Life, Once Again!

“What if I go back? ”

She said, adding salmon salad to the plate.

“Yes. How about going back in time? ”

“I don't know.”

She could not answer the question straight away. I've thought about wanting to go back to yesterday a few times in my life. I wished that I could go back one day to the past when the exam was over, when I failed to perform well, or when I made a mistake. However, it was difficult to answer because I had never thought about going back in time.

“Sis, it's good to be young, too. You don't get to think like this. ”

“Hanmi, you're young enough. So marriage... ”

“Hae-su! Marriage. Marriage. I'd love to. I'd get married and have a beautiful daughter. ”

“I don't know why you don't like a lot of guys. Marrying an old woman who's bored won't save you the hassle. ”

“We've only met a few times in a few years, and I'm bored already? ”

“Hanmi, three times a week is enough. All you need is a man to take your chitchat. ”

“There's no sound I can't do in front of him. ”

“My daughter's doing great. I know what you know. Speaking of which, let's ask him where he went with the floor. ”

She quickly brings the cup to her mouth. I looked at my mom and the writer Lee Han Mi alternately while drinking water as slowly as possible. When I saw the soju bottle in the cart at the grocery store, I had to sneak it out. I never thought I'd be able to handle two adult injections.

“Sis, stop teasing me. But she's upset. ”

“My daughter is not that narrow. You're not married...... ”

“Ah! Drink, drink! Stop talking about marriage and drink. Here, take your glasses. Would you like a drink?”

“I'm fine. ”

She shakes her head and smiles. Two people who raised their glasses and broke their heads at the same time put the empty beer down.

“By the way, let's finish what we were talking about. ”

“Talk about what? ”

“The past, the past. What would you do if you went back in time? ”

“Did you just keep talking about it? ”

“Give your brother some ideas. ”

“Could it be the next one? ”

“No, I'm just trying to get some. I went to the movies and there was a story about the Army that used to travel through time. Watching it made me wonder what would happen if I went back in time. I've never used SF genres and they look fresh. Ah, time travel is a fantasy. Anyway, I want to hear your story in writing together. Don't think too hard. Just tell me what comes to mind. ”

“Does this video give you intellectual property rights? I gave you the original source. What do you want? ”

“Okay, okay. If it sells, I'll pick one of your fur coats. ”

“I don't like that. Just give my daughter a gift. ”

“Sis, we have a long way to go at the end of the year. College is a long story.”

“Time flies. April is almost over. It gets hotter and colder when it snows. So get married before it's too late... ”

“Premarital. Don't keep plotting. Sis, it's a professional disease too. ”

Han Mi clapped.

“Come on, tell me first. I don't know what I'd do if I went back in time. And now you think about it. I'm gonna ask you right away. ”

Finger with purple nail polish points to face. She nods. It's not enough to ignore your unfaithful answer, so I have to think about it. When my mom opened her mouth because she was staring at the clock dazed in her chin, Hanmi said she needed to bring more beer, and her knees were half extended.

“Let's get you checked out. ”

Mother said, she could see the meaning of it all at once. It was a lot of words that were omitted, but it was showing everything that was omitted from her face.

Hanmi, who was about to get up, sat on the back seat.

“About your husband? ”

“I know. ”

“I have a feeling. It was a heart condition, right?”

“He was a healthy man, but he just said he was a little tired, and I didn't see any other signs, and then he left. If we can get back to the past, we have to put everything else behind us and take it to the hospital. ”

My mom picked up the water bottle instead of the glass with the drink. My mom, who drank water constantly, seemed to suppress something that was rising with cold water.

“What about you, Han Mi? What do you want to do? ”

“I'm traveling with my mom. I want to do that. ”

“Sort of. No fun. ”

“As long as people are eager, aren't they all similar? Being with someone you love a little longer. It's boring, but it's human nature. I regret it so much when I close my mom's eyes. When I heard that my mom was going to have cancer when I left the house to write, I just laughed. It's ridiculous. Of all the people, why did I have to be my mother, and why did I leave my ugly daughter in such a hurry to get her to feed herself? ”

“You and I need to get in and out of the hospital. I don't think it'll be that pleasant to go back in time. ”

“But we still have a chance. A chance to live your life again. ”

After the conversation, Hanmi looks at her.

“Have you thought about it? ”

“I want to see you, too. I want to get back together and go to college. I'd like to show my dad the acting if possible. because if I show him that I can do this, he's going to love it. I want to show you that my little girl was so big, ”

“Then I should go back to the past as I am now. But it takes time paradox. Ideally, if you're going back in time, it's better to be mentally mature in your younger body. Two of me at the same time, things are gonna get complicated. ”

Hanmi smiled and said. She could feel that she purposely changed the topic of conversation. It doesn't suit me to be sad and tell stories about people who aren't there.

“Are you flinching and changing me back in the day? That's good. I'm young again. I thought I was going back in time. ”

My mom got on the phone, too. The atmosphere brightens quickly.

