Life, Once Again!

“Sis! Stir-fried rice here! Two, no, three! ”

Hannah shouted with a spoon overhead. Six pork bellies and cold noodles aren't enough.

“Hey, he's having another drink. ”

Kanghwan pointed to several days. The floor raised its chopsticks and struck for days. A few days after looking at it with a frowny face, I hold a cup of wine.

“To make someone suffer. ”

The floor takes the cup and puts it aside. I've had two already. If you look at the sunset face, it seems like it's already a limit, but you insist on looking for alcohol.

“I'm not drunk. ”

“Those who say that are often drunk. Shut up and drink some water. ”

I poured water into the beer.

Friday evening, after practice, I entered the pork belly house in front of the practice room an hour ago. Unlike the original intention of getting up after eating lightly, there were more dishes and bottles of pork belly.

“My living expenses are going to bury my bones here today. ”

I saw Hannah chewing her purse with sad eyes. Hannah's food was unusual, and she was eating meat constantly for several days, so the price of the check was constantly updating. I ordered fried rice, so it might end here, but I think it might not be if I look at Hannah looking carefully at the shop menu.

“Hannah, you used to eat so much? ”

I asked Kanghwan quietly.

“It is a type to eat when stressed. That's what happens when you're in a play. By the way, you're not getting drunk. You emptied two bottles. ”

“I see. I guess I'm getting good at drinking. Speaking of which, have a drink. Makgeolli.”

A cup full of rice wine was poured. After lightly smashing the cup, I drank the white makgeolli as a stir-fried kimchi. I laughed as I hit the back of my neck heavily.

“The floor.”

“Yes?”

“Are you a little greedy for acting these days? ”

“Acting?”

You hear a murmur for a moment, but you don't hear it.

Greed. I twisted the cup once, drank a cup of rice wine. The Ganghwan who asked me also took a look and picked up chopsticks and ate a piece of meat.

If he got paid enough, he would shoot the whale, the delicious sound of roaring meat, and the sharp noise of chopsticks grinding the floor were suddenly revived.

“Greedy.”

In a conversation I had with the speaker a long time ago, I had a similar question. At that time, the floor said it wasn't greedy. The goal of the actor is to make money. He chose acting as one of the means for a great return, so he had no reason to be greedy. A process is just a process. Setting expectations is the quality of the outcome, not the completeness of the process.

But a lot has changed now. One thing led me to prioritize the outcome, but I also coveted the process. Not only did I become interested in acting itself, I also wanted to go one step further and become a good actor. I wanted to go up to the stage where I told the audience that the actor they worked with and breathed with, rather than the actor they liked, was a good actor.

The feeling of accepting everything I could give and accepting it with all my heart was an indescribable joy. One cut of the movie I filmed with my elder, the conversation I had with him, and recently, the acting with Joohyun. I felt inadequate, but I laughed because I was enjoying it at the same time.

I want to continue acting like that.

It was a sentence on one side of my chest from a moment on.

“You're in trouble. Poor kid.”

Kanghwan pours rice wine into an empty glass. The floor smiles and takes a cup.

“The rookie would have said before. It's crazy how hard it is for an actor to eat acting. When I saw you before, I had nothing to worry about. It didn't look like he was turning shit on. If I didn't, I'd look like I'd be doing something else right now. It doesn't mean lack of effort or impatience. I'm just saying, cutting and cutting is like knives. ”

“If I'm still wrong, I'll do something else. You have to make money.You have to make money to be happy. ”

At that time, he said a few days when he was keeping his head down.

“I'm not happy because I have a lot of money, really. ”

You shout it out and make fun of it again, then nod loudly at the table. A small vibration knocks the glass apart.

“He's gone completely. Well, you don't look like you're on the floor right now, and when you practiced with me a year ago, all you could see was your theory memorized and applied, but not now. You're enjoying yourself.”

“You see that, too? ”

“I see it. I've seen a few. ”

The cup struck again. Meanwhile, Hannah was targeting fried rice by herself. After a few days of drinking and stumbling, I can't wait.

“Enjoy. So that I won't have any regrets when I turn around. ”

“You already tell your future successor you regret it. ”

“The sooner the better. It's better to regret when you still have a lot of choices than to regret when you can't turn back. ”

“But you're going to keep doing this. ”

“Me? Because I'm good. I'm confident that no one in this country is better at acting than I am. I'm gonna be. You will. ”

If the unknown drunkard had said it, he would have laughed and moved on, but even that light joke sounded like a great man's ambition as a floor that knew his future. It really will be, Mr. Kanghwan.

“Sister! I want two hot peppers and some more seaweed soup. ”

You turn your head to the side in a cheerful voice. Hannah raises her hands and shouts.

