Master of Trading Star Card Game

[Lin Xiaofan - 10]

Chen Qianlin was silent for a long time, which took a look at the photograph and picked up the light brain without emotion.

Remember that day when I went to deliver medicine to Chen Xiao, Chen Xiao's face was pale, his voice swallowed, his fingers held onto the coffee cup, and he looked like a wolf. But Chen Xiao was vibrant in the photograph, smiling all over his face, and judging by the two of us some time ago.

In this intuitive contrast, Chen Qianlin finally realized - Chen Xiao can only have a relaxing and happy life when he is not with his brother, who, as his own, brings him nothing but despair and pain.

I am the cause of my brother's suffering. This cognition caused Chen Qianlin's heart to sting. He took a quick deep breath and calmed down, typing: “When did you meet? ”

"'His name is Zheng Yang,' said Chen Xiao. 'He was a friend of mine when I was a kid. He has been in touch for years. On the day of the Dean's birthday last month, we all went back to the orphanage. Zhengyang said that he had admired me since I was a child. He knew that I was currently single and wanted to chase me. I promised. ”

Zheng Yang? The name Chen Qianlin has an impression. There were two boys who had a good time with Chen Xiao when they were young. One was Zheng Yi, born with a skinny heart attack. Chen Xiao often fights with people to protect him; the other was Zheng Yang, who fights with Chen Xiao as the boss behind Chen Xiao's ass every day.

Is that him? The man in the photo is tall and strong, completely unlike the bug he was when he was a kid.

Chen Qianlin frowned slightly: “I remember you were just friends. ”

Chen Xiao soon sent a series of explanations: “I used to be just a friend, but Zhengyang actively chased me, I think I can try. After all, after all, we've known each other for so many years, I know him well. Now it seems that my choice is correct, Zhengyang is quite funny, straight to the point, it is very relaxing to be with him, he loves fitness, we both work out together every day, my spirit is much better this time. ”

This is true, since the start of the new season, Chen Xiao has indeed been much more spiritual.

Chen Qianlin asked bloody: "Do you like him? ”

Chen Xiao did not reply.

Chen Qianlin: “I hope you can meet the right person and find your own happiness, not just find someone to fit in with. ”

Chen Xuao chuckled: “Brother, what do you think is happiness? ”

Chen Qianlin: "…”

That's a tough question for him. There's never been a "marriage with children” in his life plan - he hates being close to people, he hates sleeping with people everyday, building the same bed quilt, and he hates crying and crying and screaming and kids haunting him for it.

Perhaps in the future, he will inherit his father's estate and focus on his work.

As for what most people think of as happiness? He never thought about it.

Chen Qianlin suddenly felt that he seemed a little sick. Most people, even if indifferent in character, will not be as excluded and close to people as he is, or even insist on celibacy - it's not just indifference, it's psychological deficiencies.

Chen Qianlin was silent for a moment and asked back: “What do you think? ”

Chen Xiao said with a smile: “It's very simple. Zheng Yang and I are relaxed and happy together. I feel quite happy now. ”

Chen Qianlin: “…”

Happy now?

This line of simple characters is like suddenly becoming a sharp sword, straight into Chen Qianlin's heart. The stabbing pain in the heart area was so strong that it was difficult to ignore it. Chen Qian Lin looked at the line with his eyes. For the first time, there was confusion in his calm and clear mind. He didn't even know how to continue talking to Chen Xiao.

The next moment, I saw Chen Xiao send two more consecutive passages-

“Zheng Yang is a very simple person and is very nice to me. He cares about me, respects me, and I am really relaxed with him. I don't just fit in, I do like him a little, and I'm sure I'll like him more and more over time. ”

“Brother, don't worry, I think clearly that I have completely let go of my feelings for you, let's pretend to be confused before. From now on, I will not cause you any emotional distress. ”

“…” the words on the screen became teeth dancing claws, Chen Qianlin closed his eyes, didn't even want to see Chen Xuao's comments about his boyfriend, simply turned off the light brain to end the conversation.

Dare to talk to your brother about your boyfriend, indicating that Chen Xiao really let go.

Let Chen Xiao find a new relationship This was his suggestion, but Chen Xiao really found a boyfriend, but Chen Qianlin found himself not happy at all. He squeezed his eyebrows and went to the bathroom to take a shower. He went back to bed and couldn't sleep.

He has never had insomnia before and his breath is very regular. Now, this is the third time I've had insomnia.

The first time, the night after he slept with his brother, he feared that Zhang Peng would send the recorded video to destroy Chen Xiao, so quickly contacted the people resources that could be mobilized to find out Zhang Peng's black materials, and stayed up all night.

