Life, Once Again!

I heard an album jacket with the name 'Kwon Da Yun’ on it. Seeing him smiling brightly makes me feel bad. Dayun tossed the album onto the couch. The album that bounced off the couch fell to the ground. As the plastic container split in half, the ejected CD fluttered to the left and to the right and sticks to the floor. Next to him, I saw the faces of the members posing nicely in an open jacket. Dayun picks up a cushion on the sofa and throws it toward the CD. I don't want to see you.

I looked at the TV dazed in a crouched position wrapped around my arms. The story of the Five is unfolding. Today, the agency that I wanted to talk to you about has officially announced the termination of the contract. The camera illuminates the hard work of demonstrating with a black mask in front of the company building.

“Fuck off. You're going to throw it away if you forget it anyway. ”

Dayun turned on the TV channel. It's a comedy show. Did you make him smile? I pressed the remote control nervously. I don't like any channels In the end, it was a channel through which foreign languages flowed. I prefer a foreign language that I don't understand.

I got up and opened the refrigerator. Inside an empty refrigerator is a pizza I ordered yesterday. It was pizza that I wanted to eat when I was a trainee, but now I can eat it freely. There is no fear of flesh. If you want to get rid of it, you can get rid of it even if you're hungry. I'm just sick of it. Do not enter the castle. With cheap food like that.

I turned a piece to the microwave because I was hungry. I came back to the couch with a soggy pizza. The texture of moist pizza spreads in my mouth. I chewed a few times and spit them back on the plate. I can't believe I'm supposed to be eating this. I went into the kitchen and opened the trash can and threw the pizza in. The aroma of tomato paste that remains in my mouth is disgusting. I put on my mouth with tap water and drank a glass of milk.

It's an unscheduled day, but there's nowhere to go. After becoming an adult with my parents, I left the kite. I didn't want to give them hard earned money for their convenience. Every once in a while, Dayun wanted to smash her phone when she called me for travel expenses. Humans who never get tired of it. Even if I told you never to contact me again, Gekko calls me to talk about money. It's like a cockroach. A creepy creature crawling out of nowhere, no matter how hard you kill it. I wish I could just disappear quietly.

Dayun bites her nails. I know very well why I feel so uneasy and irritable. Time is running out. Tick, tick, I hear a second sound coming from the digital clock.

“Let's... think about it. ”

Dayun took off her pajamas. I sat in my underwear in front of the crematorium. I can see your face coming alive. This can't be happening. He smiled lightly. Facial muscles made me smile that best fits in my shovel time. This could be a machine.

It improves skin texture and makes cheeks lighter. People I meet today don't like excessive makeup. He is a person who loves Sun-mi, as if he did not love her. I drew a little line and even applied lipstick in a light color. I brushed my frizzy hair with a comb and spread it with a straightener. A dark hair that comes up to your chest.

I took my underwear out of the closet. A white underwear set without patterns. I changed and stood in front of the whole mirror. Looking at the body without any arrows makes me feel a little better. You wear a blue dress and have a silver necklace with a small cross. Finish with a beige floppy hat. When you bend your head, your face is covered by a wide peak and you can only see the chin line.

I sat quietly on the living room couch with my cell phone. When I put on my clothes, I feel like the annoyance and grumbling that I had just been wrapped up in my whole body disappeared. I also have a faint smile.

“You must be crazy. ”

It was time to shed a smile. There is a strong vibration in your hand. It gives me goosebumps from the waist dance. I took a small breath and answered the phone. That's him.

“Yes, yes. Okay."

I took a deep breath and came out. I was taking the elevator to my accommodation and a person got on the other floor. Dayun lowered her head and touched her phone. I can feel the man who just climbed up.

The elevator has arrived on the first floor. Dayun got out of the apartment quicker than a man. I looked around and walked. Luckily, no one seems to recognize it.

just off the beaten path of the apartment complex. Dayun shrugged her shoulders and walked tall. People won't recognize it anyway. It is because if you do not wear stage makeup and costumes, the impression of idols will be faint.

But the men's gaze is still irritating. A pretty face is a blessing from heaven. Dayun looked at his face as it flashed against the glass of the building. I can live thanks to this face. You smile enough to see four neat upper teeth. It's an attractive face for one's self. I wish I had a higher nose, but I don't want to operate. It's because I saw a doll that had just been discovered as a plastic surgery was buried. Surgery should be done before the debut. Then you have to insist it is a natural acid.

Funny, surgery must be a risk-taking act, too, but the public tries only to be pretty with less weight. Everything else is a fraud and a sin. At that point, Dayun only thanked herself with a beautiful face. It would have been terrible if she looked like her parents.

“Yeah, I'm pretty. ”

I feel much better. I live with beauty. How nice. I took a few more steps to the side of the road while I watched the cars on the sixth lane. The black sedan slides in front of him. The passenger seat door opens. Dayun bends her knees slightly to identify the person on the inside. He's looking at me, too.

“Get in.”

The man said, Dayun nods, looks around again and climbs into the car. I put up the window and took off my hat. The man was lighting a cigarette.

“Defend one. ”

“Yes.”

