Life, Once Again!

“May I ask how much you make? ”

“Isn't it weird to already ask if I can ask? ”

Joohyun twisted his legs and said. She comes down from the chair and sits at the end of the stage.

“It's hard to say the exact amount. There's no fixed source of income for an actor. Of course, if you sign CF for a long term contract, even if you're on leave, it's going to cost you money, but there aren't a lot of actors in the country who can do that. ”

“Aren't you one of the few actors? ”

A girl with a seed leaf head said.

“Thank you for praising me, and like you said, I made enough money not to starve to death even if it didn't happen right away. Money, yes. It's an important story.But there's no deviation like this job, so telling my standards won't help you much.... ”

Juhyun, who was browsing the audience, lowered his voice a little.

“We have to solve our questions and live, don't we? I can't tell you if the deposit or the guarantee part is sensitive, but I'll tell you what I have. What are you talking about? There's only two things you can do with a thick one. Buildings and stocks.”

“Which part of town is the building? And how many shares do you own in Kospi? ”

The floor turns its head to the side. The conch glitters and buries its eyes. It seems that the economic concept of the child in the house is more advanced than his age.

“I feel naked when I say that, no comment. Well, I'll just tell you that there's one on the other side of Gangnam Avenue. ”

“Does one mean there's more? ”

“I hope so."

Joohyun smiled and kept his mouth shut.

“Do you have any more questions? You have 10 minutes until the end of the ceremony, so ask all the questions you want. But if you ask a question that doesn't get you anything, you know it's a loss, right? Nothing's gonna change if you know what I have now. Ask him if he can take Celia. I'll answer as much as I want. ”

The children who even asked about the lovers fell silent. I think I've finally realized that. This query time is a precious moment that cannot be converted into money. The value of the name of the woman sitting in front of me as a target of fucking jokes was never low.

The floor quietly raises its hand. He pointed out that he bounced his eyes once.

“What can I do to be a good actor? ”

“Not what to do, but what not to do? ”

“I've heard a lot about how to be a good actor. ”

“I see. But I'm surprised. I thought I asked you how to be an actor who makes good money. ”

“Me? I know money is important, but I'm not that desperate. ”

“Yeah? He's a little different from the kid I used to know. I don't know if there's been a change of heart or if there's been an epiphany, but I'm going to answer your question. ”

Joohyun started thinking with his arms crossed. Sitting next to you, the conch pokes you in the side and sweeps your mouth. They were asking, "We're close." The floor shrugs.

“You shouldn't. You can think of the opposite of what should be done if you think about it easily, but I'm tired of this. So, based on my experience, I'm going to tell you something that you're going to regret. Number one, I told you before, but I don't like to be seduced. If you're working as an actor, you'll often be stunned. There is no punishment. Nothing can happen. The auditions fall apart, so you don't have any more auditions to see. If there's a slight offer coming in from the side, it'll be really drowsy. Bear with it. If you don't accept the offer, the actors will have a hard time doing their job. Then quit your job and get to work. Anywhere is fine. Anything is fine. Earn money for undeniable things, meet people at work and gain experience. When economic difficulties have passed, when there is a desire to be an actor, do it. I can assure you that anyone who has gone through that process will be able to play a very rich role. Learning can eventually act as much as you've lived. ”

“Wouldn't it be too late? ”

A student looked up at Joohyun and asked.

“If the actor you dream of is only a young, beautiful, wonderful actor, then it's too late. I don't want to miss out on my looks or my fullness. But how many actors make their debut in the world when they want to? ”

Joohyun paused for a moment and called me on his cell phone. After finishing the call, she opens her mouth.

“You all know who Park Tae-ho is, right? ”

Students nodded at the same time. The floor was the same. Some people who say they watch movies in South Korea don't know their names.

“He was at the theater up to twenty-eight and then at thirty, he performed in a movie. It's the one you're hoping for. Next to him, it's like he just jumped up without a shred of silence. But what do you think of your childhood? I told you, the quality of the smoke is determined by the life you've been through. His role in the premiere was a killer. He was a merciless human language player who defeated his wife and son. He put on a creepy act. The acting contained your childhood, which is why it was so realistic. When he was a kid, he lost his mother to domestic violence. That terrible time is filling most of your childhood. ”

The ledge is quiet. You hear no breath. Joohyun coughed a little.

