looked at the open sky once and threw my eyes to a village far away. I thought it was a rural village with a house, but after looking down from a distance, the houses were sitting at a constant distance in a square as if it were cut into a ruler. I pulled my gaze forward, and I saw the school that was the starting point. It is quite crowded when people enter the field.

“Excuse me for a moment. ”

It was greeting towards the back. Jaejae turned around and asked what was going on. There were two well-preserved tombs. It was only then that I understood why there were no trees here.

He joined us quietly and greeted us.

“Do you know why people like mountains? ”

“The stories tell me that mountains are good because I can clear my head.... ”

The crowd smiles and nods.

“This is how you climb the mountain when you're in trouble. It's a kind of evasion. Nothing will be solved right now, but at least the worries will go away. I can't think of anything to think about while I'm gasping for breath. Don't you think?”

Sitting on a flat seat, the door slapped the side seat with the palm of the hand. Seong-jae quickly sat next to him.

“It's nice and hard to be a popular celebrity at a young age. I don't know much about Idol because I'm old, but I know that friends like you are loved a lot. ”

“Love.... ”

Jaejae blurred the end of his words. I know that I am receiving the public's attention. Shake hands with a camera that's pushing you everywhere. But is it love?

“I'm not sure. Whether I'm being loved or not. ”

“Why do you think that is? ”

“At first I thought it was love. But lately, it's a little scary. When I had fewer fans, I always heard good things. Cheer up, cheer up, congratulations. But after the awareness went up, I heard more bad things. I knew that no celebrity was ever loved by the public. Even though I was being prepared, the strength grows stronger and stronger. My older brother used to drink poisoned drinks. From then on, the people who were the subjects of gratitude felt frightened. ”

The incident triggered Seongjae to view the public as a target of use, not as a target of gratitude. How can I love a fan who only gave out poison because he didn't reply to the fan letter? If that's love, then "misogynist" is philanthropy.

“I think I have something more to say. Please speak freely. There's only one ear to hear here. ”

I was throwing my eyes away and talking to him. He squirmed his lips and confided in me. The public isn't interested in acting anyway, it's just a stupid group chasing popularity.

“I had a friend who was studying acting as a child. He was a really good actor, and he didn't doubt his success around him. And then, over time, he stumbled across this guy who was living on an extra day without even putting his name on the end-credits. And I realized that at the time, People don't want to see someone who's good at acting, they just want to see someone they like play. ”

Jaejae smiled bitterly, reminiscing about that moment.

“Honestly, I was happy when I met him. because I was successful, as you can see. It was a famous idol that kicked the butt of a popular drama. The only fact that I was in a position where the guy who was better at acting than me didn't get it was overwhelming. But at the same time, it became empty. As long as you get your reputation as an actor like this, it's possible because it was always Idol Anseong Jae. ”

He lowered his gaze to the ground.

“So I auditioned for this film to get away from that bias. And when I was informed that I had passed, I believed I could do it. But I found out a while ago. My acceptance was actually already discussed between companies. In a few days' time, there will be articles everywhere. Sungjae Ahn, successfully casting the movie with skills. When I found out about it, I was embarrassed and couldn't lift my face, but after a few days, I felt better again. And then I got scared again. This time it's not the public, it's me. This is getting dull, this is getting tooled up. No matter how good you are, you just have to take a picture... ”

After spitting it out, Seong-jae kept his mouth shut. I said too much because I was strong.

“Actors can't be free of money. No, who in the world would be free of money? If people like you a lot and find you a lot, that's all I'd be grateful for. ”

“…… aren't you angry? ”

“Anger?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“A kid like me is going to be in this movie. There must have been someone better... ”

The crowd laughed.

“Don't underestimate yourself. ”

“Yes?”

“Do you know who's producing this film? ”

“I know you're Lee Jun-min's boss. ”

“Yes, he's in charge of the whole thing. Casting is his business, too. And he's not a pathetic man who would put an amateur human being into his work for money. Because if you're elected, you have the skills to play the part. Money. Secondary problem. He's not generous enough to adopt someone without acting. ”

“ ……. ”

“And I think the actors were upset because they weren't happy, but that's not because you're a child. ”

“Then why……. ”

“I'm tired.”

“Blood, are you tired? ”

“I drank shaky drinks until dawn. You walked into a car that everybody was messing with to get out of the lockdown. I wasn't staring at you because you had a bad feeling, I just couldn't bring myself to greet you because of the hangover. ”

“He coughed.... ”

“I think my throat hurt. ”

The door thumps at your shoulders.