The second time, the day I saw the video, Chen Xiao was injured, he suddenly felt heartbroken, so I went to deliver Chen Xiao medicine. When I came home, I always remembered the scene where my brother was injured and bleeding. I couldn't sleep upside down, worried about Chen Xiao's injuries. Did you get better? Will you take your medicine on time? I didn't fall asleep until 3: 00 in the morning.

Today is the third time.

My brother said he had a new boyfriend and was happy with his boyfriend.

Chen Qianlin felt uncomfortable when he thought of someone holding his brother to do something more intimate. This feeling was like strangling his heart tightly with a very fine line. Every time he breathed, his chest felt heavy.

He remembered that when Chen Xiao first came to Chen's house, he was curious about everything. He took his brother to the bedroom on the second floor and touched the child's head and said: “In the future, your brother will be your family, and your brother will protect you from grievances. ”

But Chen Xiao's biggest hurt in his life was his brother.

I thought I could protect my brother from the rain. As a result, all the wind and rain that Chen Xiao experienced was brought on by his brother.

Chen Qianlin's heart aches every time he thinks of the image of Chen Xiao limping and bleeding into the bathroom to take a bath.

He never cared for anyone, seemed to be born colder. Even in the face of the separation of friends and loved ones, he has no strong emotional fluctuations.

Recently, however, he seemed to have changed - for the first time he felt heartbroken; for the first time he was nervously in front of the light brain, he feared that Zhang Pengfa's evidence would destroy Chen Xuan; for the first time, Thunder moved all connections and quickly took three days to get rid of the culprits; for the first time, he went personally to buy medicine, worried about his brother's injuries and worried about insomnia.

It's all because of Chen Xiao.

Parents were often absent from home for many years, and he became a brother and a parent. He personally raised Chen Xiao. From the age of 7 to 18 years for 11 years, he and Chen Xiao “depended on each other for their lives". Such feelings were not comparable to those of others, even parents, and Chen Qianlin were not that deep.

Chen Xiao is the most special person for him. He has made more than one exception for this brother.

The more Chen Qianlin wanted to have a headache, he couldn't really sleep. He simply took a sleeping pill before going to sleep.

* * *

The next day, the club was just resting. Chen Qianlin slept until noon and woke up. When he went downstairs to eat, he saw the pool shine and asked casually: “Where's Chen Xiao? ”

Ji Ying whispered: “Brother Chen drove out early in the morning, carried a gym bag, and was expected to go to the gym again. ”

Chen Qianlin stopped talking and had lunch in his mouth like suddenly it didn't smell good. He turned away from the restaurant and looked at the rest of the food on his plate, scratching his head in confusion - Lin Shen eats every meal very clean, what's wrong today?

Teammates also perceived that Chen Qianlin's face was colder than usual, avoiding all kinds of concessions.

Upon returning to the office, Chen Qianlin suddenly sent a message to Tang Muzhou asking: “Did Chen Xiao lend you your money back? ”

Tang Muzhou said: “No, he bought a house that was being renovated. Don't you know? ”

Chen Qianlin: “Where did you buy it? ”

Tang Muzhou sent Chen Xiao a picture of his villa and said, "I don't know exactly where the single-family villa is. ”

Chen Qianlin picked up the photo and looked it up online - it was really near the orphanage.

Chen Xiao bought a house near the orphanage, obviously wanted to live closer to Zheng Yi, Zhengyang and other old friends. It was also convenient to go back and visit Old Dean Zheng.

Chen Qianlin's mind suddenly felt a little uneasy.

At that time, Chen Xiaoliu, 18, suddenly confessed that he and Chen Xiao had determined to clear the line and left the following day, leaving Chen Xiao with a house and a bank card before leaving. The house was later transformed into a substitute studio by Chen Xiao, and the money on the card, Chen Xiao, had not moved a single penny.

Now, Chen Xiao bought a new house, what does that mean?

This means that Chen Xiao will also draw a line with his brother - the house he left for him and he will not live there again. Brother left him the money, maybe he will return it unchanged.

Chen Qianlin frowned: “Did he tell you anything else? For example, when does he intend to retire? ”

Tang Muzhou was surprised that Master would ask, "Retired? Chen Xiao is in such a good state and is in the ascent phase. Isn't he going to be fighting a pair with Chul this season? I don't think he needs to retire until he's thirty. ”

That's true, but Chen Qianlin has a bad feeling in his heart.

Buying a house, falling in love, the next step is definitely decommissioning.

In Chen Xiao's character, if he really decided to draw a line with his brother, he would no longer stay at the Nirvana Club. Seeing your brother every day reminds him of the painful experience of that night being violated by Chen Qianlin, which is not a good association.

Leaving is the only way to free him completely.

