My Alleged Husband

Many times, doubt can stir the deepest subconscious within a person, leading them to question even their closest ones.

"Indeed, you’ve become very mature now, and precisely because you’ve become so mature, it makes me afraid. Why, why have you become so mature? If you hadn’t matured, how could I lose all my chances? But in your heart, there’s never been a place for me. I truly don’t understand. Am I really that inadequate in your heart? Why can I never reach the depths of your heart? I really want to open your heart and see if there’s truly a place for me, but I can’t. I want you to live a happy life, not have your lifetime of happiness and bliss ruined by my presence!"

Zhihan, promise me that no matter what, you must live a happy life. Regardless of what difficulties you encounter, at least let me know. If you consider me a friend, don’t stand on ceremony with me. If you need my help, I will do my utmost to assist you. If one day you truly end up with him, don’t forget there’s someone always standing behind, waiting silently for you. Although this relationship failed, I can’t immediately find another girl to live with. I’m not that kind of fickle man; I’m consistent in my feelings. Since I’ve chosen you, I will certainly be with you properly. Please don’t reject me.

I don’t know if your marital relationship has always been good; maybe it’s because of my interference that it became like this. I sincerely apologize to you for this matter. I didn’t intentionally want to ruin your relationship. I genuinely couldn’t control my own thoughts. I just wanted to embrace the woman I love most, but ultimately, this is the result—causing conflicts between you and your spouse for so long. This is my fault, and I sincerely apologize to you both, hoping you can forgive me."

"Chen Gang, don’t say that. Ultimately, this isn’t just your fault. I made mistakes too. I shouldn’t have doubted you, shouldn’t have used this way to hurt you. This must be the deepest pain for you. Having the girl you love right in front of you but unable to embrace her must have made your heart feel defeated. But I can’t; I can’t violate my own principles. Since I’ve chosen to live with my husband forever, this lifetime can only have him as my man; I absolutely can’t have entanglements with another man."

You shouldn’t apologize to me. The one who truly should apologize is indeed me. It’s my fault for making you wait so bitterly for so many years, while I remained oblivious, unaware you were waiting for me. I’m sorry for not being able to give you complete love, not being able to give you a complete family. It’s my mistake, causing you to waste so many years of youth. People say a woman’s youth is precious, but isn’t man’s youth equally precious? Because of me, you’ve devoted all your youth. Don’t waste all your time waiting for me. Live well, plan well for your future days, strive for your achievements, find your destined woman who’ll stay by your side for life. Also, I hope she can lend you a hand in your career. Thank you..."

Zhang Yichen suddenly heard Chen Gang say to him that he wants to give up his inner feelings. Why does he suddenly feel reluctant to let him give up? She always felt that someone here being her wife is quite good, so he can always have things to do and can argue with someone every day just to prove who loves his wife more.

"Are you really planning to give up now? You are truly willing to withdraw, willing to never again disturb the life between me and my wife for the rest of your life. Do you really feel you can let go? She is such a perfect girl. After knowing her for so many years, do you feel you can truly let her go?"

"What does it matter if I can let go or not? I remember your wife said something to me, ’If it’s meant to be, it will be; if not, it won’t be.’ How many beauties are there in the world? Don’t act like a fool, trying to force things.

You should be well aware of what this means, right? Since she has already said so, what can I do? I’m powerless.

I’ve never felt so defeated in this life. I’ve always acquired what I wanted, but this time, I finally understand there are things I can’t have, like your wife, the girl I love most. Even though I’ve given everything, she still won’t live with me. I know I’ve already lost to you in this regard because the girl I love won’t be with me, but do you know how much I wish time could rewind, go back to a few years ago? At that time, if I had sincerely expressed my feelings to her, would this tragedy today have been avoided?

Sometimes, I don’t know whether to hate you or thank you. I feel like your appearance caused me to lose my most beloved girl. But looking at it another way, you’ve taken such good care of her, showing such meticulous attention that deeply moves me. My heart is conflicted because I don’t know what attitude to take toward you. I don’t know how to describe this attitude. But you know what? I just hope you treat her well. Don’t hurt her kind heart, for she can’t endure such pain."

"Of course, I know how to cherish my wife. I don’t need an outsider to teach me. Remember, you’ve already admitted you lost everything, lost the qualifications. Even if there’s something you want in the future, you can tell me. But you can’t come for my wife because I’ll completely sever ties between her and you. I won’t let you two have any chance to meet again.

However, thank you. Although we have quarrels because of your appearance, I must admit that through your presence, I realize how much my wife cares about me and our family. As long as you can leave here peacefully and go back to where you rightfully belong, I will certainly treat her well, and I won’t disappoint you. For no matter what, despite her intelligence, she’s still my wife, and how can I bear to see her distraught, right?"

Chen Gang smiled. Since he has already lost, lost so thoroughly, why further force himself? It’s time to leave happily and without worries.

Thinking back to when you made me angry, I really miss those times! Unfortunately, you’re no longer here...

Ultimately, happiness is something you give yourself.