“Those people over there are all fools. The placenta is the one who jumped into the smoke because of the good smoke and a stable life. So we don't ignore people we play with for no reason because they're people. Rather cheer you on, like me. ”

I was walking down the mountain path in a relaxed pace like when I came up. Jaejae stood up, embracing the complex feeling. At that moment, I heard a slightly cooler voice coming home.

“But, on the contrary, if you can't show your skills in the field, you'll be colder than you care to admit. So I hope you do well. They're the best people I've ever met. If your resolve is too clumsy to be swayed by people's eyes, you won't be able to stand it. Even younger-than-you can't do that. It's a place where you stand up and fight. If I'm not good enough, I'll probably get fired. Most of all, I'm gonna say it out loud. I can't deal with him. ”

A ferocious word that came out of the mouth of the door that I thought was a kind person. The back of my neck gives me the creeps.

“Struggling like a child, accepting it is only the first day. Isn't this where amateurs come to play? I'm here to show you the results. ”

He swallowed dry saliva. I remembered what the representative said before I left here. We can't afford any mistakes this time. What the representative said every time, but what was even worse, was that the representative was in the position of. If you can't cut it, it's a notice, not a warning.

“If you care about people's eyes and have time to worry about your position, you might want to rethink the basics of acting. First try fixing that crappy expression and expressing your honest feelings. If the actor really tried, he'll soon learn a way and give you a face to look at. Otherwise, all you're going to hear on the set today is" go back "or" edit. "”

The one in front of me was not a laughing grandfather for a worried young friend, but a strict and cold person who was responsible for his work. He realizes how pathetic and insignificant his worries were. It's public, it's popular, and it's all coming later. It was time to strike the soul at the film ahead. The Bible teaches us that it is not a green film to be cared for elsewhere.

“I don't want this movie to go to shit. ”

He nods heavily.

“Then let's go down. ”

I was returning to a comfortable impression.

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“Sir, did you say something to him? ”

I asked, pointing to the talent that is far away.

“Why?”

“No, he was looking at all kinds of worries when he arrived in the daytime, and now he's got clear eyes. ”

In the middle of the sentence, he smiled a little.

“I only said a few words so I could do my best. ”

“As expected, sir. How did you know my supervisor's heart so well that you stepped up first and gave me a chart? I admire you, I love you, sir. ”

It was the middle with a smile on my face.

“Grow up when you get older. I'm not a child.”

“Again, again. Ah! That little kid... Did he go to the house on the floor? ”

“Gone.”

“You worthless bastard. I tried to compliment you for being so pretty, and you didn't even say hello? ”

“Say hello to the man who was sleeping drunk. I came to see you this morning, and I told you to leave. ”

“Aha.”

“But why the floor? ”

I said, "Oh, because the PDs I know are in a drama. I'm looking for a high school actor there, and I'd like to recommend it. ”

“What are you doing here? A colorful man who insists on swearing later. ”

“You have to make a deposit in advance before you can use it later when you're old enough. We invest in horses that will grow well. And I don't think he'd be insulted if I recommended him. ”

“What a guy. ”

“You were the one under Joon-min's brother, right? ”

“That's right."

“I'll put a phone in later. By the way, how come the producer never shines his nose. Isn't the producer the one who told you not to worry about this? ”

“If you grumble at me, nothing comes out. ”

“I want you to chew with me. You know that.”

I gave the door's phone number to the laughing middleman. When it is opened like this at an important time, it becomes easier to grow into a big actor.

‘Expand your feces, experiencing them one by one. ’

The crowd always smiled pleasantly, thinking of the blunt expression on their faces.

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I loved the public swing novel, and I recently found out that the novel was published, and I bought it and read it. That's great. There's no humor in the swing, but the thrilling side makes you stand up with your thumb up.

While I was reading, Nam San Seong disappeared as well. Writer Kim Hoon's sentences are dense and like steel cogs, so reading them chokes my breath. In a good way. What does a sentence like that have to do with anything?

I've chased after each of the abandoned islands a few times, but Carl's songs always remain an ideal scent.

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... by the way, why doesn't the rank drop?

D;

It's strange.

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Referrals, always appreciated.

Coupon, thank you. I write thanks to you.

Completed:

Pharynx.