Chen Qianlin thought of this, only felt cold in the bottom of his heart - his brother felt unusually uncomfortable avoiding him as a snake scorpion. He drank a glass of water to calm himself down and sent a message to Ji Ying: “When Chen Xiao returned, he immediately asked him to meet me at the office. ”

Ji Yingying replied quickly: “Got it, coach! ”

* * *

It wasn't until 11: 00 PM that Chen Xiao finally returned to the club.

Ji Ying waited for him in front of the club. When he saw him, he said anxiously: "Brother Chen, what is your situation? I haven't been able to reach you! ”

"'I'm sorry,' said Chen Xiao. 'I went swimming this afternoon. I didn't see your message. What's the matter?”

Ji Ying said bitterly: “Lin God said to meet him at the office as soon as you get back, he... he has been waiting for you in the office since the afternoon, go quickly! ”

Chen Xiaoqiao turned to the office somewhat uncertain.

When I pushed the door open, I noticed that the lights were not on in the office and it was dark. Chen Qianlin stood in front of the window and looked out at the night view. Late in the night, the man seemed to have a kind of indescribable loneliness. Chen Xiaoxian was sour and immediately stabilized his mood. “Coach wants to see me? Can I help you? ”

Chen Qianlin turned around and asked unemotionally: "Why did you come back so late? ”

"Chen Xiao said:" Today off, Zhengyang asked me to go for a swim. After swimming, I went for a self-service barbecue, so I came back late. ”

Chen Qianlin now had a headache when he heard the name "Zheng Yang” and simply interrupted him: “Chen Xiao, are you going to retire after this season? ”

Chen Xiao did think so, but he didn't tell anyone about it and his brother guessed it. Now that the topic has been opened, Chen Xiao doesn't want to hide it, simply nod his head: “That's right. ”

Chen Qianlin's pupils shrank and his color is incredibly serious: “You are in the peak state, at least three to five years can play the game, that's it, are you really willing? Besides, Nirvana can't do without you, and I hope that you can think more intelligently about this and not make impulsive decisions. ”

“I'm sensible, and I've been thinking about this for a long time.” Chen Xiaotong said calmly: “Nirvana has recruited six talented newcomers, with Archer present, and you as a coach, even if I leave, the newcomers will make up for it immediately. Liu and Qi have been able to manipulate 80% of my plant cards, and I will continue to teach them. Metaphor and Qin Xuan are also helping to bring new people. Each club will face the problem of alternating old and new. I believe Nirvana can smoothly get through this level. ”

Chen Qianlin frowned: “Chen Xiao, are you in a hurry to leave because you don't want to see me? ”

Chen Xiao was silent for a long time before lowering his voice: “I do want to forget the past, put it down completely, and give myself a whole new environment to start over. I won the season championship in the individual competition, the team won the championship, and this year I may be able to win a prize with the team of Archer. As a professional player, I have fulfilled my dream, nothing to regret. In the future, I just want to put more time on accompanying my lover. Xiaoyang said that he wants to travel with me around the world. I also want to treasure this emotion and hope that the coach can fulfill my wish. ”

Chen Qianlin: “..............."

Hearing Chen Xiao say this quietly, Chen Qianlin's heart is like a knife hanging.

Turns out, the feeling of the heart as described by the word "knife hanging" really exists. Every word Chen Xiao said is like a knife stirring at the bottom of his heart. His heart is a spasmodic pain, making his face colder and colder. He can only breathe deeply to keep himself calm.

The two men remained silent for a long time in an office without a light on.

Chen Qianlin softly said: "Now you barely scream even your brother? ”

Chen Xiao lowered his head and said: “At the club, business or coaching is more appropriate. ”

Chen Qianlin said unemotionally: “Go rest. We'll talk about this later. ”

Chen Xiao turned around and left. Chen Qianlin stood alone in front of the window and looked out at the bustling night view. There was some void in his heart.

If Chen Xiao leaves Nirvana, does he still have to stay? When I came back, the most important reason was Chen Xiao. Of course, he would not have known that he would receive Xie Mingzhe as an apprentice. Over the past five years, he has focused on professional leagues and gathered information on all club players because he knew his brother and knew that he would definitely come back after his brother's contract expired.

This information is for my brother.

Chen Qianlin has always felt guilty about signing the contract under the impulse of Chen Xiao. After all, Chen Xiao signed the contract because he believed in his brother's friend. He did not tell Chen Xiao of the contradiction between himself and Shaobao, which led to young Chen Xiao being deceived by Shaobao.

In five years, Chen Xiao's movements, Chen Qianlin was clear. When he left, he left Chen Xiao a house and a deposit, and since then he has been secretly protecting his younger brother - after all, that's the younger brother he raised himself, and he doesn't want Chen Xiao to have any accidents.

Is there no such thing as guilt but guilt?