I sighed deeply as I looked at the blankness with sad eyes. The floor followed the Lord up into an empty cup.

“Oh, right. The teacher wants to see you next week. You brought it up. ”

“Yes, I told him I was packing meat. ”

“Is that doll coming over there? ”

“Yes, my elderly allowed it. ”

“Then don't worry about it. It's been a long time since I've had a crooked nose. Teacher, you're a person who sees the end once you start. Is he drinking with you? ”

“We tried it together, but there was no injection. ”

“There you go. But you seem to be drinking all over the place. ”

“It's a rare hobby. ”

“Hey, don't struggle because you're old, drink up. Here comes the fatty liver.”

“You're the one who cares. ”

While chatting, there was extra pork belly.

“Let's eat first. Before you finish it alone. ”

“Yes, let's eat. ”

Both of them picked up chopsticks and approached the fire.

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“I'll take her. I have business in Seoul. ”

It was Hannah walking up and down for a few days.

“Come on, Hannah. ”

“I see.”

“It's cold. Let's go in. ”

Friday evening, the 1st street of Anyang was bright as daylight, even after 11: 00. It is not because of the light emitted by the sign, but because of the red faces of people coming and going on the road. I left the crowded streets and came out to the side of the road.

“You didn't bring your car, did you? ”

“Of course. I'm going to sleep in the steam room out front. ”

“You're from Seoul, right? ”

“Well, you're in the water, so it's a quick bus ride. Go inside. Your parents will be worried. Oh, by the way, do you mind if I smell like booze? ”

“Child farmers think grazing is the best. Don't blame me if I don't cause you any trouble. ”

“You're a great parent. ”

“Excellent.”

I was waiting in front of the traffic light. I saw a man calling a whale cab. Next to him, there was a woman who was either drunk or unable to control herself.

“Floor, are you still seeing her? ”

“We're making good friends. Aren't you looking for someone to marry? ”

“We'll find it. Hey, Maruya. Thirty-three is the age of intimacy. ”

“When are you getting married around here? ”

“I know. ”

“Are you seeing anyone? ”

“Word got around. I'm busy. I don't see a good woman. ”

“Why don't you go on TV? Then you'll be standing here and there. ”

“Camera drama is not in my nature. ”

“Are you not interested in movies? ”

“Well, I'll do anything later, but all I want to do now is play. There are times when acting is. There's a difference between a stage you can digest at thirty-three and a stage you can digest at thirty-four, because a year and a year is a long way to go. ”

“But you should try it when you come in. ”

“My CEO would do it, but he won't let me do it. Hey, I'm talking about love. Why are you turning to money again? Speaking of which, could you give me a date? ”

“Sunbae.”

“Why?”

“That's a crime. ”

“How old are you in love? ”

“Age is a shame. ”

“Son of a bitch, that's enough. Play with your young friends. Thirty-three old men will die trying to poison themselves. ”

It was speaking with a big movement like a play. Thanks to this, people around me are looking at me. The floor tries to take a small step, but the flickering arm of steel closes around your neck.

“Be nice. Because love makes me feel so much when I'm with you. ”

“Don't worry. You're doing great.”

“Yes, you will. But what are you doing with the kids these days? ”

“It's the same. We'll talk after the movie. ”

“Hey, you should love at your age with a little enthusiasm and a little sprinkle. What's with the fancy setup? ”

“It's kind of weird to like it. ”

“Ugh. It's weird that he likes this guy. In a time of girl sentiment, humans like this kind of firecracker wouldn't be fun, but it's amazing. ”

The floor shrugs and opens its mouth.

“My girlfriend is not that girly. ”

“Does he have dozens of mental nites just like you? ”

“It just means it's not childish. ”

“What's not childish? ”

“You don't have to tell each other, you know, understand each other, that sort of thing. ”

Then the signal changed. The arm around his neck is loosened. At the same time, I said this.

“Hey."

“Yes?”

“Not usually. The little girl who was my apprentice last winter, she wasn't. Well, she's your girlfriend, so you should know better. But I don't think he was that stubborn. ”

Kanghwan's hand grazed the forehead of the floor.

“engrave on my heart the words of a lover. That what you see in him and what he really looks like might be different. ”

“... Are you drunk? ”

“Did you get caught? Puhahaha! ”

He was swinging his hand across the sidewalk. The floor looks behind him and turns away.

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Ramen.

At dawn, ramen.

This made me hungry after eating a few days.

Ramen.

Eggs.

Par.

A fucking fist.

Pepper powder.

The Great Wave.

And garlic.

Baggable.

Successful.

1: 37 A.M.

Noodles smell great.

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