“Sis, aren't you seeing someone else when you're younger? ”

“No. Then you won't see my daughter. ”

“Yuck, it's a blowout. ”

“If you have a child, you'll understand how I feel. ”

“I've written and experienced it indirectly. I've written about a few mothers who care deeply about their children. You have no idea how hard I've worked to give birth to emotional blood. ”

“Yes, you are. The famous writer says," What would a third-rate romance novelist say? "”

“Now you know the difference in identity? ”

“I'm going to smack you in the cheek. ”

As she looked at the two smiling people giggling, she suddenly remembered a tale that seemed strange.

“Ma'am, what if instead of going back in time, we had to abandon our memories? ”

“Do we have to abandon our memories? ”

“Yes. If God and aliens, instead of sending them back to the past, would you still go? ”

“I have to think about that. If you have the memories intact, you can go without hesitation, but if you don't, there's no Merritt. If you had the same self in the same age, you'd probably have a similar life. Why go back? ”

That's when my mother intervened.

“I'm not attracted to stories. Why is he the protagonist? You're not the main character because you have something that people can admire. Just take all your memories and go back in time. ”

“Sis, that's not how drama trends are these days. It's fun to know where the main character is. Just like your sister's romance novel, lovers need drama to make their stories more eye-catching. ”

The fire burns. She wanted to, but she had already fallen in love with Hanmi and her mother. All she could do was open her ears and listen. Oh, one more thing. We must prepare for Hanmi's question without notice.

“I'm slowly forgetting my memories. I love someone I love fiercely at first, but as memory fades, love over time becomes the love of a young person living in that age. ”

Hanmi said that she put salmon salad in her mouth as she listened to the interesting story.

“But we love each other anyway, so it's okay, right? ”

“That's why you have to be different. Even if you go back in time, will you see your husband again? ”

“You have to answer seriously, right? ”

“Of course.”

“Like I said, I'm going to see him again. And see my daughter again. As long as I have the passion and memory of this life, it won't be easy to meet someone else. ”

“Exactly. That's love beyond time. In the future, the person who had to be sent to a broken heart is still alive in the past. If you really liked him, you'd catch him thinking it was an opportunity you couldn't miss. ”

“Of course.”

“Even if he didn't like me in the past, would I like it? Because in the future, I was in love with him. ”

“My husband will confess that he likes me as soon as he sees me. He couldn't live without me. ”

“Great job, really. Anyway, it's good to go back and be happy with him again. This is where conflict and trials come in. Memory's fading. The impressions, personalities and tastes of people I liked in the future are slowly evaporating. ”

“But I think I'm gonna love it. Memory is information after all. I think people have more than just electrical and chemical memory. ”

“Like a soul? ”

“It could be that, or it could be the mind. ”

“Sis, you know what amnesia is, right? ”

“I understand what you're trying to say, but I believe there's something beyond information. Otherwise, it's too shabby. Love must be very individual, not reliant on memory. ”

“Is it true? The frontal lobe of the head has a lot of dysfunction when damage is done, but it is said to be overwhelming by emotion. So sometimes you get an anti-social personality. There's no such thing as altruism. Sometimes when you do something wrong because you're an incarnation of rationalization, you don't know why it matters. It's just that one part of the brain doesn't work properly, and that's what happens. But the human roots of the memory are flying away. It's kind of numb in some ways. Passionate love is always cold, isn't it? If those loving moments are erased, won't they make love so much different from others? ”

“You want to tell me that memory is everything? ”

“Reasonably, personality is a collection of experiences. The experience is organized from the inside into a system that responds to outgoing stimuli. Isn't that all that falls under the category of memory? ”

“Nevertheless, we don't even know if God exists yet. As long as agnostics exists, I have no idea that my mind is ahead of my memory. ”

“It's too unscientific. ”

“What a scientific thing to go back in time. Einstein would say yes. ”

“It's a consensual probability. ”

“I never agreed. ”

“I can't talk to my sister. ”

“That's funny.”

She lets out a small sigh between the two who stare at each other. Then I thought about it. Memory and mind. What is the concept at the top?

‘I wish it were still my heart. ’

If the memory is gone and the feelings you loved are gone, that's just too sad.

“I don't know! Drink! ”

“Yes, let's drink! ”

It seems that the two of them agreed to get drunk. She runs away. These adults are so unstoppable.

"I hope you met her and went home."

She looked at the clock. 7: 40 p.m. I realized it was still early in the evening. Let's put a text in it. It was when I picked up the phone that was next to me.

"Sis, be careful."

My mom spilled water. She leaves her phone and walks to the kitchen.

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I'm looking at Mr. Sushi King.

It's really fun.

It's often surprising to hear old cartoons.

... What is "grand slaughter," by the way?

When you eat sushi with a big belly up, everyone in the book goes to heaven.

Cc.

Tuna is an amazing creature.

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