Chen Qianlin would definitely make the other party look bad if he crawled into his bed that night and accidentally slept with Chen Xiaolin. Can be replaced by Chen Xiao, although also angry, but more... but heartache?

He should have noticed something was wrong the first time it hurt, but he never thought of anything else.

He was too different for this brother and for the others.

Chen Qianlin looked at the face that appeared on the floor window and always looked indifferent. At this time, the expression was difficult to understand.

He did not fall asleep until 3: 00 a.m. this evening.

The scene of the night reappeared in the dream, because he watched the video several times, and when the dream reappeared, each scene was very clear, as if it had just been experienced.

Before dawn, Chen Qianlin sat upright and took a cold bath in the bathroom.

As a matter of fact, he should have quickly forgotten about having a relationship with his brother, but the facts hit him hard in the face - not only has he not forgotten, but he has often dreamed of Chen Xiao since watching the video.

Normal reason, calm, nothing left in the dreams of the late night.

Chen Qianlin stood under the shower to maximize the cold water, and his face was hard to see.

This dream is like laughing at the difference in his watch, letting him see for himself what he has done to Chen Xiao. After awakening, Chen Qianlin is completely groundless and self-absorbed.

He rarely loses control of his emotions and always has something to do with his brother.

Chen Qianlin pressed his fist against his forehead, his brain buzzed.

He has been the calmest of his peers since he was a kid. Whatever difficulties he encounters, he can quickly think of a solution. He rarely makes mistakes and never worries his parents. He has excellent grades and is the male god that students around him look up to...

But now he's very confused.

This was the first time he had encountered a difficult and intractable situation, and he stood at a fork, seemingly left or right.

After standing in cold water for a long time, after returning to the bedroom, Chen Qianlin's body and brain were calm. He opened the address book and turned over the profile photo of a private detective and said with no expression: “Help me find someone. ”

Detective Nightowl replied quickly: “Who are you looking for? Who wants bad luck this time? ”

"'Chen Qianlin,' said Chen Qianlin. ”

Detective: “??? ”

"'That's me,' said Chen Qianlin. Find out everything I've been through over the years, especially with my brother. ”

The detective almost sprayed out the coffee used to refresh him. This great god is usually ruthless in his work, killing Shobo and Zhang Peng is like pinching two ants. Now, suddenly, he's a psychopath, want to find out himself?

I've been a fucking detective for so many years, it's the first time I've run into myself! I've seen it before!

The detective looked at the screen strangely and said, "Find out what you're doing. Have you ever lost your memory? Trying to recover lost memories? ”

Chen Qianlin: “Don't ask why. The better the information, the better the reward. ”

The other party immediately replied: "No problem! However, by my means, let me check your words, in the future you will have no privacy with me... say well in advance, you cannot kill me. ”

Chen Qianlin replied: "Rest assured, I believe in your professional conduct and will not reveal a word to outsiders. ”

He knows the other side must be spitting on him.

But he did want to look into his past.

There is a saying, "Authorities fan," just like when playing the game, players are in the game and many of the opponents' routines cannot be seen clearly - only bystanders from God's point of view can have a clear control over the whole thing.

Perhaps he didn't find much detail. It is also possible that he is not simply brotherly to Chen Xiao.

He told Chen Xao a lot of times, "I think you're my brother," which may be his psychological suggestion to himself, a subconscious hypnosis —— he thinks he's only his brother, just like he thinks he's a steady winner when a player plays the game.

It was just "self-righteous” and not objective.

But in fact, does he really only take Chen Xiao as his younger brother? Can he be 100% sure he'll never make a mistake?

Leaving aside the subjective factors and jumping out of his own set of "brotherhood”, he can judge his feelings more calmly by looking at the details of his relationship with Chen Xiao more objectively.

He had heard a friend who was a psychiatrist say that everything in the world could be handled rationally, only emotionally, not absolutely. Emotions are precious because they are an emotion that humans “cannot control.” And the key to differentiating people from machines is that people are emotional creatures.

Friends also said that Chen Qianlin, you are always cold, like a walking robot, I wish I could see you one day for a person nervous, sad, insomnia, heartache - so that you have a human feeling, more like a living person.

Didn't expect the day to really come.

During this time, he experienced many emotions he had never experienced before, heartache, insomnia -- perhaps, as friends put it, his cold, mechanical heart, finally became hot and alive because of one person.

If you don't want to see the blood of a dog, this pair is supposed to be abusive in love with deep dog blood style.

I don't want Chen Qianlin to die alone, and I don't want Chen Xiao to leave with regret and silence. The end is definitely HE.

Of course, Chen Qianlin's intelligence has been online, and he is not jealous. He has his own business principles. I think you will be satisfied with the outcome of this:)