Maybe I can't have normal youth

"Hey! I'm here." When it was time for self-study, I went to the round table as usual and jumped on the soft sofa.Bounce a few times on the sofa, enjoying the soft touch underneath.

"En? Where's Zi Chen?" I asked Huang Han. I remember that Zi Chen didn't schedule classes today.I looked around, but still didn't find Zi Chen escaped.What did that guy do?

"I just ran to chat with someone." Huang Han closed the book and replied casually: "It seems that... who is here? Anyway, it was with our military training."

"Hahahaha, it turns out that you can't remember your names just like me! But I remembered the names of both of you all at once, depending on how well we are together!" I gently touched Huang Han with my elbow.

"Hey, it's okay, I'll always remember if I need it in the future." Huang Han replied with a gentle smile, fluffing his hair.

"Yes, you finally finished reading," I pointed to the book that Huang Han had closed, and moved my head over, "Let me see what book it is?"

"My God...Walden Lake!" This book I left on the shelf in junior high school but I haven't been able to finish it so far, "Is this too Buddhist?"

"Huang Han." I slapped her right shoulder with one hand, and said earnestly: "You can't help making me wonder if you are the monk in the skin of a beautiful adolescent girl."

"Come on! This book is not as Buddhist as you think." Huang Han couldn't help but gave me a small white look, and his expression became richer.

"Oh? I remember that this book seems to be about the subject of retreat, right? Man and nature." I thoughtfully searched for the few memories of this book.

"That's right, but it also explores the meaning of personal existence, spiritual pursuits, and so on." Huang Han closed the book and introduced the content to me enthusiastically, although the content of the book still can't lift me too much. interest of.

"The meaning of personal existence... sounds so advanced." But the feeling is indeed the height that a masterpiece should have.

"But in fact, I just really like the tranquility it gives me. Sometimes I get up early, or arrive too early in some places. It's good to see if I calm down." Huang Han gently Stroking the book cover again, as if treating a lover as treasure.

"Do you know you arrived early?" I muttered in surprise.

"It's okay, it's not a big problem. But if I don't arrive early, I would be too uneasy."

"Well, you think it's good." In fact, it is just a harmless good habit to relax Huang Han's obsessive-compulsive habit.

"Xiao An."

"Yep?"

"What do you think? What is the meaning of human existence?" Huang Han stared at the four gilded characters of "Walden Lake" on the book cover, rubbing his fingers.

"Huh? Isn't it so sudden? What a serious topic." I was confused by this sudden reversal question.This topic has changed too fast, right?

"No, it's just finished reading...I can't help thinking under Thoreau's influence." Huang Han smiled apologetically at me.

"Well...what's the point? His...it's harder to say." As a freshman who just entered university, my purpose is to experience youth.How can you think about life so quickly?

"I feel I haven't really thought about such a question. Huang Han, what do you think?" I frankly said to Huang Han. After all, this kind of question is too profound, and it is understandable that I cannot answer for a while. .

"I feel almost the same as you, because I think we hardly think about such issues now. Many people are drifting along with the crowd and have a muddle-headed life. But once I think about it, I will fall into confusion and unreality." Huang Han's gaze looked out of the window, not like looking out of the window, his eyes seemed to float farther through the window.

"It's like... as if this is not a question we should think about.

"Yeah, the current unreality may come from our too little experience? Of course, it may also be that only when we are really calm can we think about these things, and we are now at a noisy age. "I took the book from Huang Han and looked at it carefully. It was not thick, but she read it for a long time.

"Or, is it replaced by what you want to do in the future? What are your goals? Will it be closer to the present?"

"Emm... It’s four years before graduation. I wonder if it’s a bit too early now! But it’s a good question, what do you think?" I decided to avoid this question. I’m still in this way. Counting the state of one step, it is terrible to plan carefully and think about your future goals.

"As you know, I have the bad problem of planning early."

"Eh~ I thought you just like to plan early for being late."

"In the beginning, it was correct. It was only for the appointment time and the like, but then the development expanded to many fields related to time, and it became early to plan for many things." Huang Han was right. This is also annoying.

"Isn't it good to plan early? Don't worry, it's not bad at all. What are your thoughts? Tell me? What about your future goals?" I curiously moved closer to Huang Han.

"Well, maybe it's just like ordinary people, taking postgraduate exams, looking for jobs, etc." Huang Han thought for a while and seemed a little uncertain about his goals.

"Eh~Is that so?" It sounds really ordinary, but I haven't even thought about such an ordinary future path.

"I think I may need more time to think carefully, if I want to find the most true answer in my heart." I added and began to fall into silence.

It is not my turn to develop in the direction that I like, and to strive for such a universal goal in my favorite field in the future.Because now I haven't even found what I really love.

"I'm back, yo Xiaoan, you are here." Zi Chen's oval face appeared on the side of the sofa, and the small body injected a more energetic atmosphere into the air as soon as he walked into the round table. "I just met Wang Yichuan. Chat with him for a while."

