Life, Once Again!

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“Autumn is autumn. ”

“I see.”

She said with her coat zipped up. I was used to going home looking up at the moon sky. It's strange to climb home at sunset.

The commander waved his hands carefully to one of his followers who was leaving. The short haircut of the deputy director shakes his head.

“Haven't you had a hard time lately? ”

The manager opened his mouth on the way to the convenience store. She hesitated and said, "It's going to be okay."

“You must be having a hard time. I can tell you're holding it together. ”

“It's not like I can't practice. ”

“Who's practicing? You look tired these days. It's not easy to act for someone else's money, is it? ”

The manager raises his shoulder bag.

“It's not easy. ”

“When was the broadcast? ”

“The first room is next week. You want to see?”

“I have to. I can't make fun of you. ”

“You too. ”

I opened the convenience store door and went inside. The warmth surrounds my body, and I sighed a little. He picked out some supplies and headed to the cash register.

“Have a drink. ”

“I'm fine.”

“Then drink this. ”

The manager had a beverage with ginseng prints in it that seemed to be useful just to look at. She caught a strawberry milk as the deputy chief was the one who could push it into the gear coffer even if I stopped her.

“I love strawberry milk. I drink it every time I see it. ”

“This is my favorite. ”

“Then so am I. ”

I came out after I finished the calculations. The wind blows and you see the foliage scraping through the asphalt with a thundering sound.

“I have two months left. I was wondering when I'd graduate, but I'm already graduating. ”

I sat in a chair in front of the convenience store. The manager searches inside the envelope and pulls out an apple pie. She said, "I'll eat well," and got the pie.

“Which department are you going to? ”

“Me? Going to business school. ”

“You have good grades, so you can go wherever you want. ”

Three times a week. The number the manager participates in the exercise. Generally, if an undergraduate aims to progress to university has been inactive until 11: 00 p.m., he or she will hear a shout from his/her parents or classroom, but he or she is away from that general student. No one can blame me for doing this part of my life because I am a grade-1 student. He's a great man in many ways, our director.

“You're not going to make it at the end of October, are you? ”

“I'm going. Just not for long. I told him it would be better to concentrate on the moon before his class and so do I. ”

“Sunbae.”

“Huh?"

“Go play at the university, too. You're good. ”

It's a hobby to enjoy, but it's a waste of skill. Even if it wasn't aimed at an actor, there was a desire for you to continue acting. As a performer, as a fan who likes an actor.

“Well, I don't know about that. Now, it's fun to spend my time making plays, but I wonder if I'll enjoy going to college. I enjoyed playing with you guys, because the play itself wasn't fun. ”

The manager smiled with a small mouth. A faint white breath in the air is scattered by the wind.

“Are you going to continue acting? The actor said it was a dream. ”

“Yes, I will continue. ”

“Call me when it gets popular. ”

“What if it's not popular? ”

“Keep in touch, though. ”

He was the manager who laughed and drank milk. After the director graduated, I suddenly thought that the poor would become silent.

“Are you going with the college theater? ”

“If nothing else, I'm sure. ”

“My answer is shivering. ”

“I'm thinking about it. because a lot of my favorite actors don't go to college. I wish I could, but I have to go. I had a feeling this time on the set. ”

“What?”

“Maybe a year on the ground is more valuable than four years of college. although they all have their pros and cons. ”

“I have nothing to say to you. about the university, about the site. Oh, I didn't mean for this to happen. ”

He was the deputy director who laughed at Vashsi while touching his short hair with his fingertips. She tilts her head and looks at you. I don't know what that means.

“I was going to put you on the cute lady-in-waiting, but it's not going to be as easy as I thought. ”

“Comfort?”

“I told you before. You look tired. That's why I was trying to blow off the stress while listening to the story and playing the game... It's not easy. Hey, I got some forms to try as a senior. ”

She glances at the fat-looking chief for a long time and smiles. That's why I've been talking to you since I practiced this afternoon. It's similar to usual, but I can understand how awkward it was.

“I don't know about anything else, but it's amazing what I notice. That's why I get nervous when I see a bad kid. I can see it. It's different. ”

“Am I that bloated? ”

“It seems to me. ”

“Sunbae.”

“Huh?"

“How about being a detective instead of business school? Look into the criminal mind of a beautiful detective. ”

He said in theatrical tones, posing as a detective by making his hand look like a pistol, as if he was waiting for you. It is because of this type of delightful entertainment that the subordinates like the director.

She kicks the leaf that rolled in front of her eyes. The mangled leaves roll towards the drainage.

“Sunbae.”

“Huh?"

“What would you do if someone hated you publicly? ”

The wrinkles on her arms reminded her of the dark face, she said. The questioned deputy stares at her quietly.

“Why?”

“No, I'm just surprised there's someone out there who hates you. There are all kinds of stars in the world. ”

My boss picks up his chin and swallows milk before opening his mouth.

“Is that someone you don't like a friend? ”

“No, he's a lot older than I am. ”

“Oh, really? Then we can't fight. If you were a friend, I'd tell you to think about it after kicking a heretic in the side. ”

It sounds like a joke, but the manager convinced me to move on. The deputy chief touched one side of his neck and thought.

“Don't think about it. It's just a thoughtless question. ”

“No. I have a chance to be a senior like everyone else, but I can't blow it up. Hang on. You're not a bad head, so you should be able to give me a good answer. Wait a minute."

