Maybe I can't have normal youth

"Have you ever thought about telling Siqing so much?" Sitting on the train back from Hangzhou, I asked Zi Chen sitting next to him.

"Um... Actually, I didn't really think about what to say when I saw her." Zi Chen sighed, "Actually, I just want to see her and also see her paintings. , Ask her how is she and how is her life."

"Yep."

"Thank you anyway, Xiaoan~ I left in a hurry without planning."

"It's okay, I really like art exhibitions, and seeing the characters in my dreams with my own eyes is really a wonderful feeling."

"En! That's good. But..." Zi Chen sighed, "But after all... I still have to respect her decision. Xiaoan, please help her, as well as help me. Keep this secret and don't tell others. "

"You can rest assured, I don't have any interest or motivation to talk about other people's things everywhere. You treat me like a brave in this respect, I can only get in, haha."

"I don't know why I became like this. Maybe some of the receptors were mutated and developed too much." I thought of the vomeronasal theory of the magician classmate, "but don't worry, secret or When the rumors reach me, they will only rot in my stomach. If you have any troubles in the future, you can tell me with peace of mind."

"Wow, I believe your Xiaoan~ Don't worry, I won't tell others about your ability." Zi Chen blinked at me.

"Okay," I blinked at Zi Chen in response, "but if you really say it, I won't blame you."

"Huh? But generally speaking, it is a secret that you don't want others to know!"

"Yes, I actually don't want to tell anyone, it's a bit awkward, even you and I don't want you to know. Don't be angry.

"After all, if you are different from everyone, it is often a terrible thing. But, you know, I have always been sorry for spying on your privacy. You are already extremely gentle if you are not angry. What right do I have to come. Ask you to keep it secret for me?"

"And ah," I added, "I always think that the so-called secret is what you have buried in your heart. If you want it not to be leaked, then you shouldn't disclose it yourself in the first place."

"Just like Siqing did, she didn't tell anyone. Of course, my situation is really an unexpected exception."

"Under normal circumstances, I think if I can't hold back talking to others, no matter what kind of good friends or family, even I can't hold back, what right do I have to ask others to do it?"

"Eh~ Xiaoan~ You are so serious!" Zi Chen seemed to be a little frightened by my abnormal behavior.

"Hahaha...I'm sorry," I reacted and apologized with my hands folded. "It's just that I can't help but get serious when I encounter a topic that is closely related to my outlook on life and values! ~"

"Hey, it's okay~ But, Xiaoan, isn't this completely contradictory to what you said before!"

"En? Where?"

"That is, you said that we can tell you about our worries, secrets, etc., but you also said that if you disclose it, you should not ask others to keep it secret..." Zi Chen pouted her mouth and said her little protest.

"that is because……"

"because?"

"Because I am a double-standard dog! Hahahaha."

"Wow! Are you serious? I'm very serious! Huh~" Zi Chen opened her hands on his hips, staring wide-eyed and pursing her mouth, pretending that she was very serious.

"Alright, alright, although I'm joking, it's not rough. I just said that I can't ask others to keep it secret if I leak it. It's only for myself, and I will keep it secret when others say to me. .

"Eh~ it sounds bad to me!"

"You're bad! Really, obviously I just want you not to be psychologically burdened because of secrets..."

"Then don't always look like you can let others rely on you, but you are so independent!"

Um, I got hit by a word.

"You feel wrong! Feeling blind!" But I denied it with a smile, "But you listen carefully."

"Of course, I can listen carefully to what you say~ After all, I like you very much, Xiaoan~ So I won't say it, don't worry!"

"Yep."

"Ah, I'm a little curious." Zi Chen seemed to remember something, "Didn't Siqing talk to you alone for a long time later? Is there anything important?"

"Oh this, she just felt incredible for me to dream of her. I checked the details of the dream for a while. Then I chatted with her for a while about her paintings... After all, I am also very surprised. Do you like this stuff."

"Wow! Fortunately, I also praised your reasoning ability, how I told you the cause and effect vividly, and in the end you told her that you can see it in your dream!" Zi Chen looked flat. The ball was spread out on the seat, "Hey! I wasted my brain to blow you!"

"Hey, it's okay, Siqing won't say it." After all, there are too many secrets involved, and in order to talk to her about Fang Zhihua, I must be honest with each other, "I have nothing to do with her, it's okay. I guess no one believed it."

"Yes too!"

"And it's not worth blowing in my dream? I also racked my brains to get these violations right!"

"You can't blow, you can't blow! How can you blow, just to praise! Hey, Xiao An, you are awesome~"

"Hmm, that's pretty much the same." Of course, thanks to the magician classmate who gave me the direction to think.

The sky was getting dark, and I watched the houses and rice fields outside the window retreat quickly, and the lights came on, only light yellow bands of light were drawn in my eyes.

Of course, I can't really tell Zichen about the conversation between Siqing and me. After all, besides protecting Zichen's secret, I also have to protect Siqing.

That night, I once again dreamed of the sisters Siqing Sili.Under the peach blossom tree where Ayton blooms most vigorously, Silly smiles and smiles brilliantly, as depicted in her paintings.The breeze passed by, the air was filled with a faint and elegant fragrance, white peach blossoms fell, falling on Silly's hair, shoulders, bag...

"Sili!" Siqing rushed enthusiastically from a distance, raising her arms and waving towards Sili.The messenger backpack also hopped rhythmically with her running.

"Sister~" Sili turned her head under the peach blossom tree and smiled sweetly at the rushing Siqing, her eyes full of joy.

Siqing rushed to Si Li, held her hand under the peach blossom tree, and the two walked into the teaching building together.

Of course, even if everything still seems very real, I know that this is not a factual dream that has really happened, maybe it's just my wishful thinking.

This is the first time their sisters have appeared in my dreams so close to the ground and alive, but this should also be the last time I have dreams about Ayton.

One is so short, but I so hope it is the only real dream.