Wang Yichuan...It seems that it is indeed our military training group. A human face appeared in my mind, but I don't know if it really corresponds to the name.

"We talked about clubs and the like, he wanted to see if I had any good suggestions for him. Hey, I can't take care of myself!" Zi Chen slumped on the soft sofa, exhausted and didn't want to move. The appearance of salted fish.

About the club?I also have this purpose today.

"Then what do you say? Why are you so overwhelmed?" I grabbed the last sentence of Zi Chen and asked.

"I just don't have any good opinions! I'm not sure about it myself. After all, music clubs and skateboard clubs have invited me to join, and I have also received some other literary clubs, street dance clubs, etc. Too many I have been blinded!" Zi Chen said rather annoyed.

This development was completely within my expectations, and I will no longer be surprised by the popularity of Zi Chen!

"I received an invitation from the Reasoning Club and the Flying Chess Club." I drew two invitation letters from the bag and dazzled.

"Oh, it's over! It seems that your koi's physique is exposed! You can't cover it!" Zi Chen exaggerated yelling, his face was full of sly.

"Hahaha, don't laugh at me, look at your own! What about Huang Han? What do you think?" I looked at Huang Han and was very curious about her choice.

"I also received an invitation from a skateboard club, but I don't really want to go, and it doesn't really matter, right? Just don't participate in the club." Huang Han's tone was flat, and he seemed not interested in this invitation.

"Huh?! But I think it's better to participate! Otherwise, I won't have any activities when I'm bored in the future!" Zi Chen sat up from the sofa and said seriously.

"What do you think, Zichen? Which one do you pick?" Huang Han responded to her.

"I'm really entangled. I'm afraid that if I choose one or two of them, other clubs will be unhappy if they invite my seniors..." Zi Chen's two eyebrows are about to be tangled together. Embarrassed.

"It won't happen, you don't have to think too much." I immediately denied her doubts.I believe that even if Zi Chen rejects all of them, those seniors will come to ask again every year when they recruit new recruits.

"But I will still be very worried, so I will agree if I want to..."

"Puff—" Did I hear that right?All promised?

"I think you want to exhaust yourself." I vetoed Zi Chen, "It's better not to go at all."

"But it will be very boring in the future... Wait, I know it's not that simple by looking at your smile. Come on, Xiaoan, you must have not finished talking."

Ah, did I show a strange smile unknowingly?

I quickly touched my face: "Ahem, I do have a small idea..."

"And I didn't make a temporary intention. This idea has been in my mind for several days. I have also done some research these days to evaluate the feasibility of the idea."

"I'll just talk! I've seen you hum~ Say it quickly, don't sell it!" Zi Chen came and stared at me with interest, which meant that I would not let me go without saying.

I took out a piece of paper from my bag and shook it in front of Zi Chen and Huang Han's eyes.

"I think the three of us should set up a society by ourselves!"

"What? Wow! Xiao An, you are a big move! I am not ready at all." Zi Chen seemed to be completely shocked.

"I don't have any opinion. Anyway, I feel that it's the same everywhere. It's better to start one yourself." Huang Han agreed immediately, which I didn't expect at all, "But what club do you want to start?"

"Yes, Xiaoan, our school already has many clubs. What weird thing do you want to do?" Zi Chen grabbed my arm and wanted to look at the piece of paper.

"Well, I might disappoint you. I want to create a very traditional society." I pretended to smile mysteriously, and vigorously teased the curiosity of the other two.

"What's that?" Zi Chen tilted his head.

After all, for a school that has been around for a hundred years, how can there be traditional associations that have not been established?

"I have checked it carefully, and I am sure that our school does not currently have this club." I pointed to the piece of paper I just took out, which is the information integration of all clubs.

"So, I want to set up a drama club." Actually, I just wanted to learn about the drama club of our school because of Zi Chen's dream.As a result, I was shocked. I didn't expect Haichuan University to have this club at all.

"Huh?" Zi Chen was stunned when he heard it, and cast a questioning look at me.

"Perhaps it was because of a friend of mine in the beginning, but in fact, I thought it was a very interesting thing in itself." I responded to Zi Chen's eyes.

Moreover, Zichen High School participated in the drama club, which shows that she herself is interested in it.It's a pity that it didn't matter in the end. I also hope that if it can be re-established here, it can help her reduce some regrets.

"Well, I have to think about it again."

"Zi Chen, in this way, you can refuse all invitations with good reason. And Huang Han agrees." I tried to persuade her.

"Well, I really don't have any comments." Huang Han nodded following my words.

"So if you agree, it's okay!"

"Wow! Don't tempt me! I think I really need some time to think again." Zi Chen frowned and said in distress.I don't know if this temptation is too big for her or because of some concerns about the Siqing incident.

"Okay, the deadline for applying for new clubs in Haichuan University for each semester is one month, and you have three days to think about it." I took care of the paper and smiled.