The chief, who was touching his neck rhythmically with his fingers, shrugged his head.

“Are you hard to be angry with? ”

“Yes.”

“Then you can't talk to them? ”

“Probably not. ”

“Surely the answer is heresy. ”

“Sunbae.”

“I'm kidding. But counseling is hard. I can see why the teachers only say the same thing. It's not easy to advise others. ”

“What would you do if you were a senior? ”

“It's me……. ”

“Except for the heresy. ”

“How the hell do you see me? ”

The commander folded his legs together and opened his eyes sharply. It's feminine, but it really doesn't suit me. His tightly bitten lips twist quickly, and he gives you a chuckle.

“Don't look at me like that because I know I don't fit in. ”

“You look even prettier when you grow your hair and put on makeup. ”

“I know, but if you're prettier here, you won't be able to make it popular. ”

“…… Yes. ”

“A subtle mob answer? You've grown up, bunny. ”

The manager sniffed once.

“If it were me, I'd slam it to the end. Either I'm broken, or they're broken, and I'm not gonna back down until either one of them is. If he looks at me, I'll look at him, and if he curses, I'll double it. ”

He was the manager speaking in a calm voice. She nods once. That's the kind of man he'd be. A human who will never back down. I will not be able to overcome any hardships because I am strong and stubborn.

“But not the way I would recommend it. I think about it sometimes. Wouldn't it have been better to take a step back from it? ”

After hearing the commander's words, she gives a voice.

“I want to be like you. But I'm afraid to stand in front of him. I want to run away. I just want to pray that I'm wrong. But I can't do that again. Strange. I'm so confused I don't know what I want to do. I want to fight, I want to bow my head, I want to pray. ”

“So what did you tell him? ”

“I... I didn't say anything nice. Let's fight to the end. Only nuance. And... I regretted it so much. That's why I can't sleep. ”

“Hey, my Satsuni. ”

The commander kicked my tongue and lightly shoulder me. The tapping made me feel a little better, but I felt relieved that there were no problems resolved soon. My heart aches whenever I think of her face. There are times when the sharp spots are stuffy like those you put on in a hurry to eat, and sometimes you get a cold sweat like you had a nightmare.

I can't ask for help from the people in the field, and I can't even hesitate to tell my mom to stop right now if I talk to her.

I think I'll feel better if I yell at the manager. Would it make me feel better to say it's unfair with tears pouring out? The chief looked worried into her eyes when she thought about it. She... smiles.

“It's okay, though. Oh, I'm gonna go in now. It's last minute.”

“Time has already come. ”

“Hey, thanks for listening. I feel so much better now. I'm not worried at all. ”

The deputy chief smiled vaguely when he heard that. You're the deputy director who said you can see fast. You already know what's in my heart.

“I'm sorry I couldn't be more help. I'm wasting my time. ”

“No, not really. ”

She runs away violently. The commander shrugged his shoulders and stood up.

“Yes, go ahead. Be careful in the dark.”

“Take care, too. ”

“I don't care if it's me or the pervert. I just need to knock him out. ”

I greeted the waving manager to say goodbye and walked towards the bus stop.

‘I shouldn't have said that. ’

It was better not to say. It's a bad thing to expect when you know it's a problem that others can't solve. I felt sorry for the look on the director's face just before the breakup. It's not your fault.

‘Yes, it's better not to say. “

I felt like I was about to be depressed. You don't have to share your concerns. It's hard enough being alone. It's better that way.

She remembered the look of the floor she had seen at the movie theater before. The tough kid, who had never been sick, was crying himself to death watching the movie. I wonder how much I've been through and how much I've endured alone.

Everyone will have a hard time. So you don't have to show your hardship to others. You have to endure pain and fear, but you have to endure it.

On the bus, she unconsciously bites her nails. Then I heard a chirp, and my nails snapped. She flinches once. Thinking about tomorrow's shoot, my mouth went dry. I tried to turn my mind away, but it wasn't easy.

When the bus was almost home, a call came from the floor.

- I just wanted to hear your voice. Is this your house?

“No, on my way. ”

- You've been practicing?

“Uh, are you home? ”

- Almost there.

“Yes. Be careful in there. ”

She swallows the words hovering in her mouth. I don't want to fight like a child. But I felt like I would cry and talk without knowing it if I kept talking. So she decided to hang up.

“I have to get off now. Goodbye.”

- Are you... are you okay?

“Of course it's okay. Don't worry about a thing. I'm serious, I'm serious. ”

That's when I said it. Nothing came back from my phone. There was some noise, and then the phone was disconnected. She pulls her chin slightly, clenching her lips, and tucks her phone into her pocket. I pressed the buzzer slightly and stood in front of the back door. The bus stops and the door opens. She takes a sniff down the stairs.

A shivering wind sweeps through her face once, and she crouches slightly and sets foot on the ground in the cold.

I saw someone sitting on the bench. The girl in the brown cardigan waved her hand, looking at this side with a straight face, and said at the same time:

“My mother said, He's not home yet. That's quite a night, isn't it? ”

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It was snowing.

It's not scattering. It's accumulating snow.

When I came back, I was happy, and I, uh... I couldn't help but sigh.

Attention, all commuters.

It looks pretty dangerous because it's frozen.

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Referrals, always appreciated.

Coupon, thank you. I write thanks to you.

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