"It's a job of taking out what's in the learning. Like all creators. Anyone who doesn't know you says, You made a fast debut and gained a reputation so you got lucky with the talent Heaven gave you. Yeah, well, I can't say I'm not talented at all. There's a part of you that's better than anyone else that survived a competition market run by tens of thousands of people. But talent doesn't represent experience. Since Tae Ho had accumulated pain in his heart since childhood, he was able to act as a practical and empathetic actor. This is undeniable. Because you said so yourself. You need to learn to fertilize hard times. Everything you're doing may seem pointless because you can't see the future, but you will be rewarded the moment you meet a role that requires that experience. Oh, those moments weren't meaningless at all, were they?"

"But wouldn't it be possible just to see and copy the smoke without having to experience it? You can't kill a friend to miss a dead friend."

It was a girl who stared at Joohyun and asked. I didn't mean to pry. I was eager for answers.

You could say, "Well, aren't we just copying it because of the smoke?" We can start with an imitation. But if you live as an actor, you'll find out soon enough. This is my limit. That limit is consistent with your bottom. The day will come when everyone will see the bottom and there will be a verdict. Actors to be big and actors to stop there. Or maybe you should quit your job as an actress. "

The floor, the floor, reminded me of the conversation I had with Joohyun a long time ago. She said it's important to look at the bottom of your emotions.

"As you continue to live as an actor, your acting skills will continue to grow. Everything repeats itself, you get the hang of it, you get the hang of it. When I just learned to smoke, I smiled, and walking forward is awkward, but when I do, I get used to it so I don't hurt myself. And if it persists, I think at some point, It's no big deal, but if you're doing so well, why aren't there any good stations coming in? Why does he fail every time he auditions?"

Joohyun stretched his two fingers.

"This is not the second time. Acting inert. Smoking has a technical component that makes it feel easy to master. When you're sad, you look like this, when you're happy. He builds his own way. That doesn't mean it's bad. It's where all actors go. The problem is, it stops there. The awkward smoke became natural and stiff like the clothes I had worn for a long time."

Joohyun nodded once.

"A lot of actors put themselves in the same environment as that character in order to understand their role. Some people block out sound and live in order to understand the world of the deaf. But I can't say that we understand all the discomfort of hearing impaired people with these behaviors. Similarly, the sadness of losing a friend will be hard to experience on your own. Of course, if murder were legal, it would be different."

Joohyun smiled and said, but few of the students laughed.

"So what do we do? Should we give up and follow the scenes that are judged to be prestigious? No, it's not an actor, it's a functioning smoke machine. All an actor has to do is analyze a lot of indirect experiences that go through him, empathize with him, make him understand, and then reassemble the emotions he needs to feel for the role. Since it can't be 1, it has to go infinitely below the decimal point. As a result, the audience feels one. An actor who only copies can't be 0.9 degrees. There's nothing on the inside."

The girl who asked me in the middle nodded her head with her lips. It was a face that received enough answers. Joohyun smiled and continued.

"This is the last thing he shouldn't do. Satisfied with one and stopped. Living a life full of small things, thankful and happy, I'm sure. I want to live with a minimum when I quit my job as an actor. But actors can't stay in stasis while they do their job. The actor's break is time to embrace the new. New is inevitably accompanied by tension and stress. I keep repeating it. Of course, I feel like I should just throw it all away and do what I used to do. You can't be tired unless you're human. The question is whether they're constantly being drawn to time, or whether they're constantly changing with time and stride. If you want to keep taking on similar characters, you can stop. But if you don't, you have to go for the challenge and the change."

You were right. It was the right thing to hear, in line with your usual thoughts. I felt a sign of repulsion when I heard that it was a challenge and a change. My head became stiff and I kicked my tongue without knowing it. It was strange. There was an initial feeling of ignoring reason. The floor raises its hand.

"There shouldn't be too many people who specialize in one."

"Generally, yes. I'm not saying the specialist is bad. I just don't fit in with my actor."

"If you go on an adventure and lose your original image, you lose your bowl. Do you really need to do that?"

The floor lets out a sigh as you finish speaking. The horse was going out on its own. Why does the word I admire, challenge, adventure, disgust me?

It was time for Joohyun to open his mouth again. The facilitator who was watching quietly from behind approached.

"Hey, the grand finale is over."

He was a smiling facilitator.

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I wrote on my phone for the first time on the subway.

It's... really hard.

Continuous typos

My body's shaking.

But it was worth going to the dentist at 5 in the morning.

I'm so happy.

I'll be back after midnight.