All Dayun can do is answer and wait. There are not many situations where you can leave a doctor behind. He was a man who smoked for a long time and breathed slowly. He's fifty years old. He's an officer of a construction firm he knows just by name. At the same time, I have a thick friendship with the representative of the company.

It was two years ago that I met this man. Before 'Blue' was formed, Dayun was frustrated as a ruined idol member. The six members, who were determined to succeed with a burning will, became airborne as the representative of the agency went underground. Twenty-two years old. He was dangerous as an idol. The situation where the representative took all the hard money. The group was unpopular, so no other agency came in contact with it. The manager he worked with quit cursing and even the director left for another company. We hugged each other and scattered the members that we wanted to live forever. Three of them make their debut with the other idol, and the two disappear without a sound.

Dayun was a dead end. Should I start part-time again, or should I start preparing for work now? The impact was so great when the road collapsed looking at only one idol. The word suicide could not feel so familiar. I thought why people would jump from the Han River Bridge into the cold water, but after it was disbanded, I found the Han River Bridge, and I understood that feeling. I was so afraid of the land that I was on my feet. Scared of the land.It's not funny, but it was. I don't know how many times I pushed my head over the ledge.

By then, I knew this man. It was a drink for the same member. I didn't feel good, but I had to say something, so I left. And when the man who became his father was at the bar, Dayun was both frightened and relieved. It felt like a rope came down.

I've heard a lot of rumors. There are a lot of women approaching celebrities. It doesn't happen to high-class actors, but it was also handsome for celebrities like yourself who were on the edge of a cliff.

The first drink was literally a drink. Drink lightly and talk. There were no nasty eyes or dirty hands. Dayun, who was nervous, felt like she was playing with her older brother. The man who got up first to say he had to go home gave him 500,000 won. All I did was drink and listen to a few words.

Taking hold of the money in his hands, Dayun realizes that this moment is a divergent point. This can be done once. Let's just say you made some allowance and forgot about it. At first, I tried to. I didn't feel bad because I wasn't abused.

However, when confronted with the fact that he had to come into the trail room and have a part-time interview tomorrow, Dayun texted me to see if it went well with the number stored on her phone.

Since then, Dayun has experienced things she has never experienced in her life. I could buy all the clothes I liked at the mall, taste the food that melted out of my mouth, and watch movies about myself in cinemas. The world was different. The people who lived on salaries were people who lived in a world they could never imagine.

When we met more often and went back to the bar, the man said. I'll push you. Will you let me do it? Dayun heard that word as sex. Dayun replied, "Yes," while shaking his guilt. Dayun slept with a man at the hotel that night. Even though he was fifty years old, his body was strong enough to have a steady workout and a balanced meal every day.

After the relationship, Dayun thought that maybe this life will be okay too. We keep each other's secrets. This guy has a wife, too. Moreover, Dayun gradually began to like men. Emotionally speaking, isn't it a crime to get help from someone you love?

Later, a giant company called Yellow Star asked me to participate as a trainee. Dayun thought that the man had given her strength, and after a while, she waved her back as best she could when she met the man. I licked my penis with my mouth and massaged my whole body. And I said I love you.

Since then, I've been working as a Blue trainee and made a debut. A second-hand idol ticket followed at first, but quickly disappeared. There was a fan cafe, and inside it was called "The Queen's Sister." After his debut, he burst a huge album in a row and quickly became successful. More people started recognizing him and the concert started in a year. I was not worried because the contract still lacked revenue, but it was a matter to be resolved soon. I was happy, having entered the golden world from a miserable lifetime.

From then on, Dayun became burdened with the man. Once the scandal is over, Idol's life is over. I avoided the phone call from the man and ran around saying it was hard to meet because of the schedule. I was obsessed with Idol's life, holding on to myself that love was a mistake.

I thought it would be popular without a hitch. I thought this happiness would last forever. However, after a year, my relationship with my members has worsened dramatically. I don't know what to do. When we woke up, it was annoying to talk to each other. It got worse when I went out on the air. A life where you smile and clasp your arms, shout for love, and then come home and insult each other with cold expressions.

As soon as there was a disagreement, my rank dropped like a lie. I never missed first place, but I never finished first in the week of album release. It was a sign of a crash. Number two was an unsettling figure. The new idol appeared younger, prettier and cuter than itself. Idol has been in the top five weeks in a row listening to the songs of popular composers. They vanished from the rankings in second place.

At that time, the delegate gathered the Blue in one place and said: Let's work in our own backyard. It wasn't dismantling the team. like TTO.

The first thing that stood out was filling. After receiving quite an acclaim from the drama behind Idol's reputation, he was cast in a drama called "The Youth Age."

"Whew."

Dayun awoke from thought. The man was lighting a cigarette. The black smell pierces my nose. I smell disgusting, but I'm fine now. No, now it even smells good. The man shuts up and leaves the car. Dayun glanced at the man. The man was on the phone somewhere. It was about the construction site. Dayun looked at the photo lying on the dashboard. The sophisticated lady and the man standing next to her, and the young daughter and son smiled brightly in front of her. At that moment, the man reaches out and presses down on the picture that was fixed on the dashboard. Dayun looked down at me for no reason.

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